Ya.. I know I'm supposed to be studying for twc... but I just can't stop thinking about how I'm gonna arrange my files... or how I'm gonna replay my maple character after exams (ya.. kinda made a decision to do so... don't ask why...)

Anyway, chanced upon this flash video...

http://szeting.com/bangyang.htm

Hooked onto this song... 榜样 by this ex-DJ Kevin (De Jiang). It's a new song... :)

yeah.. back to twc...

I finished 1 paper yesterday... That leaves 2.

I have a knack for mugging last minute this sem... which means I sleep very little the day before the papers.

I actual have a list of stuff about this term that I am itching to reproduce here.. but I am trying to control till after exams... which comes in 4 days...

I need to desperately mug for TWC... but the book is like some sleeping potion... and it repels (or maybe repulses) me... I can't seem to sit for an hour with the book. My attention will just drift off... Or else, I'll end up reading the same section for the millionth time.. (like what I have done for some technology cycle thing) and still not get head or tail of what it is trying to tell me...

I seem to be adopting a take-one-day-at-a-time approach. Luckily I got 1 day between my papers.. or I'll be so super dead!

Maybe that's why I can't mug...

I am in school
I am supposed to be studying
I am blogging
> I am not studying.

Yesh.. it's my 4th day in school this week during the break... and sad to say, I am not productive. But then, I stayed at home yesterday and was less productive... So I might as well come to school.

Exams are looming, yet I dun feel the anxiety or drive to want to mug or at least read the bare minimum. And mind you.. my exams are not easy peasy lemon squeezy MCQ papers... they comprise of essay questions and fill in the blank. Those I-won't-know-how-to-do-if-i-don't-study kind. Sigh sigh sigh....

I had a bad dream... a nightmare rather...

I dreamt that I went for my Sociology exam without preparing for it because i thought it was one week later. It was so real, I could feel myself panicking. Sheesh..

Time to hit the books..

It was a good time to sleep in this morning. Raining... cold, nice day to snuggle in... and tt's why i only made it to school at 12 in time for my class...

It's been a chilling weekend... :)

Watched a concert in school caught Meiju playing... caught up with Fran, Sharon and Cyn... It's been ages since we sat around! ;)

Let's see.. what else did I do? Played maple... watched a movie... and now, trying to look through my sociology report before tomorrow's meeting. hahaha...

Am totally in love with Meiji Yoghurt! Try it!!! The aloe vera one is nice! and so is the mixsed berries. Shall try the mango one tomorrow!!!

My house is now in a state of perpetual and constant source of noise ever since my sis finished her O levels on Friday.. Been incessantly making noise and coming up with funny and crappy stuff. And I now owe her a movie treat for (unwillingly) betting that she couldn't keep her mouth shut for 5 mins! It was an excrutiating 5 minutes for her... oh.. and unwilling because she kinda forced me into the bet. Hahaha... It was quiet the last 2 weeks cause she was mugging outside... and I didn't spend a lot of weekends at home as well.

Actually, i think i did miss her crap. :)

I've been awake for 23 hours... and counting.. I shall go sleep...

Yay!!! I'm done!! Finally!! RMSS done!!! ya.. and i etter start mugging for my 50& RMSS paper cause i think i pretty much screwed the last question... Hahaha...But I don't really care... I seriously can't think without sleep... Wahahahs... I spent eons staring at the screen.. like typing gibberish.. but it's FINALLY DONE! *phew*

*does a little jog*

Ok... now I have time to sleep.. and maple.. and oh well.. ya.. study...

The week ahead looks so much brighter.. until i start mugging for my papers...

I think I'm mightily screwed... but then again,I'm feeling no anxiety or whatsoever.. Why am I so nonchalent?

My RMSS paper is due at 5pm... and guess what.. *drum roll* I still got 1 question left!!! Arghz!!! And i'm going for a 830 class... (which reminds me to keep this short)

Ya.. maybe it is because I know the dateline is at 5... so I think to myself.. I have till 4.30 to finish it.. right.. but I have yet to factor in the fact that my brain is kind of fried... Was up the better part of last night trying to do the report up... See... I slept from 10.30 to about 2... and I've been up since then trying to do it...

Hmmm.. 5 solid hours.. should be able to finish what right? That's what I freaking thought too... until I got stuck for like 3 hours on the 2nd questions.. plus my brain was running like a Pentium 1. Bleahz...

I know I should have started earlier.. Writing the RMSS paper has been featured in my plans since a long long time ago... and yet... sighz.. Gillian.. you need to be more disciplined!!!

Ok. shall go to school and continue writing my paper... 1 more question. .wish me luck! I sense the sun rising... :)

I feel damn terrible now...

I totally blanked out during my twc presentation! Wahlaoz... totally blanked out as in forgetting what I had to say, a lot of repetition and a lot of stuttering... :( :( :( :( :(

I couldn't even read from the script lor... sianz... and i bet i was going so freaking fast!

Everyone looks tired nowadays... Slept before 1 for the first time in days last night.. but I had to wake up at 7.45 for class.

Supposed to write my RMSS paper... churned out ideas with Mieju last night.. why can't I put them into print now? "Words! I command you to appear!"

Ok.. I really should start... 45 more hours to when the paper is due...

Been fiddling with macros the whole night.. recorded 40+ of them! For those who dunno what I'm talking about, you are better off not knowing...

I'm super addicted to Jay's new album... went to buy it yesterday... cause i think it'll be something that I would like to have in my collection. Maybe it is juat an excuse to spend money and pamper myself...

Where should I start? Feel pretty accomplised this week as I did quite some work... TWC slides, Socio report, CAT model... and finally got some ideas for my RMSS paper though I have yet to officially start writing yet...

I realised... that working with people who can 'click' with you is very important. I feel as if I cannot say some things as I don't want to get on the nerve of certain people. Maybe I just don't feel comfortable working with the 'cooler' people. Maybe it is self consciousness... or maybe both of us are just not comfortable coming out of our comfort zone. Because we are just too different...

I do not like to step on people's toes whether intentionally or not. I don't even want to give people that impression. (yes.. not matter how pissed I may be at someone) But today: -outburst- followed by awkward silence. And then we each lapsed back into doing whatever we were doing. How come I felt as if it was my fault? But all that was missing was just a formula. I wasn't trying to undermine your efforts. I know you did a lot for the model. But the formula just didn't get copied over or maybe I did overlook it. Do you think I will waste my time redoing sth if it is already there?

Oh well... everything is due on Monday. After that, I guess we'll just become acquaintences.

Meowing is a chore... really... I have no idea whether it is because it is a crappy project, or we all got demoralised after a not-so-fantastic presentation that made our model look like child's play alongside others... So had an 8 hour long meeting today for the huge revamp! Gotta say it looks better now... I feel more comfortable submitting this.

But there's just no chemistry... they can be nice people to talk to outside of proj... I do not doubt that. But when we are all in the room, there will be awkward silence. We just go along with whatever idea that got thrown out. Maybe that's why our presentation was so bad in the first place.

I think it's ironic. Here i am doing another module on how to facilitate teams and getting them to work together and on the other hand, my own project group has no dynamics whatever.

I'm stcuk, stuck stuck!!!

This is annoying me! I have to come up with original and hypothetical example of a Social Science study that has CAUSAL inference... and describe how to do an expt on it... and it is not just 1 example mind you.. it is 3!!! 3 examples! been racking my brains.. I think i killed loads of brain cells... and my page is still as blank as tabula rasa!

HELP!!!

Glad to know that I still think young...

You Are 16 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

I'm supposed to start my RMSS paper. Basically, I have to design 3 different experiments... and I have no idea what I should use.. like test for what??? Mind you, it has to be original ideas... not usual stuff like 'Does lack of sleep lead to a shorter concentration span'.

I'm hooked onto Jay's new album! Mwahahahs.. so nice! I'm gonna get the album soon.. just need to find time to go shopping without feeling guilty and broke!

Maybe I should start doing sth else now.. like write my CAT report, or do up slides for TWC presentation or report and slides for Sociology and i'm freaking out at my list cause EVERYTHING there is due like by next week... wish me luck!

3 of us... sitting in a room in silence, each staring at our own laptop screen...

What kind of project meeting is that?

Woohoo! I finished my TWC report! Yay! All 5 pages of it. Ok... 2.5 pages of words and then editing the documents. Any my biblio runs up to one full page. I'm happy it's finally done. If only I had started on it earlier! But oh well.. time to move on to other stuff..

Let's see, 1 term paper, 2 more group reports and 2 presentations coming up! Not to mention.. exams in 22 days, as someone who logged into MSN with that nick kindly reminded me. Thanks ar...

I feel blur.. I logged into my sch mail to send it to my partner.. and I actually closed it without sending it out. oh well.. *shrugs* and now when I've opened it again, I almost sent the mail without the attachment.

Staying back in school tonight to do work can be rather surreal. Just 2 of us in the gsr, working on our own stuff. then breaking out into conversation as and when. Hey... you get work done as well as get to talk to your fren.. Kills 2 birds with 1 stone. :) Thanks yeesh for staying with moi tonight! Anyway, I was so caught up tat I didn't even realise that it was raining and stuff... Hahaha.. I miss studying with frens...

Gotta be in school tmr at 10 for meeting. So I guess I should be going to bed soon. But I'm feeling awake now.. I really miss doing work at night. Silence resonate through the rest of the house, just me, my music and my keyboard clicking away. (ok.. tonight doesn't count because my brother is outside watching soccer). Somehow, I'm on a writing high now... :)

To a fren... yes, the one who received a hamster, Hamster for her birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Hmmmz.. where shall I start? (Woah.. this is like some public declaration of love or sth...)

Happy Birthday to You,
Happy Birthday to You...
Happy Birthday to dear SPY!!!
Happy Birthday to you.

For the silly conversations we've had, for having driving lessons together (and both of us doing the directional change lesson), for the times we went cycling, for playing maple together... for the past 8 years, and for a long list of mushy things that I shall deem unfit for this blog, here's wishing you a wildly happy and successful year ahead... Get your driving license soon!!!