Been thinking a lot and talking to people these 2 days... I feel as though I'm being eaten alive by the rat race... I think it is bad... but I really admit that I'm not just happy with a 'B' grade nowadays... Yeah.. overachiever.. I hear some of you mumble.. then again... over inflation of grades in SMU?

Very cynical view of myself and of life nowadays... I mean I like school and stuff.. but I get scared of myself whenever I try to set sky high expectations for myself- sth I never did until last year...

I need to get a grip of myself before I spiral out of control. It's like I think a lot.. yet at the same time, I dun work hard enough during term... I just panic and do last min work, hoping that sth good will come out of it and then I whine and worry and panic after that. Kinda ironic...

I just need to organise my thoughts.. Dun worry about me.. I'm fine.. I just need to get this off... If not I'll just keep thinking of it...