I think I set quite high expectations... especially if it is sth I am interested in... But I feel like I can get too strong headed when I don't get what I want or what I have in mind... and I feel guilty after that. Hmmm... At the same time, I refuse to compromise on what I feel would like add value. It can be sth as simple as the way the slides look or even the type of animation for instance. Yes... I do go into the details which has its pros and cons.

Oh well... just some after thoughts after a presentation today... I feel like I've came on a bit too strong to get it going.. Makes it a cause and effect thing... I appear to want things done my way because others have no opinion. When I have a direction, others are afraid to voice out and I end up doing things my way because others don't know what I have in mind exactly.

And the fact that it is nth major... just things like alignment and stuff... Sheesh.. I didn't know I'm such a detail freak. I mean I usually am the one who overlooks the details. I think I end up stressing myself too much over sth minor or going all out to correct it. I don't feel that it is necessarily a good thing cause other ppl in the grp may find that I don't trust them or want to claim credit or sth. Or maybe they just feel that they look bad. and i'm really sorry if I have evoked those feelings. It is not exactly about them, but more of me. But it is hard to communicate this idea across...

Because I know what I want, I impose my ideas on others. I mean I realise that when you are with people who are 随便 (in the sense they do not have a direction and would just go with the flow), one has to get the thing moving or it will just stop there... But when is doing a bit more too much? It's like a slippery slope argument - where is the boundary?

Overtime, I realise I judge people very quickly... be it good or bad... but if you prove yourself to me, I'll change my mind... and I would actually respect you for that. I admit sometimes, hastily judging someone would cause a lot of problems... Why this sudden thought? Well, changed my opinion of some people for a particular project... I like it when ppl at least try... compared to others where things don't go thru their thick skin...