Working makes me appreciate weekends more.
Working tires me out.
Working is heping me to re-adjust my body clock. Yes.. I try to sleep before 1 everyday because I have to drag myself up at 8.

Shucks lar.. I just got a mail regarding exchange.. briefing is on 17th June... Bah! I'm working!!! Shall take leave or sth.. Hahaha...

Anyway, have not been blogging much... after staring at my laptop the whole day at work, Dun really feel like looking at another computer screen... Plus I am busy watching the French Open. hahaha... I feel kinda cut off from the rest of the world. It's like Mon-Fri is work day. Then I only have the weekends to slack, watch tv and stuff. I wonder what I do on weekday nights.

Anyway, I have aan affinity for getting jobs whereby my supervisors stay late, or are ultra busy or stuff like that. Hahaha.. I see uncanny resemblance in my present job and my past job at the law firm. Oh well.. I hope I can learn sth new. I daresay my excel skills are a wee bit better after 4 days. But we'll wait and see... Welcome to the corporate life. I dun think that is for me though.. Hahaha...

Gillian had her 1st day at work... Her horoscope today should have read: 'You will be unexpected. Sitting alone in a sea of strangers.' She rotted for 4.5 hours. with absolutely nth to do...

So she sent out like 30 smses to freinds who would listen to her whine and have a conversation with her. And played a stupid word game:

In the word CONSOLIDATED, she found 15 three-letter words, 22 four-letter words, 6 five-letter words, 1 seven-letter word, 1 eight-letter word and 1 eleven-letter word. Hahaha...

But after I got my laptop, it was fine. Was busy calculating. experimenting with Excel... May tomorrow be a better day... Maybe I should prepare sth in case of unforseen circumstances.

I woke up to a letter from the 'Traffic Police Division' on the coffee table this morning.

They sealed the enveloped with super glue or sth... Took me a long time and a lot of unsightly tears on the envelope before I could retrieve the piece of paper inside.

The first thing I saw: 'Successfuly candidates are required to produce this notification and identity card personally when applying for a Class 2B PDL!!!'

ahahhaa.. .I passed my Basic!! yay!!! Thanks to all well wishers. ;) Shall try to give u all a lift in like... 1 yr's time? (though I hope I'll be able to drive much sooner!)

I thought today was just gonna be an ordinary day of KTV and a good dinner... and of course, getting pressies...

Fine... I got a sms at 11 saying that the meeting time was pushed back by 1 hour. Fine with me cause I was still lazing in bed. When I was bathing, Siyi called. She refused to leave a message. Just nice after I emerged from the bathroom, Angie called.

My jaw dropped when she asked me to open the door... :o

Oh well, so I thought I'll just get escorted to town. Then...


Tada~!~ 

The cake looks quite pro right? Well, the 2 non-home econs girls actually baked this!!!


Pics of the lovely and delicious peach yogurt cake (with loads of butter cream) 

Siyi and Angie!!!

*Muacks!!!* I LOVE YOU BOTH!!!

I'm really touched that you all stayed up till 530 to bake the cake and for coming down all the way to surprise me!!! Thanks for making the 21st of May 2005 such a memorable one!!! Hahaha...


US! 

Had a scrumpelicious dinner! Look at the food we polished off! Well.. glad that it was well within 'budget'! ;)


Dinner! 

Ok.. I'm having fun experimenting with Picasa now... So here are more pics!


More pics! 

Happy Happy Gillian...

Well.. getting serenaded with a birthday song by strangers was quite an experience... =) Dinner at pastamania was made nicer by Meiju who came down to meet us. Thank you to Claire, Renjie, Baoqin for the not-so-surprise surprise... hahaha... So paiseh!!! but I really appreciate it!!! and the cheesecake was SUPER NICE!

A big thank you to Ade, Crystal, Cheryl, Sining, Wenjie, Hanjie (I dunno if all of you are reading this, but anyway) for the presents. Hahaha.. listening to the CD now... Nice~!~ Shall start on the book soon. Thanks especially to Ade and Crys who took time out even though both of you are busy preparing for Cambodia. ;) See you in 1 mths's time!!!

Thanks for the SMS-es and birthday wishes... Gillian really really appreciate it. *hugs*

I'm 20!!! I'm 20!!! I'm 20!!! *bounces up and down*

Hahahaha... Just hyper...

Anyway, I think this year's date is so cool!!!
20052005! Gillian turns twenty on the twentieth of May, twenty-oh-five. Cool right?

My last posts as a teen... *SobZ* Growing OLD!!! Ya.. and what will happen when I turn 30 man... Hahahaha...

Nah.. I dun think I'll wake up and morph into someone totally new... Though sometimes, tt thought does cross my mind... but nvm... But I guess when you hit the 'TWO-oh', it marks another phase of your life? Or maybe I will get to see the changes when I hit 21. hahaha...

Anyway, just thought I'll do a little take back on my teenage years... Yesh.. Think this will be rather short since I've been talking quite a lot about the pass in the previous entries. Readers, just bear with me... Actually, you can just skip this whole post... hahaha...

13 marked the 1st year. The 1st yr in SN where I spent 4 glorious years! I have simply too many wonderful memories to jot them down, met many of you... yes, you special people who have become a part of my life... A blur Sec 1, the only one from my primary school... joined choir by elimination. (Yeah.. I didn't want to pick up a 2nd instrument though I'm regretting it now).

Then after 4 years... year 17 and 18 was spent in VJ... Actually I remember sleeping in almost EVERY lecture in J1... Dun ask me how I did it. I dun really believe it now when I think about it.. Hahaha... After that, all I remember is like ponning lects, going to the lib, physics tuition, choir practices and mugging for the 'oh-so-impt' A levels...

Spent a good half of my 19th year of existence working... and learning and seeing new things... Spent the next half grappling with a new school, new friends, new passion...

I see myself changing over time... I see priorities shifting. And well... I love all of you out there who have been there for me, listen to me crap, whine, moan, be it ppl I've met from SN, VJ or SMU. Thanks for being part of my life.

Hahaha.. it's 12 now... Spent quite some time blogging... ;)

Ok.. This shall be one of my last few posts as a teenager...

I got the Singtel job!!! Yay! Thanks a lot Fran! Yeah... 1 week after the interview and test...

Gillian is now gainfully employed!

My arms feel as if they have just broken off like an over-used pair of oars... Proud to say I swam 30 laps...

Nevertheless, it is nice to go swimming in the evening... You dun get the sun - therefore, you reduce the risk of getting some deadly cancer. The air is just about right. Not scorching hot as compared to the afternoon. And you dun have to wake up early... =)

All the reality shows I watch have either drawn or are drawing to a close... Sigh... American Idol will end next week... This year's fight to get into the finals is tough... Not like last year's. OK. All 3 finalists are not exactly 'Idol' material. But I guess they'll undergo some packaging course. I like Carrie since the start though she really has nada, zilch, zero, kosong stage presence. Bo, I don't want him to win. I mean he is a good performer... Ok.. I'm not a 'rock' type of person and I dun see what's so nice abt this guy swinging his long hair and jumping around on stage. he just screams the rock songs. Maybe if he did more ballads, I may like him better.

Back from SOV... Somehow, I felt the songs they sang were much better than what we did last time. As in more challenging? More like 'Water Night'? And the juniors seem to be multi-talented.. Hahaha.. Instruments were 'incorporated'... Clarinet, Violin...

I felt like it was more like a gathering. You see seniors, juniors, friends...

No man is an island,
No man stands alone
Each man's joy is joy to me,
Each man's grief is my own...

Back from basic theory test... It was ok I guess but then again, it was how I felt after I took last year.. and I failed... Hahaha... I'll update next week...

SOV in 2 hours plus time? Hahaha... I should really go get ready to leave the house. Toodles~!~

Mugging Studying for tmr's Basic Theory... Frankly, I don't care whether it is a dotted white line or a continuous white line or a continuous double right line that acts as a road divider... bah! But then, I learnt that those under 1.5m are actually exempted from wearing seat belts. Hahaha... 90 over more rules to memorise... Sianz... Feels like mugging for some exam or sth.

I hope I can pass tmr's test!!!

Went for 'It Takes Two' today... It was HILARIOUS!!! I laughed till my cheeks were sore... somewhat like after smiling for too long at the camera. but the jokes they told.. so tongue in cheek.

I guessed it was because the topics Selena and Hossan covered were very 'Singaporean'. From migrating to Australia, to the IRs, to just talking cock... I like their singing... and Hossan is such an accomplaished pianist.

Sigh... I better start mugging for my basic theory on Tues... Die!

Went back to St Nics today... after like 1 yr plus plus plus? I really cannot remember the last time I went back. Teacher's Day in J1? Anyway, the school is painted a disgusting pale yellow and rusty red combination with PURPLE doors!!! Everyone.. Say 'YUCKS!!!'. I wonder who is the one with such bad taste. Ok... Maybe it is not to my taste. But ya... And they kinda colour coded the school by level? Like scared that peopel will get lost with their 'half' levels??? They painted the secondary block GREEN!!! Scream people!!! Even the walls near the primary school music room. The green walls made it feel as though the area is closing in on me... I have no idea what is the fascination with the rusty red... Even the pillars in Sunken Forum are that colour. Makes everything blend with the track and the roofs of the houses along Ave 2!!! and they named the science labs 'A to H'. Oh.. and the pillars in the canteen ar epainted differenct colours.. and so is the ceiling of sunken forum. Like my friend said, it looks like a kindergarden. or maybe even a kindergarden not dun look that bad...

Yes.. enough whining about how bad/hideous/horrendous it looks. Cause I really miss the place... We took a walk to the new extension... then went down to New Music Room, walk thru the back where the peacocks are kept... pass the MEP rooms and back up to the canteen. Memories of the place - like Geog remedial in the Humanitiess Room, Experiments in the science labs, Choir in MPRSitting at the specs stand, last minute mugging for O lvl Chinese exams at the round thingee...

I still feel attached to the place. You can take a SN girl out of SN, but you will never take SN out of a SN girl... Sounds corny? I dunno.. but I think it is kinda true...

Ok.. enough reminiscing of SN.

I think NUS Library is freaking big... and it has so many books!!! Saw a few psycho books I would like to flip through... Somehow, I never sort of bothered to find out what sort of book SMU library carries. Hahaha... And I took a non-aircon 151 to NUS. Hahaha... I almost forgot those bus existed. Those with the rattling windows, noisy exhaust whereby you get wind (and a lot of carbon monoxide blown in ur face). I thought they were phased out eons ago. I mean I do see non-aircon 186 passing SMU bus stop... and maybe I did see a few 151s.. but somehow, it didn't really register in my long term memory... Hahaha... But it was a good experience because it wasn't raining today and it wasn't too hot and crowded...

Not in the mood for anything much... Still have 3 unwatched DVDs. Maybe I should start on them soon. Library book overdues... Darn!

Read in the Sunday Times yesterday that we should not write in long sentences that comprises of 50 words or more as it will become too dreary for the reader and will be ineffective in sending the message across, unless it expresses the same train of thought and even in the event that we do manage to come up with such a freaking long sentence, it should be sandwiched between much shorter ones. Ok... Let's see how many words did the above come up to: 72 words.

Hahaha... Holiday plans are still not fixed yet... Been slacking too much for my own good... but then, I'm still enjoying it... So I guess... It's been 3 weeks and 3 days since I ended my last paper. Time just seems to pass by...

Gillian is bored. Any nice games, books to recommend? Ok.. I know this is a little tongue in cheek for those of you who are out there slogging working your guts out... But well, hope ur jobs will go well!

Gillian shall look elsewhere for entertainment...

I'm hungry. Gillian, the night owl is on the prowl again...

Like my new layout? Yes, It was supposed to be bright and cheery, but well, though the background is still black, I think this mood is much lighter than the other one... Ahahahaha...

Shall go find food...

I'm so glad Scott's finally out of AMI!!! Ok... actually his voice kinda grows on me. I kind of liked his voice when he was singing tonight.. But a bit too late. Plus, I can't stand his guts.. super arrogant.. and that sneer on his face. The camera should have turned to his face when Ryan announed that Vonzell, Carrie and Bo were the Top 3. I would love to see the smug look being wiped off his face. Afterall, he looked super pleased when he was told to go over to the couch. I think he should have been voted off long long ago! Then maybe Constantine would have stayed on for another week.

Anyway, I think Anthony's version of Incomplete is much better than BSB. Sorry lar.. but their vocals a bit cannot make it... Or it may be the version that I streamed. It just sounded weak.. Thought that Anthony's version was stronger.

Yes... welcome to my life. I watch TV, read story books... Just finished 'Howl's Moving Castle' (the novel by Diana Wynne Jones). Understood what some ppl meant when they say the movie didn't follow the novel closely... But now I feel like watching the movie again...

Need to change my blogskin... This is a happy month!!! Hahaha... But need to run errands again tmr... Sigh...

Had a super duper long meeting tonight... Started at 7 plus and ended at 10 plus... So many things happening, so many things going to happen... But this entry is not going to be about the meeting. Instead, it is going to be about me!

Sometimes, I ask myself what I want out of life. Often, the answer is not clear. I know I want to travel, I know I want to experience working in other countries. I know I want to be surrounded by people I love. I want to be respected. On the other hand, I think I take a rather laid-back attitude on stuff...

Can't get a job? Nevermind lar...
Missed out on a grade by a bit? Don't bother appealing.
Things don't go my way? Oh well, other things may come along.

I guess I can say that I accept things as they come and as long as it is within some 'acceptable limits' that only my mind can fathom. And it helps to be optimistic about things. I guess I learnt my 'never say die' and 'nothing is impossible' attitudes from my mum. (Yah.. and I learnt 'Impossible is Nothing' from Adidas)

But that being said, it also doesn't mean that nothing can bring me down. I'm still exploring my limits, I still get pissed off, I still whine... But I live by a super cliche motto "Anything that doesn't kill me will only make me stronger"

Ok... just some thoughts of the moment.

It is good to cherish what you have, to be thankful for the people around you. Without my friends, there would be no one for me to whine to, no one to listen to me patiently, to put up with my nonsense.

I never realise how important my family is to me. I won't be who I am without my parents... From trivial things like my passion for Hongkong stuff (shows, singers, songs) to the way I live my life and the way I approach life.

I appreciate the closeness I share with my siblings. How we can crap with each other and don't shut each other out of our respective worlds. I like my sister's witty retorts and brilliant ideas. My brother's thoughtfulness and kindness. (Yeah, he picks me up from the bus stop if I reach home too late) Yes... simple gestures like that warms my heart and makes me feel truly blessed.

On hindsight, I may not be that good fren. I tend to turn up late, forget birthdays, overlook details. Not as meticulous as I would like to be to my friends.

It's been one of the most reflective entries for some time. Usually, I just steer clear of revealing too much about myself... but decided to pen these thoughts down today. No particular reason, no particular message to send out. Perhaps just for future reference.

Sometimes it is not good to keep pondering and weighing pros and cons (Like who will read it and how they feel after reading it). I realised I missed out blogging a lot of stuff. Usually, I don't bother to describe things in details. Now, it becomes a just blurry memory.

Reading my archives, I don't think I will make it as a 'famous' or 'infamous' blogger liks xiaxue or mrbrown that will command a huge following of readers. Yes.. you see this childhood dream of attaining 'celebrity' status (Must have read too many fairy tales).

I feel slack... I read and hear about people working, doing meaningful stuff. Me? I'm just like waking up late after staying up to chat, going out, reading, playing games.

I really ought to get sth done soon... My mum just asked me today why I refused to go back to help out at the law firm since I am so slack and I just hang around and do nth... I keep thinking that I'll be busy with my driving and stuff after my basic theory. But will I really be? I mean it is hard to predict what will happen. As for devoting my time to community service, I haven't exactly heard from the organisers yet... Maybe I should go look for sth to do. Pick up cross stitch again? Piano?

Ya... maybe I should just move my butt off the chair and start doing sth instead of sitting here and whining about it.

I don't get it sometimes... why is it so difficult for people who are bigger in size to find nice clothes?

Why must clothes that come in bigger size make the wearer look like an auntie? Or have designs that scream 'auntie' from 10 miles away?

This has to do with media portrayal of 'the perfect body'. I mean it is NOT a crime to be overweight... I think it is disgusting that girls who are like super thin complain that they are 'fat'. Some of this can be genetic... and people can't exactly control how they look and develop. Yes... there are some who doesn't give a damn... but there are those who try and still, they can't really change things. Would we really look at these people differently and discriminate against them?

Advertisements for slimming pills and slimming centres don't really help... plus, who can question the effectiveness of such stuff? I mean them getting slim celebreities to endorse these products is like... *bangs head*

Sometimes, it seems that it is such a crime to be fat. People think that you are a glutton, that you are a lazy sloth... But i think it is better to be fat and healthy than thin and unhealthy... I mean some people just smoke to stay skinny. How healthy is that?

I just wish that shops will actually stock up more on nicer clothes for bogger size people? I mean they are widely available in the States, Europe, Australia cause most of them there are bigger size than us. So why can't some of these be brought over here?

Well, the long weekend has just passed.. .Well, it didn't exactly make a difference to me cause I'm slacking... But nonetheless, decided that I should finally pack my room and started clearing my notes and readings... Then i decided my drawer needed cleaning out too. And I couldn't stand my earrings being all over the place in plastic bags... So I did up....

Ta.. Da...


My Earring Storage Box!!! (oh.. and that's my sis in purple mugging for mid terms)

Oh well.. but I realised I dropped like halves of 2 of my favourite pairs and broke half of another one I really really like... Yeah.. I think I am a careless girl. So I'm going to look for materials to try and re-create my lost earrings... Anyway the materials look buy-a-ble...

And yesterday, I went to Rivervale @ faraway Seng Kang for Sakae... (ok lar.. it wasn't tt far) Ahahaha... then went to town and shopped... Well, bought a pair of new heels... I like it A LOT!!! I'm too lazy to go take a photo of them... So you'll see then when u next see me!