Gillian is tired...

Well, My ex-boss... yeah.. the one at the law firm has kindly asked me if I can lend him a hend since I'm free now... Gillian shall be mean this time round... Gillian shall learn how to say no. Much as I like to earn the money, I dun wanna make myself feel obliged to work for him just because 'he asked me' It's just not worth it... From 'for a while', it may stretch to weeks, months...

Not to mention, I'm trying to do a million and one things this hols.. looks like earning moolah has to take a backseat...

Anyway, bought my tix for SOV... Was contemplating whether to go or not.. finally couldn't resist... anyone knows of any acapella concerts going on? I feel like watching one.. ;)

I'm tired...

Cycled again today... This time with the Group 1 ppl... It was fun! Poor Sharon had to blade all the way to SAFRA Tanah Merah CC which was quite a distance away...

According to a certain Mr Zheng, the official distance clocked today was about 15km... but it didn't feel that far AT THAT TIME... Now, my legs are kinda aching.. and I suddenly feel old... Hahaha...

I really ought to get a job.. but the way things are going, I think I'm just gonna bum my 4 mths away...

I felt like Joyce from TAR today.. went to cut my hair.. and no.. I didn't shave... but when the hairdresser first cut a bit, i could picture the scene when Joyce has her hair cut. *ouch!* For non-TAR fans... this was what happened.. the team who took this particular challenge could get to the pit stop immeditely. The challenge required the team to shave both their heads.. And Joyce did it!!! I'm kinda still in awe... cause her hair wasn't that short! To bravely shave her head bald was just... indescribable...

And no... I didn't meet any cute guy and I didn't fall in love with anyone I noe... =)

Reasons why my mum dun let me go Tioman

She thinks...

1. I'm not a good swimmer

2. I'll drown

3. There may be a tsunami... *eurgh!* --> Psychology: Availability Heuristics!

4. The boat may capsize

5. I cannot snorkel and I cannot learn how to...

5. I may endanger my life

7. I should not be too ambitious...

8. I cannot take care of myself...

Basically, she'll worry non stop if I go and I should not do things that will make her worried... she's trying to be protective of me... I know she loves me and I love her too... but sometimes... this gets kinda annoying... Wait and see lor... if not you all can go and take loads of photos and super-impose my face on them...

I really should go cut my hair... but I was too absorbed with surfing the web...

Have to make a phonecall... which i dun really enjoy... Sometimes, I prefer indirect forms of communication... Maybe I just don't want to make a fool of myself... Actually I think I'm thinking too much... =)

If 2 people have feelings for each other, yet no one acts, is it all over? I think I have high expectations...

Random thoughts on a Thursday afternoon...

Lalala... Holidays are nice.. and fun... and enjoyable... and it's making me broke...

Hahaha... Trudged to school 3 hours before the talk this morning.. Made me realised how long I haven't walked up the hill.. Ya... I know I'm a spoilt lil girl... but wells... anyway, the walk didn't seem that bad, nor that long... No rush, no cars... Just me soaking in the sights...

I'll miss the old campus...

SIgh... my mum dun let me go tioman... how???

Updates, Updates, Updates... (3 posts full...)

Hahaha... Freedom never felt so sweet... and surreal...

Went back to school today (yes! the first day of the hols) for some talk by a visiting Prof... I think these talks are interesting. I learn new stuff and latest development. And the thing is you'll see the profs talking among themselves, arguing different ideas... at the same time, u see other students, asking rather intelligent questions...

I stop and wonder... is this what I want to do? I often take what is being said, and as long as I understand it, I won't really go and ask about it... When I see people doing it, I wonder if it is me or them... Maybe I'm suffering from a bad bout of contingent self-esteem whereby I feel that I need to verify and prove to myself how good I am... Makes me wonder if this is the path I want to go... But I understood the talk... what the concepts were all about and what was being said... I should learn to examine thinge more critically...

Went to catch 'Be Cool' after that... show was fine... Liked the songs in the show... Uma Thurman has freaking long legs... she looked old with wrinkles and stuff... but still attractive...

Crap... I dun like to run in and out of my room just because my mum can't figure out how to add music to some show she is doing of the photos from her China trip... Yeah.. she has a fascination that she would burn all the photos into a VCD that we can all watch at home... like a slide show except that it is on TV... And I haven't even seen the photos since like 3 weeks ago...

The casino has been approved... HUGE, MEGA BIG surprise... Bah! Blogged too much for tonight... shall not go into my thoughts...

Anyway, another pissi-fying thing was the NKF show... I hate it because...

1) The hosts/artistes all take out their phone and try and coerce people in the studio to all call together. I know it worked in a show quite long ago... but this things loses it novelty when you overused it... and having it in ALMOST EVERY segment DOES NOT MAKE IT EFFECTIVE!

2) I don't dig death-defying stunts.. Does Jeff Wang wanna get permanent brain damage from smashing his skull through 2 wooden planks??? And what's with the height thing? I seriously don't get the 'Save Kym Ng' ploy... Lame actions, maybe it would work on an episode of Fear Factor... Perhaps if they had a storyline to go with it.. instead of a stunts thingee, it would be more palatable.

3) I detests it when the hosts keeps on yabbering when the artistes are performing difficult stunts... Can't they just SHUT THEIR TRAPS and let the artistes concentrate??? It's liek an irritating fly buzzing in the background. I find it bloody irritating when they go on and on about how dangerous it is and how you should call... Yeah.. I dun see a correlation! In fact, I think it may even compromise on safety standards as it causes concentration lapses.

4) What's with keeping the artistes hanging upside down for a longer period of time just to get more calls in? Who's gonna be freaking responsible if sth should happen. You could see veins popping out of their forehead and that Timothy Cao was still going like 'Let's keep them hanging longer so that more calls will come in.' If he likes it so much, he can hang there himself then...

5) I don't like NATO hosts... can anyone tell me whether Timothy Cao has done stunts to raise money. He just talks and talks and talks... going on and on abt how much the artistes are suffering, prolonging their suffering...

6) I dun like Timothy Cao (as if it was not evident from the above 2 points). He came up with the 'brilliant' idea to have the local celebs plea and beg for 'One More Call Please' just so that they can hit one million calls. I think that was a stupid move and they looks spastic...

7) I don't really fancy hearing a sob story on someone who is struck with kidney failure hen having my dinner because it makes me feel quesy... I know they are playing on pathos... but maybe if they show it later... or sth...

8) The show gets dragged on with the hosts repeating their lines just to hit the desperate mark of 1 million calls. Couldn't they get Celest Chong to sing a song from her album or prepare another small segment instead of just standing there and begging? The number of calls will hit 1 million. It just depends on what time the show ends! Actually I think if Zoe Tay had bothered to drive down to caldecott Hill and made a 'surprise' appearance, the calls may go up...

I seriously believe that if Mark Lee and Gurmit Singh had a longer segment, they would have raised more money... I enjoyed they segment the most... cause it was simple and entertaining.

The musical 'fountain' thing was nice too...

I'm not saying we should not donate.. it is just that some of their actions are nauseating... I understand they need money to sustain operations and for giving kidney patients a subsidy and stuff... Having had a lot of calls last week, they should expect that there would be less this week... and after a while, the stunts are stale... nth really fazes the audience anymore and I don't think making it more dangerous would help.

Where are all the local singers? All stuck in Taiwan? Shouldn't they do a part for this show?

Can't believe I missed Kate and Leopold because of that... Sigheth.. I believe I would feel happier if I had watched it!

Sunday was spent lazing around... Backing up files so I could load in SP 2... Visited the library to deposit the books I borrowed for my democracy paper 6 weeks ago.. I renewed them.. Don't worry... And borrowed a few books in the process...

One was on abstract art and impossible figures... Like the picture that looks like a lady and an old woman from different perspectives... Trying to read Emotional Intelligence by Daniel Goleman now... I see a shift in my reading habits...

Anyway, 2 significant things to blog about...

First was the big hooha some PSC scholar created when he apparently made some rascist remarks on his blog. *blinking of warning lights... a blog is dangerous* Someone was actually free enough to bother to crack his password to access his blog *yes.. he locked it!* and posted the content of his blog on forums. Perhaps he came under fire because he was a scholar... People just have a thing when it has to do with taxpayers money... Shouldn't a blog be a place where you can leave your thoughts? I would even go as far as to say that perhaps his comments were quoted out of context. So what happens? His scholarship is under review and if it gets withdrawn... there goes the future of one young man. I'm not condoning racism here... but to blow up a matter like that... ridiculous!

Yes.. I concur that you have to be responsible for what you post... But to go to the extent to get to his blog... I think it just stinks of sabotage... Yeah... another of my wild theories...

Shall dedicate another post to the other significant event... NKF Charity Show...

Watch Amelie just now... a simple, feel-good show... quite nice for unwinding after the last paper... sweet... depicting the life of dreamers... and an interesting twist!

Ate a WHOLE slice of cheesecake just now... *guilty* should really curb my sweet tooth. I shall go running soon... but now for the wonderful picnics tomorrow!!!

Sitting in front of my laptop has never felt so good, so relaxing... =) Like no worries in the world, no need to flip textbooks, write notes...

This week has been fine on the whole... nothing drastic and bad happened (thankfully) as in the papers were all do-able! *claps in glee*

Got back my demo paper which I slogged till 5 am 2 week ago... Got a B+. Eh... For something I didn't proof read, I'm kinda ok with it... But then, something makes me wish I had started on it earlier. But one can never be truly satisfied where grades are concerned I guess... Always wishing you had done certain things different after you received comments for it.

Looking back, this past 2 terms (i refuse to call it a year!) has just whizzed by... I can't believe I'm a quarter way done with my university education. If things are gonna be like that, I think uni life is too short... I know I bitch and whine and get all stressed up... but it is all bitter sweet. Like dark chocolate! When you look back, I just remember the happy times I spend crapping, laughing with the 'wonderful people' (do i sound like Kirpal?) from group 1, social science people... Those whom I've been doing projects with...

Now that yr 1 has come to a close, it is time to do things that I've been putting on hold for way too long... Enjoy your hols people... and shout out to all: let's find a day to meet up kaez...

Oh... all the best to NUS and NTU ppl!!! happy mugging for exams!!! Good Luck!

Gillian hasn't been studying today... Bad girl! One more paper...

Can't seem to concentrate.. My mind has been wondering the whole day... bah!!! And I can't heck this exam!!! On top of that, it is not open book! Argh!!! My brain just refuses to cram stuff in. Been staring at the 'list of possible questions' for the whole afternoon already and it is just half done... *wails...*

I will persevere... Luckily it is an afternoon paper... I just hope I know enough to go in and do the paper and get something out of it... Oh all modules, I like this one the best... and I really hope I don't screw it up... (ya... i'm so capable of it)

Maybe it is because it is the last paper... I usually lose my motivation to study... but I haven't been studying a lot... Bah!!! Maybe I should stop typing more stuff for this entry and go back to the window that says 'Microsoft Word'.

I just learnt how to break up with someone... =)

And with that, I've finished all the chapters tt's gonna be tested for social psych tmr... or so I think...

This week just seem to fly by... which I guess is quite a good thing... Now to either

a) Get a job or
b) Get involved in a Community Service Project

I don't think I can do both... not a full time job anyway... but I really wanna clear the 80 hours of comm service soon (I have 50 left)... but at the same time, I wanna go work too...

Decisions will be made soon... I think I should return to my book...

Joke of the day... super lame...

Imagine a guy name Luke Warm... Here's how he goes introducing himself...

Luke: Hi, I'm Warm, Luke Warm.

So one day... he got an interesting reply...

Reply: I'm Cold, Very Cold...

Ok.. I bet u readers are feeling cold too... ahahahaha... Feeling looney after democracy paper lar... but hmmm.. not as bad as expected... hahaha...

2 more days... one more paper...

I'm feeling jaded... like super tired and immuned to stuff... Just taking one day at a time... On hindsight... maybe I'm burnt out (ya right.. when I haven't been doing a lot...)

I only seem hardworking because I haven't been working throughout the term.. make sense???

But I do feel productive today.. and I realise I know some stuff about democracy! Yay! But.. my brain feels full and empty at the same time... It's been a long time since I can say I finished studying anything.. usually, I burn the midnight oil, speed read thru notes again the next morning or minutes before the exams...

Today... I'm walking away from my notes and readings...

Maybe it is the uncertainty of what is going to come out... No point speculating, no point guessing...

All the best for whatever exams left...

Quote of the day: "Democracy will be easy because I SAY SO!!!"

Hmmm... While half the SMU worlds is having their MA paper in school today, I'm up and wake bright and cheery in the morning -not! Eh.. awake but not cheery...

Notes strewn over the table... Readings all half-highlighted...

Democracy... I slay thee!!!

This marks 33 since hours since I've last touched my computer. Gillian was a good girl yesterday. She did not on her laptop, did not go online and chat... did some work and actually managed to break the 'trend' of sleeping at weird hours (read: 5am). Slept early but at a price.

Oh.. and I even managed to squeeze in watching a bit of White Chicks her eand there while reading the papers this morning... The show was spastic-ally hilarious! And very SICK!!! But then it was a good laugh...

Not freaking out yet.. which is good... I realise I like to change my style of mugging just before the exams becasue I invariably run out of time to write notes... So now it is just highlighting, reading and more reading... Ahahaha...

My social psych books seems endless... I'm drowning under piles of demo readings... and I'm gonna mug AS today...

Since I'm well-rested... it's battle time...

I really shouldn't study in a group. I wasn't productive both yesterday and today.. and I'm sorryif my presence distracted the rest of you who were studying in 37 today...

Am tired... shall nap soon... Meanwhile, my computer is taking eons to scan for virus!

Good luck to everyone with exams looming! after that, it is play time! and I will learn driving! *promise*

Still mugging... it's 335...

Anyway, part of a lil break, I just checked out the vc forum (vc - victoria chorale). I suddenly feel this urge to sing again. (no.. not ktv crooning, but choir-style acapella, SATB singing).

In Song 2005, which is VC's concert. I see people I know performing, I see juniors performing.

Deep inside, I knew I was the one who made the decision to give up choir. I didn't think I was that good, didn't think I could commit. But I do miss it. I did go for carolling but it is nothing like the hardcore practices I went through, the excitement of preparing for a concert, memorising songs, standing in quartet position, even polishing choreography. The jittery feeling before I go on stage, squinting at the blinding stage lights, watch the conductor... 1... 2... 3... and we start, in harmony, trying to convey the message of the song, dynamics, feelings. The level of commitment, your zeal and passion driving you to want to do more, do better.

I'm rather emotionally charged now. I had a good 6 years singing with choirs and these are things you will never understand until you've been there. I remember the countless times I whined and complained... but... I'm still attached to it - very.

Now, everything seems so far away. I do harbour hopes of singing in a choir again, but as time passes, this dream just seems increasingly improbable.

Perhaps... it's just time to move on...

Hmmm.. studying makes one into a compulsive blogger. Seen many people updating their blogs.

I dun like to watch any NKF or to that effect, any govt sponsered shows... They are so propagandish. and NKF has such a freaking sad storyline. Caught tonight's episode... Everyone falls sick, everyone relies on NKF medical funds... -> Thus, we must donate. If we donate, we win prizes... and we have to pay $0.40 for telephone charges. If 600,000 calls were made, that is $24,000 for telephone charges. Interesting.

I'm not saying one should not donte.. but enough is ENOUGH!!! Bah!!! From $2 a call in the past, to $5 or $8, dangling juicy carrots in front of you with all their prizes thingee. This is so not altruistic!

Applying social psychology
According to Social Exchange Theory, one would help to alleviate the distress one feels one seeing sth happens. Thus, while watching celebrities perform heart-stopping, gravity-defying, death-heading stunts, one would feel uneasy that they are doing so much and would thus call.

The solution: Don't watch such programmes!

I watch a lot of HK shows... so I know for a fact that HK has a lot of charity show every year too... How do they get their donations? Singers perform or perform simple stunts or skits to get donations. Their ministers or some influential business people go up on stage to present those large cheques with huge amount of donations.

How come we dun see that happening here?
Oh ya... Singaporeans are humble people who would donate annonymously.

What's wrong with a singing and dancing programme?
That has been done! But the last time they tried, Taufik and Sly din pull in a lot of donations.

What about other singers?
Oh wait.. Singapore don't have that many singers and entertainers that can draw in the donations... I forgot... oh..

Actually I think they can consider a stand up comedy... I think it would be interesting...
Right.. we dun have that many comedians around too... cause the art scene is quite pathetic and they are struggling to survive (based on what has been in Life these few days)

And so.. it is back to death-defying stunts that will compell viewers to donate and the newspaper will have a field day the next day trying to compare which celebrity chalked up the most donations.

Eh.. Nice Translation...

OK.. I'm so not studying!!! Anyway, thought this may be kinda funny.

For those who are not well versed in Chinese, the translated version of the words in Chinese is 'At KFC, we are right to be prostitutes'.


Got the above from mrbrown (via Jay-walk via Lancerlord)

Pedro De La Rosa - Spanish Test Driver for McLaren-Mercedes team of Formula One

I'm a sports fanatic. No!!! I don't do sports, except for some swimming and cycling. Ok... Fine... I'm a couch-potato sports fanatic *throws up hands in despair*

Anyway, was enthralled by the above guy on Sunday. He was chosen to race on the Bahrain Grand Prix as the team's 1st choice driver, Montoya was injured while playing tennis. Anyway, this guy really takes risks man... He was doing some dangerous manuevring and over-taking which does not occur very often during races nowadays. And one of the reasons I sometimes spend 2 hours watching these super fast cars (read:200km/h?) go 65 times round a track is because you can taste the thrill of the speed and excitement when cars overtake.

But I bet I won't see him racing again unless one of the 2 McLaren-Mercedes' drivers, Juan Pablo Montoya and Kimi Raikkonen is injured or sth. Oh... can I say sth.. Kimi is quite hot too!!! He has very nice eyes!!!

Kimi Raikkonen - I like his blue eyes!

Random Musings:

Why does the Life section like to publish reviews of concerts, plays AFTER the freaking thing is over... I feel like they are making a dig at poeple who didn't go watch it if it is good. Like what's the point of saying 'It was a good concert, the performers were magnificent" and after the reader's interest has been piqued, you realise it is a one-off performance or the play has ended its run or sth...

Totally useless...

P1: If I have things to blog about, then I will blog
P2: I did not blog
C > I have nothing to talk about...

AS in the middle of nowhere.. I do say I think it is valid!!!

*and my white chocolate coated strawberry doesn't appear!!!*
Edited at 6.12 pm... it does appear!!! looks yummilicious!

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been rotting for the past one and a half hours... Studied 1 chapter of demo.. .and I stopped because I dunno wads going on for the next!!!

got trashed in minesweeper flags... Bah! The game just doesn't like me!!!

I really should shut off my laptop and concentrate but I'm hungry and I'm waiting for my dad to pick me from school

I'm freezing in the library

I met my junior today when she came for her interview. Hope she gets in!

I will return to mugging...

Spent some time reading through my archives... if there's one thing that hasn't changed, it is my atrocious typing... yeah.. i spot al ot of typos here and there.. so ya.. Siyi.. go ahead and diss me! Bah!

Time just flies... I blogged about SYF finals, about my SMU interview, bitched about my lousy job @ the law firm... and well, basicallly just me with a lot of whining... and in the past, my posts were peppered with quizzes I took... now.. just words...

Tired.. shall sleep... Happy mugging tmr... Night world...

One glorious day of the study break gone!!! Good luck Jill!!!

The long long list of chapters to study looks daunting... like super, very, extremely daunting...

Shall drag myself off to sch tmr and hopefully I'll be able to study better...

Am tempted to post up my long list of to-dos. But i figured I'll just stress everyone (read: SMU peeps) out... It is a freaking 1 page long list!!!

Been hanging loose... like real loose... and I like it... =)

Anywya, just like to share a thought:

Been reading a lot about the euthanesia case... commentary, news and stuff... Basically, what happpened was this lady, Terri Schiavo had been in a coma for 14 years... surviving on a feeding tube... yup.. no life support machine... just a tube that makes sure all the food goes to her, but oblivious to her surroundings.

About 2 weeks ago, her husband decided to pull the tube... and faced resistance from her parents. Ugly accusations rang out. Him , accused of trying to keep the money she left for himself and perhaps just get on with life, judging from the fact that he had a live-in lover and stuff... and her parents, being accused of trying to wrest part of her inheritance from him.

A few days ago.. this lady passed away... but not before her case was actually tries in court...

The point of this... I was just wondering... to die from starvation? I mean granted that if you are in a coma and can't feel anything, to die from starvation is definitely not the best way to die for me... I guess unless you are in their position, you won't ever know the full story...

But euthanesia... sth good or bad? If one had the choice, one would definitely choose to live.. but what if the odds are stacked so high against you that there is no alternative? Do we get a loved one to pull the plug? Would they do it? Conversely, what if one has a strong will to live? Would giving up on that person be unfair? Circumstances, Consequences, all differ with time..

Then.. what about the thousands of lives lost in the earthquake? A case of being in the wrong place at the wrong time? Why does it seem that natural disasters often occur in developing countries? I see it as making matters worse and money will be pumped into rescue effort, restoration processes and crippling their already crippled economy. Yes... you get foreign aid... that fuels corruption and for some, make the country even more debt-ridden than before.

Depressing thoughts, but these are the things that are happening all around us today... Maybe one should just take things easy... For you'll never know what will happen...

As the chinese saying goes, 生老病死 (birth, age, illness, death) these are the 4 stages that people have to undergo in life...

I just squashed a cockroach which scurried under my jeans (yes!!! *Sobz*) under eh... 1 term of Intro to Psychology notes... Yeah.. Kinda just smashed the file on the poor 'lil yucky thing with my sister jumping on it for good measure... Well.. my jeans was spared.. but the file was smeared with cockroach juice... like white goo-ey stuff... (hope you readers aren't eating when reading this). And *ahem* well, I screamed... or screeched.. as usual... and those who have heard it can testify that my scream isn't really sth that you wanna hear at 2 am at night..

What am I doing up so late? Eh... I was and am still baking cookies... Mwahahaha.. my sister just had this impulse to bake and I was like 'ok lor'. Hmmmm.. but seriously, one shouldn't pick up baking.. you see what are the things that go in.. Thick big slabs of butter, like 230g or sugar which is A LOT!!! Ok.. I cut it down to 170... but it is still one big chunk!

Sneaked away to blog about my 'cockroach scare'. Need to check on my 2nd last batch of cookie.. Yay!! Can sleep soon...

Sheesh.. 5 posts in 1 day... Compulsive blogger @ work.. no wonder I was late for AS this afternoon @ 12 and I'm so sure I'm gonna be late for my dinner appointment @ 730.. Toodles.. till maybe 11 tonight?

Try listening to Corrinne May. She's a local based in Canada and her songs are nice!!! Smooth vocals, soothing songs (yeah.. I know I'm a sucker for slow songs) but ya...

Try streaming her music from www.corrinnemay.com!

Ok.. enough of the depressing part.. Going for dinner soon... and I've just spent the afternoon playing games... I'm sort of addicted to thsoe 'walk-through games....

If you are interested, try looking for them at www.nordinho.com. They post up different games there. Basically, these games use flash or sth and you just have to click here and there to escape from rooms or find treasures of stuff like that.. Can be rather addictive.

I shall resolve to not be too stressed out.. I think it is just the cumulation of rushing so many things the past week... I need time to recuperate before we start again... I just wish I wasn't so consumed by grades...

Been thinking a lot and talking to people these 2 days... I feel as though I'm being eaten alive by the rat race... I think it is bad... but I really admit that I'm not just happy with a 'B' grade nowadays... Yeah.. overachiever.. I hear some of you mumble.. then again... over inflation of grades in SMU?

Very cynical view of myself and of life nowadays... I mean I like school and stuff.. but I get scared of myself whenever I try to set sky high expectations for myself- sth I never did until last year...

I need to get a grip of myself before I spiral out of control. It's like I think a lot.. yet at the same time, I dun work hard enough during term... I just panic and do last min work, hoping that sth good will come out of it and then I whine and worry and panic after that. Kinda ironic...

I just need to organise my thoughts.. Dun worry about me.. I'm fine.. I just need to get this off... If not I'll just keep thinking of it...

I've been doing so much work (papers, presentation) on my laptop the past week that I don't even know what to do when I don't have any work tonight.

Yesterday marked my last presentaton of the term.. I felt that it fell short of a lot of stuff. Shucks lar... It's like thoughts and images keep playing in my head and I can't help but kept thinking of ways that it could have been better. It's like walking away from sth that you know you can do much better.

Ok. I'm done feeling sorry and sad and regretful. Nothing I think, say or do will turn back time. So I shall not be too harsh on myself. Plus it is not only an individual effort... Speaking of which, I have given up 2 points for class participation for social psych class because I was too tired to do anything about it...

I'm not exactly feeling euphoric now though I've officially ended lessons (though I still have one more make up class in 45 min). I think it is cause I'm too tired... Actually... I think if we ended on a high note, I'll be happier...

Slept before 12 yesterday... That's like how freaking early... But at the same time... was slammed left and right by my sister for sleeping at 5 am.. She apparently thinks I'm nuts... and actually, I think so too...

To sum up: Yesterday was one of day of pros and cons. At then end, I'm feeling tired, yet happy but not satisfied..

Hmmm... now for some quiet time, recuperation, and then intensive mugging... 2 more weeks to the end of the term. I should pay a visit to the library soon.. I need to read books...

I'm supposed to be in sch in 45 mins.. I'm still sitting here blogging and hoping that my laptop battery doesn't run out before I finish... (6% left...)

So many thoughts to blog. I kinda feel immense freedom knowing that I still have 1 week to study...

Oh.. and Happy April Fools Day!!!

Today has been a mixed day... My body was on shutdown this morning.. couldn't wake up... so didn't manage to go to Far East Flora to get cheaper rose... Then ar.. took a freaking cab whereby the stupid driver thought SMU was SIM... Sigheth... so paid more for the cab than necessary... I had to tkae a cab cause I woke up late see... Mwahahaha...

But then got back my psych presentation score.. happy!!! good to see the recognition for pia-ing so hard for the presentation. Last presentation of the term later... Hmmmm... Hope it'll be good....

Lalala... I usually detest looking at 'Times New Roman' font but after looking at looking at it for 2 of my paper the whole of last night... I seem to be rather immune to it.. Was taking notes when I realise I haven't changed my fonts yet...

Mean exposure effect?

boogly eyed after doing the paper till 5... I'm sitting in class now after 3 hours of (barely there) sleep... 2 parts took 5 hours... After like 3 am, my mind was saturated and I was just typing and re-typing a sentence over and over again... Bah! Give me the strength to survive today...

Been cabbing a lot these 2 days... But I don't care... If I don't get enough sleep, I need to make it up to my body in other ways... Ok.. shall pay attention...

Super funny... the prof is asking a question.. and the class is just throwing out random answers. LIke no one can catch what he is asking probably because people don't pay attention?

couldn't resist sneaking in a post now... I;ve never felt so pressed for time, yet so relaxed at the same time... It's 12.24 am.. I have an 830am class tmr where I amd supposed to hand up a paper and I'm still halfway through it... Well done Gillian... I just hope I can pull it off like I said in the previous post. Afterall, it is all about democracy, sth which is equivelant to Greek in my opinion. Interesting no doubt but worried about the applications part...

Just finished my AS individual assignment.. Shucks.. i just can't seem to sit still in front of my laptop and do work.. I'll e doing other stuff.. but I would say it is a not bad piece of work (ok.. I'm just trying to console myself)

Anyway, I think it is time to morph back to democracy mode, Nigeria and Tunisia, here I come.. According to my essay outline, I technically have 2 more parts to write - economic development and description of situation in Tunisia. After that, I'm about done... MWahahaha... I'll keep you posted on the status..

Do I mention that I am currently chatting on MSN? oh bother...

The last week of school is unravelling... fast... and I still have a lot of stuff hot on my heels... AS individual assignment and democracy paper both due tmr.. both half done... BGS presentation on Thursday... thrashing out tmr after the submissions of my papers... A tight dateline but I'm sure I can do it... Just hope my papers sound decent enough to get me a decent grade...

I've been whining incessently about a certain project group I have... yet today, when I was meeting, I find that as long as you don't take things too personal, sometimes it can be fun too... Or at times, you can just choose to ignore certain elements.. instead of branding the group as a single entity... and have fun with the rest...

If others want to leave early, fine...
if others decide to come late, fine too...
If others sudddenly realise there is another meeting waiting... just ignore them...
Ditto for those who don't seem to be doing much...

Just work with those who are willing to work, crap with those who want to crap... and it'll be nice... I should learn not to bring my prejudices in for meetings... instead, leave them outside and you can always pick it up again after the meeting... Brilliant huh? So when I next whine about any project groups I have, kindly direct me back to this post...

Been trying to increase my threshold for staying awake... Because I just do too irrelavent things like reading a storybook 2 nights before my papers are due... And I seem to be succeeding... I should not to abuse my body.. but I do get a kick out of it. Looking forward to tmr so I can just go and collapse on my bed... Ditto to Thursday where I can 'celebrate' my last presentation of the term...

This term is ending soon... Doesn't feel like 13 weeks have passed... After this week, the next thing on my agenda - mugging... After that.. so many things to do...

1) Get a job
2) Learn driving
3) Hong Kong anyone?
4) Prepare for camps
5) Eh.. windsurfing
6) Slack
7) Slack
8) Slack

Dreams...

Nothing but... fleeting thoughts
Nothing but... manifestation of activities in the day
Nothing but... an imagination
Nothing but... the effects of an overworked mind
Nothing but... an escape
Nothing but... sweet...

Interesting... I still see ppl online at this weird hour. Seems like I'm not the only night owl here... The democracy paper is getting on track. But I kinda wish I could have started on it earlier.. There is just so much to explore.. so much to read... and I love getting lost in literature and words... (and it is definitely more interesting than when I did my research for Napster for Plural Perspectives). But it's doing great.. got my structure out, trying to fill in the blanks now... Constantly on a search engine...

Sigheth.. always too late for regrets... but I think the thing about social sciences is that it makes you ponder and think... Not just a straight in the face thing... But I'm really to stoned to think now...

There's still AS individual.. Darn!!! I shall squeeze time... Sometimes, it's like trying to squeeze water from a rock... If only I wasn't such a procrastinator...

Hmmm... had project meeting today... Felt that my group wasn't as bad as I portray them to be.. Mwahahaha... I mean the few hours spent with them was rather enjoyable... Pity is that we can't click.. I dunno.. it's just different.. You can tell that there is some sort of a 'invisible wall' between us... Not as straight forward.. it is more task oriented.. I think it is kinda a pity cause they are all nice ppl...

I think you won't know how much you can act like someone or realise how one's actions can be so reasonable until you reflect on it.. It's like I got pissed off by someone's attitude and actions at the last meeting.. but today, I caught myself doing sth which I felt was similar in nature.

What happened was that we were debating whether I should be presenting or not. I didn't exactly mind not presenting but at the same time, I was kinda reluctant to give it up. But my part wasn't important. More of like speaking for the sake of speaking. So we were just there stoning, and I was like 'What do you all think'... I mean I didn't tell them that I wanted to do it (since I wasn't that sure) but I didn't say that I don't want to do it either...

I should stop passing judgement on others so quickly... If not I'll feel bad when they turn out nicer than it seems...

Finally got started on my democracy paper.. I just hope I have enough space to squeeze everything I want inside... Should finish by tonight... (mwahahhaa... ie: 3 am or sth).

And I'm so proud of my video! (Did some tweaking after feedback in today's meeting) Yes! it has been in my last 2 entries.. but hey.. I toiled hard for it.. so I guess I earned the bragging rights! It's like when you've done sth great ,you just wanna show it to the whole world and bask in their compliments... Mwahahaha... I sound rather egoistic! This video is really a breakthrough for me... Have never attempted sth so complex? I mean the concept is simple and I'm really using an idiot proof programme... but I like the way everything gels together... searching for clips, creating my own clips... Mwahahaha... *beams with pride*!

At the same time, I sometimes wonder if it is worth it... I mean there is no difference between having a video and not having one. I mean those points can always be covered in the presentation. And I could have done it much simpler - just a slide show of pictures. Then again, I like experimenting with programmes. So I guess the video is not that important. Instead, it is what I have learnt from building it...

Oh ya... had a nice Good Friday... stuffed myself silly with food... and kinda slacked the whole day away... just talking, crapping. It's like relieving all the stress that have been building up the past few weeks. My friends never fail to brighten up my day and make me less cynical and feel less stress whenever I'm with them and after I've spent time with them.

And I learnt a lesson.. when your body suffers from a lack of sleep, do not expect it to respond on command... although I slept relatively early last night (at 1 cause i figured even if I have to wake up 10.30 am, I would get 10 hours of sleep which was a lot compared to 5 hrs...). But my brain decided to wake up only at 11.50am this morning... which rendered me late for my meeting in school at 12! I should learn not to torture my body so much... Which means earlier nights for me... which means I better start doing my democracy paper now...

Hmmm.. this entry is disjointed.. so many points in one entry... Whatever... I am always incoherent...

Gillian is on a high now and feeling accomplished!!! 2 nights spent building a video from scratch... I love Windows Movie maker (though it hung on me like 5 times tonight!) But it is finally done... Final product will be screened between 330 and 645 in Biz Lvl 1 CR 2 next thurs.. Stay tuned!!! I'm so proud of myself!!!

tomorrow will be a brand new and better day.. I WILL (must, die die also can) finish my democracy paper by tomorrow!!! and I'm so sure I can do it!!!

I have this uncanny thing for staying up late when I shouldn't... But the consequence of too much slacking is that work is piling up like crazy... and it's starting to take a toll on me... Doing 2 videos for my presentation next week... Still halfway thru the 1st one... Another thing is my democracy paper... been putting it off for way too long already.. I better get it done soon.. And there;s still AS individual Assignment... Yeah.. doesn't sound like a lot.. but when you meet a procrastinator like me, I can just rot one who day away or sth.. without feeling guilty... or I'll try to stay up and may end up unproductive...

Sheesh! It's 3.29 liaoz... I need to be in sch by *eeps!* 1015 tmr... Bah!!! Good Night world...

I'm feeling frustrated and overwhelmed... not exactly pissed.. just irritated... I see a cycle... I get stressed up when my datelines are approaching... when I have tons to do... Fine.. I'm a procrastinator...

I'm sick of trying to be the middleman for my project.. It sucks lar... 4 persons trying to edit the final draft of a report... Differing views and I dunno why but I'm chatting to the other 3 in 3 diff MSN windows... So I have a zillion copies of the final report with a few changes here and there in my laptop. And it really doesn't help tt there is sth wrong with my MSN... sometimes, I dun get the msg tt ppl try to send me... i dunno if there is any info lost or not... cause if u r chatting to a person, they dun go silent for like 10 mins or sth... What's wrong with my MSN??? We should have just met! Bah!

I usually don't post lyrics but I like this song...

童话 by 光良

忘了有多久, 再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久, 我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了什么

你哭着对我说, 童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂, 从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里, 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信, 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

我要变成童话里, 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信, 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

我会变成童话里, 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信, 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局

You can go listen to the song by searching www.baidu.com.

I think I set quite high expectations... especially if it is sth I am interested in... But I feel like I can get too strong headed when I don't get what I want or what I have in mind... and I feel guilty after that. Hmmm... At the same time, I refuse to compromise on what I feel would like add value. It can be sth as simple as the way the slides look or even the type of animation for instance. Yes... I do go into the details which has its pros and cons.

Oh well... just some after thoughts after a presentation today... I feel like I've came on a bit too strong to get it going.. Makes it a cause and effect thing... I appear to want things done my way because others have no opinion. When I have a direction, others are afraid to voice out and I end up doing things my way because others don't know what I have in mind exactly.

And the fact that it is nth major... just things like alignment and stuff... Sheesh.. I didn't know I'm such a detail freak. I mean I usually am the one who overlooks the details. I think I end up stressing myself too much over sth minor or going all out to correct it. I don't feel that it is necessarily a good thing cause other ppl in the grp may find that I don't trust them or want to claim credit or sth. Or maybe they just feel that they look bad. and i'm really sorry if I have evoked those feelings. It is not exactly about them, but more of me. But it is hard to communicate this idea across...

Because I know what I want, I impose my ideas on others. I mean I realise that when you are with people who are 随便 (in the sense they do not have a direction and would just go with the flow), one has to get the thing moving or it will just stop there... But when is doing a bit more too much? It's like a slippery slope argument - where is the boundary?

Overtime, I realise I judge people very quickly... be it good or bad... but if you prove yourself to me, I'll change my mind... and I would actually respect you for that. I admit sometimes, hastily judging someone would cause a lot of problems... Why this sudden thought? Well, changed my opinion of some people for a particular project... I like it when ppl at least try... compared to others where things don't go thru their thick skin...

MY MSN IS SCREWED!!!

Bah!!! It is selective what message I can send out and what message I can receive.
It disconnects me when I'm in the midst of chatting.
I can't reconnect after that.
If I can, the whole world appears offline thought i'm so sure there are people online.
Screwed!

HELP!!! Any way to cure it??? Or maybe it is my freaking internet connection... Fwah!!! It disconnects halfway when I'm using... Like weak signal. I got this nagging feeling that someone may be tapping it... But i dunno how to set password... My cable is not tt fast kaez.. plus it supports 2 desktops... and 1 laptop... and one of the desktop is like perpatually online playing DOTA or sth... (eh.. it's a game). Help!!!

I have a short fuse when I dun get enough sleep.. and I don't constitute 5 hours as enough... I got irritated by some parents at the open house who asked so much about admissions, trying to improve the kid's chance of getting that interview... Yeah.. she was that direct... I was thinking, if the kid already got the results, there is nth much that can be done!!! I so sure I can memorise the whole Bachelor of Social Science Curriculum lar... Everyone asks me that!!! I would rather talk about student life or sth lar... But I din get a lot of the 'What job prospects are there' questions... Hahaha... Oh.. I saw a guy who I think is my choir junior.. Eh.. I actually talked him and found him familiar but I just didn't recall anything about him... until another vj girl remembered him.

I'm super tired.. Imagine standing for eh.. 5 to 6 hours??? But there are also nice ppl to talk to... So it wasn't so bad I guess... I'm just whining... It's a memorable event... But holding it at Raffles city, I felt that there wasn't a chance to showcase the student life... More of an uppity affair... Looks very pro though... Hahaha...

Oh.. and I realise I can see my house from the 69th floor od Equinox! hahaha.. Ok.. cheap Thrill.. I admit.

Gillian's battery is running low.. Needs to recharge soon... But there's a million and 1 thing left.. May my presentation go well tmr... ;)

*note: Edited the frist para @ 2.40 liaoz...*

I don't know why I'm still awake at this hour... But this has set me thinking for these 2 days...

Went for a feedback session yesterday... I see a whole new host of opportunities for a Social Science graduate... going into research, working on a project basis with reknowned and prestigious institutions, applying into graduate school, going the academic path. Yet... I can't help but wonder, is this possible? I mean perhaps it has to do with the fact that I was brought up in a sheltered (and some may even say pampered) environment. Protective parents, I get what I want... I just wonder... are the above achievable? For a Singaporean? In addition, this is not a tried and tested route? Though I want to be adventurous... but the question is can I?

Can I leave behind everything and pursue a path which I'm sure would lead me overseas? I love the thought... And I was fine with it, and for a period of time, thinking that I'll just stay overseas to work after getting my masters... but now, we are looking at (possibly) a phD... a very far thought that I'm scared to entertain.

Also, there is a lot more at stake here... The life sounds good I admit... but there is more to life than the tangibles... Intangible stuff like relationships, kinships, friendships, warmth, family? can I just pluck myself here and lead a life of a travelling researcher for instance?

And again... would they consider students from Singapore?

From a dream to be a child psychologist, now I find myself open to other possibilities that sounds sppealing to me... and yet, seems so unachivable... Maybe it is good to take one step at a time... Just be consistent and find out more along the way...

O shall go sleep.. tmr (eh.. later) going for open house... Panda eyes again...

Hmmm... the social psych handout is done!!! at like 5 plus last night (but stupid blogger was down so I couldn't gush over it...) but the sense of satisfaction is GREAT!!! Mwahahaha... if i daresay, I haven't seen such a pretty handout before!!!

In school tackling another project.. I feel on a roll now...

I'm over the moon!!! I can finally start my sleep late at night routine!!! cause I don't have to go to school early.. Just me and my music, in front of my laptop, chatting, working... Silence reign in the house, no temptations from the blaring of TV outside, no programmes to watch, no annoying siblings...

I feel productive in the wee hours of the night... plus I had a nice nap before idol results... so yeah... recharged and raring to go!!!

I love my social psych handout... Thanks to Meiju and Baoqin for the idea... and the 'copyright'... Hahaha... dateline: tmr 12... Shall finish it tonight...

Survived a long day... wasn't that bad... and I came home to unwind i nfront of the telly.. Mwahahaha...

I shall go recharge soon... Real soon.. probably after this... Oh.. I wanted to comment on sth which I think is rather funny... I was just looking at a forum, talking about some entertainment gossip news or sth... So there was some stuff about some stars under going plastic surgury or sth... No big deal right? You'll be surprised... The whole topic was like spammed with posts of their fans, declaring outrage at such a 'ridiculous accusation'. Most of then were like 'No! No way...' and basically, the rest were like just so similar...

My point: actually I also dunno.. but i don't get it.. I mean like it is just a comment.l.. there is no need for a barrage of fans to defned their idol cause there is nth to defend... I mean there are so many things based on hearsay nowadays...

Oh... kinda finished my part for presentation next week.. hip Hip Hooray!!! but yeah.. haven't started on democracy yet... but then guess what?? I have a one week extension!!! yay!!! *grinz* So that kind of frees up some time... More of BGS on my mind now... totally zero communication, accusations, comments thrown all over the place. But people don't seem to be doing much... I'm frankly quite irritated myself too.. though I think I may have contributed to the mess.. Mwahahaha... Shall see what happens during the meeting on Friday.. or maybe tmr if the prof gives us time...

BTW... I think that Phil Keoghan, host of The Amazing Race has such a cool job... Oh! I finally remembered what I wanted to blog about... I don't think I wanna go into HR in future.. Mwahahaha... after this talk I attended... But nvm.. back to Phil... he gets to host such an amazing programme... and I think he is quite funny... esp when you watch the behind the scenes clips... Fine.. I'm a sucker for travel programmes... but yeah...

Oh.. Ade!!! Congrats!!! you passed!!! now can drive me around!!! Mwahahaha...

ok.. shall stop my senseless gushing... Good night world...

Hahaha.. i just stoned through my whole democracy class... and Darn! He knows my name!!! and it was super obvious tt I wasn't paying attention lar... Staring at my laptop the whole time without looking up at him... But I think like 99% if not the whole class was doing sth else... Hahaha...

Now I feel kinda guilty... Bah! Cause he knows... But i dun think i'll go round making promises that I will study harder for demo to make up just in case I can't fulfil them.. Hahaha....

I bet my democracy prof is regretting that he is making us write the Constitution of Nigeria. He has been going on and on about our draft for the past one hour... and it seems that there are quite a lot of controversy.. Mwahahaha...

Been dreaming a lot lately.. I htink I ought to really not think so much.. Imagine dreaming of the scarecrow in Howl's Moving castle in some sort of a zoo where I was supposed to be having lessons or sth... Bah! I would rather fall into a deep slumber and not remember my dreams...

Oh wells.. everything has been rather mundane.... Just playing games, slacking and doing work... Mwahahaha.. Welcome to My Life!

Power

Well, just some after thoughts after reading a few chapters of 'Dangerous Alliances - Civil Society, The Media & Democratic transitions in North Africa' (Yep! I'm finally starting to do research for my paper...). Anyway, this kinda started me thinking... What is it about power? Why do people go back on their word, make empty promises and cause a whole load of suffering for others? Put it simply, if you are a good ruler, people would not want to dispose of you. So why would the ruler of Tunisia and well.. his ministers and the police force want to go after people who want to challenge him, clam down on the media, make life difficult for people and stuff? Well, there are literally spies and eavesdropper everywhere and the police and government has the ability to monitor everyone there... Kinda scary huh? and they call themselves a democracy?

Just to drive the point home, I happen to watch a bit of the 7pm show on Channel 8.. Some pugilistic show... but nevertheless, another story about power struggles... How people want to master certain skills, moves, create chaos to in short, become the 'Most Powerful Man on Earth'

Just me thinking... is it because of power, that's why people lose their mind? (as in after they rise to power, then they start plotting and stuff), or is it vice versa? (They have all those evil thoughts before they rise to power.. and thus, they try to rise to power so that they can carry out those dastardly acts!)

This is beginning to sound like psychology... Interesting huh?

Just a very 'bejewelled' Gillian rambling on and on... Nagging thoughts...

This I gotta blog... was trying to clear my phone inbox... I came across a strong of messages from my dearest sister... She was trying to tell me the results of American Idol.. Whereby the group of 16 was shrinked to the final 12... Let me reproduce these messages for you...

'Federov vonsel mario and the ryan seacrest equivalent that woman is in!'

'Kerry? a girl called kerry...' --> My personal favourite!

'nadia.. I type her name use dictionary become mafia! Haha...' Hmmm... major grammatical error.

'keanu reeves and crooked mouth' --> Eh... Constantine and Bo Bice!

'anwar! Yay! jessica? Who's that...'

'Got scott nikko and travis left.. I want nikko... Got the river deep mountain high girl (aka Amanda) ginay (aka Janey) and someone (aka Mikalah)' --> She claims she forgot that 'someone' was Mikalah... though I dunno whether it is subconscious cause she doesn't like her... Hahaha...

Lalala... I still think it is super funny... Notwithstanding major spelling and grammatical errors, she has this uncanny sense of humour... Mwahahaha...

Lalala... blogger locked me out yesterday.. so here is my delayed review of the past few days... Mwahahaha...

BGS was crap lar... my short answer became like mini essays... Hahaha... I'm still in a floaty-floaty mood... after like regurgitating everything i memorise out... (think vomitting). Mwahahaha... Serious wad... this sort of pure memory test makes me sick to some extent... And a lot of crap lar.. There are some you gotta understnad... but then.. Gimme psych any other day man... Even democracy sounds more appealing than BGS...

But then again, it is over!!! So now for the report!!!

Caught Howl's Moving Castle... Not a bad show... but I still can't catch the anime craze... Mwhahahaha.. i think it is just me... Characters a re cute lar.. but my stnad is that after a while, everyone will look the same cause there are only a few ways you can draw sth.. Hahaha.. Nice storyline.. I mean kinda typical.. but then again, I'll salute whoever or whichever movie that does not have a typical boy meets girl, boy likes girl storyline... Or a predictable twist in horror shows... Hahaha...

Lalala.... back to work... been playing too much of bejeweled...

Lalala.. I can feel my 'disease' acting up.. I lost my Prof when he was talking about Hoar (I dunno who's dat) and am surfing around and stuff... Bah!

This happens every week!!! I shall resolve to do my work.. cause I have reports and presentation due...

I wanted to say sth.. but I forgot... Bah! I think I'm addicted to blogging!!!

Bah! Man U is out of Champions League... and Chelsea managed to overturn a deficit to advance! Bah!

Thank goodness for the existence of extension of project datelines!!! Woohoo!!! at least I have more than the one week I have now for my AS group assignment... Although it will also jam up somewhere later down the line... Hahaha...

Now.. to mug BGS.... 9 Chapters!!! wish me luck for sth I don't understand at all...

Oh.. can I mention that I know there are smart people around... In fact, it can be fun to have conversation with smart people... but I dislike pompous intelligent species who think that they happen to be the best thing that appeared on Earth and that the rest of us around are just their supporting actors... These people irk me to no end! And a word of caution, when you say something, make sure that the people you are talking (ie:bitching) about don't happen to be in the vincinity by chance.

Lalala... I'm supposed to be preparing my outline for my political science paper now.. but as usual.. I'm doing what I'm NOT supposed to do... Hahaha...

Still undecided whether I should pick on an African country that is familiar (ie: Nigeria) or explre something new like Tunisia in North Africa cause I'm currently reading a book about the politicla situation there... Lack of time to do research... Sianz...

Plan for today till Thursday: Study BGS

A 5 day week this week... ok.. like some who know may say, it is a bit 自找 one also lar... But when opportunity comes a knocking, it is hard to ignore it too... Mwahahaha...

I was doing some research today... I got this feeling that with an increasing reliance on technology... we all tend to overlook a better, more efficient way of searching for information - the good ol' library...

I dunno about you.. but if you ask me to so research for a project, I'll automatically search the Internet... Google, Yahoo.. you name it... yet I was in the library today, searching their catalogue for books I need for research, something I haven't done in like eons...

Now.. to plough through the 3 books I borrowed on Africa, Democratization and Politics... wish me luck!!!

create your own visited countries map
or vertaling Duits Nederlands


Hmmmm... a bit inaccurate.. since I haven't exactly been to the whole of Australia... and the one big patch that represents China is also wrong cause I've only been to certain parts of it (Like Hong Kong). I shall aim to have the most of the map covered by the time I am 70...

I am tired.. I wanted to sleep early.. but I was charging my laptop.. So i thought I would on it for a while... I was bored... and tired of surfing the net... but then I got entertained... and I entertained myself.. Thus, I'm still awake... but now me shall go sleep...

Good night world...

Ok.. another irrelevant, nonsensical, crappy post by a sleepy Gillian who will be off to bed soon...

Lalala... end of the week... weeks ahead looks daunting... Loads of datelines to meet... Shall buck up soon... but then again.. there's always tmr... I need a good rest... My eys and face (one side of it) has been feeling itchy... Dunno why.. Allergy? To what? lack of sleep???

Time flies.. tis week 9... This week actuallly seems non-existent, whizzing by in a flash... I have a bad feeling... like I'll drown in work soon... due to too many of my breaks...

People around me are stressing... Tests, datelines, everything's coming up over the next few weeks.. Shout out to all: Relax ya... and cheer up... Create time... I'm sure you'll be able to survive...

*Gee.. I sure hope I make use of this piece of advice for myself too!!!*

After 7 months in school.. the amount of irrelevant mails I get everyday still amazes me. It's been a long day... Back to back lessons... Bleahz... At least it rained today... Cool relief from the humid weather... Shall attempt to do some work later... at least read the social psych article... I'm feeling very nua now... Tihngs are piling up... I should stop slacking... ;)

Lalala... merrily typing away at my laptop... i'm looking for things to do online.. I just refuse to start studying!!!!

I feel that my mind is very detached from my actions... I feel incoherent.. and my hands refuses to type what I want to type... I am typing the wrong words at the wrong time.. Like 'next week' became 'last week'. Must be the 6 hours of sleep I got...

Yay!! Tonight is TV night!!! Can satisfy the TV junkie in me... Shall resolve to close my laptop in 5 to 15 mins...

ok... 12 mins gone.. I'm still stuck chatting... it looks as if it is gonna rain again...

Sheesh.. I need to prolong my attention span.. This always happens.. I'll follow my demo prof for the first hour of the lesson, have nice, coherent notes and then after that, I'll drift off... Shucks... Every single week without fail...

Like Dr. Nameless said, our attention span only lasts for 45 mins... so why is SMU trying to double it??? Bleahz!!!

I have this sudden urge to visit St Nicks soon... feeling nostalgic...

I came across an interesting blog. I think that they are doing is so cool...

Having an 'extended' break... I feel disoriented... Like I dunno what to do after lessons.. I don't even remember what I used to do on Monday afternoons before the break... I shall do work... soon...

I hate it when people in a group don't do their part for a project... I don't mind it when people push back the dateline within a reasonable frame, yet not when one makes empty promises. Please.. 1 week is definitely long enough to come up with a half page write up... I simply cannot think of any excuses...

It pisses me off because I'm the one doing the compiling... and I can't put everything together is some parts are missing. Darn... 'A's don't just fall from the sky.. you need to work for it... and at the rate I am going, I bet there is gonna be a lot of missing stuff from the first draft of the report...

On a happier note... Claire... I finally broke your Bejewelled high score... Mwahahaha... I think it not only requires skill... but luck plays quite a big element in it too... Yay!!!

Hols are drawing to an end... Well, nth on the work slate.. but plenty on the enjoyment side... I finished a book, watched a movie, sang karaoke for 9 hours, talked to a fren for a whole day, went shopping, bought a CD, applied for my campus account... and slacking away at the com. The only school related thing I did was probably my AS meeting.. at least we got our direction...

Quite an accomplishment on the slacking side I think... Now that I am recharged, I will use the past week's activities as a reminder that I should start studying, writing my paper, doing my projects and what not.. MWahahaha...

Just came across the script for this clock thingee cursor? I think it is kinda interesting...

OK man.. time to clean up... I shall do work these 2 days... and stop blogging.. I realise I have been blogging alot this pass week... It is the next best thing to doing work lar... So yeah.. I would rather write...

I was about to sleep.. until I went to check my mail... Straits Times is gonna charge a subscription fee for their online newspapers... Sigheth... Ok.. I admit I don't usually read the online version of the papers coz I have the actual one at home.. But it is good in the sense that I can just download or copy the article I want instead of cutting it out from the newspapers... And it is good to browse articles when I'm in school...

The online version doesn't even have my daily comic strips!!! Bah!

Watch Constantine today... well, my first movie since... eh.. I forgot when... I can't even remember my last movie... I gues it is sth watched during the last hols... Wow... That's long...

I felt that the show was not too bad... Keanu Reeves was spot on as the dark, brooding protagonist... and yeah... I felt that some parts of the movie was more like a horror movie than a thriller... They really know how to use shick tactics. Mwahahaha... I was like the only one who screamed in the cinema when sth shocking happened. Super malu lar...

I think the show is quite worth it... it's a good mix of humour... and lameness... and horror, gore, religious themes, suspense, twists and well, 1 main underlying theme. Well.. a hunk as a leading actor and a babe for the female protagonist... It seems to have almost everything in them... Thought provoking definitely...

Well, I shall go sleep now... Cause... I feel like it? Hahaha... Early ar... but since my room is in pitch darkness (moi sis is sleeping) except for light coming from my laptop, I think I shall not spoil my eyes any further... Plus I have to stuff those round blu-ish transparent things called contact lense into my eyes tmr morning for a cornea check up.. So I shall be considerate to my eyes and not tire them out too much...

Am doing research in the middle of the night... But I'm so wide awake... Considering that I've only been awake for 8 hours... It's like waking up at 9am in the morning and it's 5pm in the evening only. Shall try and finish my research soon... then maybe I'll not feel so guilty about not doing much this hols... and hopefully, I'll feel tired enough for a 'nap'

Got a project meeting at 1030 tmr... I need to wake up early!!!

Oh.. and Constantine!!! Yeah!! can't wait... oh.. and Hitch looks funny...

Mid Week Check

Hmmmm... let's see what I have done these few days... After spending time at the chalet over the weekend, the other things I've done is to finish a novel by Jeffrey Archer - Kane and Abel, a book on how 2 men, one rich and poor end up vying against each other because of a small misunderstanding/misinterpretation... Kinda disappointed by the ending but then again the twist was good...

Eh.. went for a whole night of karaoke... and been trying to beat Claire's score on my Bejeweled game...

This means I'm so screwed for the rest of the week... Okiez... to start work...

I just had my first meal of the day... Yeah.. ocnsidering that it started at 5... Mwahahaha.. .at this rate, I'll not be in school on Monday... but then again.. I have a project meeting at 930 tmr... So looks like I die die have to wake up early...

My throat feels tired from singing so much last night... I don't even feel like singing along to the songs when my media player is blasting them... And i think the harmonising thing is quite addictive... When I listen to a song, I'll try to harminise... But try is the key word lar... Hahahaha... Don't think I'll go for another singing session so soon..

Just got an SMS.... my meeting is pushed later... yay!!! 1 more hour of sleep... I gotta start doing work... Looking for fallacies...

Can anyone advise...

P1: Citizens above 50 will get a lower percentage of their salary put into CPF.
P2: If less money is put in CPF, those above 50 will take home more money.
P3: The amount of tax one has to pay is determined by the amount of money one takes home.
SC1: Those above 50 will have to pay high tax.
P4: Those above 50 should not be allowed to pay more tax

Conclusion: Tax rates for those above 50 should be cut.

Is the above a fallacy???

Hmmmm.. it;s almost 7,, a quick post before I go to sleep to document this momentous night...

Yeah.. you read right... I'm going to sleep... I just got home actually... about half an hour ago... was out singing KTV with frens.. wah.. after like 9 plus almost 10 hours, we STILL can't finish the songs we wanted to sing... artistes like Harlem Yu and SHE... Sigh.. I sound damn hardcore lar... Anyway, this kind of marked the first time I stayed out the whole night without having a chalet or hotel stay as an excuse... Yeah... my parents are kinda strict bout these stuff... but today, my mum said i fi really wanted, I could stay out and stuff... Hmmm... More freedom as I grow older?

Anyway, so as I was taking the first North-bound train home, I saw people or rather students i ntheir uniforms preparing for school... It was kind of weird that while I just ended my day, others are starting theirs...

For a while, I kinda wished that I was part of that routine again... Yeah... I may sound nuts.. but nvm... Like one of my fren said, I'm feeling like that cause 'I am now a visitor to the routine and not a 'regular' anymore'... Well, couldn't agree more with her...

Yawn... shall really tuen in now... or i'll only wake up when the sun sets... and I still have other stuff to do... So ya.. Night world...

I love late night bitching sessions... I can forsee my body clock going topsy turvy this hols again... But I like chatting late into the night, replying mail, reading stuff... Ok... shall turn in soon..

Good Night World...

I just realised I have no frontpage after I reformatted my laptop... Sheesh... I took 2 months to figure that out... Oh ya.. look forward to a new layout.. I'm kinda sick of my cake pic... (Yeah.. it is a cake I baked... not some donut!!!)

Hmmm... looking forward to a week of recuperation. I'm gonna sing!!! I'm going out!!! I'm going shopping!!! I don't care... I NEED retail therapy... ya.. and of course catch up on projects and stuff... Yeppies...

And DARN!!! I wasn't on the lucky winners who struck anything in the CNY Toto draw last week...

Hahaha... My mum's friends at over at my place and I'm super amused with this kid. he is 6 and he is the typical cute small boy... *screams and gushes!!!* That's what I like about life... there are always 2 sides to it.. Good and bad, Happy and sad (it rhymes!!!). I shall amuse myself with him... tatata...

I miss having an internet connection… Ok.. I was too lazy to walk to the lobby or to Macs @ East Coast in the middle of the night to surf the net… Mwahahaha…

Well, the whole thing is over and done with… No more dreaming about it days before the activity. I really feel as if a huge burden is lifted off my shoulders. I don’t want to think about the repercussions and stuff...Well, to say the thing was successful will be seriously lying through my teeth.

The last 2 days or even the past week has been an emotional roller coaster. I love the people around me who have been giving me so much support.. yet at the same time, there were also some who went back on their words and stuff like that… Oh.. I love my dad!!! Which dad would bother to drive from Novena to Geylang to pick up food, then deliver it to East Coast for his daughter? Thinking of it just makes tears well in my eyes… So any ideas what to give him for a birthday present?

I should just get a phlog… I forgot so many things I wanted to say liaoz…

I dunno lar. I think I’m too numb to feel upset… Seriously, I didn’t eat much the whole night. I just had no appetite. I don’t feel like doing anything I admit it was fun at times.. Like when we were talking to the profs or singing along to guitar or sth… but after that… you look at stark reality… The world you constructed just comes crashing down…

Have been experiencing a lot of cognitive dissonance these few days too. It’s like trying to reconcile and justify what I think and what I have done.

I shall not mince my words here… Because this is MY blog… and I want to say whatever I feel like saying here… I shall not be hypocritical or fake like the many ppl out there… I don’t think I fared very well as a leader… Serious... but don’t worry.. I’ll get over it and bounce back stronger than before… I made a few mistakes which I will definitely learn from it…

1) Never give in too much to people. Sometimes, they will just take too much advantage of you till you end up doing everything

2) If others don’t have an opinion, don’t really assume they don’t. Make sure they can commit to help you and stuff before you embark on any mission because you really need their support.

3) There is this phrase called ‘delegation of tasks’

4) Don’t think I am superwoman!

5) A wrong decision kills… Like very badly…

Oh well. End of report… I just wish things had turned out differently… But I also refuse to blame myself wholly for it. I think I put in more effort than anyone else to run this thing and it is just bad that things didn’t turn out as planned. Life will still go on. I just wished I had the chance to do it again.

Am happy once again... Feeling a lot of emotional ups and downs this week... Kinda weird.. I think I have never felt so emotional since I don't know when.. Must be the stress...

But just checked my email... There's this prof who is actively helping me promote the event... SO SUPER SWEET!!!! and he is not even a Prof from Social Science .He teaches Econs... Although response is still here and there.. but I really appreciate what he is doing...

Hmmm.. 'nuff said... I need to pia AS and pack my stuff...

So till tonight!!! Hahaha... Costa Sands has free internet 24 hrs... Expect me!!!

Ok.. I survived 2 tests... Really enjoy studying into the night... But that's not exactly the point I guess... But I'm so mentally drained, I don't even feel any emotions regarding the outing anymore... I seriously can't be bothered... i'm so sick and tired of it and I think it's all my fault... Bad planning? not being able to see the whole picture? Guilty as charged...

Bleahz... Let's cross our fingers and hope that everything will be fine... At least a turn out of 30 ppl?

Disclaimer: Relax.. I'm ok... I just needed to get it off... Don't worry so much ya...

Hmmmm... a big thank you to friends who cared... Thanks for the support... I'm fine liaoz... really... I'm sure we'll pull this off... It's just a culmination of tests, projects and stuff that got me short on my fuse that day...

Feeling at peace with myself... I don't know why also.. Though I still have more than half to study for social psychology... Not kidding really... but then so far I have been quite successful in remembering stuff covered in class... Looks like I was wrong about social psych lessons... =)

Ok.. back to the books... or else tonight really don't have to sleep liaoz...

Hmmmm... V-day came and went... Had an enjoyable dinner... Pity I didn't go sing K... even though I also didn't do much work at home.. but I guess I will feel more guilty if I had went with you guys to sing.. Mwahahaha... Oh well.. there's always the next time...

11 hours before the end of CT... presentation... wish me luck... Ok.. 1 more chapter of social psych before I retire for the night... ;)

Dearest Friends.. Kindly remind me NEVER EVER to bite off more than I can chew... and also.. to NOT EVER PROCRASTINATE again.. Oh.. how I detest that word... although I think it is more of the procrastination that drove me to the state I'm in now... 5 days of CNY hols wasted.. *Kapoot*.. down the drain.. What have I accomplished? Close to nth... a small percentage of what I ams supposed to finish and do... Bleahz...

None of the democracy stuff is going in... and I realise that social psych is not as easy as it seems... My prof notes seems sparsed which means I gotta do my own notes... I'm switching form democracy to social psych and back within hours... which can be quite traumatic...

Arghz!!! I need 48 hours a day for the next 4 days... Hmmm... on hindsight.. it may not even be enough!!! Ok... enough whining... I just needed to get this off my chest before I sleep... Lessons @ 1015 tmr... how i lurve my dad... =)

The cut on my finger has became an ugly red welt... Been super unproductive.. Took a whole afternoon to read a democracy reading... Sianz... Not working hard as usual... But then again.. I'm clearer on some stuff... Just that I need to commit them to memory... 1 more day.. Gambate!!!

Well.. obviously studying is not the only thing on my mind this weekend... but I'll just try my best to balance the 2.. .well.. I feel like I'm in sec sch, trying to cram for tests/exams the night before... Mwahahaha... Hope everything will be fine.. if not, I'll just have to write a better paper/ mug harder for finals for demo, give a better presentation/research/work harder for finals for social psych.. and err... screw CT!!! Mwahahaha...

Kinda peeved... esp when ppl dun reply your emails... which are explicitly stated URGENT!!! GaH!!! but then again... Another person just made my day... So there.. you win some, you lose some...

Hmmmm.. I like it when the words which I want to write start flowing... Gillian is a happy girl today....

I wanna watch Constantine!!!

Hmmm... it's the 3rd day of the new year.. It's 12.33 at night.. Not sleeping yet cause... I gotta mug? Mwahahaha... been slacking too much the past 2 days... See ar.. even though I'm not going visiting this year, my relatives could visit me... so what I did yesterday was to rot in front of my laptop playing games... ;) and after that, at about 1 plus plus... I went to play Mahjong after my relatives left with my siblings.. Kinda funny... As it was late and stuff, there was a game my sister had one tile less.. so obviously she couldn't game... and then the very next game, it was my turn to be missing a tile... I guess we were too tired.. but we persisted and after some breaks to minch on food, we ended one whole round at 4 plus... Hahaha...

Oh.. and reunion dinner with my extended family was nice too... I thought it would be kinda weird at first cause I'm not exactly that close to my cousins... so we were just politely sitting therewatching TV... but afterwatching The Rat Race at about 12.30am, we started playing dai dee.. and bridge... and it went on to Mahjong again... Mwahahaha... so after playing Mahjong for like 2 days, my hands are not that itchy anymore... ;) Hmmmm... but we din bet any money... It's just a social game... hahaha... Hahaha.. we left at about 1 plus... almost 2am if I'm not wrong...

Hmmm.. so many updates... The Amazing Race ended it's run yesterday... I didn't want Freddy and Kendra to win... but then again.. it's all about luck... Oh well.. another month to the next season.. Yippee!!! well.. Survivor is back... and I have Desperate Housewifes and American Idol to watch currently...

Oh well.. time to start digesting some democracy... Good Night world...
Have sweet dreams.. and a Happy New year!!!

Chinese New Year is here... 祝各位：新年快乐， 心想事成， 身体健康， 万事如意， 财源滚滚， 事事顺利。。。

Yeppies!!! Time to pig out... Pineapple tarts, Bak Kwa... Love Letters... Kui Lapis!! Moi favourite... Oh.. and mixed nuts... Mandarin oranges included...

Hmmm.. realise I don't have like sweets or cookies at home... Mwahahaha... but then again, I will spend a quiet new year at home. Had reunion dinner last night... going for another one later... Pigging out lar...

But it's nice having reunion dinner... Steam boat.. with loads of food... and then bantering at the table. It's nice that we sit down as a family to eat... Felt that I haven't done it for a long time.. Especially since I was out late the last few nights.. Hahaha... Coupled with a 'high' sister... It was funny...

In class now... stoned... I got a miserable blog.. I realise I have been complaining in my last few entries... Hahaha... But I believe life has it's ups and downs... You'll be happy on some days, miserable on others, stressed on some and hyper on next... I thik it is a cycle... Though I feel that when happy things happen to me, I tend not to blog it.. but when I'm upset, my blog becomes an outlet...

I think we should all look at happier stuff and blog about them... ;)

It's been a long day... I shall happily say that my CT project is finishe.d. Now for the presentation.. Well, the can's not really done.. but we've tried our best... Hahaha... Anyway, I think it is quite a feat when you imagine 4 girls trying to do such mechanical stuff.. and plus majority of the groups was from arts stream.. Ok. No offence to Arts people here... Even me with my science stuff can't do much about the calculations.. It's more of trying to 'see' it!!!

Finally, everything about the outing is kind of settled.. Really glad for the people who have been around supporting me... and of course to others who have been patiently listening to my whining... Now awaiting the proposal.. ;)

Thinking whether I should go out for dinner on V-day... a lot of stuff to do leh.. but then again... it's kind of miserable to spend V-day alone... not that I have another half to spend it with... but at least with my frens.. It'll be nice...

I feel off my bike today... eh... like my 1st time... Maybe not fall... I was turning... or as Siyi said, swerving right when this guy came chrging towards me on his bike at top speed. I shall conclude that he is trying to show off... Anyway... he kind of tumbled and rolled forward.. while I was trying hard to balance myself... Ok.. in the end he was unhurt, and I end up with 2 very nice, deep-looking cuts... GreAt!~!~ It's kinda gross to look at it lar... it's like the skin got tore apart like 2mm maybe... but i dun thin kit is that deep.. shall apply some antoseptic later... *ouch!* it will hurt later when I bathe... :(

Yeah.. what pissed me off was that he put the blame all on me... and he was more concerned about some stupid thing at the front of his bike that costs 200 freaking bucks (maybe for him to show off) instead of me!!! IdI@T! ok.. I just like the '@' sign there... Luckily I didn't scrap my knees..

word of caution: don't go cycling when you are sleepy.. I had trouble trying to peddle my bike today... my legs are aching... Yeah.. lack of exercise... Luckily I dodn't develop any phobias for bicycles... Don't think I grew much darker even though the sun was blazing...

Somehow, I think it's gonna rain during CNY... as it has been almost every year. Why? Cause the sky was threatening to rain the last 2 days.. but somehow, the blazing sun will always shine through... So if it rains during CNY, remember, you read it here first!

Shall go clean my wounds and then go sleep... I'm super tired... Making a trip to East Coast tmr again... If I can wake up earlier tmr, I can squeeze in some time for studying democracy. after that, I 'll be trying out how to do my pringles can.... Wish me luck... Do or die.. 1 more week to presentation!

Another stone for me to trip over... Can't believe I'm looking at the outing stuff barely 7 hours after I stopped last night... nvm.. happier times are in sight... Going out later...

You Are a Peacemaker Soul

You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can.War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace.You are a good mediator and a true negotiator.Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy. While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental.You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take.On the flip side, you've got a great sense of humor and wit.You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice. Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Made a stupid mistake today!!! Shouldn't have been too anxious to send out the email... Now it's gonna be quite stupid if I gotta retraqct it.. Ah well.. Gillian.. sth on the learning curve... Shit! Why did Sentosa do away with their big and nice chalet? Those 12 beds-2 bedroom kind... Now we are stuck with a room for 2 persons max according to costa sands website.. totally don't make sense.. can I just spend the night by the beach, watching the stars?

Super stressed this week with the outing... Time's running out! ack! Really appreciate the help that Renjie, Meiju and Baoqin gave... Don't know what I'll do without you all.. Serious... Now.. need to straighten out the arrangements... Hahaha...

Bleahz.. it's gonna be another of those nights.. whereby I'll toss and turn cause I can't get the thoughts out of my head... It's late.. almost 4.10... And I've been doing work.. as in more official stuff since 4 hours ago.. Winz... A lot of re-shuffling, strategies and stuff... urgh! Not very friendly...

I'm super messed up now.. Why Sentosa and not East Coast? I also don't know... WHY??? HELP!!! I need to take a breather... Going cycling tomorrow... I need it...

On a happier note.. spoke to a fren... just enjoyed the conversation whining, bitching, complaining... and basically just talking to her though the connection over Skype was kinda bad.. hahaha...

I'm kind of pissed.. I'm supposed to have a project meeting now.. but a lot of people haven't done their research yet... Sheeeeeetttttt lar... I hate it when people in your groups don't coorperate... As in this wasn't like a last min thing... areas were assigned like 2 WEEKS ago!!! You mean everyone is so busy that they don't have time to do research? What about ppl like me who stayed up to compile then (Ok.. i was also playing games.. but I don't think that is the point!) Excuses like Internet was down.. things like that... Gets on my nerves sometimes.. plus I'm sleepy and hungry now...

I hate in when I'm in a group when the people are like super off... And i feel like i'm in 2 of it now... Sianz...

I've been in a 'Stress Gillian out' mood the last few days.. putting pressure on myself to study demo, social psych cause I realised I haven't touched anything since start of school... Superb! I'm trying to turn myself from Slacker to Mugger in 1 sec flat.. which obviously doesn't work cause I'm bloggign instead of studying despite the fact that I have readings to do, AS homework to attempt, it is 12.30 am at night and I have 830 lessons tmr... Sheesh! I need to get my priorities right!

I'm starting to put pressure on myself cause I realise my mid terms are coming. Maybe doing decently well last term has made me mor ecomplacent... I wasn't that hardworking last term.. but at least I understand what is going on. This term, I feel like I'm just floating from class to class, lesson to lesson, not absorbing much. Maybe it is because I don't really like what I'm doing this term. Or I haven't grew to like it.

Did some quick research for democracy tmr so that Iwon't be like a dumb idiot when we talk about electoral systems.. I actually think it is interesting... Yeah.. i think I'm kinda nuts.. but if I have the time to read them and go thruough them carefully, I think it can be interesting... I need to do less stupid things online and actually do work!

I stayed in sch till 9 today... CT project stretched ALL the way from 1 to 6. and we still haven't gotten the container done... sucks leh... but I still like our idea... Yeah... trying not to admit defeat here... Sighz.. after all the hard work put in, 80% completed, the last 20% had to screw up... hahaha... Tomorrow will be a better day.

Bogged down by the planning of social science outing too.. Don't exactly regret taking it up.. but it is hard to coordinate 5 persons... So it sucks.. but I think today's meeting was quite productive... I just hope things will go as planned.. after all, it is the 1st 'big' even to be organised by SSS... I think I'm just killing myself slowly... On week 7, I have CT presentation, Democracy test, Social Psych test and the outing is on the Sat that week... This is just so wonderful!!1

Ahhh!!! I have 5 days next week during CNY... Muggerhood.. here I come!!!

Oh... I'm going to get the result of the MAPP Personality test I took 2 weeks ago tomorrow... Kinda excited.. though I'm too tired to feel it now...

Shall try and understand a bit more democracy.. then it is going off to dreamland.... I shall do AS tmr during democracy... Mwahahaha....