I miss having an internet connection… Ok.. I was too lazy to walk to the lobby or to Macs @ East Coast in the middle of the night to surf the net… Mwahahaha…

Well, the whole thing is over and done with… No more dreaming about it days before the activity. I really feel as if a huge burden is lifted off my shoulders. I don’t want to think about the repercussions and stuff...Well, to say the thing was successful will be seriously lying through my teeth.

The last 2 days or even the past week has been an emotional roller coaster. I love the people around me who have been giving me so much support.. yet at the same time, there were also some who went back on their words and stuff like that… Oh.. I love my dad!!! Which dad would bother to drive from Novena to Geylang to pick up food, then deliver it to East Coast for his daughter? Thinking of it just makes tears well in my eyes… So any ideas what to give him for a birthday present?

I should just get a phlog… I forgot so many things I wanted to say liaoz…

I dunno lar. I think I’m too numb to feel upset… Seriously, I didn’t eat much the whole night. I just had no appetite. I don’t feel like doing anything I admit it was fun at times.. Like when we were talking to the profs or singing along to guitar or sth… but after that… you look at stark reality… The world you constructed just comes crashing down…

Have been experiencing a lot of cognitive dissonance these few days too. It’s like trying to reconcile and justify what I think and what I have done.

I shall not mince my words here… Because this is MY blog… and I want to say whatever I feel like saying here… I shall not be hypocritical or fake like the many ppl out there… I don’t think I fared very well as a leader… Serious... but don’t worry.. I’ll get over it and bounce back stronger than before… I made a few mistakes which I will definitely learn from it…

1) Never give in too much to people. Sometimes, they will just take too much advantage of you till you end up doing everything

2) If others don’t have an opinion, don’t really assume they don’t. Make sure they can commit to help you and stuff before you embark on any mission because you really need their support.

3) There is this phrase called ‘delegation of tasks’

4) Don’t think I am superwoman!

5) A wrong decision kills… Like very badly…

Oh well. End of report… I just wish things had turned out differently… But I also refuse to blame myself wholly for it. I think I put in more effort than anyone else to run this thing and it is just bad that things didn’t turn out as planned. Life will still go on. I just wished I had the chance to do it again.