Hmmm... had project meeting today... Felt that my group wasn't as bad as I portray them to be.. Mwahahaha... I mean the few hours spent with them was rather enjoyable... Pity is that we can't click.. I dunno.. it's just different.. You can tell that there is some sort of a 'invisible wall' between us... Not as straight forward.. it is more task oriented.. I think it is kinda a pity cause they are all nice ppl...

I think you won't know how much you can act like someone or realise how one's actions can be so reasonable until you reflect on it.. It's like I got pissed off by someone's attitude and actions at the last meeting.. but today, I caught myself doing sth which I felt was similar in nature.

What happened was that we were debating whether I should be presenting or not. I didn't exactly mind not presenting but at the same time, I was kinda reluctant to give it up. But my part wasn't important. More of like speaking for the sake of speaking. So we were just there stoning, and I was like 'What do you all think'... I mean I didn't tell them that I wanted to do it (since I wasn't that sure) but I didn't say that I don't want to do it either...

I should stop passing judgement on others so quickly... If not I'll feel bad when they turn out nicer than it seems...

Finally got started on my democracy paper.. I just hope I have enough space to squeeze everything I want inside... Should finish by tonight... (mwahahhaa... ie: 3 am or sth).

And I'm so proud of my video! (Did some tweaking after feedback in today's meeting) Yes! it has been in my last 2 entries.. but hey.. I toiled hard for it.. so I guess I earned the bragging rights! It's like when you've done sth great ,you just wanna show it to the whole world and bask in their compliments... Mwahahaha... I sound rather egoistic! This video is really a breakthrough for me... Have never attempted sth so complex? I mean the concept is simple and I'm really using an idiot proof programme... but I like the way everything gels together... searching for clips, creating my own clips... Mwahahaha... *beams with pride*!

At the same time, I sometimes wonder if it is worth it... I mean there is no difference between having a video and not having one. I mean those points can always be covered in the presentation. And I could have done it much simpler - just a slide show of pictures. Then again, I like experimenting with programmes. So I guess the video is not that important. Instead, it is what I have learnt from building it...

Oh ya... had a nice Good Friday... stuffed myself silly with food... and kinda slacked the whole day away... just talking, crapping. It's like relieving all the stress that have been building up the past few weeks. My friends never fail to brighten up my day and make me less cynical and feel less stress whenever I'm with them and after I've spent time with them.

And I learnt a lesson.. when your body suffers from a lack of sleep, do not expect it to respond on command... although I slept relatively early last night (at 1 cause i figured even if I have to wake up 10.30 am, I would get 10 hours of sleep which was a lot compared to 5 hrs...). But my brain decided to wake up only at 11.50am this morning... which rendered me late for my meeting in school at 12! I should learn not to torture my body so much... Which means earlier nights for me... which means I better start doing my democracy paper now...

Hmmm.. this entry is disjointed.. so many points in one entry... Whatever... I am always incoherent...