Christmas came and went... But as I grow older, I realise I no longer look forward to the presents and stuff.. or maybe there isn't really much to look forward to anyway. I mean I am no longer a kid who fancies toys.. anyway, I can always go buy things I like instead of waiting for ppl to give it to me.. But then, it is always the thought that counts.. (and it feels good to be remembered...) Afterall, you don't expect ppl to get you an iPod mini for Christmas.. .Mwahahaha..

Went carolling at Raffles today. After 4 long years, I still feel kinda lost and overwhelmed... Miss the 2 pm session.. but felt kinda bad after that because there were only 3 altos singing... *oops* but then again, I dun think I would have made such a great difference anyway.

well.. This Christmas is more of going for gatherings, spending quality time with friends and family... and pigging out on turkey, ham, roast beef and other Christmas-sy food.

But this Christmas also made me see the fragility of human life. How growing old can be scary... and how easily one can collapsed when one is old and in ill health. Shall be MIA for the next few days as I have some family matters to attend to...

Anyway, Happy Boxing Day!!!

Merry Christmas to One and ALL!!! yay!!! Spread the warmth, and joy and love of Christmas!!! *hugs*

Crap at 1.45 am at night...

Things I've Realised!

1) I've changed over the years...
2) I can survive without the telephone
3) I have a high level of tolerance (eg: Working at the law firm)
4) I'm too nice for my own good (refer to the law firm example)
5) I like to wallow in self-pity (Ha! Ha!)
6) I think I look good with brown hair...
7) I actually can live without my laptop or going online when there's no school...
8) I'm crapping here...
9) Uni Life is NOT slack!
10) I hate individual presentations
11) I kinda like it... (refers to above - despite my whining)
12) I'm a genius (according to a certain Ms Peh) since I managed to learn how to cycle in 2 sessions!
13) I'm still fickle-minded and indecisive
14) I kinda like baking (Look at the cake below!)
15) Karaoke is a quite a close replacment for choir...

which brings me back to carolling.. I was at Raffles Hotel watching my juniors perform yesterday... and I invariably found myself singing along to almost every song... I guess carolling is what sets me in the Christmas mood for the past few years... It's like so nice to be a part of them, singing away, trying to spread the Christmas cheer.. and maybe I do enjoy the applause I get from people... Hahaha...

I dun get it why Orchard is so crowded nowadays... I still dunno wad to get for my mum.. It's seriously the thought that counts... so I dun wanna buy some stupid frivolous stuff for the sake of it... but then it's like I also wanna show some gesture... Gone were the days I would make some card or paper flowers or stars... I've kinda grown out of it... (and a lot of things along the way). I guess I'll end up giving her nth... Sigh... and I'm not exactly in the Christmas mood... Maybe when I see the food, turkey, ham and things like that... hahaha... but I'm not piggish!

Yummy Yummy!!! 

Nice cake? 

hahaha... I like the 2 pics below.. Spent the 1st day after work nua-ing at home, listening to/watching VCDs and DVDs... and abandoning my plans to go out to 1) Get my laptop fixed.. and 2) get Christmas presents.. and err... 3) go carolling.. But I'll go tomorrow.. Really...

Not to mention I still have to pack my table and stuff.. but it's just so me.. I'm a big procrastinator....

But the best thing I did today was of course bake the wonderfully delicious cake below... looks pro or not??? Chocolate Fudge Cake!!! Hey.. this is not from some cake mix kaez... must sieve flour, cook the fudge and stuff... but it's also kinda scary when you see 300g of butter.. which is errr.. like one and a quarter cube of butter going in... And 300 g of chocolate.. so it is indeed quite chocolate-y... Yummy!!!

P.S I think I own sufficient VCDs/DVDs to have quite a nice karaoke session at home... Mwahahaha...

My face feels tight now... I used on a mask just now... Sigh.. pimple breakout again... I didn't have it last time (when I was like in sec sch...) so why ain't i growing any taller now?

Welcome to my mundane life... Work's fine.. I have 3 more days.. 20th, 21st and 27th.. Dun ask why 27th... Yar... Life's fine.. just a tad routine-y and boring... Christmas is coming soon... in like a week?? So how come I'm so not in the Christmassy mood? This sucks!!! Dunno wad presents to buy, piles of Christmas cards waiting for me to write in them... And i dun wanna go down to Orchard to walk walk.. cause it is freaking packed... but then again, it is where I can shop the longest... Where can I find some christmas cheer??? I just find this Christmas so empty... Maybe it has to do with not carolling??? Since I have been busy during Christmas the past 3 years with carolling... But if I go back, I kinda feel extra... so it is quite sianz also....

I need to find sth meaningful to occupy myself with.. Does driving count?? Or I'm sriously contemplating volunteering... I have no idea why.. but I feel that my life is such a blank now.. so aimless, nothing to work for, nth to do.. I just play computer, chat... read books, watch tv...

It's like if I din haf a job, I really dunno wad I'll do... Maybe go out more often? But then, maybe not.. so i'll rot even more at home? Great!

I shall go and rent more books tmr... Read this book by Jean Sasson... . it is a story of a Saudi Arabia princess... and there are a few more books to this sth like series... I kinda like these sort of books tt tells of a culture tt is different from ours... next on my list: Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown since the WHOLE WORLD seem to be waxing lyrical about it... Man and Boy by Tony Parson.. heard it was a good book.. but haven't had the opportunity to read it yet... I think reading is therapeutic... =)

The whole world is bored.. I keep seeing these words on people's blog.. You mean we have all transcended to this stage that we are BORED of HOLS??? But I don't exactly welcome school... Mwahahaha....

5 more days to may last day... Counting down is kinda hard... afterall, a day of work is like 9 to 10 hours... Kinda sucks.. but I'm not exactly complainging cause I get extra pocket money though I would actually love to alck more.. Wel.. optimistically, I have like 12 days after I quit to slack... I hope it is enough...

I'm thinking whether I should drop a course I bidded for next term... 6 modules, 5 credits... or 5 modules, 4 credits? Any advice?

This I gotta blog... Maybe this is why more and more teens are getting stressed...

Imagine overhearing a parent saying that she is gonna lock up the computer cause her child who is in lower secondary played the computer (with no Internet access) for 45 mins...

I felt like going up to her and telling her I spend much more time on it.. and your kid does not even surf the net lar... Just playing some game...

I can't fathom why such an act has to be met with such drastic action since this is the hols...

Wait a min... or is it just me?

You Are Strawberry Pocky

Your attitude: fresh and sweetComforting, yet quirky ... quietly hyperYou always see both sides to everything

What Flavor Pocky Are You?

My first foray into baking sth from scratch and not relying on Betty Crocker's pre-mix was not bad at all... My chocolate cheesecake turned out pretty okiez.. mwahahaha...

Tired.. shall sleep soon.. though i have been awake for less than 12 hours... Gotta work tmr... Maybe I'll go have my O'Brien's sandwich again... mwahahaha...

The good thing about having short hair.. it dries pretty fast compared to long hair... Once my hair dries, I'm hitting the bed!

had a good day today... I really like it when I go out with my family to walk walk, have dinner, shop around... Which was precisely what I did today! Except my brother was away at chalet enjoying himself lar...

But my parents, my sis and myself went down to town after my mum, sis and I attended this Children Christmas Party for single parent families. Cause my mum is part of this single parent group and she wanted to bring us there to help out. In the end, we were just sitting around and observing vause the organisers had everything planned and under control...

Yupz.. back to town... It was packed.. Like very.. and there was the ever-present and famous Orchard Road jam... Luckily we were not caught in it cause traffic was NOT moving at all... I kinda pitied the ppl in cab cause the meter would be like running and they will not be moving... and I think it may be faster if they walked or sth... Hahaha...

So we were just walking from taka to wisma and to tangs and back to taka for dinner... It's like just nice to spend some time with your family... amidst the hectic lives, when I dun see them for like much for the whole week excpet at night cause we are all at work or sth... and we are occupied with friends, other aspects of lives that we tend to take each other for granted and grow apart gradually as strangers... I've hears stories of how siblings treat each other as virtual strangers and stuff.. and I hope it won't happen to me lar...

Yup yupz... today was a nice day..

and my sis and I are gonna sink our hands in baking... mwahaha... cause we got this recipe book showing us all the wonderful things we can do with CHOCOLATE... YES!!! Whole book on chocolate cookies, cheesecake, ice cream and other desserts and stuff... So we shortlisted 2 cakes... bought the ingredients for Chocolate Fudge cake and Marble Cheesecake... sounds good ya... Okiez... if it turns out well.. den I'll be baking it more often... mwahahaha... hopefully those I noe will have 口福 to try them... Hiakz!!! And I hope this interest will last... mwahahaha...

Which was also why we went grocery shopping today... but after we bought back all the ingredients, we realised the eletric egg beater, which we had for like eons.. and not used for the past 10 years (at least) could not work.. I'm totally not surprised lar... mwahahaha... so tmr we r gonna get a new egg beater and then it is baking time! Watch this space for more updates on my experiment at baking from scratch!

Hectic week at work... Kinda wondering what the hell I'm doing back at work... Oh... you all simply must try the sandwiched at O'Briens. It is an Irish sandwich and coffee bar or so they claim... It is pricey lar... for 2 pieces of bread.. but quite generous servings... and choice of veggie... similar to subway... but a bit more ex... but it's good...

I can't see my latest post on my blog again!!!

Mwahahaha.. I'm so DARN proud of MYSELF!!!! I Love ME!!!

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Hahaha.. I shall officially create my first blog layout instead of relying on blogskins and frens... Wish me luck peeps! And I'll keep u posted...

everyone is changin their layout for their blog.. Maybe I should do sth about mine too.. mwahahaha... see my mood.. maybe I'll work on it some night after work.. or will some kind soul help me? Or is she too busy playing Sims 2??

It's weird not to be enjoying myself during the hols... or rather, putting 9 plus 10 hours of my waking hours working... Everything has not changed... I see the same old faces... The same old bank tellers... I mean it is good cause it shows they have not lost their jobs... hahaha... but then again... It kinda scares me... I don't wanna be stuck in sth like that... Such a mundane life... But then again.. job security is what people want... Oh well.. that is too far...

I realised I haven't been to any job interviews at all for any jobs.. the closest i ever got was when I went to recruit express to ask them to put my name on the 'interested applicants' list... All the jobs I've had are all wither introed by people I know.. or I work for people I know... or both... I dunno wad to make out of it... But i htink it has it's pros and cons...

See ar... If that person know you, they tend to be not so harsh on you... but then again.. you may be doing a lot of things out of obligation... What makes the world tick?

Positive thinking: I'm working for the money.. Not that much anyway... but enough to pay my cab fare for next semester... (I'm Serious!!!) considering I took a cab to school almost every other day during the first term...

After backing up all my precious files from my laptop with the intention of bringing it to the CIT aka the Laptop Hospital, I didn't go.. and now that I've started work, I can forget about going... This sucks...

So many things to say.. yet dunno how to express it... Sianz...

Hmmmm... I'm going back to my 'favourite' company to work for 2 weeks... After all the 'I'm never going back there again!', I'll be starting work at the law firm again tomorrow... That's what I like about uni hols.. you don't have to worry about next semester's modules unnecessarily... no need to mug before hand... ok.. not that I did in sec sch and jc... but we had this thing called holiday homework then...

Oh well.. maybe i need that extra cash... or maybe I am just being nice.. hopefully everything will turn out fine... Yupz... and there goes my next 2 weeks.. no more meeting ups... and shopping trips.. unless you wanna meet me for dinner...

So maybe I should go buy my christmas cards soon and start writing them during lunch break in the office!

It's the end of exams!!! lalala... and...

*cues music* It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas, everywhere you go... there is a tree in the grand hotel, one in the park as well, the sturdy kind that doesn't mind the snow.. ow.. ow...

Haha... Christmas is coming the goose is getting fat, please put a penny in the old man's hat. If you haven't got a penny then a ha' penny will do, If you haven't got a ha'penny then God Bless You!

As you all can see, I'm in a Christamas-sy mood.. So many things to do... So many things to buy...

Oooh.. should go watch The Incredibles.. It is a very cute cartoon!!!

Hmmm.. how come I can blog so much faster on my desktop compared to my laptop? Weird...

Anyway, Tmr's last day of exams!!! Yay!!! 1 month to meet up with frens... do up my blog, slack... Christmas! means presents and more money... $$$

5 more chapters to go... wish me luck...

Exams are driving me to do things that I don't usually do... Besides mugging.. hahaha...

Where oh where have all my time gone? Horror of Horrors!!! I have less than 19 hours to my first paper... Hmm... reminds of what i studied for psych.. this internal turmoil that is telling me to do stats and study psych and then there is ther other part of me who wants to go online and stuff... Hahaha....

*Gillian.. Go do stats! Don't Blog!*
Me: Ya.. Real soon....

Got mack one of the grades for my module... Quite satisfied with it.. now for the other 4.. .Hahaha... Have been getting B minus-es for psych... so not having my hopes too high... 80 MCQS!!! !Lemme reiterate my point! I hate papers with a lot of mcqs!!! 80 is way too much... after mugging psych the whole of last week, started doing stats yesterday.. and doing today... I feel so much better working with numbers (though i make a lot of careless mistakes) than looking at words.. Not that I don't like psych.. but I get a bigger sense of acheivement when I get the correct answers.. hahaha.. I'm narcissistic.. I need reassuarance and these little things to make me feel good... Mwahahaha....

Ok.. 1 more afternoon of stats and tonight I'll be mugging psych.. Still got 1 big chunk in the middle untouched.. and I don't exactly feel like touching them... Mwahahaha...

Oh ya.. i hope i can wake up tmr.. Morning Paper!!! DarN!!!! I wake up at 11 everyday.. if it happens tmr.. I'm mightily screwed... =)

Shout out: All the best to everyone who has exams....

Mugging is the latest, coolest and most 'in' word!!! If you think so too, welcome to my world!!!

The dreaded 'E' word is here again... All the Best to people taking exams!!! It'll be over soon... Friday!!!

Anyway, just wanted to register a post on how I seriously can't believe some of the lucridous and weird theories some famous psychologists come up with!!! Yes!! The whole point is that they became famous from that theory!@!~! Bah! I can also come out with crap like the Oedipus complax and whatever in this case...

Hahaha... i think the thought psychology has consumed too much of my brains.. sadly... It's almost 4! WoW! Record... Great.. need to adjust my Circadian rhythm (another psych term for body clock) back in time for exams...

I can't seem to republish my blog.. Oh well.. figure it out later.. shall nap then go study... and I'm in school.. Hahaha.... everyone around me is mugging.. only my in front of my ocmputer playing games... Oops....

I spent a rather fruitful afternoon in school mugging.. and well.. crapping .. Hahaha... But at least i did sth.. and i spent the rest of the night playing some lousy game (Heroes 3) and I still can't pass that elusive last level. Bah! What a waste of my time! Should have played my stupid cow game instead...

FYI, Heroes is basically a war game whereby you gotta build your troops and fight with opposing troops controlled by the computer... And my hero got killed.. SaD... maybe I should try it after my exams...

blogger takes eons to load nowadays... so wols... Tmr will be another of mugging in the school lib.. and i better go sleep like now.. tmr got lesson (Psych review) at 9 am!!! THAT is FREAKING early!!! considering my be dtime is from 3 to 11 the last few days...

Made up my mind not to go Hong Kong.. Bah! Too many uncertainties and doubts! Hope I don't regret.. well, too late even if I do... Mwahahaha....

Karaok-ing is therapeutic i tell you!!! If only it will be cheaper...

Was thinking of going carolling. It is like some part of my life liaoz... but then again, it's like I dun even keep in touch with any of them... So? Go and be a loner again? Sighz... i hate that!!! So bloody no point lor... den make small talk to people I know? Meaningless.. seriously reconsidering my decision... maybe if i'm optimistic, then suddenly, our frequency and wavelength will be on the same level and we will talk normally? Bah!

Ironic now that I think of it... I think I am closer to someone whom I just met in uni (ie for about 3 mths) as compared to some other people I know for 2 years... Sad huh? Different attitude? I suppose so... It is just me... too bad for you if I have don't have a good first impression of you...

I feel guilty... I know it is no big deal going blog surfing... But I feel like a lousy voyeur reading about people's life.. and interestingly, the blogs i'm reading are of people who have once been part of my life... I wonder if any of them will ever stumble or would have stumbled onto my blog or not...

Part of my life... yeah... never keep in touch with a lot of the liaoz... not even close in the first place.. those hi-bye frens I suppose though i think some of them would have been nice people to noe... too bad i'm dao... mwahahaha...

Was in town today.. and i saw this pri sch cum piano fren... but din say hi cause i'm quite sure she won't noe hu I am.. anyway not as if it would make a very big difference... But i just marvel at how easy it is to know people.. yet how hard to keep them as friends... Like how many cliques do you have? How many different group of people do you mix with?

Forgive me... i'm in a rather cynical mood today... I've had my shaer of fun.. Now i've gotta start mugging for exams... Oh ya.. and my paper... It is interesting to note that for the past few years, I never had to write reports and papers... Now... a 20 page essay... But then again, it is quite interesting to write. I feel that i express myself better with words... plus I can't really like give a speech for nuts sake... I'm loving it...

So it is 2.55 and you can still hear me at my laptop going 'tippity-tap, tippity-tap...' Hard at work? It is up to you to guess... :)

my psycho notes... Ok.. I'm bored... 

Ok.. here is a pic of the slipper... Hope it comes out right... 

Eulogy to my Trusty Ol' Slippers

It's been a good many months... You, brown slippers from Accessories, gotten from a sale... You have been with me through thick and thin, wet and dry... You have served me well, shielding my feet from the dirty floor... However, signs of old age was showing. First, the sequins fell out but by bit. Later thread started running. However, the last straw was when you no longer held up on wet ground, making it easy to slip. It is time you took a good rest. I promise I will call upon your services if I need it in future... Rest Well....




Trusty Ol' Slippers

The beautiful view from Pasir Ris Park 

I realised my blog has been in existence for about 1 and a half years...

and guess what.. I'm still whining... Was looking through my archives.. the only difference is that I don't post that many quizzes anymore... and I don't apologise for not blogging in a long time... Lalala...

I'm still aching.. though not as badly from saturday... went to learn cycling.. Though I haven't mastered the art of it yet.. I'm sure I will soon.. anyone wanna go cycling this weekend again? hahaha... Though my leg is full og red spots, they are surprisingly not very itchy... Yeah.. but blueblack appeared... Must have knocked my leg into the pedal too often... Hahaha...

Photos will be uploaded soon... after I clear my stats assignment....

Hahaha... I haven't felt the joy of doing maths for a long long time.. I remember the countless tutorials... Especially statistics... at least 10 questions from the TYS... That was the norm. Now, I'm doing stats homework due tmr (or rather, later today since it is 12 plus liaoz...) I've finally became last minute! I miss maths... I think many of you would think I am nuts.. but i seriously derive pleasure from solving a challenging maths question. Which was why I preferred mechanics to stats because the questions were harder. Stats questions are more repetitive.. Just like what I am doing now... Ok.. I shall stop my debate on maths... Now, I have to concentrate on readings, and readings and papers and reports... No more (or rather, less of) racking my brains over challenging questions... No more deriving pleasure when I solve a super hard question. It is a matter of time before I return all that I have painstakingly learnt and practiced, the formulas that I've memorised to my teachers...

Okiez.. back to my homework...

I slept for 13 whopping hours!!! Hur hur hur... Refreshed... Err.. not really refreshed... esp after 5 presentations in the morning... got err.. 10 more now???

Kerry's losing! Okiez.. I dun even know why I am so interested in the politics of a foreign country that I have no part off.. Maybe it is due to the fact that we don't vote here... (not much anyway).

School's almost out... I got 2 8.30 days next semester.. wish me, someone who can't even wake up for 10 am lessons good luck!

Almost at the end of my first semester, wrapped up my final presentation today... Now for my political science paper and 2 exams to go... Looking back, I felt that time just flew by... How we concluded our projects and how I survived my presentations... applying what I've learnt, sth different from the science and maths I've been working on for the past 10-12 years of my education. It has to do with my faculty I guess.. psychology and political science... It is sth that we had no contact with at all... and now, I see things from different perspectives, read more into things... Hahaha...

I need a life! I've been way to stressed over my grades.. I need to re-evaluate my life! What I want!!! Sianz....

hahaha... i think medicine that causes drowsiness makes me damn high!!! Hahaha... I overdosed on my vough mixture today.. and I'm super high now... Oh wells.. i need the euphoric effect cause i got a bloody long day.. Sianz...

Hahaha.... 1 more presentation... Sat going out!! I'm finally gonna learn cycling!!!

I'm lacking in topic to write.. blog about.. whatever.... Maybe cause all my entries seem to be complain-y about school... <-- Means i got nth much to complain about school... Yay!!!

Should blog about brighter, cheerier topics.. Like???

Hols are coming!!! I should be going for carolling I think... But now i'm just croaking away...

Haha.. It's over!!! It's over!!!

no more breaking out in cold sweat, no more sweaty palm... and no more individual presentation... at least for this term...

next term's timetable sucks... got lessons either at 8.30 or end at 6.45... gotta analyse and see how to plan my timetable... I want a free day!!!

Whoever decided that school must start in the morning? WHO decided that we should only haf 24 hrs a day??? Bah! I need more time...

Stupid, mugging, presentation week...

3 more days to FrEEDOM!!! 24 hours to individual presentation.. Booz...

How scary can it get???

Good morning Ladies and Gentlemen.. this is Gillian Koh from .... Thank you for your time, Good bye...

I feel so LiBeRaTED!!! Woo Hoo!!! I declared today 'No-School Day'!!! *Streamers and balloons*

Haha... did the above like give you an insight of the inside state of my mind now??? Crappy as usual... Finally ponned stats... After 10 weeks of school.. I honestly din know why it was so hard to pon lesson when I started uni when last time I have no qualms about ponning like physcis lecture for the whole year??? Especially given that Stats is like zzz....

The competitiveness of the whole environment is getting to me.. Even my mum realises it... she thinks I'm giving myself too much pressure to perform well... But i dun think it is entirely my fault.. blame the culture...

I mean there were people who would say things like 'Oh... you are gonna be a threat to me" abeit jokingly, when she realised I did the same question as her for some spastic test... Like huh??? Just because I did not bad on a couple of practice letters?? Me... a C6-er for GP a threat?? Jokingly yes.... but why jokes like this??? Rubbish!!!

And how not to be competitive for modules like bloody stats cause the whole class did well?? Like 2 mistakes and i'm below average... Sigh.. I miss the 'fail-test-also-heck-care' Gillian...

Dun get me wrong.. I like my environment, my school, my modules... but I just wish I can come home and slack instead of having to meet datelines. Not to mention stupid presentations... Like huh??? But so far my profs are quite encouraging... *phew* But usual comments are not to hide in one corner and present but to stand in front of the class... Haha... training in progress...

I spend a lot of time online and most of them like crapping and chatting... and I still go for dinners and stuff... but when I'm back into my school work mode, I can go nuts...

The woes of a undergrad... 2 more weeks.. GamBate~!~

Hmmm... anyone can shed light on how come the number of posts I have on my blog does not seem to change whenever I log in although i posted new stuff?

I screwed up my bloody day lar... Or rather, i missed this meeting with one of my project mates... Sorry gal... I tot it was tmr... and she tot it was today... and I'm super screwed... Got a lot of stuff to do... Lemme indulge in a bit of good natured whining... I'm seriously so sick and tired of LiFe!!! I just wanna skip school tmr... BaH~!~

MIA... Me... Yea... synonymous...

It's too early to blog sth... Was too ambitious to drag myself up bright and early for stats lesson... at 8.30... Bah.. shouldn't have slept at 230... Whoever who ruled that lessons had to start before 10 is a moron... and I even haf trouble waking up for 10am lessons!

Attending this talk by a psychology professor on 'development' later... Went for part 1 yesterday... She made a good point that when we are going, the 'friendship' that we have with people are actually 'peerships'. As in we are all there to, in a crude way, make use of one another as we need the support from each other to develop.

Sad but true... I think back of the 'friends' i have and think of how many I actually bother to keep in touch with. How many names do I have stored in my handphone that I have never sent a message to or talked to for the past few months? Futility of human life... I'm so sick of it...

Forgive me... it is just too early in a stats class to be coherent enough... I'm looking forward to my year end break. So many things to do again... and I bet I won't even come close to completing half the things I intend to do.... Mwahahaha...

I got problem with my gmail... Booz... I'm tired... shall go sleep early.. though i doubt it'll happen... lesson tmr... zzz...

Gillian is bleary and stoned after spending hours reading napster-related stuff on her laptop... with a mixture of English, Chinese and Cantonese songs blasting from her media player... After she got her router.. you can find her plonked right in front of her lappie in her room almost every night without fail!!! WooHOo!!! Welcome to my project infested world!!!

Haha... the 1st day after the break.. Sighz... din even felt like I had a break... not bad ya... but then again, shall not complain cause I did have time to slack... Now, the whirlwind of activities, meetings, presentations and tests have started again... Wish me luck and pray that I have the strength to last another 6 weeks... :) (I'll be eternally grateful)

Contemplating getting a tag board... just that I feel that it may be under utilised... Anyway, that shall come later... Dun have the time to do all the bloggy stuff now... which reminds me that this layout is a wee bit too old too... Oh well.. these trivial stuff will have to wait!!!

Sighz... so disgusted at the way Singapore Idol has turned out.. but Hey.. it is like my only source of entertainment on TV nowadays... The rest are spent in front of my com lar... Haha... Are they tone deaf?? Or does it just prove a point that 'Money will make the World go round?' Hmmm.. if they didn't charge such an exorbitant price for one vote... I'll gladly vote... but 50 cents iS a bit TOO MUCH!!! That is 2 Macdonalds ice cream cones lor...

Okiez... Enough crapping... Long day tmr... proj meeting and studying for stats... and going out to buy clothes.. Gonna burn a big hole in my pocket.. SoBz...

Hmmm... how fast 7 weeks can change a person... Yeah.. Me! I'm descending into the realm of muggerhood fast and furiously... I have a stats test next fri and I'm actually *GoSh* contemplating muGGing for it now... when in the past I'll just start the day before the test or sth... Plus given that it is stats... which what I have learnt is nothing compared to what I was trying to do 10 months ago for A levels... oh.. which seems so distant now... Oh well.. Actually i dun think I'll get down to it today.. But i'll start soon... Maybe it is just seeing the people around you and the things they are doing are affecting you... LiFe! It is all about competition.. Sad but true.. But i'm so glad for this break.. at least I have time for myself instead of just for projects...

had a good time yodelling my lungs out yesterday... Singing is thereupatic! I miss singing... Wish i could harmonise though...

Heh Heh... I'm in a pleasantly good mood today... Feeling happy and satisfied for not really good reason... (I mean when you still have 1 more presentation to go and 1 more project meeting, how happy can you get? ) Haha.. But i'm feeling so happy now... Maybe it has to do with the fact I just woke up from a well-deserved nap~!~

Yay!!! I look forward to friday.. then I can get a break... Yes.. I bet i'll be either back in school like half the time doing projects or trying to study pscho. (we started on social psychology today and I think it is sooooo... interesting!) Haha... and stats.. got test after mid term.. but like finally, all the group project stuff is almost done (still got lar.. but not that bad) At least I know I won't get so pissed with myself! =)

Hmmmm... I found someone who likes to b*tch too!! So we were like dissing our proj mates cause they can get annoying at times.. but let's not go into too much elaboration here... I mean I'm not gonna shoot them the next time i see them or sth lar.. we still can work... and let's just leave it at that...

Mamma Mia!!! Going on Sunday!! Yay!!! And i got the tix at student price.. worth it lar... i think the show would be good...

'Dancing Queen, young and sweet, only 17...'

Haha... I will be find soon... as soon as after tmr... serious!!! =)

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I am sitting in my political science class, wondering why I am blogging instead of listening to him.. actually he's talking crap lar... so not tt bad... Hohoho... long day today... Will the end of the week come soon?

Gillian is bleary eyed after attending an 8.30 am lecture/seminar.. whatever... yes.. i know i shouldn't be complaining cause some people do have lessons at 8.. but I'm very tired... waiting for project meeting at 11.... but it also means I can go home and sleep after that.. yay!!! In the midst of creating yet another powerpoint presentation... Hip Hip Hooray... Bleahz.... at least this one will be put to use...

zzz... zzz... zzz...

Gillian is in a freaking bad mood after spending 4 hours on a project meeting in the sweltering heat.. And I am very certain the heat was not the main culprit!!!

Allow me to indulge myself in some good natured whining!!! How would you feel when something you spent 6 hours on a sat afternoon doing was flushed down the toilet bowl and washed into the deep blue sea??? Yes.. like what I am feeling now... freaking pissed... Actually I learnt a lot from doing the movie on sat... but that is inconsequential! It was like they didn't even give a bloody damn about what I did... and changed the whole concept of the presentation... Tell me why then did I stay back for 3 hours last wednesday discussing the same presentation when all the ideas we discussed were thrown out of the window!?! I mean you could at least read the minutes and consider our suggestions before tossing them out... or hear what we had to say instead of coming up with a brand new action plan yourself!!! And cut the crap about the 'group' deciding on certain aspects when 3 persons went out to get lunch for a couple of minutes...

Woo~!~ I feel so much better now... I could have screamed my head off la... Anyway, got back my horrendous psycho test.. did better than I expected... Mwahahaha... and I'm gonna get 1 more mark! Cause she marked wrongly... which brought my total up by 1 grade! Yay!!!

Hmmmm.. i"m mightily amused!!! I'm currently in the school library trying to kill time and charging my laptop batt and supposedly looking for info for my political science paper and obviously chatting on msn... I'm sitting in those cubicle-liked seat... suppose to aid concentration... but i udn think it works... andyway, that's not the main point... ade msn-ed me regarding the politicla science paper... and then i realised she was also in the lib studying!!! Den ar... She was just at the next aisle... as in we were sitting diagonally face to face... Seperated by a wall... not bad huh?

"You!!! Supposed to be studying!!! Not blogging!! or Chatting!!! Go! Go! Go!!! you got loads of stuff to do!!!"

Oh.. that was just my conscious trying to get me to turn off my msn and to start surfing for information and not useless stuff.... Sianz... i know it is lame.... but yeah... my brains are fried... actually, I haven't been myself since the psycho test on Wed.. I need a good long sleep.... and must be REM sleep... oh well.. nvm.... psycho stuff...

Getting into action for my project later.. that's why i'm in school... I'm feeling horribly guilty cause i have been taking a lot of cabs to school.... Haha.. I shall cure myself of the bad habit soon....

Just added lyrics of 'Everytime' at the side... Dunno... just think it is a poignant song... Anyway, i think i need to change the layout of my blog...

Hmmmmm.. I'm back... after being silent for errr... 9 days... More on the idiosyncrasies going on in my oh-so-busy life... just woke up from a well-needed nap... i think my muscles are stiff and not coordinating cause i have some problems typing... Oh well... it's been an emotional and draining (or issit emotionally draining yet i dun think it was dat emotional.... maybe physically draining ba...) day...

Lemme whine about the psycho test i had... 70 MCQ QUSTIONS!!!!! ARGHHH!!! NUTS OR WHAT??? Still got 3 essay questions.. all in the span of 90 MINS!!! Hmmm... feels much better after that ranting.. Oh well... which means I dun harbour very high hopes of doing exceptionally well for this particular test.. and i better start studying for the next one... (okiez.. just kidding.. given my slack nature.. I'll start thinking about the next one when it draws nearer... speaking of which, I dunno when it'll be lar... ) *Poof!* There goes 20% of my final grade...

Other than that, I think I'm coping pretty well given the perils of being in a project-based, American styled university... My project presentation today was not exactly great but passable, and most of them are quite on schedule i think...

I miss people!!! My timetable clashes with the rest of the world like crazy... or have i whined about this before... Anyway, there is nth good on tv anymore... There's Amazing Race later... but i just read the synopsis of today's episode.. Shhhh.... Just felt bored ma... Anyway, gotta do reading for political science... Been spending too much time on project meetings and studying for the psycho test...

I need to get a grip on my life... it's slipping away from me... being buried under the piles of work... which reminds me i gotta start filing up all my notes soon... they are in stacks in my room... So what else is new?? I'm glad i took the time out to watch 13 going on 30... Not a fantastic show.. but ok for the $6.50 I paid... Absurd I guess... Haha... but it was fun just chilling out... Hmmm... and Collateral died... i tot it'll be on longer since Tom Cruise acted in it... Maybe they chose to release it at the wrong time....

I need to prioritise and organise... which i suppose means not spending so much time at my favourite spot typing silly things like this into the computer... I take my hat off to those who wants to run for SA, join tons of CCA and still seemingly cope rather well with their workload... *Envious* I wonder how they do it... maybe they dun spend as much time slacking like I do... but well... I NEED A LIFE... Even if they dun...

I just scrolled up and spotted a million spelling errors which is like way off... not just pressing the wrong buttons... my fingers just refuses to type what my brain is thinking... or there is sth wrong with it's 'aiming' skills today... Hmmm.. I do have an theory about what is happening after extensive study of the brain.. but i shall not bore you with the boring facts... see.. gibberish again...

Okiez... I'm dying to go ktv and belt out a song or two.... for maybe a couple of hours... any takers?

Thanks Empress for the wonderfully delicious lunch yesterday... but we really must go eat chilli crab one day!!! Argh!! Got craving...

Anyway, just spent today discussing project again.. Yeah.. wad else to do esp when you are in a project based environment right?? Finally got everything trashed out, a plan! a programme to sell to people!!! except that errr.... we have to get a letter to the organisation signed by Wed 12 noon and we haven't really got an affirmation from that particular organisation we approached... *cross fingers* Mwahahaha... you just need that spark to set a ton on bricks on you and all the ideas will be forthcoming and wadever.. Haha...

Anyway, as Spy is busy mugging for her psycho test... Hmmm.. i also gotta start doing my assignment... Bleahz.. got a whole load of backlog! Irritating! Loads of reading... And i figured i better start paying attention in stats class... (ie, not attempting to blog in class) Maybe i should even keep my laptop closed...

Haha.. and i figureda new way to take note! Laptop!! Den at least i wun have to read my horrendous handwriting esp when i'm like on the verge of falling asleep!

Finally replaced my pencil case today.. Got a yellow one... Bright huh?? But ok lar... can put all my stuff... Oh ya.. andi got photos to upload.. but tt gotta wait till maybe fri?? unless nth crops up out of the blue tmr after stats like today.. Haha... Tot i could get home by 2 today.. but got home barely an hour ago... Haha... Like i say and i reiterate my point - the perils of studing in a project based environment!!

Oh.. I got my locker liaoz... the only problem is... i dun seem to have anything to put inside.... Hooray! Wad a waste of moolah~!~

I'm a naughty girl today.. I'm blogging in my stats lessons!!! Mwahahaha... oh well... there is this certain element of guilt.. but i have my laptop in front of me and i'm trying to download some security pack... so hmmm... might as well right... probability... Sianz... shall go home and nua later... i feel so proud of myself... i actually finished one article for my political science readings!!! Hooray!

Oh ya... and i forgot to mention that the lighting at Zouk creates this luminous effect on white/light coloured stuff... so some ppl would wear white and attract attention lar... but some had quite a nice effect to the clothing. and from my frens, my brown hair looked grey... and my eyes looked weird... Haha... oh! your teeth gets illuminated too... Haha.. quite freaky though...

Speaking of clothing, i dunno wad to say.. maybe i'm conservative or sth.. but there were a few ppl who just erm... wore practically nth?? Try picturing a halter top that has a plunging neckline, tied only at the back, and just covers your bra... Hmmmm... I bet my mum'll kill me if i ever dare wear sth like dat out of the house....

Oh ya.. and to continue my clunning experience... Hmmm... saw the 'ugly' side of it as well... there was this girl who was being carried out by a guy... dunno if she fainted or was too drunk or sth.. quite unsightly la... not to mention she was wearing a skirt... so erm... was quite exposed...

Den there was puke on the floor... haha... and i heard someone i met was so dead drunk, her friends had to bring her out for a walk...

Hmmm... But i think dancing can burn calories... imagine bouncing to music for like 1 hour without realising that time actually passes so quickly... But it was the sea of people tt was quite scary... you just get pushed around and squashed when ppl try to walk past...

If you wanna just go clubbing for the alcohol, you might as well go to a pub/bar... at least there got nice music... clubbing more for dancing lar... you can't hear each other above the loud and heavy music... so no point trying to have conversations... haha... experience la...

Cubbing Experience:

Haha.... Went to Zouk yesterday... freshmen bash!Well, what would you say to a mass of people, sticking close to each other bobbing/bouncing to the music?? It was fun... the music they played was very loud and you can hear the thump of every single beat... Not to mention the place was generally dark with the occassional spotlight flashing...

I've decided to revert to my old layout.. sick of the white one and i dun have time to go source for more skins... Haha... not to mention my creative juices are squeezed dry... so tadah! Colour my world people!

No more Olympic mania for me... now, it's back to school, work, projects and more projects...
Bah!

What i disappointment.. Khorkina's routine during the uneven bars finals was disrupted and it ended her quest to be the 1st gymnast to win the event 3 consecutive times or sth like dat.. Sianz... but i suppose that's how the sports arena is like... you win some, you lose some.

Ok.. i think I'm over olympics liaoz cause the events lined up for the next week looks quite boring.. Sigh... after the long 4 year wait, it's gonne be over in 2 weeks and we gotta wait for another 4 years... Beijing 2008! not bad huh???

This Olympics... stars: Michael Phelps!!! he's like the most promising guy out there...

Shall spend my time catching up on my readings... the brain is a complicated organ... and the argument about brain and mind is like some philosophy thing... it goes in circles!!! which reminds me, i gotta start reading this 60 over pages thing for political science...

IN school now, making use of their electricity to charge my laptop battery and to use the net here... mwahahaha!!! staying behind for some gathering for band... still dunno wad to join.. but just trying things that i have an interest in...

Stats earlier was a bore...

OK.. i stand to be corrected.. i think they are showing!! Yay!!! and i better get out of the house like now!!!

I'm going to the airport, the airport, the airport... I'm going to the airport to eat Swensons!!! Haha... ok.. i know that's quite lame... But yeah... really looking forward to the trip to the far far east later!~! Speaking of which, i better make this entry short and sweet cause I'm gonna be late if i dun... Haha...

Yeah... stayed awake till 4 last night getting tennis updates.... Bah!!! Mediacorp, the official Olympics Channel decided not to show the women's semifinal match between Justine Henin Hardenne and Anastasia Myskina... choosing instead to show like 2 female soccer matches!!! Arghz!!!! So I was getting the results via some chatroom... and it was a vey epic match!!! But Justine won!!! Yay!!! She was on the brink of defeat.. but fought back like crazy!!! Hahaha....

Oh.. and Svetlana Khorkina didn't manage to win the Gold for All- Around... Gotta admit though tt Pattison (the winner's) floor routine was only slightly better... Haha.. I'm biased... but i think there is some bias in the judges scoring.. but I'm also not a trained judge.. so i would not know.. Haha... she has one more event left! The Uneven Bars finals!! I hope she gets Gold... I remembered that last Olympics, she fell off the uneven bars during the team finals... scary can~!~ HAha... Phelps!!! Stunning victory in the 100m butterfly!!! Darn.. today swimming last day liaoz... Tennis women singles finals also today... OH ya!! Did i mention that I dun think Mediacorp is showing it again... Bah!!!

Athens OLYMPIC round-Up!

Oh no!!! Susilo crashed out of the Olympics! Darn! and it was a good chance for him to get a medal since all the top seeds were out... guess it's not meant to be... but yeah.. could see from his face that he was very tired... ther ewasn't this *sparkle* or fight back or anything... but yeah... too many times, the shuttlecock just bounced off the net... Sianz..

Singapore medal hopes are now on Li Jiawei... Haha.. couldn't stand her Jap opponent yesterday... Her opponent was yelping and screeching at almost every point and it was annoying~!~

I lurve gymnastics! but only watch the women's competition... see how graceful they can be... my fav apparatus is the uneven bars... yeah... mainly cause Svetlana Khorkina of Russia is known as the 'Queen of Bars' Haha... she's gunning for her 3rd consecutive GoLd on uneven bars... but seems like she's facing some tough competition... I liked her since Sydney 2000... Lurve her gracefulness and the fact that she has managed to become a successful gymnast even though she is 1.64 m.. too tall for a gymnast... I think she's a 5 time European all-round champion or sth... Not to mention this is gonna be her last Olympics... I hope she will do well in the Individual all round and for the uneven bars finals... Jiayou!!!

And yeah... tennis... Justine Henin Hardenne from Belgium is on course for her 1st Olympic Gold after being out of competition for the past 4 or 5 mths... She was down with a virus infection or sth.... but there are still tougher opponents out there... I like her cause she's short for a tennis player but she can still outplay her taller and more powerful opponents! Way to go Juju!!!

Hmmmm... i just realise i admire ppl who can outdo their competitors even though they are physically disadvantaged... (Like Khorkina being a tall gymnast and Justine a short tennis player...)

But yeah... so i MUST mention this.. last night's amazing race!!! Charla and Mirna got eliminated... can't say i like them a lot... but i really take my hat off to Charla... She set out to show the world that despite being struck with a form of dwarfism, she is still able to go all out and compete!!! I admire her courage, her tenancity, her strongwill and everything... but can't stand her team-mate though... really cannot make it lar... it's like she's always whining and moaning and to a certain extent, she pushes ALL the roadblock that she doesn't want to do to Charla... I dun remember her doing a lot of Roadblocks... Charla did the eating choco, went underground and ate ostrich egg... and Mirna sort of 'forced' Charla to choose the Roulette detour in the very first episode cause she seems to be some addict... Yeah... and i din like the fact Charla made use of her dwarfism to get airline tickets first...

And i think Charla and Mirna keeps thinking that the other teams look down on Charla's handicap but it does not seem like the case... They feel tt other teams are up to no good and everything.. and Mirna was b*tchy enuf to ask the ticketing guy not to give the rest of the groups any tix.... Seems like a very malicious person lor... But not tt Colin and Christie were not at fault... but yeah....

Later they are showing tennis and gymnastics on TV!!! Yay!!! yeah.. betta go do my research and hw first...

Hmmm... i seem to enjoy staying in school.. it's the 2nd day in a row tt i find myself in the school lib tapping away at my laptop... Haha.... but yar... maybe to make travelling here worth it ba... and i htink like i'm hoggin 1 table on my own.. not that i'm complaining.. den can shun bian charge my battery here... just hope it will charge up soon.. i also wanna go home... got some psycho reading to do...

Stats lect today was a bore... reading from the notes.. i also know wad.. sianz... and i was late... lesson: never wear heels when you intend to be just on time cause you may be stuck in a rickety old bus and ya.. gotta rush up a stupid hill.... ok.. luckily the prof haven't started yet... and i wasn't the last.. so i'm not exactly complaining...

Dunno wad CCA to join.. there are several meetings occurring later today... but i dun even know wad i wanna join!!! Sianz.. wondering if i wanna go for tt.. but ya... want to do a million and 1 thing... anyway i can always join them next term wad right?? Haha... den wanna go for some toastmasters thing.. but it's till 9.15 tmr.. Bleahz... thurs i got long day somemore. so still contemplating...

Ok.. i realise tt was very much just gushing about my timetable... but ya... though i'm doing 5 modules but i think the load is still ok leh... But i enjoy the time i have... can go socialise.... but though i see ppl i know, invariably, we are just reduced to saying 'Hi' cause we are all with our new-found-friends... I suppose there is just this need to try and widen our social circle... be it just to have some ppl to stick with... or ppl from your faculty so we can go for classes togather... sianz...

I think i'm gonna haf to juggle my time betw diff grp of frens... there's the ppl i know from sn, the ppl from vj, ppl taking my course, ppl taking my course but diff block, my OG... sianz...

Ya.. just found out one half of the guy population in soc sc is in all my classes except for 1 i think... ya.. my direct senior from vj... but tt's not the point...

*ok.. i'm trying to chat and blog at the same time and i think it's quite hard to reconcile the 2.. but i shall try...*

Ya.. where was I??? Hmmm... ya... my courses?? oh ya.. spent a bomb on textbooks today.. i hope they are of use man.. or else it's damn waste money lor... a hundred over leh...
~!~heartpain~!~

tmr's another short day... and a late one at that... at least can save money on lunch...

HAhaha... I'm back from my 1st day of school!!! Yeah... i kinda like my timetable though it's a 5 day week cause i have quite a lot of free time on Mon, Tues and Fri... I only have 1 and a half hour long lessons.. den got time to socialise/slack and just chill around... Wed and thurs my longer days lar... but the good thing is that the lessons are 15 min apart.. so i wun get stuck in school for the whole day... some of my frens got lesson at 8.30 till like maybe 11.. den wait till 3.30 to 6.45... that's quite bad... my latest day is 5 and i got no early days!!! can't ask for more...

I'm in the school library using my laptop and the net here... sianz... I'm listening to stupid jokes... actually my lessons over liaoz.. but ya.. just stay with my OG lor... Bought books today.. spent over a 100!!! Argh!!! Can buy 2nd hand but diff edition.. might as well get new one den can sell higher next year also... Haha... but my psycho book's gonna last me for 4 years.. so not tt bad.. i think i'm going off soon.. still wanna go get a router and my laptop case.. sianz..

I wanna go for the freshman bash leh.. but dunno if got parental approval or not... sianz... wanna go with my OG... but those going are sort of chiongsters la... so a bit funny also lor... but ya... can trust them la... but failure rate quite high la... Haha...

I really gonna start appreciating a hot shower... Haha... after bathing for cold water for the past 2 days.. actually it wasn't tt bad... but in a public toilet, one can't take their own sweet time... just wanna go there and get out fast... plus the cubicles were like flooded cause i think many girls drop hair or sth...

Yuo... just came back from orientation camp... quite fun i suppose... except tt when you dun really know ur grp ppl very well initially, plus all of us sort of come from different background... so a bit had to really click... i mean we had no problem breaking the ice and stuff and they are all nice and enthu... but after a while, there will be the sports/popular ppl who will stick back with their clique, ppl will go mix with their own frens, or just diff wavelength like betw ppl from jc n poly, views on matters and stuff... so can be quite a headache... but wadeva it is, i'm glad we did stuff as a group.

Our grp showed tt we are slack but can win also lor.. i mean like which grp will wake up at 7.30 and take their time to change/fold sleeping bags in the room at 7.35 when everyone is supposed to gather at like 7.30.. a bit ridiculous rught... den we'lll just sit in our own corner and stuff... but when it came to telematch/games, can see tt we sort of all went out for it... Ya.. but dunno.. the games played weren't exactly wad i expected... i tot usually these sort of camps would haf like disgusting forfeits or games tt would haf some sexual implication but surprisingly, the games played were rather clean... the only instant i can think of is tt i sort of got 'kissed' on the lips by another gal cause i was holding a banana in my mouth and she was supposed to peel and eat it.. other than tt, it was the usual(ly stupid) stuff like dog n bone, flour games... Maybe the camp just emphasised more on promoting teamwork and stuff... cohesion, cooperation and wad haf you.

But dunno leh... gotta see a lot more ppl out there... ppl whom i would normally just steer clear cause i dun like their style like an ah lian or sth.... but i realise they are not tt bad la... btw, is there sth wrong with girls cursing??? I mean like we were playing 'Heart Attack' and then i sort of just said 'tmd' and the rest playing were like so bloody shocked. I mean i dun use them often la... but i dun exactly see wad's wrong with it lor... Or maybe i dunno the 'ranking' of such vulgarities... i mean i rather say 'tmd' than compared to threatening to 'stuff ____ up your a**" wad... but some ppl dun see it tt way... funny...

Yeah.. and some guys really dun look their age... they look very young like haven't gone into ns yet.... and they obviously never act their age la... One observation is tt guys would only like 'chio bu-s' Haha.. the guys in my grp were like scrutinising every girl they see during meal time or sth.. but they are nice lar... got treated to prata/drinks the last 2 nights... Haha!

Actually i dun mind being an ogl for the camp la... my ogl was a bit crap, disappearing half the time... but she is very nice though... Maybe as we are older also, there is no point trying to force us to do things tt we dun wanna do cause it's no pt wad...

Haha... wad a very long entry... *hey... i dun write such long entries everytime la...* i'm aching and i got a horrible tan mark cause the sun was so strong this afternoon... after it sort of drizzled... stupid right... den i was wearing berms... so can see a tan mark halfway up my thighs... but should fade soon la.. or i'll just go out in jeans or sth lor... Haha...

This camp is not very strenous... except i din get to sleep much... but tt's also pretty much by choice cause we were like free after 10 every night or sth like tt lar... but ya... went to play cards, talk crap, eat until quite late... but one thing is tt i'm very dehydrated... Haha.. maybe tt's why I'm like lighter on my weighing scale now.. Haha~!~

Anyway, i'm sort of like done here... haha... nvm...

*headache*... massive headache... bidding lor... my timetable was very nice.... 4 day week... tues to fri with the earliest at 10.15 which is perfectly ok for me.... den my intro to psychology course... bleahz... mon and wed... sianz leh... so now thinking whether i should take some perspective on politics module first which is on thurs and keep my mon free... at the same time, also dunno if i can get my stats exemption.. cause it is on 2 days... so if i get exempted, i will get 2 day free... but i dunno when the stupid stats result will be out!! Darn! Comments anyone?

Hahaha.. i cut my hair! Sorry peeps... can't upload the photo now... maybe another day... Haha... but not exactly very short... cut a fringe... and now shoulder length... can't tie now...

Lost a side of my contacts.. Grrr!!! dunno leh... was wearing it today in my right eye.. tot it went in... but den when i look up, everything blur blur one.. sianz... hope it din get stuck in the eye or sth... Bleahz.. but can't seem to find it on the floor or anywhere...

Been out with my family today.. and last night... can't remember the last time we did tt... but it is nice ya.... just crapping with my brother and sister... den talking to my mum and dad.... Haha... when we are at home, we'll just be too absorbed in our own world, doing work, on the com, watching tv and everything.. it's nice tt everyone make an effort to still have these bonding activities~!~ =)

Gonna get my timetable tmr... Hope i get my lessons arranged in a nice way.. (ie: not too early lessons and preferably a shorter week) Actually i think it is possible cause i have like only 3 or 4 modules (if I'm assigned to take English this term) den thinking of bidding for one more module which i suppose i can choose a suitable day... Thinking of doing intro to psycho..but dunno if the bidding will be very competitive... Haha....

Haha... den next time go shopping must get more presentation style clothes... heard for SMU better to have a blazer.... so may get a suit or sth... eeee!! so business-like.. but heard ppl who did business course in poly also had to go thru this sort of presentation and stuff.... I'll just play by ear.. dun think i have to do a presentation so fast ba... *cross my fingers.. and toes...*

Other than tt, i think i'm going off now... gonna play my lappie~!~ Yay!!!

Argh!!! I'm freaking out!!! Bloody hell... just saw a discussion on GPA and how to graduate with high honours and the works! Gah! I haven't even started school yet... which just leaves me to conclude - There are also nerds.. absolute NERDS i tell you, in SMU despite all the talk about us being different!

Bah! 'have a goal on mind' was one of the phrase someone used and it's SCARY i tell you.. with a capital 'S'. I haven't even figured how to bid! the courses to take and i dun even know if i can fit into their 'very-verbal' culture...

Argh!! I'm getting the 'start-of-school' jitters!!!

I hate over-enthu ppl!!! they are very intimidating... I'm talking about some ppl in this CIP project i've signed up for; arranging private meetings with the head of the organisation for dunno wad reasons... trying to get info from seniors. Ey.. should at least give the blur ppl a chance wad... Bleahz!

Argh!!! I'm bored at home again.. rotting in front of the com though i seriously think i need to get started studying for the stats test.. sianz...

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School is starting soon!!! Sorry.. i dun mean to suan the ppl who have already started.. But i'm sort of getting waves after waves of anxiety attack... I'm supposed to study for this stats test which will be held next Sat... But i've just only finished the binomial notes which is my 3rd chapter out of 15 plus i still have to read up about another topic... And not to mention pangs of anxiety... I'm worried about my bidding thingee... esp seeing how much of a headache some NUS students are facing...

Not to mention - Convocation.. gotta wear black skirt and long sleeve white shirt... go shopping again? Saw some nice black skirts at pepper plus.. but dun feel like shopping... still gotta go make contacts - the problem: dnno to go back to my optician or to go to a new one...

Parents not going for convocation... chose a meet-the parent session over it.. actually i din really mind... and now i still dun... but was on the forum just now where they were having this fervour discussion... feeling pangs of loneliness now...

Sianz.. and i sort of slack my day away.. spent half the day sleeping.. woke up at noon... and after lunch been using the com since...

Can't find the cruise photos on my com.. gotta go dig the CD up now...

Oh ya.. need to go to Sim Lim to get a laptop case for my laptop *DuH!* having complaints that it is turning dusty liaoz... Wanted to go today but it started pouring after lunch and i din wanna go after the sun came out cause i was happily seated in front of the com. Maybe i go tmr.. and shun4 bian4 get some re-writable CD... den can organise my mp3s yet again... And if i'm feeling ambitious, can go toa payoh, fix my contacts and try on the black skirt... but i still wanna look for a new blog layout... and study my stats... Oh... and i forgot my pencil case! Gah!

I realise only the newest post is of a lighter colour... dunno wad i did... or maybe it is the code... Argh!! I'm rushing for time!!!

Hmmm... still have to fine tune this new layout! Sianz... i like the serenity of this... and i can't stand my picture not loading so decided to rip sth else off blogskins... Anyway, i think there's sth diff for the font colour... it is too dark... but I'm too lazy to rack my brains to change it.. maybe another day ba.. anyway i gotta bring my sis to the doc and den go for the concert tonight... Jia You char... and should i get a tag board??? Hmmmm... wadeva.. rushing off liaoz.. tata....

It's time to say Goodbye to my trusty ol' slippers... decided to dedicate an entry to my faithful slippers. Afterall, it had braved wind, battled rain and manuvered across thousands of acres, left a mark along Orchard, Bugis and goodness-knows-where else... Haha...

Yeah... my very first pair of going-out slippers i bought with my own money.. the one that is beige with blue straps that i bought from 8 品 at Far East for $18 a couple of years back... At that time, $18 wasn't easily available to a poor school girl ma...

 
Haha.. though i admit that i sort of casted it aside after i got the brown pair of slippers from accessories and turned to wearing heels when i was working in the office... so din actually wear a lot of it around this yr...

It started disintegrating about a mth ago... First, 1 of the 6 straps of the left slipper broke... den 2 and 3 quickly followed... so i cut 3 from the right one as well... den that fateful day i was wearing it, all 3 remaining strap on the left slipper broke... so it is GoodbYe/sayonara/再见 to the slippers already lor...

I'm addicted to sleeping late.. and of course.. waking up at an unbelievable time.. Haha... saw this radio blog while blog-surfing.. looks cool... must figure how to get it! Haha... sianz... today's a nice saturday.. and I'm rotting at home... Bleahz... I'm running out of things to blog abt... sianz...  

Interested in getting the Fan Wei Chi CD.. saw it at $12.90... Cheap hor.. but quite weird since I'm not exactly a fan of hers.. see how la... but i like to buy compilations.. it has the best of a singer's songs in it...

and my picture refuses to load yet again... sianz...

Shopping List:
Sweater
Pencil Case

 

Hmmmm... one day after the hotel stay... I had an enjoyable time celebrating birthdays. Good job to the ppl who decorated the room... I like the balloons all over the floor... so pretty! Anyway, I was proven wrong,  sometimes, you just have to trust ppl... let loose and just enjoy yourself....

But saw sth, this adventurous streak in one of my frens... the result of being too sheltered and protected? Trying to experiment wile she has the chance??? I'm also not too sure... And i think I'm quite protected too.... have restrictions and curfews... somehow, i bet you wun find me in a club till I'm like 25 or sth... *somebody... prove me wrong* Haha... but i sort of like this protection though it can get quite annoying at times... How to put it in words??? It's just nice to know that ppl ard you care but when the control gets overboard, then trouble will brew la...

I've just been slacking the whole day... for 2 days liaoz... spent yesterday in front of the tv... Yes... i watched every crap show imaginable... from some taiwan drama to animal planet to i dunno... rubbish movies... Woes of a tv... Hiakz... And i caught amazing race... I conclude that identical twins tend to be a little errr.... dumb... think of Derek/Drew, 2 'himbos' from errr... 2 seasons ago and now look at Kami/Karli... i honestly can't get the "Oh no! we gotta swim across" phrase from my head... But i suppose that made it for entertainment... And i was thinking how nice it would be if i have identical twins in future... i think it is cute that they look alike and stuff.. or maybe I've been reading too many Sweet Valley books when i was younger....

Hmmmm... remind me i gotta start studying for my stats test soon... like real soon... Haha...

How many times have i found myself at this crossroads again.. doing sth that i may not condone... but still doing it for the sake of doing it?? though I've whined/bitched/complained about how stupid certain things can get, invariably, I'll just go with the flow... I'm not one who will boycott activities.. though i may come up with a thousand and one reason to say no... but in the end, I'll just say yes, go along and hope that things will work out for the better...
 
Why? I keep asking myself... is it cause i can't bear to lose this grp of frens?? but at the same time, are we really considered a grp of frens? i rather just be frens with a few individuals in tt grp and not be labelled as one big grp... I firmly believe that too many cooks spoil the broth...  
 
the smell of my dinner is wafting through the air, drawing hungry growls from my tummy... shall continue this 'insightful' entry soon... cause my thoughts are still jumbled and i dunno wad else to say...

Cb major - life is full of complecations,
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sure everything is just perfect, but sometimes
this can cause you to fall over your own feet.
A slightly unsociable key: why Cb major when
you could be the identical Bmajor? It has less
accidentals.

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Have you ever been in the situation whereby you dun exactly wanna go for sth... but haf no choice cause you have to?? And please lor... it's not only about school lar... I'm talking about recreation engagements here... hello! recreation leh... spelt r-e-c-r-e-a-t-i-o-n... suppose to go and haf a good time and slack or sth... den how come i'm dreading the coming week???

Hahaha.. gotta fork out more moolah for pressies... Hmmmm... tmr thinking of going to get my lenses... (yup spy.. finally despite your 'spectacles is the best' stand) and maybe go YCK and run and to sign up for my basic theory... Hahaha...

Or maybe i'll just nua at home.. or pass up on the jogging... (as usual)...

ok.. mi gtg first... going to bishan to take a look at my mum's new booth... ya.. so i can be made a free labour again lor... haha...

Oooohhh... and i like the quote i ripped of from some site...

"Longing to see that special someone is one of the most hurtful feelings one can encounter"

So sweet right... =Þ

I truly understand the meaning of slacking... Hahaha... just hanging loose the whole day like doing nth... And I'm getting aches from hmmm.. sleeping too much??

Heh Heh.. I'm surfing the net from this wireless connection i can get from my room... not bad huh... but dunno if safe or not... so shall try and minimise the use until I'm certain.. sianz...

You are an SECL--Sober Emotional Constructive Leader. This makes you a politician. You cut deals, you change minds, you make things happen. You would prefer to be liked than respected, but generally people react to you with both. You are very sensitive to criticism, since your entire business is making people happy.

At times your commitment to the happiness of other people can cut into the happiness of you and your loved ones. This is very demanding on those close to you, who may feel neglected. Slowly, you will learn to set your own agenda--including time to yourself.

You are gregarious, friendly, charming and charismatic. You like animals, sports, and beautiful cars. You wear understated gold jewelry and have secret bad habits, like chewing your fingers and fidgeting.

You are very difficult to dislike.

Grrrr... my internet connection is crawling at snail's pace... or tortoise... (Hmmm.. which is slower??) Maybe worm la.. Wadeva! You get the pt... dunno issit because cable is jammed as a lot of ppl watching soccer... but so bloody irritating can~!~

Sianz... tmr still gotta go open store... 1 more day... den i can slack at home... as usual... i dun think it will come true.. gotta go school on Tues... and den got a lot of social engagements to fulfil... Anyway, I hope my mum buy loads of stuff back from Thailand! =Þ

Somebody.. pls remind me soon that i have to start studying for some stupid exeption test! Hahaha... doubt I'll ever start at this rate... my notes are like in my storeroom... haven't even taken them out yet...

Can't wait to get my laptop... Tues... if everything goes well...

Did i mention that my house is invaded by like 7 of my brother's frens... Hahaha.. come over to watch soccer... not bad huh.... shall be antisocial and stay locked up in my room...

I'm bored ma.. den i think quite interesting ma... ust discover my true self.. Hahaha... anyway. just found that part quite interesting... No lor.... just that i feel bad for her paying my meal... so ya.... and i very nice one... you dunno meh??? Hahaha... watch some spasticated movie last night till 2... now my eyes can't even open... bleahz...

Haha.. I'm rotting at home todAy, trying to arrange for my class outing... and basically slacking!!! Hahaha... haven't done sth like this since the 1st monday i was off... Went for lunch with an ex-colleague today... Hmmm.. feel a bit bad for making her pay.. i shall treat her the next time round.. Still have to return her her books... anyway, was thinking of getting a gift for her.. any suggestions??? She's in her 40s... so nth too extreme...

You appear to others around you as a person who is simply 'laid back'. From time to time you shelve your ambitions and forgo the desire for prestige and recognition and you are often considered as mentally lazy. You have the ability and you are the first to know this, but you prefer to take things easy and indulge your longing for comfort and security.

Most people are conditioned by their environment and you are no exception. You are an extremely emotional person - so much so that 'the wrong word' can lead you to tears. You feel other people's pain. You feel the need of sympathetic relationships and a pleasant work environment in order to develop and grow. You are an impulsive, loving individual with a great deal of inherent feeling.

Everyone has to compromise at times and circumstances are such that at this time you are feeling the need to do just that. Put all of your hopes on the back burner and let matters flow for a time - forgo some of the things you want. The good times are just around the corner.

You are on tenterhooks and appear to be extremely nervous and upset. You are bored and you feel that life has far more to offer than this present day mundane existence. The way that you feel indicates that you have the need for a responsive and understanding relationship. You are prepared to follow up any opportunity which may present itself. However you are very choosy and you refuse to be swept off your feet unless integrity can proved to be 100% genuine. Therefore you are holding back, keeping your emotions in check because before you let down your guard you have to be sure. You are too trusting and you have no desire to be hurt again. You are responsive to conditions around you - but forever under control.

The fear that you may not be able to fulfill or realize all of your ambitions makes you work and play hard. The thought of being prevented from achieving the things you want leads you to play your part with frantic fervor.

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Note the words in bold... Sighz... looks like i can't find my significant other soon...

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Oh ya.. another of my pet peeve... To all comsumers/shoppers!!!

DON'T... I repeat.. please DO NOT call a pretty 19-yr old sales assistant 'aunty' Grrr.. makes me sound so old...Sigh... and some dun even think i am a 19 yr old.. and they ask their kids to call me aunty.. sigh...

5 things shoppers should learn about promoters

1. They won't bite!

2. They won't force you to buy sth if you dun want to.

3. Smiling at you does not have any ulterior motive.

4. They are nice people who can be easily approached... Just open your mouth to ask them... Not complain loudly hoping they will hear you.

5. They should not be taken for granted!



8 things that pisses a promoter/salesperson off (cannot make 10 ma)

1. Turning/walking away whenever a promoter approaches you.

2. Striking a deal with strangers to take advantage of a 'Buy 2 get 1 free' deal

3. Conversing to your fren in another dialect if you dun want the promoter to hear you (The promoter understands certain dialects too =Þ)

4. Dun try and bargain by telling the promoter "I saw the exact same item for $3" (when the selling price of the item is $12.50)

5. Impatient customers who can't wait! Can't they see that I'm busy...

6. Telling the promoter straight in the face that her product is no good.

7. Lying to the promoter by saying her kid is not interested when you can see the earnest look on the kid's face with big puppy-like eyes begging...

8. Referring to point 5 above: Being taken for granted!



5 things that lights up a promoter's/salesperson's day!

1. Having cute kids

2. Nice parents who appreciate what is done for the kids

3. Buying loads of stuff from him/her.

4. Passerbys returning smiles

5. People who will pay without haggling or asking their kids to choose sth cheaper to do.

I'm addicted to the Ou De Yang CD i bought on Fri... Hahaha... feeling a bit guilty for spending quite a lot of money on fri.. bought a skirt, CD, 3 pairs of earring... One soft beany cushion.. Errrr... spent a lot of money on food... what else ar???

Sigh... I'm growing into such a spendthrift... Saint~!~ Must be f-rrrrrrrrr-ug-aaaaaaaaa-l!!!!! Hahaha... I'm actually quite excited at the prospect of ending work in 3 days time... Can't wait for Sunday to come... But den it'll be a break in like my schdule... ie... wake up at 10am, read papers/catch Euro 2004 results till 10.30 then go bathe and then fill water then drag myself over.... set up for 45 min.. and then sit and wait for business to come... after that start closing at abt 8.30 like that... Hahaha...

Hahaha.. heard pizza hut offer quite good lunch deal... Any takers??? I got one more item on my shopping list... I need to buy a new pencil case... in addition to getting jeans... but dun think I'llbe getting the jeans soon.. broke liaoz... unless my mum sponser...

Empress.. just to let you know.. Italy No. 14 is Stefano Fiore.. Errr... he very cute meh??? unless it is the wrong guy la... Hahaha...

Oh ya.. about them not missing my presence.. ya.. i get what you mean.. and i won't take it the wrong way... but was just thinking if they wanna make it a group affair, den ya... but the next question is of course, are we really a group or are we trying to be a group???

Ya... i also wanna get a boyfren.. go find me one lor.. Hiakz.. where got so easy.. this sort of thing must shun4 qi3 zi4 ran2 onw...

relationships with ppl in general... cause i believe that if 2 frens dun bother to keep in touch, we'll only drift apart... and then it'll be weird to like contact the other person out of the blue or sth.. Hahaha...

Oh ya... did i mention i feel isolated from the world nowadays... I dun go out with anyone... I just focusing on opening shop, closing shop... I have countless appointments to meet... And i dun have the time... and... and... and... I feel that i may be ruining relationships cause of all these... Boohoohoo...

This i gotta record:

You are feeling really miserable at this time and you'd like to form a relationship with someone with whom you could really communicate. At the same time, whoever it may be, that special 'someone' must not conflict with your own belief system or ideals. This makes for tough going - but it would seem that the situation is only transitory. It will soon pass.

Enough is enough. Nothing seems to be working out as you would like it to and it has got to the stage where you feel as if you can't be bothered anymore. The way you feel is that it would be great if you could be cut off from everything and take it easy - be it only for a short time.

You lack confidence and that is a great pity because deep down you are indeed a warm caring person. This lack of confidence is making you wary of being drawn into any open discussion or conflict and so you feel as if you should let matters lie and leave well alone. But there may be a pleasant surprise in store for you. You are beginning to grow and very soon - sooner than you believed possible - this warm loving new you will be available for all to see and to appreciate.

Your stress and anxiety are a result of an emotional disappointment. It could well be that the emotional relationship is no longer running smoothly and you have come to the end of your tether. On the one hand you would like to free yourself from this relationship altogether, yet on the other hand, you don't want to lose anything nor risk the uncertainty of throwing away something - something that's precious, something that could be the 'Real Thing'. Perhaps for the first time in your life you really don't know which way to go and it is these contradictory emotions that are causing you the untold stress. You are pretending to the world that you don't care but even this air of pretence is causing you much heartache.

Sometimes one fears that its not worth formulating new ideas and projects because whatever you seem to have done in the past has never worked out and you are tired of, as they say, banging your head against a brick wall. No one seems to care. So now you are trying to get away from it all by withdrawing into a 'fantasy land' but unfortunately 'fantasy land' is just that and sooner or later you will have to return to reality so why delay the inevitable? When you do return, you will find that the situation is not as tough as perhaps you thought it was.

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Bleahz... Colorgenics hit it right on the head again.. I'm sick of working.. I really need a break.. Yeah.. just like what they said... And yes.. I'm bothered by some relationships... Bleahz... This sucks! I'm sort of in a dilemma now... As usual.. what else... but ya... To go or not... cause i feel that the cracks in the sructure will worsen if I do not make an appear and join in or rather, maybe the structure won't crumble... Just one side of the wall will fall... Next next point is... Do I want it to fall? cause it will take time to rebuild the fallen part again... and do i wanna rebuild it???

Hmm... ok lor... anyway, gotta make this a short entry... I can't wait for fri~!~ Yay!!! Can go shopping! I haven't looked forward to sth for a long long time.. Anyway, Spy.. are we gonna watch Shrek 2???

I'm exhausted...

Heh.. Thanks Spy... but i still gotta scroll right to be able to see the whole pict.. but nvm la... I'm happy the way it is now.. Anyway, I got the 'PaSSiOn' thing from one of those inspirational posters.. not bad huh...

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Ok.. I'm finally done ripping someone's blog off blogskins and borrowing their creative juices... Hahaha.. a bit slow... not very experienced ma...

but i like this new layout.. though somehow, it reminds me of work... all the paint and stuff~!~

Colourful... I like bright and nice colours! Simple but nice and bright! And I like the 'Passion' that phrase...

So what do you think? get down and paint me a comment! =)

I need to do sth about my indecisiveness... Haha... I'm previewing layout at blogskins... and I like all of them.. SIghz.. some ppl are just so creative... but trying to avoid those dark and gloomy ones.. lemme continue my 'skin-hunt'... Hmmm.. sounds like 'Manhunt'

Hmmm... I FINALLY GET A HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!! *jumps up and down for joy!* A beggar can't choose... tmr I'll have to return to work.. but ya... after slogging for 9 full days... Hmmm... I'm quite happy.. so updates... I got my SMU matriculation handbook together with a LOT of forms to read and fill in.. which i think I'll do later... and den, I wanna watch Shrek 2... though i still dun fathom how certain people can watch a show twice or thrice in the cinema... But i suppose that's why ppl buy VCDs and DVDs... Ok.. going off tangent now.. (yep.. i picked it up from you, Spy...)

Hmmm.. den, I'm supposed to go learn tennis, and maybe go out to sing karaoke with my JC frens... the problem now is to squeeze all of these into this lovely day that I'm off and sad to say, half of it is already gone.. *its 12.36 according to my computer clock*

Not to mention I wanna go surf the net to catch up on all the news I've missed out in the last 9 days of absence and go shopping and swimming and running and to go repair my faulty discman which has been spoilt for eons... and to eat the dim sum buffet @ Bugis and maybe to change my blog layout *i shall be lazy and rip one of blogskins... haha*

AND thus, I sadly conclude, I will not even be close to finishing half the things off my list in this miserable day where I have a paltry 6 hours left till nightfall... Maybe I should just stay at homw and slack the whole day... Darn! I haven't even had time to fully explore and utilise the straightener I got for my birthday~!~ Bleahz.. the perils of working for ppl you know and are close to whereby you have to be nice and accomodating and be taken for granted!

And there are some irresponsible ppl around who go round spreading MaLiCiOuS tales about nice ol' me... That I'm not doing my work properly and that I talk too much when I work and dun try my best to get business for my stall... Bleahz to her... I mean its like if there is no one walking around, am I supposed to like just stand there and talk to air or maybe she'll prefer that I stone? Hmmmm... just so to shift the blame that it is not their fault that our business is not as ideal... Not as though I am under her jurisdiction anyway... different companies what... why does she care about what I do? Argh!!! Stupid ppl...

I suppose I'm not as explosive as I should be since this happened like 2 days ago and I'm sort of over it... Haha...

I feel so isolated from the rest of the world... My only schedule of everyday is to go open shop, stay there for hours and close shop... Go home and stone till I sleep.. totally no life man~!~ But i suppose if I end at 9 everynight, who can I find to go out with me? Anyway, like all shops are closed already.. so a bit no point right...

And yes!!! I wanna go eat chilli crab with mantou!

Hmmm... so do I get killed for what leader i am similar to???

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Dear Gillian (Angel)...

Sighz... what;s wrong with you being so nice and stuff!!! You should go for a break man!!! Not being stuck like 10-7 *10 hrs a day, 7 days a week) working!!! Bleahz!!! What about the things you wanna do??? The shopping trip huh? The slack at home and sleep days huh? The days when you can use the computer for as long as you want and play your games.. You dun have a life now!! So go get one!!! Ya.. I realised... you can't! Grrr... why are you so nice??? Trying to handle everything yourself... Go opposite and catch mosquitos everyday... Bleahz... and have to babysit and entertain kiddos... Hrumph!!! No time for Great Singapore Sale... No time to watch movies like Shrek 2 and Harry Potter... Ok.. not that I'm that interested anyway... but no time to go out!!! I wanna go out!!! AND YOUR EXERCISE REGIME!!! YOU! YOU! YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh well... I'm gonna get the hell out of here... Sigheth.. do things your way la...

Gillian (Devil)

I think I'm becoming a baby-sitter... or a child-sitter.. whatever... there are some ppl who just leave kids at the stall to do colour art and then disappear for hours to either go shopping, have coffee or do their hair.. Haha... not bad huh... and I'm turning into an entertainer... not bad.. trying to talk to them and play ridiculous games which i think i played last time when i was younger...

I sigh... for the fragility of frenship.. or maybe it wasn't even there in the first place =(

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Just took the colougenics test.. Well... quite true again.. feeling crappy now.. dunno what i wanna do... Just saw some not-very-nice news.. Ok la.. that's how i feel about it.. Someone i dun really like cause of her sucking-up ways and attitude.. got somewhere... and well.. gotta admit she's capable.. but its just a personal thing... but i sort of already have no connection with the ppl from there... I'm some sort of an obscure person... Haha...

Anyway. i have this penchance for calling into radio stations... or rather, this particular radio station.. dunno why.. but just seem to get a cheap thrill out of it... Haha... Found out this weekend dj is actually my senior.. Hahaha.. quite amusing i suppose.. but i think I'm just too bored and sick of life the way it is.. trying to get some kick ma...

maybe after next week, I'll be back to normal la... afterall, it's my last week there.. Ya.. den I'll be busy trying to meet up with people I know... and to try and shed those extra pounds... Well.. that's what i hope to achieve... but i dunno.. everything seems so uncertain now... I may or may not get this job which will tie me down for another month or so... Maybe it is the uncertainty of how i will feel into the last week of my job.. sth that I have held on to for the past 4 months.. No more having this clockwork-like routine which requires me to wake up on the dot and slog my guts out for the whole day... but at the same time, I worry about how the week will progress... I have a feeling it's gonna be a particularly stressful week... with lots of things to clear... and trying to meet up to my bosses expectation when I can hardly wait to get out of my job...

And not to mention, my birthday is coming.. Haha... ok.. that was out of point... Actually, not really... I have to work on that day.. which actually doesn't really hold much of any special meaning or sth to me.. I mean i suppose it'll be just another day...

Senseless ramblings into noon on a Sunday... I haveto get going now... will take to train to the far east... Hahaha... until another time, toodles ppl... (actually i dunno how many ppl are actually readin this... voyeurs... annonymous & invisible ppl...)