Today is packing day... well.. cause my laptop's not with me... Ya.. this 'packing' thing occurs at a few predicatable times a term only... See... I pack my stuff usually the weekend of the term break.. then after that I'll pia for projects and tests, after which my notes, papers and stuff will be strewened all over the place... Then I'll consolidate them during the study break week... and finally, file them up one fine day after exams (like today!)

Actually I'm still left with Social Psych... but now the thing is questioning the usefulness of filing things up. What are the odds of me ever referring to them anyway. Things like democracy? BGS? Hmmm.. at least for psychology stuff, it may come in handy one fine day... but then the rest are like...

Just like the pile of 'A' level materials.. Yes.. I religiously filed everything away. I have lik3 or 4 files for Maths alone cause it was for 2 subjects.. btu I don't even see myself referring to them anymore! And I think keeping like Maths stuff is not much of a use. But then... I can't bear to throw them all away leh...

Ya... I realise I still have some of my MEP notes... and Lit notes... Hahaha.. don't ask me why I still keep them... But it is not as if I'll ever need to know the character analysis of Scout from To Kill a Mockingbird or about the plot of Romeo and Juliet!

So I keep a lot of junk (or rather, memories)... and I'll accumulate even more over the years. And them I'll start throwing some away to make room for the newcomers. and I forsee that this cycle will continue!

After spending the afternoon playing this game, with music churning out via Windows Media Player, I conclude that my Wondows media player is a fan of Jay Chou and Avril Lavigne.

Why so?

Simply because it played a few other Jay's songs and in particular 世界末日 at least twice... Yeah... I remember cause of the screaming part. Ditto for Avril Lavigne. It seems to appreciate her 'Thing's I'll never say' Play count stands at 15!

And my player is on shuffle. And out of the tons of song I have, the player picks song by a few selected artistes. Hmmm.. Looks like I have a choosy player.

Anyway, if you like investigation-like, who-dunnit games, the above game can be quite interesting. Basically you take on the role of an investigator. Fine. I'm just too bored at home cause after a while, the game gets a little boring. It's kind of like those point-and-click games.

Oh... got back all my grades for this term. Happy.

I really enjoy snuggling in bed and reading a book... Missed that feeling.

Had durian and rambutan for supper... Ok.. not exactly supper.. but I ate them like 5 mins ago... Haven't eaten durians in AGES! Ooh... the soft, creamy flesh... Yummilicious! And the rambutans were sweet!!!

Oh ya.. remember what I wanted to blog about liaoz... went for an OG gathering yesterday.. That is like when I haven't seen them around much in school... But it was fun... BBQ in faraway Jurong... Well, crappy OG group... but it was fun... and 终极密码 seems to be 'THE' game to get people to eat all the leftover food...

Oh.. did I mention that there was a CUTE Golden Retriever puppy called Casper!!! Ahahaha... ok.. now I think I will go back to my book...

I'm finally to start to feel that the laptop is not number 1 priority!

Walked to Novena Square just now to get some stuff from Cold Storage... Saw this group of people doing line dance there... I guess they are there every Thursday. Been seeing them for quite some time...

Well, it just reminds me of St Nicks... Anyone still remembers how to do the line dances? Well.. still haven't found a job.. But I'm also not looking for one that actively. If you all have lobang let me know!!!

Anyway, borrowed 2 DVDs from Esplanade Library - Kate & Leopold and My Big Fat Greek Wedding! Yeah.. had to upgrade my membership.. but I figured it was worth it.. $21 for a year's membership. Then can borrow scores too...

But then... not earning money liaoz still go and spend money... Sigh...

Nevermind.. I've got books and scores and movies to entertain me!

Gillian is hungry tonight... And Gillian woke up without a headache today. =)

I want to go sleep.. but my sister is still mugging... (she has mid terms this week!) Shall stay up with her... Ok.. maybe I just refuse to sleep...

Looking at my sis mugging for chinese, it just reiterates the point that no matter how MOE tries to change the syllabus, the mugging component to memorise the words will never disappear. If it is not important, would the teacher bother to give the class 听写 as a form of revision the day before her mid terms? Would the school make them buy a book full of essays to read thru them? Ya.. I bet they read it to memorise the 成语 used in the essays...

SO many changes implemented, yet it seems as though nothing has changed...

how to make a blog a happy blog?

Went for a talk by a guy from World Bank. I guess.. unless you are particularly intersted in helping poor countries develop their economy through policies or implementation of new ideas, and making sure that money (to the tune of MILLIONS!) is well disbursed, then maybe u shouold get there...

It helped that the guy was brutally honest about how some of their plans have not worked as well as they hoped... and also, how some countries are super screwed up... Hahaha.. He actually managed to tie a certain country's electoral system into his speech and well, it coincided with what I learnt in democracy... Hahaha...

And well... I guess usually, people are too critical of international organizations like IMF or WB. As the speaker said, If everything is so easily resolved or as simple as some think, then there would be no need for these organizations to exist. and those problems would have been solved long long ago. Which I guess is true... It's always easier to talk and plan but things may bot go according to plans because of different cultures, way of doing things.

A very poignant point:

"If you have a choice to give $10 million to a country for them to build infrastructure for run down villages and you know that $1 million would go to corruption, would you still go ahead with it?" The alternative is that no help be rendered to the poor people. What do we actually one? I think this is kind of a slippery slope argument whereby when is the money going into corruption too much?

Am having a throbbing headache now... I put my finger on my vein and I feel it go throb... throb... throb... like my heartbeat

It has no reason to ache though.. Anyways, I shall go sleep...

If you haven't figured, this post just screams 'Gillian has a headache'

Gee... I guess I'm bored... Oh.. and I think I hold the worse records for MSN Minesweeper. Lost 18, won 5. Go figure...

Anyway, on a happier note, went shopping with Fran... Hahaha... Looking for shoes... Well, found a pair i thought I liked.. until I realised there was no grip... Saw a few other pairs that looked quite nice too... but they were heels... i dunno if they can be classified as wedges though... But rather comfy...

In the end, I didn't buy anything... Couldn't decide plus I was broke.. so I shall wait till I have money... ;)

Hmmmm... nowadays, people asking for donations have picked up some psychology techniques...

Was at Orchard just now... and I was approached by this guy asking for a donation. He whipped out a list and said "Some of these people have donated... some donated $10 and look, one even donated $50". I felt like telling him i learnt it in psychology... Ya.. those 'foot-in'the door'techniques whereby you start off with asking a small favour...

But in the end.. i didn't donate.. hahaha...

Got back 3 of my grades... contented... but a lil disappointed with social psych though i totally deserved it lar... The decision not to submit any questions for the finals is coming back to haunt me... Shucks... I'll just live with that...

I'm kinda sick of chilling... and slacking.. Maybe I should go out.. but financial constraints lar... Maybe it's because I'm not feeling good today. My tummy feels queasy... but that's about it. And there's nothing to watch on a Sunday afternoon.

Been busy with SS stuff... Ahahhaa... Hopefully no screw ups this time round... ie... people better RESPOND and do my survey!

Just took the MBTI (Myers-Briggs Type Indicator) test... actually, I took it twice... and I got 2 diff scores... INFJ and INTP. But after reading the descriptions here, I think I am more of an INFP.

Waiting for my results... Trying to stay neutral and not think too much about it. But there's always the feeling that something unexpected may happen and it may wreck my GPA. Yeah... I know this sentence reeks of competitiveness and over-achieverness and everything. But when you are on a roll, you want to keep it there right?

Hols = boring days = nth much to blog...

Gillian is tired...

Well, My ex-boss... yeah.. the one at the law firm has kindly asked me if I can lend him a hend since I'm free now... Gillian shall be mean this time round... Gillian shall learn how to say no. Much as I like to earn the money, I dun wanna make myself feel obliged to work for him just because 'he asked me' It's just not worth it... From 'for a while', it may stretch to weeks, months...

Not to mention, I'm trying to do a million and one things this hols.. looks like earning moolah has to take a backseat...

Anyway, bought my tix for SOV... Was contemplating whether to go or not.. finally couldn't resist... anyone knows of any acapella concerts going on? I feel like watching one.. ;)

I'm tired...

Cycled again today... This time with the Group 1 ppl... It was fun! Poor Sharon had to blade all the way to SAFRA Tanah Merah CC which was quite a distance away...

According to a certain Mr Zheng, the official distance clocked today was about 15km... but it didn't feel that far AT THAT TIME... Now, my legs are kinda aching.. and I suddenly feel old... Hahaha...

I really ought to get a job.. but the way things are going, I think I'm just gonna bum my 4 mths away...

I felt like Joyce from TAR today.. went to cut my hair.. and no.. I didn't shave... but when the hairdresser first cut a bit, i could picture the scene when Joyce has her hair cut. *ouch!* For non-TAR fans... this was what happened.. the team who took this particular challenge could get to the pit stop immeditely. The challenge required the team to shave both their heads.. And Joyce did it!!! I'm kinda still in awe... cause her hair wasn't that short! To bravely shave her head bald was just... indescribable...

And no... I didn't meet any cute guy and I didn't fall in love with anyone I noe... =)

Reasons why my mum dun let me go Tioman

She thinks...

1. I'm not a good swimmer

2. I'll drown

3. There may be a tsunami... *eurgh!* --> Psychology: Availability Heuristics!

4. The boat may capsize

5. I cannot snorkel and I cannot learn how to...

5. I may endanger my life

7. I should not be too ambitious...

8. I cannot take care of myself...

Basically, she'll worry non stop if I go and I should not do things that will make her worried... she's trying to be protective of me... I know she loves me and I love her too... but sometimes... this gets kinda annoying... Wait and see lor... if not you all can go and take loads of photos and super-impose my face on them...

I really should go cut my hair... but I was too absorbed with surfing the web...

Have to make a phonecall... which i dun really enjoy... Sometimes, I prefer indirect forms of communication... Maybe I just don't want to make a fool of myself... Actually I think I'm thinking too much... =)

If 2 people have feelings for each other, yet no one acts, is it all over? I think I have high expectations...

Random thoughts on a Thursday afternoon...

Lalala... Holidays are nice.. and fun... and enjoyable... and it's making me broke...

Hahaha... Trudged to school 3 hours before the talk this morning.. Made me realised how long I haven't walked up the hill.. Ya... I know I'm a spoilt lil girl... but wells... anyway, the walk didn't seem that bad, nor that long... No rush, no cars... Just me soaking in the sights...

I'll miss the old campus...

SIgh... my mum dun let me go tioman... how???

Updates, Updates, Updates... (3 posts full...)

Hahaha... Freedom never felt so sweet... and surreal...

Went back to school today (yes! the first day of the hols) for some talk by a visiting Prof... I think these talks are interesting. I learn new stuff and latest development. And the thing is you'll see the profs talking among themselves, arguing different ideas... at the same time, u see other students, asking rather intelligent questions...

I stop and wonder... is this what I want to do? I often take what is being said, and as long as I understand it, I won't really go and ask about it... When I see people doing it, I wonder if it is me or them... Maybe I'm suffering from a bad bout of contingent self-esteem whereby I feel that I need to verify and prove to myself how good I am... Makes me wonder if this is the path I want to go... But I understood the talk... what the concepts were all about and what was being said... I should learn to examine thinge more critically...

Went to catch 'Be Cool' after that... show was fine... Liked the songs in the show... Uma Thurman has freaking long legs... she looked old with wrinkles and stuff... but still attractive...

Crap... I dun like to run in and out of my room just because my mum can't figure out how to add music to some show she is doing of the photos from her China trip... Yeah.. she has a fascination that she would burn all the photos into a VCD that we can all watch at home... like a slide show except that it is on TV... And I haven't even seen the photos since like 3 weeks ago...

The casino has been approved... HUGE, MEGA BIG surprise... Bah! Blogged too much for tonight... shall not go into my thoughts...

Anyway, another pissi-fying thing was the NKF show... I hate it because...

1) The hosts/artistes all take out their phone and try and coerce people in the studio to all call together. I know it worked in a show quite long ago... but this things loses it novelty when you overused it... and having it in ALMOST EVERY segment DOES NOT MAKE IT EFFECTIVE!

2) I don't dig death-defying stunts.. Does Jeff Wang wanna get permanent brain damage from smashing his skull through 2 wooden planks??? And what's with the height thing? I seriously don't get the 'Save Kym Ng' ploy... Lame actions, maybe it would work on an episode of Fear Factor... Perhaps if they had a storyline to go with it.. instead of a stunts thingee, it would be more palatable.

3) I detests it when the hosts keeps on yabbering when the artistes are performing difficult stunts... Can't they just SHUT THEIR TRAPS and let the artistes concentrate??? It's liek an irritating fly buzzing in the background. I find it bloody irritating when they go on and on about how dangerous it is and how you should call... Yeah.. I dun see a correlation! In fact, I think it may even compromise on safety standards as it causes concentration lapses.

4) What's with keeping the artistes hanging upside down for a longer period of time just to get more calls in? Who's gonna be freaking responsible if sth should happen. You could see veins popping out of their forehead and that Timothy Cao was still going like 'Let's keep them hanging longer so that more calls will come in.' If he likes it so much, he can hang there himself then...

5) I don't like NATO hosts... can anyone tell me whether Timothy Cao has done stunts to raise money. He just talks and talks and talks... going on and on abt how much the artistes are suffering, prolonging their suffering...

6) I dun like Timothy Cao (as if it was not evident from the above 2 points). He came up with the 'brilliant' idea to have the local celebs plea and beg for 'One More Call Please' just so that they can hit one million calls. I think that was a stupid move and they looks spastic...

7) I don't really fancy hearing a sob story on someone who is struck with kidney failure hen having my dinner because it makes me feel quesy... I know they are playing on pathos... but maybe if they show it later... or sth...

8) The show gets dragged on with the hosts repeating their lines just to hit the desperate mark of 1 million calls. Couldn't they get Celest Chong to sing a song from her album or prepare another small segment instead of just standing there and begging? The number of calls will hit 1 million. It just depends on what time the show ends! Actually I think if Zoe Tay had bothered to drive down to caldecott Hill and made a 'surprise' appearance, the calls may go up...

I seriously believe that if Mark Lee and Gurmit Singh had a longer segment, they would have raised more money... I enjoyed they segment the most... cause it was simple and entertaining.

The musical 'fountain' thing was nice too...

I'm not saying we should not donate.. it is just that some of their actions are nauseating... I understand they need money to sustain operations and for giving kidney patients a subsidy and stuff... Having had a lot of calls last week, they should expect that there would be less this week... and after a while, the stunts are stale... nth really fazes the audience anymore and I don't think making it more dangerous would help.

Where are all the local singers? All stuck in Taiwan? Shouldn't they do a part for this show?

Can't believe I missed Kate and Leopold because of that... Sigheth.. I believe I would feel happier if I had watched it!

Sunday was spent lazing around... Backing up files so I could load in SP 2... Visited the library to deposit the books I borrowed for my democracy paper 6 weeks ago.. I renewed them.. Don't worry... And borrowed a few books in the process...

One was on abstract art and impossible figures... Like the picture that looks like a lady and an old woman from different perspectives... Trying to read Emotional Intelligence by Daniel Goleman now... I see a shift in my reading habits...

Anyway, 2 significant things to blog about...

First was the big hooha some PSC scholar created when he apparently made some rascist remarks on his blog. *blinking of warning lights... a blog is dangerous* Someone was actually free enough to bother to crack his password to access his blog *yes.. he locked it!* and posted the content of his blog on forums. Perhaps he came under fire because he was a scholar... People just have a thing when it has to do with taxpayers money... Shouldn't a blog be a place where you can leave your thoughts? I would even go as far as to say that perhaps his comments were quoted out of context. So what happens? His scholarship is under review and if it gets withdrawn... there goes the future of one young man. I'm not condoning racism here... but to blow up a matter like that... ridiculous!

Yes.. I concur that you have to be responsible for what you post... But to go to the extent to get to his blog... I think it just stinks of sabotage... Yeah... another of my wild theories...

Shall dedicate another post to the other significant event... NKF Charity Show...

Watch Amelie just now... a simple, feel-good show... quite nice for unwinding after the last paper... sweet... depicting the life of dreamers... and an interesting twist!

Ate a WHOLE slice of cheesecake just now... *guilty* should really curb my sweet tooth. I shall go running soon... but now for the wonderful picnics tomorrow!!!

Sitting in front of my laptop has never felt so good, so relaxing... =) Like no worries in the world, no need to flip textbooks, write notes...

This week has been fine on the whole... nothing drastic and bad happened (thankfully) as in the papers were all do-able! *claps in glee*

Got back my demo paper which I slogged till 5 am 2 week ago... Got a B+. Eh... For something I didn't proof read, I'm kinda ok with it... But then, something makes me wish I had started on it earlier. But one can never be truly satisfied where grades are concerned I guess... Always wishing you had done certain things different after you received comments for it.

Looking back, this past 2 terms (i refuse to call it a year!) has just whizzed by... I can't believe I'm a quarter way done with my university education. If things are gonna be like that, I think uni life is too short... I know I bitch and whine and get all stressed up... but it is all bitter sweet. Like dark chocolate! When you look back, I just remember the happy times I spend crapping, laughing with the 'wonderful people' (do i sound like Kirpal?) from group 1, social science people... Those whom I've been doing projects with...

Now that yr 1 has come to a close, it is time to do things that I've been putting on hold for way too long... Enjoy your hols people... and shout out to all: let's find a day to meet up kaez...

Oh... all the best to NUS and NTU ppl!!! happy mugging for exams!!! Good Luck!

Gillian hasn't been studying today... Bad girl! One more paper...

Can't seem to concentrate.. My mind has been wondering the whole day... bah!!! And I can't heck this exam!!! On top of that, it is not open book! Argh!!! My brain just refuses to cram stuff in. Been staring at the 'list of possible questions' for the whole afternoon already and it is just half done... *wails...*

I will persevere... Luckily it is an afternoon paper... I just hope I know enough to go in and do the paper and get something out of it... Oh all modules, I like this one the best... and I really hope I don't screw it up... (ya... i'm so capable of it)

Maybe it is because it is the last paper... I usually lose my motivation to study... but I haven't been studying a lot... Bah!!! Maybe I should stop typing more stuff for this entry and go back to the window that says 'Microsoft Word'.

I just learnt how to break up with someone... =)

And with that, I've finished all the chapters tt's gonna be tested for social psych tmr... or so I think...

This week just seem to fly by... which I guess is quite a good thing... Now to either

a) Get a job or
b) Get involved in a Community Service Project

I don't think I can do both... not a full time job anyway... but I really wanna clear the 80 hours of comm service soon (I have 50 left)... but at the same time, I wanna go work too...

Decisions will be made soon... I think I should return to my book...

Joke of the day... super lame...

Imagine a guy name Luke Warm... Here's how he goes introducing himself...

Luke: Hi, I'm Warm, Luke Warm.

So one day... he got an interesting reply...

Reply: I'm Cold, Very Cold...

Ok.. I bet u readers are feeling cold too... ahahahaha... Feeling looney after democracy paper lar... but hmmm.. not as bad as expected... hahaha...

2 more days... one more paper...

I'm feeling jaded... like super tired and immuned to stuff... Just taking one day at a time... On hindsight... maybe I'm burnt out (ya right.. when I haven't been doing a lot...)

I only seem hardworking because I haven't been working throughout the term.. make sense???

But I do feel productive today.. and I realise I know some stuff about democracy! Yay! But.. my brain feels full and empty at the same time... It's been a long time since I can say I finished studying anything.. usually, I burn the midnight oil, speed read thru notes again the next morning or minutes before the exams...

Today... I'm walking away from my notes and readings...

Maybe it is the uncertainty of what is going to come out... No point speculating, no point guessing...

All the best for whatever exams left...

Quote of the day: "Democracy will be easy because I SAY SO!!!"

Hmmm... While half the SMU worlds is having their MA paper in school today, I'm up and wake bright and cheery in the morning -not! Eh.. awake but not cheery...

Notes strewn over the table... Readings all half-highlighted...

Democracy... I slay thee!!!

This marks 33 since hours since I've last touched my computer. Gillian was a good girl yesterday. She did not on her laptop, did not go online and chat... did some work and actually managed to break the 'trend' of sleeping at weird hours (read: 5am). Slept early but at a price.

Oh.. and I even managed to squeeze in watching a bit of White Chicks her eand there while reading the papers this morning... The show was spastic-ally hilarious! And very SICK!!! But then it was a good laugh...

Not freaking out yet.. which is good... I realise I like to change my style of mugging just before the exams becasue I invariably run out of time to write notes... So now it is just highlighting, reading and more reading... Ahahaha...

My social psych books seems endless... I'm drowning under piles of demo readings... and I'm gonna mug AS today...

Since I'm well-rested... it's battle time...

I really shouldn't study in a group. I wasn't productive both yesterday and today.. and I'm sorryif my presence distracted the rest of you who were studying in 37 today...

Am tired... shall nap soon... Meanwhile, my computer is taking eons to scan for virus!

Good luck to everyone with exams looming! after that, it is play time! and I will learn driving! *promise*

Still mugging... it's 335...

Anyway, part of a lil break, I just checked out the vc forum (vc - victoria chorale). I suddenly feel this urge to sing again. (no.. not ktv crooning, but choir-style acapella, SATB singing).

In Song 2005, which is VC's concert. I see people I know performing, I see juniors performing.

Deep inside, I knew I was the one who made the decision to give up choir. I didn't think I was that good, didn't think I could commit. But I do miss it. I did go for carolling but it is nothing like the hardcore practices I went through, the excitement of preparing for a concert, memorising songs, standing in quartet position, even polishing choreography. The jittery feeling before I go on stage, squinting at the blinding stage lights, watch the conductor... 1... 2... 3... and we start, in harmony, trying to convey the message of the song, dynamics, feelings. The level of commitment, your zeal and passion driving you to want to do more, do better.

I'm rather emotionally charged now. I had a good 6 years singing with choirs and these are things you will never understand until you've been there. I remember the countless times I whined and complained... but... I'm still attached to it - very.

Now, everything seems so far away. I do harbour hopes of singing in a choir again, but as time passes, this dream just seems increasingly improbable.

Perhaps... it's just time to move on...

Hmmm.. studying makes one into a compulsive blogger. Seen many people updating their blogs.

I dun like to watch any NKF or to that effect, any govt sponsered shows... They are so propagandish. and NKF has such a freaking sad storyline. Caught tonight's episode... Everyone falls sick, everyone relies on NKF medical funds... -> Thus, we must donate. If we donate, we win prizes... and we have to pay $0.40 for telephone charges. If 600,000 calls were made, that is $24,000 for telephone charges. Interesting.

I'm not saying one should not donte.. but enough is ENOUGH!!! Bah!!! From $2 a call in the past, to $5 or $8, dangling juicy carrots in front of you with all their prizes thingee. This is so not altruistic!

Applying social psychology
According to Social Exchange Theory, one would help to alleviate the distress one feels one seeing sth happens. Thus, while watching celebrities perform heart-stopping, gravity-defying, death-heading stunts, one would feel uneasy that they are doing so much and would thus call.

The solution: Don't watch such programmes!

I watch a lot of HK shows... so I know for a fact that HK has a lot of charity show every year too... How do they get their donations? Singers perform or perform simple stunts or skits to get donations. Their ministers or some influential business people go up on stage to present those large cheques with huge amount of donations.

How come we dun see that happening here?
Oh ya... Singaporeans are humble people who would donate annonymously.

What's wrong with a singing and dancing programme?
That has been done! But the last time they tried, Taufik and Sly din pull in a lot of donations.

What about other singers?
Oh wait.. Singapore don't have that many singers and entertainers that can draw in the donations... I forgot... oh..

Actually I think they can consider a stand up comedy... I think it would be interesting...
Right.. we dun have that many comedians around too... cause the art scene is quite pathetic and they are struggling to survive (based on what has been in Life these few days)

And so.. it is back to death-defying stunts that will compell viewers to donate and the newspaper will have a field day the next day trying to compare which celebrity chalked up the most donations.

Eh.. Nice Translation...

OK.. I'm so not studying!!! Anyway, thought this may be kinda funny.

For those who are not well versed in Chinese, the translated version of the words in Chinese is 'At KFC, we are right to be prostitutes'.


Got the above from mrbrown (via Jay-walk via Lancerlord)

Pedro De La Rosa - Spanish Test Driver for McLaren-Mercedes team of Formula One

I'm a sports fanatic. No!!! I don't do sports, except for some swimming and cycling. Ok... Fine... I'm a couch-potato sports fanatic *throws up hands in despair*

Anyway, was enthralled by the above guy on Sunday. He was chosen to race on the Bahrain Grand Prix as the team's 1st choice driver, Montoya was injured while playing tennis. Anyway, this guy really takes risks man... He was doing some dangerous manuevring and over-taking which does not occur very often during races nowadays. And one of the reasons I sometimes spend 2 hours watching these super fast cars (read:200km/h?) go 65 times round a track is because you can taste the thrill of the speed and excitement when cars overtake.

But I bet I won't see him racing again unless one of the 2 McLaren-Mercedes' drivers, Juan Pablo Montoya and Kimi Raikkonen is injured or sth. Oh... can I say sth.. Kimi is quite hot too!!! He has very nice eyes!!!

Kimi Raikkonen - I like his blue eyes!

Random Musings:

Why does the Life section like to publish reviews of concerts, plays AFTER the freaking thing is over... I feel like they are making a dig at poeple who didn't go watch it if it is good. Like what's the point of saying 'It was a good concert, the performers were magnificent" and after the reader's interest has been piqued, you realise it is a one-off performance or the play has ended its run or sth...

Totally useless...

P1: If I have things to blog about, then I will blog
P2: I did not blog
C > I have nothing to talk about...

AS in the middle of nowhere.. I do say I think it is valid!!!

*and my white chocolate coated strawberry doesn't appear!!!*
Edited at 6.12 pm... it does appear!!! looks yummilicious!

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been rotting for the past one and a half hours... Studied 1 chapter of demo.. .and I stopped because I dunno wads going on for the next!!!

got trashed in minesweeper flags... Bah! The game just doesn't like me!!!

I really should shut off my laptop and concentrate but I'm hungry and I'm waiting for my dad to pick me from school

I'm freezing in the library

I met my junior today when she came for her interview. Hope she gets in!

I will return to mugging...

Spent some time reading through my archives... if there's one thing that hasn't changed, it is my atrocious typing... yeah.. i spot al ot of typos here and there.. so ya.. Siyi.. go ahead and diss me! Bah!

Time just flies... I blogged about SYF finals, about my SMU interview, bitched about my lousy job @ the law firm... and well, basicallly just me with a lot of whining... and in the past, my posts were peppered with quizzes I took... now.. just words...

Tired.. shall sleep... Happy mugging tmr... Night world...

One glorious day of the study break gone!!! Good luck Jill!!!

The long long list of chapters to study looks daunting... like super, very, extremely daunting...

Shall drag myself off to sch tmr and hopefully I'll be able to study better...

Am tempted to post up my long list of to-dos. But i figured I'll just stress everyone (read: SMU peeps) out... It is a freaking 1 page long list!!!

Been hanging loose... like real loose... and I like it... =)

Anywya, just like to share a thought:

Been reading a lot about the euthanesia case... commentary, news and stuff... Basically, what happpened was this lady, Terri Schiavo had been in a coma for 14 years... surviving on a feeding tube... yup.. no life support machine... just a tube that makes sure all the food goes to her, but oblivious to her surroundings.

About 2 weeks ago, her husband decided to pull the tube... and faced resistance from her parents. Ugly accusations rang out. Him , accused of trying to keep the money she left for himself and perhaps just get on with life, judging from the fact that he had a live-in lover and stuff... and her parents, being accused of trying to wrest part of her inheritance from him.

A few days ago.. this lady passed away... but not before her case was actually tries in court...

The point of this... I was just wondering... to die from starvation? I mean granted that if you are in a coma and can't feel anything, to die from starvation is definitely not the best way to die for me... I guess unless you are in their position, you won't ever know the full story...

But euthanesia... sth good or bad? If one had the choice, one would definitely choose to live.. but what if the odds are stacked so high against you that there is no alternative? Do we get a loved one to pull the plug? Would they do it? Conversely, what if one has a strong will to live? Would giving up on that person be unfair? Circumstances, Consequences, all differ with time..

Then.. what about the thousands of lives lost in the earthquake? A case of being in the wrong place at the wrong time? Why does it seem that natural disasters often occur in developing countries? I see it as making matters worse and money will be pumped into rescue effort, restoration processes and crippling their already crippled economy. Yes... you get foreign aid... that fuels corruption and for some, make the country even more debt-ridden than before.

Depressing thoughts, but these are the things that are happening all around us today... Maybe one should just take things easy... For you'll never know what will happen...

As the chinese saying goes, 生老病死 (birth, age, illness, death) these are the 4 stages that people have to undergo in life...

I just squashed a cockroach which scurried under my jeans (yes!!! *Sobz*) under eh... 1 term of Intro to Psychology notes... Yeah.. Kinda just smashed the file on the poor 'lil yucky thing with my sister jumping on it for good measure... Well.. my jeans was spared.. but the file was smeared with cockroach juice... like white goo-ey stuff... (hope you readers aren't eating when reading this). And *ahem* well, I screamed... or screeched.. as usual... and those who have heard it can testify that my scream isn't really sth that you wanna hear at 2 am at night..

What am I doing up so late? Eh... I was and am still baking cookies... Mwahahaha.. my sister just had this impulse to bake and I was like 'ok lor'. Hmmmm.. but seriously, one shouldn't pick up baking.. you see what are the things that go in.. Thick big slabs of butter, like 230g or sugar which is A LOT!!! Ok.. I cut it down to 170... but it is still one big chunk!

Sneaked away to blog about my 'cockroach scare'. Need to check on my 2nd last batch of cookie.. Yay!! Can sleep soon...

Sheesh.. 5 posts in 1 day... Compulsive blogger @ work.. no wonder I was late for AS this afternoon @ 12 and I'm so sure I'm gonna be late for my dinner appointment @ 730.. Toodles.. till maybe 11 tonight?

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Ok.. enough of the depressing part.. Going for dinner soon... and I've just spent the afternoon playing games... I'm sort of addicted to thsoe 'walk-through games....

If you are interested, try looking for them at www.nordinho.com. They post up different games there. Basically, these games use flash or sth and you just have to click here and there to escape from rooms or find treasures of stuff like that.. Can be rather addictive.

I shall resolve to not be too stressed out.. I think it is just the cumulation of rushing so many things the past week... I need time to recuperate before we start again... I just wish I wasn't so consumed by grades...

Been thinking a lot and talking to people these 2 days... I feel as though I'm being eaten alive by the rat race... I think it is bad... but I really admit that I'm not just happy with a 'B' grade nowadays... Yeah.. overachiever.. I hear some of you mumble.. then again... over inflation of grades in SMU?

Very cynical view of myself and of life nowadays... I mean I like school and stuff.. but I get scared of myself whenever I try to set sky high expectations for myself- sth I never did until last year...

I need to get a grip of myself before I spiral out of control. It's like I think a lot.. yet at the same time, I dun work hard enough during term... I just panic and do last min work, hoping that sth good will come out of it and then I whine and worry and panic after that. Kinda ironic...

I just need to organise my thoughts.. Dun worry about me.. I'm fine.. I just need to get this off... If not I'll just keep thinking of it...

I've been doing so much work (papers, presentation) on my laptop the past week that I don't even know what to do when I don't have any work tonight.

Yesterday marked my last presentaton of the term.. I felt that it fell short of a lot of stuff. Shucks lar... It's like thoughts and images keep playing in my head and I can't help but kept thinking of ways that it could have been better. It's like walking away from sth that you know you can do much better.

Ok. I'm done feeling sorry and sad and regretful. Nothing I think, say or do will turn back time. So I shall not be too harsh on myself. Plus it is not only an individual effort... Speaking of which, I have given up 2 points for class participation for social psych class because I was too tired to do anything about it...

I'm not exactly feeling euphoric now though I've officially ended lessons (though I still have one more make up class in 45 min). I think it is cause I'm too tired... Actually... I think if we ended on a high note, I'll be happier...

Slept before 12 yesterday... That's like how freaking early... But at the same time... was slammed left and right by my sister for sleeping at 5 am.. She apparently thinks I'm nuts... and actually, I think so too...

To sum up: Yesterday was one of day of pros and cons. At then end, I'm feeling tired, yet happy but not satisfied..

Hmmm... now for some quiet time, recuperation, and then intensive mugging... 2 more weeks to the end of the term. I should pay a visit to the library soon.. I need to read books...

I'm supposed to be in sch in 45 mins.. I'm still sitting here blogging and hoping that my laptop battery doesn't run out before I finish... (6% left...)

So many thoughts to blog. I kinda feel immense freedom knowing that I still have 1 week to study...

Oh.. and Happy April Fools Day!!!