Still mugging... it's 335...

Anyway, part of a lil break, I just checked out the vc forum (vc - victoria chorale). I suddenly feel this urge to sing again. (no.. not ktv crooning, but choir-style acapella, SATB singing).

In Song 2005, which is VC's concert. I see people I know performing, I see juniors performing.

Deep inside, I knew I was the one who made the decision to give up choir. I didn't think I was that good, didn't think I could commit. But I do miss it. I did go for carolling but it is nothing like the hardcore practices I went through, the excitement of preparing for a concert, memorising songs, standing in quartet position, even polishing choreography. The jittery feeling before I go on stage, squinting at the blinding stage lights, watch the conductor... 1... 2... 3... and we start, in harmony, trying to convey the message of the song, dynamics, feelings. The level of commitment, your zeal and passion driving you to want to do more, do better.

I'm rather emotionally charged now. I had a good 6 years singing with choirs and these are things you will never understand until you've been there. I remember the countless times I whined and complained... but... I'm still attached to it - very.

Now, everything seems so far away. I do harbour hopes of singing in a choir again, but as time passes, this dream just seems increasingly improbable.

Perhaps... it's just time to move on...