Been fiddling with macros the whole night.. recorded 40+ of them! For those who dunno what I'm talking about, you are better off not knowing...

I'm super addicted to Jay's new album... went to buy it yesterday... cause i think it'll be something that I would like to have in my collection. Maybe it is juat an excuse to spend money and pamper myself...

Where should I start? Feel pretty accomplised this week as I did quite some work... TWC slides, Socio report, CAT model... and finally got some ideas for my RMSS paper though I have yet to officially start writing yet...

I realised... that working with people who can 'click' with you is very important. I feel as if I cannot say some things as I don't want to get on the nerve of certain people. Maybe I just don't feel comfortable working with the 'cooler' people. Maybe it is self consciousness... or maybe both of us are just not comfortable coming out of our comfort zone. Because we are just too different...

I do not like to step on people's toes whether intentionally or not. I don't even want to give people that impression. (yes.. not matter how pissed I may be at someone) But today: -outburst- followed by awkward silence. And then we each lapsed back into doing whatever we were doing. How come I felt as if it was my fault? But all that was missing was just a formula. I wasn't trying to undermine your efforts. I know you did a lot for the model. But the formula just didn't get copied over or maybe I did overlook it. Do you think I will waste my time redoing sth if it is already there?

Oh well... everything is due on Monday. After that, I guess we'll just become acquaintences.

Meowing is a chore... really... I have no idea whether it is because it is a crappy project, or we all got demoralised after a not-so-fantastic presentation that made our model look like child's play alongside others... So had an 8 hour long meeting today for the huge revamp! Gotta say it looks better now... I feel more comfortable submitting this.

But there's just no chemistry... they can be nice people to talk to outside of proj... I do not doubt that. But when we are all in the room, there will be awkward silence. We just go along with whatever idea that got thrown out. Maybe that's why our presentation was so bad in the first place.

I think it's ironic. Here i am doing another module on how to facilitate teams and getting them to work together and on the other hand, my own project group has no dynamics whatever.