I'm stcuk, stuck stuck!!!

This is annoying me! I have to come up with original and hypothetical example of a Social Science study that has CAUSAL inference... and describe how to do an expt on it... and it is not just 1 example mind you.. it is 3!!! 3 examples! been racking my brains.. I think i killed loads of brain cells... and my page is still as blank as tabula rasa!

HELP!!!

Glad to know that I still think young...

You Are 16 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

I'm supposed to start my RMSS paper. Basically, I have to design 3 different experiments... and I have no idea what I should use.. like test for what??? Mind you, it has to be original ideas... not usual stuff like 'Does lack of sleep lead to a shorter concentration span'.

I'm hooked onto Jay's new album! Mwahahahs.. so nice! I'm gonna get the album soon.. just need to find time to go shopping without feeling guilty and broke!

Maybe I should start doing sth else now.. like write my CAT report, or do up slides for TWC presentation or report and slides for Sociology and i'm freaking out at my list cause EVERYTHING there is due like by next week... wish me luck!

3 of us... sitting in a room in silence, each staring at our own laptop screen...

What kind of project meeting is that?

Woohoo! I finished my TWC report! Yay! All 5 pages of it. Ok... 2.5 pages of words and then editing the documents. Any my biblio runs up to one full page. I'm happy it's finally done. If only I had started on it earlier! But oh well.. time to move on to other stuff..

Let's see, 1 term paper, 2 more group reports and 2 presentations coming up! Not to mention.. exams in 22 days, as someone who logged into MSN with that nick kindly reminded me. Thanks ar...

I feel blur.. I logged into my sch mail to send it to my partner.. and I actually closed it without sending it out. oh well.. *shrugs* and now when I've opened it again, I almost sent the mail without the attachment.

Staying back in school tonight to do work can be rather surreal. Just 2 of us in the gsr, working on our own stuff. then breaking out into conversation as and when. Hey... you get work done as well as get to talk to your fren.. Kills 2 birds with 1 stone. :) Thanks yeesh for staying with moi tonight! Anyway, I was so caught up tat I didn't even realise that it was raining and stuff... Hahaha.. I miss studying with frens...

Gotta be in school tmr at 10 for meeting. So I guess I should be going to bed soon. But I'm feeling awake now.. I really miss doing work at night. Silence resonate through the rest of the house, just me, my music and my keyboard clicking away. (ok.. tonight doesn't count because my brother is outside watching soccer). Somehow, I'm on a writing high now... :)

To a fren... yes, the one who received a hamster, Hamster for her birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Hmmmz.. where shall I start? (Woah.. this is like some public declaration of love or sth...)

Happy Birthday to You,
Happy Birthday to You...
Happy Birthday to dear SPY!!!
Happy Birthday to you.

For the silly conversations we've had, for having driving lessons together (and both of us doing the directional change lesson), for the times we went cycling, for playing maple together... for the past 8 years, and for a long list of mushy things that I shall deem unfit for this blog, here's wishing you a wildly happy and successful year ahead... Get your driving license soon!!!

The other things in life...

I have been neglecting my blog... and no, it is notthat I have nothing to blog about, but it is again one of those mundane, whining session which I'm quite sick of.

Blogs are for expressions! and yet, mine is just an outlet for me to vent my frustrations. Do I really have nothing to talk about besides studies? or how bad school life is? I wonder...

Am I just nonchalant about what is going on around me, or have no interest in other things?

RMSS midterms is finally over... It was ok I guess..

But I seem to have a knack for oacking my day full when all I really really want/need is a good rest. It is kinda irritating cause I am also not getting enough sleep. I hate it but I'm still struggling to keep awake as I type this entry.

Procrastination - been starting to study super last minutes for 2 of my midterms. it's like I start studying 1 or 2 days before when I actually have a whole week to do it. It's annoying whe nI'm pressed for time, but I just don't get the urgency to start earlier.

I still feel lost. It's like floundering, taking a day a a time, doing projects when you should ad waiting for people to do sth before you do. I no longer take the initiative or actively participate. This is bad! Maybe I'm spending too much time with the 7 dwarves as Fran calls them. I dun think I should be so involved, but at the same time, it has become a habit.

On the other hand, one thing I've learnt is that listening in RMSS and copying notes has paid off because it is a lot easier to study. Except that the final exams is purportedly 2 essay questions! Very good!

Been contemplating certain things of late... career path, things to do after I graduate... It's like some big conspiracy. I dunno where each path leads. Sometimes, I feel like writing long philosophical entries.. but then again, who would want to read them? Maybe I should just write it for myself...

Sigh.. I think I'm starting to speak gibberish. I'll survive my packed day tmr... actually, I dun have to do much. But it's just the thought of spending it in school instead of at home that irks me! and then it's the weekend again...

My class has started for 38 mins. and I'm still at home...

Reeling from the after effects of a hectic day.. Imagine sleeping at 2 plus, waking up for an 830 class, eating a sandwich from 7-11, then having a meeting from 12 to 5 plus and then going for a dinner...

My battery ran flat yesterday... spent this morning trying to rush an assignment that is due for today's 12 noon class.. and I decided... heck.. shall just miss the class to see doc, then can start revising for RMSS and then go for driving after that... and I'll have to make up for the class tomorrow... which gives me less time to study for RMSS... Arghz!

It's a vicious cycle... I need to reorganise and re-prioritise... which reminds me, i better get off this blog too!

Gillian likes Settler's Cafe. It is a place whereby you can spend your time playing different kind of games. It's rather interesting and I think it's fun!

Been feeling rather overwhelmed. This week-long 'hols' is whizzing by me and even though I'm going back to school everyday, I don't feel that much work is being done. In fact, project meetings are there for the sake of having meetings or sth. Sometimes, I feel that I'm sitting in a room of strangers and there are awkward pauses and periods of silence. Like some blind date whereby you have exhausted all conversational topic.

Need to study for my RMSS test on Thursday. A highly intelligent prof would definitely ask highly tricky mcq questions - my philosophy. So yeah.. time to hit the books.

I've not driven for 10 days and counting. I think i'm experiencing withdrawal symptoms!

Hmmm... it's been a couple of days. 2 midterms down.. one more in like 2 weeks time.

Feel kinda guilty over Socio. I had time to study, but chose to procrastinate mugging for it until the day before. On top of that, I wasted loads of time and got myself hooked onto maplestory again. Yeah.. How smart can I get? Luckily I felt that the paper was do-able. Except that well, each mcq and fill in the blank is worth 2 marks. So erm... good luck if I'm careless or overlook sth...

Been sort of productive today. settled some project stuff and things... but that's about all.. Break next week.. let's see how much of a break I'll have..

I'm supposed to be in school for a meeting in half an hour's time.. and you've guessed it right.. I'm still happily sitting at home in front of my laptop...

I kinda just refuse to move out of my chair.. I dunno why... Or maybe I do... It's too nice a day to go to school. It ruins my mood for studying Sociology for the rest of the day.

I'm so gonna fail Sociology because I seem ot have no such interest in it. at least I bothered about Democracy last sem. I seem to be hecking Sociology.

Mid terms in 3 days time. Bah!

Sigh.. I realise that my pic has not been appearing for some time... But I'm really too lazy to change my skin... Lazy me should be studying for socio mid term.. but I have declared freedom for myself since like.. erm... yesterday after CAT midterms?

Bwahahaha.. I'm such a slacker!!! No class tmr morning some more.. Woohoo!!!

and I should really really go hit my sociology book... and memorise the million and one terminology Prof has been going thru in class.. Bleahz...

Argh!!! I'm freaking out 6 hours before my CAT midterm!!!

In my last-ditch attempt to mug for CAT, I tried 2 'test-prep' examples that my prof put up. BAD BAD mistake!!! I end up getting more lost! I really hope the test later won't be like that! I shall go sleep soon... But first.. I need to solve 1 last puestion on probability.. Arghz!!!!

I was certain of my decision yesterday... pangs of regret hit me today.

I am so indecisive. Ladida~!~

Imagine setting out on a long journey. One with neither a destination nor a predetermined length, but supposedly when you reach your ending, a breathtaking scenary awaits you. You are free to stop along any point. but it may be hard to find your path again.

This is not about life, but of a journey I've taken.

I've been trekking for a long long time. Through dense forestry, open fields, climbed hills and picked up new survival skills. I've stopped along the way to look at flowers, savour the berries, bask in the sun. I've also spent countless night bewildered and shivering in the cold. Lost wthout a map and compass, I was unsure of how to carry on.

Meeting the occasional strangers, some nice, some nasty. Some who bothered to accompany me along the more trecherous paths and help me through difficulties. When I was tired, there were some who cajoled me to continue moving - and I did. Some stretched me to my extremes while some just made me feel completely redundant. There are others who just seemed to make the road longer and unaccomplishable.

After trudging for miles, is it time to rest and end my journey here? Though the scenary is not as nice as I expected, but who's to say I will find a nicer environment than this? Part of me wants to explore further, but it's time to let a travel-weary me take a break.

* Disclaimer: The above is just an exaggerated analogy of my path. I have not been emotionally scarred or anything. I just need to reconcile my thoughts.

It wasn't so long ago that I was standing at the traffic junction at the foot of AMK Street 13, watching cars with 'L' plate u-turn and seeing how some of them would narrowly miss the curb where I was standing and there were a couple who actually turned way off the mark. Today, it was my turn to be behind the wheels of one of those 'L'-plated car. I saw the students in their uniforms, waiting for the lights to change in their favour.

I long for those free-er days. Without having much care in the world except studies and play. Not having to reason night after night with myself and my friends over a decision. To argue the decision from a rational point of view or to include other mitigating factors like other's expectations, other's requests or to analysis what the decisions made by certain people mean.

Now, the dust has finally settled. I have made my decision. Without a doubt, a void will be created. But then again, I believe that it's time for other things to take centre-stage in my life. Family, friends, other meaningful stuff, studies and maybe the door to music may even creak open.

I feel like such a fickle-minded, indecisive idiot sometimes... Why do I have to keep going back on my decisions?

Because I never wanted to make the decision I did in the first place? or am I such a weak person who gets easily swayed?

then why can't I stay firm on what I have decided now???

Gillian is troubled...

and Baoqin.. thank you so much! *hugs* I really really appreciate it!!!

I have this urge to start playing some game and to ignore my conscious which is telling me to take notes during TWC class... The prof's words just whizz pass me.. It doesn't even go in.. and I'm just typing strings and strings of words... that in a way, holds no meaning for me...

Hmmm... I can feel a lot of things piling up.. but then I dun seem to see it coming.. and it's dangerous cause I'll probably die when it hits.

Yet another (unproductive) weekend seem to be running out of my grasp... Well, at least I made 1 important decision, (and no, I'm not getting married!). Hmmm... I'm quite decided that i'm not going to run for office for Social Science Soc. Yeah.. this is about the 20th time I've changed my mind... but with the way things have turned out and with new developments in the plot, I think I'm better off being in a sub-comm rather than on main comm... which leaves me to regret why didn't I join any other CCAs when term started 5 weeks ago.

I think I need some time out for some good ol' KTV session... but first, it's time to hit the books!

PS: Eminem rapping in the background does nth to help sooth a throbbbing head! :(

Went for my 3rd concert in as many weeks... This time, its Strings Blended, a collaboration between Guitarissimo and Obligato (the string ensemble of SMU). Went down to support and watch dear Meiju perform. Yay! Nice music except that well, when the acapella group sang 'Journey' with an ensemble acocmpanying them, Fran and I couldn't help but cringe and exchange glances. I'm not saying that I am a good singer. But I think I know my limits and my conpetencies. Let's just say that I probably enjoyed the background music more!

Anyway, been having nice chats with friends these few days. Really really appreciate all of you out there. Sitting along Singapore River (my fav spot!) and talking to Fran, Exchanging stories with Charissa over dinner, chatting with Sharon in the gsr, gushing over AKK... Kinda makes me forgets my troubles/stress I face and well, nice to talk to ppl whom you can click with.

On the work front, it's time to start preparing for midterms. Maybe I got 'influenced' by the guys in my group who apparently formed the SMS (SMU Mugger's Society) Hahahah... and I see a lot of them using the terms "Smugger' now... Innovative sia~!~ But working relationship wise, feel as if I'm not getting much headway with them... Just feel quite shut off from them sometimes... like thye don't really want to let me know what's going on. Well, I got another 8 weeks to make them change their minds...

Anyway, just to mention, I'm very inspired by the literary meme that was started by MercerMachine and that a lot of people followed... ;)

Ok. it's late... got a meeting at 12 tmr... Night~!~

Note to self: Don't read AKK's blog is class. Hahahaha... I was trying to read (yes... in class cause 830 lessons are such a chore) and I almost burst out laughing.

break now... another 1.5 hours...

* I posted this during class on Wednesday, but apparently, Blogger didn't like it a lot and didn't display it*

It's finally time to get down to some serious work... That's what I claim now.. check back with me in a couple of weeks time.. hahaha.. I'll let you know how successful I am. But it's about time to clear the pile of readings...

Anyway, I passed my Final Theory.. *phew!* I mean considering that I didn't have enough sleep.. and I read the book only 1 hour before the test. Hahaha... When doign the test, it's like I went through so many questions which I was sure I'll get right. But because the passing mark was so high, my heart was thumping when I cleicked the 'submit test' button.

Oh well.. it's over... going to learn u-turn the next lesson...

I have another 4 mins of my self-declared break at 2.56 am.

I should be sleeping... but I have 1 more question of my CAT (read: Computer as an analysis tool) assignmnet that is erm... due before 8.30 to do. Hmmm.. Procrastination yet again, coupled with tight schedules these 2 days, helping out in a flurry of activities that left me irritated. Yet at the same time, I feel blessed and loved.

HUGE HUGE thank you to all my friends who listened to me whine, offered words of encouragement, dropped me a note to see how I was doing or just being there. These are the things in life that I must learn how to cherish and appreciate~!~ To my dad, who bothered to send me to school even with soaring petrol prices and my parents for not nagging about my involvement in school although I know my mum would gladly love to say sth.

Ok.. I exceeded the 'break'... Last question! Although I have half a mind to turn it in empty (since the assignment is only 10%), but it ain't tt difficult. Just tedious... so grit my teeth and move on... I'm so glad I bought chocolates this afternoon...

Sometimes, I really wonder... Do you happen to take things for granted too easily? Or do you think that having 'connections' will make every wrong right?

I'm running into a lot of corners, certain things that purportedly has been settled are apparently not. And this is frustrating because I'm working within a very tight timeline. Not to mention, I'm doing sth that is totally foreign to me. Many people ask, 'Why am I doing this?' The answer... I really dunno. Why put myself through these sort of things again and again? I'm seriously not a sucker for some certificate or some huge gratification party...

Sometimes, I just want to do things I like. Things like singing, but for the past one and half years, I have not gotten that opportunity. Been attending acapella concerts these 2 weeks. I realised the passion to perform has never died. Maybe just kept under wraps. But my commitments within school makes it difficult for me to pursue what I like now.

Instead, these involvements are something kinda new to me. I embrace things as they come, but when the going gets tough, I wonder wistfully, whether things would be different if I had put my heart and soul into something else that I would enjoy more.

I wanted to be faithful... but I couldn't help adopting Rollie Polly... cause it's just too cute!!! Click on the pengui and make it fall into the water!!!

hahaha.. I feel super cheap thrill... but nvm...

adopt your own virtual pet!

Introducing... Hedgy!!! (Thanks to the link from Claire)

adopt your own virtual pet!

hahaha... you can click on it to make it jump!

Everything seems so fucked up! (Ok there.. i said it... been thinking long at hard at the usage of that word...)

I feel lost.. like just drifting aimlessly down a meandering river. Tons of readings, revision to do...

Midterms coming up and I still feel lost in class.

See ar.. I have a CAT assignment due on Mon. and I haven't touched it yet... It's so gonna give me a headache over the weekend.

Feel like crap now because I think I handled my group a little wrongly. I was a bit too direct with sth... and now, I'm wondering how they will take it. I don't feel like a good facilitator... I can't click with my group. At least not really... so it's weird...

I'm hopelessly lost in Research Methods. And I'm starting to feel that I'm not cut out to be in Social Science...

Sociology lessons are *yawn*. I'm just not motivated and so not interested. HELp!!!!

I need to fix up my life soon... and well...

Yay! I managed to get a driving slot for 4.40 pm tomorrow! and that was like after loads of cancellation! Driving license! Here I cometh!

I should eat sth before I go out of my house and not survive on snacks. I should learn to sleep more. I ended up zombified, pukish and hardly awake for my lesson.

Went for a haircut yesterday. I think it's a little too flat. Bleahz... but maybe it will start curling out after a few days (which it always does!) And as usual, I got the 'Would you like to try rebonding you hair' salespitch. What can I say?

I think that paying $16 for a mooncake is exhoritant. Well, make it an ice cream moocake. Trust only foodies to go for these sort of things. According to 8 days, even bird's nest mooncake costs less! (It's $68 for 6 pieces from Shangri-la Hotel). Yeap.. I'm talking about the mooncake from Haagen-Daz. But then again, the ice cream mooncake was great! Their mango-sorbet centre (which was supposed ot resemble the egg-yolk) was like! Ooh-la-la!!! Yummilicious! Not to mention the dark chocolate coating outside...

Try to beat this: Chocolate and Wasabi mooncake from Emi Cakes. Anyone brave enough to try it?

My readings are piling up by the ton-load, I have no idea what my say-everything-with-a-straight-face professor is trying to teach.. Welcome to the 4th week of school where I'm supposed to have settled in.

Or maybe I should have settled in weeks ago... Whatever. Remind me I haven't even gotten my textbook for Sociology yet. How settled in is that? week 4 seems to be the magic number. It's when most of the project meetings will start, assignments are due and when you are supposed to have an inkling of what has been going on in class thus far.

Trying to read up my excel textbook. at least it has a clear explanation of what the functions are and what they do. However, I shudder to think what it would be like for mid terms. All the formulas, parenthesis and stuff... Bah!

Anyway, I think too much of a good thing can also be bad. Went for acapella Fest 2005 which was on Thurs. Basically a concert featuring about 9 acapella groups. Let's just say it dragged on for too long and I think I got an overdose of it. Not to mention, I had to rush home to complete an assignment that was due at 2359 that very night! Ah well, the consequence of being a procrastinator.

Mid-Autumn Festival is coming soon. I want mooncakes!

I'm supposed to be frantically banging away at my keyboard, writing a 5 page reflection journal as a facilitator.. but now, my words don't even fill half the screen.. The worse thing is, it's dued tmr night, at 11.59pm to be precise. But then again, I'm going for this acapella concert so I still need to get the whoe framework and everything done by TONIGHT! *mumble grumble... I knew i shouldn't have procrastinacted so much'

Sigheth.. it's not that I got nothing to write. It's just that the words don't seem to flow. I can't seem to organise and link my thoughts together and that is annoying me. Argh!!!

Ok.. enough whining.. back to staring at my screen...

Seriously, I feel as if I'm just doing a weekly update on my life thingee... It wasn't supposed to be like that but anyway and anyhow... it just happens...

So many things that I wanted to blog during the week.. and yet... I can't really remember them now.

Things I realised:
1. A lot of ppl wants to go into investment banking (trading and stuff) and retire by 40!
2. I have not (since Bukit Timah days) spend a lot of time in the library
3. I like the new campus and yet, miss the old campus
4. I need to improve my facilitation skills... in an all-guys group

I need to get down to work and catch up with my readings. This 2 weeks has been just a blur and well, loads of stoning. Assignments are due this week. No more procrastinating.

Oh ya.. did I mention, I'm still catching the USOpen. So sue me!

I seriously think I have amnesia... I forgot sth that I wanted to blog about 5 mins ago. Help!!!

survived the 1st week of school... Now to begin the 2nd.

Oh ya... I missed the theory trial test tt was supposed to be at 330 cause I was too lazy to drag myself out of the house. But I booked another one at 6.55pm and I managed to pass that. *winks* So.. .Final Theory, Here I cometh... Now to squeeze practical lessons into my schedule... and project meetings haven't even started yet!!!

Anyway, I skipped the make up class for the History module on sat... But I spent Sat morning walking round Bras Basah Complex trying to look for Hillview Publishers. Bah! The main directory was hidden by the escalators on the 1st floor... and then the shop was tucked in a bloody corner on the 4th storey. When I finally made my way there, the place was closed!!! So much for feeling lazy and not wanting to buy textbooks last week... Anyway, the only find of the day is that I looked at the Jack's Place menu and I think their prices look quite reasonable even after their revamp.

Ok... in a bid to cultivate a healthy lifestyle, I shall sleep early... and so, it's 12.05 now. I'm going to bed. 830 lessons tmr! How I dread getting up!

On a sidenote, US Open is starting tmr! but because of the difference in timezones, matches are shown like from 11pm to 8am? Ahs... I need my beauty sleep...

Booked a Theory Trial test for 330 today... Haven't touched the book yet, Don't feel like going for it. Boo!

Another long day... Sociology seems fun! and we were let off like 1.5 hours early!

Feel as if I'm whing and snapping at people quite a bit. I didn't even bother to engage myself much in the conversation my driving instructor was trying to have with me. And my lack of concentration and focus almost caused me to be in an accident. And my engine stalled a few million times today on the road when I was going up slopes and stuff. And well, my car slid when on a slope. According to my instructor, the guy behind looked kinda worried. *oops* Well, at least I drove pass St Nicks! Yay! But I didn't really looks at it cause I was kinda focussed on the road.

Had a long meeting after that... I'm sorry if I sounded snappish. I was and still am tired. And I feel sligtly pissed with myself. Should have done certain things earlier...

My lids are drooping. Tm's my first LTB lesson. I hope i have a nice group! :)

Good night world...

I spent freaking 14 hours of my first day in school!!! Not bad for a start huh?

back to back lessons from 8.30 to 3.15, after which was stoning at the benches outside SESS while talking to a freshmen about bidding for courses. Then had a 2 hours plus facilitator training workshop. I'm beat!

Anyway, I think SMU is damn 奢侈 (ps: does it mean too extravergant? cause tt's what I wanna portray) State of art, cutting edge technology in a new school! Woah~!~ Woreless keyboard, wireless mouse, sliding whiteboards, a funky looking camera/projector. But the thing is, please make sure the equipment works lar! The wireless mouse ran out of battery or sth.. and it takes 5 seconds for the conputer to register what the mouse's (is there such a word?) command. Why can't you just place the desktop in the classroom instead of locking it in an equipment store or sth?

Not to mention, the new campus really discourage students form visiting the washroom in the middle of the lesson. Cause once you get out of the door, you can't open it from the outside. The door can only be opened from the inside or if a prof outside scans the class.. Not bad huh?

Anyway, have I mentioned that I'm gonna further screw my already screwed 4 day week? Or so I think? Due to the fact that the buildings are located further apart now, and I have to rush from one end to the other end in 15 mins for a lesson that I'm expected to be there at least 15 mins earlier for. Gee... I don't see how I can ever manage that. I don't teleport you know...

Oh well.. shall stop being a complain queen... Maybe I'll just stick to my history module and forget about taking the other course until the next term... :)

By the way, even MSN has turned against me! It refuses to display the font I've chosen. Instead, it uses a default font like Arial or sth... anyone knows how to solve it?

Am clearing my mailbox so as to free up precious space for sch! Anyway, came across some mails that were sent at the beginning of the hols. There was a very nicely planned timeline for certain things to take place... but looking back, I dun think any of the datelines were adhered to at all. Okiez... I'm not a sucker for strict timing. Those who know me would probably know my timing is pretty 'rubber' (ie: flexible) but looking at the mail just tickles me cause even me, the big procrastinator doesn't miss that many datelines!

Anyway, had a nice weekend before school starts. Went yodelling yesterday! Hahaha... Retail-therapy, move over! I would suggest we find other duets to sing. I'm a lil' sick of 屋顶 and 窗外. And as usual, there were pages and pages of unsung songs... Ahhh!!! I like to just sit around, talk and catch up, or rather, whine... Hahaha...

After that satisfying session, my throat was rather sore... Hahaha... but then... went to Toa Payoh.. Must thank Baoqin here.. Thanks for inviting me to her place for dinner yesterday.. .adn thanks to her mummy who cooked marvelous yummilicious food! Yesh.. the cereal prawns, crab... ahh.. my mouth is watering at the thought of the food!!!

Yay! Happy Belated Bday gal! May you have a happy happy year ahead! :)

Caught 'Love me If you Dare', a french movie after that... Hmmm.. slightly twisted, kinda dark... and weird.. Hahaha... It wasn't a 'feel good' movie like Amelie was. This was well, disturbing. But I also kinda liked it.

And well, I've spent today either in front of the tv, in front of my laptop or eating. hahaha... I feel like a pig. Tried to clean my room up but well, I think I just created a mess on my table. And chucked things I don't want into a plastic, and things I don't need into one of the many cupboards in my room. hahaha.. Well Done Gillian... OKiez.. shall go off soon!

I'm already in first gear and raring to go... r-i-g-h-t! Why do I have 830 lessons???

JUNYANG!!! WHY aren't you get in???

Disappointed, shocked... Sigh...

I felt rusty after not driving for one week. Die lar... How? Its gonna be like that for the next few weeks cause I haven't been able to book any lessons. Where are the nice people who used to drop slots every night?

Have to drag myself up early tmr morning again cause I have to go for the final theory lesson. It's at 1030!

My heart broke for Wigan...

English Premier League kicked off last night.. .and tonight, there was a match between Chelsea, last season's champions and Wigan, a newly promoted team. Sth like David meeting Goliath... And well, Wigan managed to hold off Chelsea until like... 1 minute into extra time!!! (read: Just 2 minute before the game ended!) Wahraoz... Just a momentary lapse in defence and in goes the freaking ball! I was hoping for them to draw the match!

That will give Chelsea to think about - that money does not make the world go round.

Bah! Spoilt my mood...

Morning! =)

Blur me booked a driving lesson on Monday when I have to be in school... Oh well.. shall just go on Wed then...

Just pausing to ramble some of my thoughts before I start the day...

I think Charlie and the Chocolate Factory fell flat of what I expected. I thought it would be better. I liked the feeling of being transported ot another world but there was nothing else to it.

Was suppose to be at the airport now on my way to HK... but... unexpected change of plans. Upset? Not really... Disappointed? Kinda... but given the circumstances, I would give up everything in the world for things to get better. So I'll just use the time to do other things.. Like go Bugis Village to shop! and well, washing my bag, getting new stationery... Hahaha...

Been listening to this song by Hacken Lee on repeat for some time now... =) Some sappy love song...

聲聲慢*

愛慢慢等 慢慢冷 慢慢失去了信任 曾經以為 你是一切
心慢慢疼 慢慢冷 慢慢劃下了傷痕 如今回味 痛一整夜

慢慢失去感覺 慢 慢 慢 慢
過去是你陪我飛 但未來會有誰

慢慢失去感覺 慢 慢 慢 慢
思念的風 穿過了黑夜 回憶是最傷的醉

慢慢失去感覺 慢 慢 慢 慢 遺憾的眼淚 時間會解決 愛過就不後悔
慢慢失去感覺 慢 慢 慢 慢 我關了心 鎖上了黑夜 讓疼痛慢慢消退

Hacken Lee's Mandarin album 《爱可以问谁》 is out after like 10 years... His diction ain't fantastic... but it's bearable...

Liten to it here:
http://data.myidol.org/mf/displayer/albumDisplayer.php?geo=chinese&frab=00000000000&hra=0&fwmab=11111111111&hwma=1&fmp3b=&hmp3=0&ca=1&ar=Hacken%20Li&al=Who%20Can%20I%20Ask%20For%20Love&tr=11&emp3=0&mb=0&dn=myidol&myidolEB=1&user=

But it's like some old fogey singing... dun feel like it can rival what's on the pop market now by all the other pop singers... But I like Track 1 and 3! =)

Some of the songs are Mandarin versions of canto songs.. the problem is when u try and fit lyrics in, it ends up rather cheesy and weird... ahahahah...

Wah lao... the show doesn't have a freaking ending... OR rather, it just ended like that... I expected more...

I shall go sleep...

Am watching my 2nd movie tonight...

Caught 'Charlie and the Chocolate Factory' just now... Now, watching the 'Collateral' DVD... but well, it's not exactly very thrilling if I can find the time to blog... Maybe it is because I'm tired... and there's nothing really fascinlating about 2 guys driving round in a cab to assasinate people. Yes.. the whole show is basically about that 2 guys... Yawn...

OK... this amazing thing just happened... The car kinda crashed and rolled over and the 2 protagonists are still alive and kicking! Talk about reality... Hahaha... It's ending soon...

Came back from watching the NDP Parade from big screens at Marina South, caught the beautiful Fireworks, had dinner at Bugis, rotted at Starbucks till they chased us away...

Anyway, here's a nice fireworks clip... yeah.. just ignore the shouting in the background...
http://s26.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=2276WGZ9D5MEY3GZ8WV6ZBC2P8

I love fireworks!

It feels as though it's a long time since I've blog. Too many things going on the past week... But it's all over and I'm glad all of them ended on a high note! =)

let's see.. spent loads of time getting to know the new campus. I realise my new school compound is very noisy. The automatic ascalators will buzz for an annoying long period of time if you happen to inch towards an escalator that does not operate in the direction you want to. Then, the gantry will produce a loud, embaressing beep if you stand to close to the person in front of you, try to smuggle ppl into the building. Use the same card to admit people. It's like some high security place. Oh.. I dun think I've mentioned that the card readers located outside rooms will beep incessantly when the doors are not shut. So much for a high-tech school...

Anyway, visited the School of Bio Sc @ NTU on Tues... Surprised the birthday girl, after which we proceeded to town for dinner... and we sat by the Esplanade riverside. I just adore that place!

Spent wed in SESS, preparing for Thurs' orientation.

Thursday... was spent collecting money and counting money... and well, being thoroughly entertained by the Social Science freshies. Working behind the scene is very different from being a helper or a participant. Most of the time, you don't see what is going on. You just sit around and busy yourself with pressing stuff, unexpected surprises, last minute screw ups. But it was good experience and exposure.

Fri... then went down to Chijmes for our first ever rehearsal... Reworking and finalising the script, all done in record time - one day before the actualy show! That day, I actually left school relatively early (read: 8pm) and wanted to go home for dinner. but there was no food at home cause they conveniently assumed that I would be otherwise engaged. Hahaha...

Sat morning was spent working out and finalising the details, powerpoint and stuff. Final rehearsals at Chijmes and I'm glad everything gel-led...

7 pm: The show begins... Well, the evening went by in a bit of a blur. Can't really remember what exactly happened and stuff. Was an unwilling accomplice to get freshies to take part in food challenges.

Let's see.. how does making the freshies consume thinge like belachan, mayonnaise, bittergourd, wasabi sound to you? I was kinda eeked out initially... But I guess it was ok. Hahaha...

Then after tt, it was boogey the night away! =)

I'm tired... like dead tired. From a culmination of events the past few days. A lot of things I cannot comprehend but who am I to question all that?

Frayed tempers, unspoken words... Non communication will only make things worse simply because it sends the wrong signals. I fear that certian things may be escalating to a boiling point whereby any small thing that happens will push one over the edge. Differences in characters, mentality, ideals...

Senseless ramblings to some, maybe even to me... Sometimes, I would prefer it so much more if I was cuddled up in bed with a good book. =) I just feel so sick and tired these days. trying to be as helpful as I can, trying to enjoy myself with whatever I do. But sometimes, things just do not work out the way you want them to. Maybe it has to do with the task, or the absurdity of the whole thing. In other cases, it may be how others are treating you or just differences in opinion or styles of working.

Caught 'The Island' today... Like the reviews put it, a lot of running in the show. Hahaha... Figured that it is quite easy to be a movie critic. ;)

The show moves a bit too slowly for my liking but the action sequences was good. Those blocbuster kind. Made for cinema cause I think if I watch this at home, I'll probably be switching channels halfway or turning the movie off cause it really requires a good sound system and big screen. Unless of course your house has a surround-sound, movie system.

Plot was kinda thin and predictable at some times... I felt that the lines could have been wittier cause it all semmed very serious.

Hmmm.. how's that for a maiden attempt at critiqing a movie? Oh ya.. forgot to add: I'll give it 3.5 out of 5 stars.

Thronged Bugis Village after that. Realised that the place isn't as small as I thought - all the nooks and cranny and corners. Small shops sprouting out from nowhere. Actually after a while, all the shops look the same. I mean they all sell clothes and more clothes... and bags. I mean that's about it. Hahaha...

Now, I'm in front of my laptop, refreshing the SSDC website every few minutes. Its the Singapore Safety Dricing Centre site. Yeah.. I'm trying to book (more) driving lessons for next week. All I see is a free slot on Mon evening at 6.55. But I dun feel like taking it. Oh.. will some kind person drop their slots for me???

OOOh... I really lurve the feeling of being behind the wheel of a car!!! Still driving in circles in the circuit but well... I'll go out onto the road some day~!~ I can't wait!!! I'm on a driving high!!!

Hahaha... went for dinner with the ga²s^4y gals today... Hahaha.. pure indulgence! Marche dinner - realised I haven't eaten there for some time... Then Gelare waffle followed by a Raspberry tea @ Starbucks... Hahaha... a lot hor! I think so too!!! but it was fun.

'Mental picture'... say cheese!!!

Thinking back, I think we did sth quite ridiculous and funny.. I can't exactly believe that we actually sat outside Starbucks @ Raffles City and started singing 屋顶, 窗外 and trying to harmonise them. Oh GOsh!!! Like 'pinch me!' I bet the other patrons thought we were a bit off our rockers! Hahaha.. but it was fun!!! Now I'm on a KTV high!!! Yay!!!

Woohoo~!~ I like driving! feels good to be able to control the car though I admit I wsa quite a kan cheong spider today. Hahaha...

Ok.. I shall learn never to put 2 back to back lessons. I realised it is like 3 hours 20 mins of lesson. Bleahz... after a while, cannot concentrate. the the turning gets from bad to worse. I did a lot of turning and shifting of gears from gear 1 to 2. I believe I went round the carpark like at least 50 times? hahaha...

Driving is like a memory game. At least for a manual car. Gotta remember so many things. 'Clutch, then depress accelerator', 'release clutch', 'accelerate', blah blah blah... Yeah.. and it needs a lot of coordination. I wonder how the instructors managed to look so relaxed when driving.

Nice lessons... wed my next one! Can't really wait!

Gillian is watching the rain free falling. Pitter-patter, pitter-patter...

Glad I'm snuggled up in the comforts of my home. Can't imagine what it'll be like if this happened during the camp!

Woke up early today.. maybe because I slept so long the day before. I forsee that I'll be reading a lot today. The National Library has nice new books~!~ Woah! Nothing beats the smell and feel of new books imo. Not to mention I have Half Blood Prince, but I haven't read the 5th book yet. Clever hor...

The rain's coming down in torrents now...

Listening to 屋顶 now... I wanna harmonise the song!!!

I slept for 15 hours!!! Mwahahaha... returned from Run 2 of orientation camp... Glad the camp went well. =)Hahaha... was better than the last run too! Good thing the weather held. The 'committee and helpers' corner was like turned into a gambling den lar...

Discovered I was peeling from the previous week's camp. One of the rare times I actually peel... But this time, didn't get burnt. Instead, I got attacked by mosquitos... I ended up with about 30 to 40 bites... Bleahz...

Chalet was fun! I never realised how much I missed karaoking until that night. A lot of fun and laughter and mahjong and more bridge. Yay!!! I wanna book Aranda for ALL chalets in future! It's spacious and the beds are nice~!~

Feeling sleepy again.. Hmmm.. maybe I slept too much. But having some 'down-time' after the hectic week. Starting my 1st driving lesson on Mon. Can't wait!

Ok.. a quick post before I leave for the chalet... Hahaha... Been trying to book for driving lessons. Bah~!~ I have a one month break between my 3rd and 4th lessons! All the other slots are taken up!!!

Maybe my life will return to normal after this week is over. By normal, I mean going out, nua-ing, meeting up with frens.. blah blah blah. This hols seem to be slipping through my fingers. It's like before I know it, there is 5 weeks before school reopens.. Yeah.. I know I shouldn't be complaining. Given that some people are already starting school next week. But oh wells. *shrugs*

My shoulders still feel a bit burnt.. and some angry, red welts have started appearing on my skin. Dunno which and what kind of stupid insect bit me...

Oh wells, gotta leave house soon and I'm still half done packing. Hahaha... Looking forward to the chalet. I feel as if we haven't met up for a really long time. Being away from civilisation for 3 days makes everything seem so distant, so foreign. Let's have some fun yodelling, crapping and being silly! =)

I'm BACK!!!

After being away from civilisation for like 3 days, tucked away in one small corner of sunny Singapore, I'm finally back! Haven't caught up with the news, haven't touched my laptop in about 3 days!!!

Lemme tell you.. I have never ever appreciated a nice,shower with warm water as much as the one I just had minutes ago. Not to mention in the confortable confines of my toilet. Bathing with cold water in the middle of the night in a makeshift toilet was alright... but it's so nice to feel hot water cascading down your back.

And I have never looked forward that much to sleeping on my soft bed. Sleeping on concrete with a thin layer of cotten was bearable.. except that whenever you turn, you'll hit hard ground. *ouch*

Camp was ok for me... But the weather was super freak. Raining one minute, sunny the next... I survived it all!!! Mwahahaha... and I think I did a lot of walking around Chinese Gardens (more than like 2 shopping trips combined). Totally haven't been there before... Hahahaha...

I'm super burnt. I'm freaking RED now!!! Yeah... the tan lines are pretty obvious now. I dun think I'll peel (cause I have never peeled) which is good I guess. Maybe I should just walk around Chinese Gardens next week with my palms facing the sky so that the underside of my arm will go darker too.. cause it is very uneven now.. Hahaha...

Ok... I'm so super craping. Working on auto-pilot now... Shall sleep.. Night~!~

Bleahz! I abhor public pools on weekends especially in the evenings... Yes.. it is a deliciously nice time to swim. Not much sun, just nice for lunch to settle. Unfortunately, it is also what every swimming coach thinks.

Wah lau eh... I seriously won't mind if the students swim laps leh... But I ABHOR, DETEST, AM EXTREMELY IRRITATED that the kids are made to swim across the pool (ie: swimmign the breadth instead of the length).

Then, you have to contest with all those styrofoam floats... and avoid being hit on the head! And despite me stopping in the middle of the pool to let them pass or looking from left to right furtively before proceeding, I got whacked in the face

It's like trying to jay-swim across a busy traffic junction. Bleahz...

Maybe I should comtemplate going at 12 noon when the scorching sun will hopefully dissuade the crowd from swimming. (and also increase my chance of getting skin cancer) GREAT~!~

Thursday... went for a super detoxifying lunch...


Organic Vegetarian Bak Kut Teh


Organic Vegetarian Bak Kut Teh! It was interesting to see corn, carrots and lady's fingers in the soup. Hahaha... but the carrot and corn was really really sweet! The taste was not too bad I guess.. but it wasn't really herbal... nor hot. Oh ya.. and I even took it with brown rice. Cause it's an organic food place...


The said Bak Kut Teh with Brown Rice... Healthy ar...

After that, proceeded to Somerset... Nah.. I didn't miss Singtel that much.. but went to get my hair coloured... Hahaha... Dun think it shows up very well i nthe photo.. but nvm.. shall jsut post it up... =)


new hair colour

After dunner, took a long long walk from Somerset to Esplanade. Not bad huh? I think we clocked in at 30 mins? or maybe a bit more... Back to the IOC place.. and the 4th floor was still swamped with people.

Caught the National Acappella Championships. Nice blend-y renditions of pop songs, oldies, evergreen.. Woah~!~ Hats off to the people who actually arranged the songs. 'This Love', 'Dancing Queen', 'Heal the World' and loads of Chinese songs. And there's a singer from Verve Enharmonics that really really sounded like the singer of Beegees. He really stole the show... Both groups from NUS: Resonance and Verve Enharmonics were really good. Blended and sang well as a group - it was so soothing that I kinda started to drift off. I really appreciate things that is done through group effort. Hahaha...

Tomorrow should be stay home day if everything goes according to plan. I need to detox from going out...

Woah~!~ 2 days after I stopped work.. Did loads of stuff...

On Wed, was suppoesed to go down to faraway NUS yet again... but thanks to Baoqin, we didn't have to do anymore research, looking for election stats! Thus, I went to get my elusive PDL. like finally... Woohoo~!~ I can't wait to start lessons. After tha, it was Thorpe-hunting @ Raffles City. Too bad I didn't even get to see anyone that remotely resembled him. So the only thing to commerate my visit there was a photo next to the Vanda IOC!


Me @ Raffles City

Maybe I should work in the media. I got very fascinated seeing people do live reporting and stuff. Too bad security was damn tight. How I long for a pass to get to the 4th level where the IOC thingee was held on the 4th floor.

After that, took an hour plus long tour of the new SMU campus... Nice place, nice feel~!~ Looking forward to studying there. Long long long underpass. I wonder how many tons of soil was removed. But it seriously feels like a mall. Yes.. I know it is gonna be one...

Why did London win the Olympic bid? No Paris...

Been wanting to post this up for some time... Hahhaa.. I like this head-shaking creature that operates by Solar power only.. Mwahahaha... It's cute! Oh.. my sis got it from Thailand.. Yes.. it can be found here too.


The shaking head thingee my sis got me from Thailand 

It's my last day of work tomorrow.. After a grand total of 6 weeks and 2 days.. The way I look at it, for the past 6 weeks, I've entered into the lives of my colleagues, managers and other people around who see me at work everyday. Tomorrow when I leave, I will be extracted from their lives. I will go on to lead my own life, pursue my education and they will still be caught up in the hustle and bustle of their lives... The odds of us meeting again is not huge.

Yeah.. and after I end work.. Out of the frying pan, into the fire... Busy busy weeks ahead...

Shall go sleep now... dun wanna be late foe my last day @ work!

Hahaha.. the power of the media.. I see why sometimes, there can be so much misunderstanding and how things, when taken out of context can have totally different meanings.

I took this off 2 different match reports of the semi-final match of Wimbledon between Thomas Johansson and Andy Roddick. Roddick won the match partly due to a lucky shot. So here is Roddick's comment on it:

" The timing could not have been better for me, " Roddick said of the net cord. "I felt guilty about it."

versus

"Commenting on the net cord in the final tie-break, Roddick said: "It was lucky. The timing of it could not have been any better for me. I felt guilty about it for a second then I got over it."

The truncating of a few words... 'for a second then I got over it' makes the 2 statements sound different.. Hahaha...

Ok.. enought tennis mania... Tmr's exciting match up.. Roger Federer vs Andy Roddick in the Finals...

Gillian is feeling cynical and skeptical... must be the air on the 31st floor cooupled with boredom.

I happen to have an issue with people who practices selective reading. and of those who assumes too much? Just making an ASS out of U and ME!!!

I also think that when you promise to do sth, it should be done as best as possible... unfortunaltely, I don't feel as if I am giving my best and that what I am doing is sth good.. Bleahz... I need to focus!

This week went by in a flash... 2 more days of work.

Angelina Jolie is freaking hot!!! Caught Mr & Mrs Smith.. The chemistry between Brad and Angelina was *wow!* SUPERB! They just look so fantastic together.. *drool*

But I felt that the movie was similar to 'Tomb Raider' whereby Angelina is the heroine and everyhitng. Brad was there but not there.. Hahaha.. more of an ornament? And I prefer Brad with longer hair... He looks like he just came out went into NS and was given those 'very nice' haircuts... Coupled with a couple of lame, ridiculous and elaborately choreographed action sequence... I would give the movie maybe a 3.5 to 4 stars out of 5...

Yes... it's hilarious how a couple can look like they are doign some kind of dance, moving in sync while tying to fend for themselves and kill off a few dozen enemies..

- End of movie report -

The rest of the week? went by in a flash... SS orientation is finally in the pipelines. Venue looks good, programmes sound promising.. We'll battle this one out... ;)

'Why do you ask him move heaven and earth
To prove his love has worth?

Would he walk on water?
Would he run through fire?
Would he stand before you
When it is down to the wire
Would he gave his life up
To be all he can
Is that, is that, is that how you measure a man? ' ~ Measure of a Man, Clay Aiken

This lyrics have been popping up in my mind... How do you measure the people around you? By how much they are willing to do for you? How much they are willing to sacrifice for you? or issit something more?

The quote by Morrie about taking things for granted came to my mind again... part and parcel of life? I need to be more appreciative of the beautiful things and people around me instead of letting the bad one ruin my days...

Been reading Tuesdays with Morrie' by Mitch Albom. It's about the life lessons a Professor passed on to his student (Mitch) just before he passed away.

It's a very quote-worthy book I would feel... and one of my favourite quote:

'So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing something they think is important. This is because they are chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning. '

and another one here on the 'Tension of Opposites'

Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing , but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you shouldn't take anything for granted.

It's official...

I'm ending work on 5th July. Which is another 7 working days time... After being there for 5 weeks, I think I'll kinda miss the place. Environment is much better now... plus I've kinda settled into a kind of routine... and time really flies.

Oh wells, it's time to move on. Just like so many other things... Anyway, I seem to have a hectic July packed up already... camp, chalet, outings...

Anyway, what's with baggy pants that hand on the edge of guy's butt? Some hip-hop style? Or were they taking heed of a judge's comment made on Project Superstar? The judge, when commenting on a contestant's outfit 'The pants can be of a larger size, if u really want a certain look, do your best to perfect and complete it...'

Why the tirade on guys and baggy pants? Cause I was walking along Orchard Road when these 2 guys in front of my were pulling up their pants... and erm.. their briefs... Yesh.. I wonder if they were trying to show off to the world they were wearing 'Calvin Klein' briefs...

As Fran would put it, I went hunting for nice, juicy 'mangoes' today... Mwahahhaa... but I didn't find anything. All the nice stuff were 'harvested'.

Yes.. 'THE' Mango sale is now on... visited the branch at Centrepoint during lunch and after work... The queue at the cashier was atrociously long during lunch. When I went back after work, the place looked as if it had been bombed! Clothes were strewned everywhere, more snaking queues, people pulling on top after top and standing in front of the mirror to see how they looked. Didn't manage to find anything though... It was too chaotic for me... and ya.. no more nice stuff. *sob*

I thin Mango really like having their outlets converted to a warzone once a year... I remember last year, people were queuing up outside the Raffles City Branch... But i pity the staff who has to clear up after the last shopper exit...

Ok.. I'm on a tennis craze again. 2 Grand Slams in a month. Oh.. Grand Slams are considered the most prestigious tennis tournaments and there are 4 a year - Australian, French, Wimbledon and US.

I'm suffering from blog-stipation. Nothing seems interesting to blog. Or rather, certain things are best left unsaid... Maybe I should go an a hiatus... It's time to sleep...

Anyone wanna watch Batman?

Justine Henin-Hardenne got ousted in the first round of the Grand Slam, Wimbledon by Eleni Daniilidou of Greece... 6-7 (8-10), 6-2, 5-7. Right after her amazing comeback from a viral attack last year which saw her win the French Open and 4 back to back tournaments.

Sigh...

As the date for bidding draws near (it opens tmr...) I see an interesting trend in MSN nicks... People are whining one way or another with regards to their timetable, scheduling and bidding woes.. hahaha...Yeah.. me inclusive...

I lurve weekends... Time to go and sleep...

Procrastination is the thief of time.. Yeah.. how many times have I uttered this phrase? Still.. never learn from my mistakes.. ooh la la... but it's finally done. Oh... I was compiling the results of some survey that I conducted. Hahaha...

Hmmm.. will be making one of my last few trips to SMU's Bukit Timah campus tmr... Oh wells.. better settle everything that I have been saddled with. Research, survey and the works.

I'm too tired to blog. Bleahz... my mind's blank...

I felt like a porcupine today. Went for my first ever acupuncture session cause my neck has been aching. Having needles poking out of my back while lying was well.. a new experience. Hahaha.. but it wasn't as horrifying as I thought. Oh wells... but I feel so much better now. =)

Went cycling today... Had a good workout... But then along the way, I enjoyed a nice, big and juicy coconut for only 2 bucks. Which I felt was quite cheap given that it was in East Coast. It was real gigantic... and I felt like a 水桶 cause the coconut seemed bottomless and I was still drinking after a long time. Hahaha...

as usual, ended up with tire marks smearing my legs.. I guess it is the way I dismount? hahaha... the bike was too tall for me. and I tried using only 1 hand to control the bike.. a bit straining but could lift my other hand for a few seconds. yay! Shall experiment mor ethe next time. But I tell you.. it is NOT ADVISABLE to cycle @ East Coast on weekends. I think I spend more time slowing down, manuvering to avoid hitting bladers and small kids riding those 4 wheelers. Kinda annoying for me... I like cycling at a constant pace without much obstructions in front. hahaha...

Ok.. I shall go sleep now... exhausted...

I seriously think I get my life back only on weekends. Let's see.. I was at the airport on Fri to pick my sis who came back from Thailand. Kinda reminded me of my own Thai trip in Sec 4. Anyway, I was early cause I went straight from work... It was kinda surreal taking the train, being absorbed in my book and ignorig the mass of people on the way there. Since I was early, sat at Coffee bean to have coffee. Their Belgium Choc thing was like SUPER RICH! Very strong chocolate after taste...

I wished I could be one of those pulling luggages too, flying of to some distant country. Yes.. my desire to go abroad is really VERY GREAT!

Met up with the Group One people today.. Seems like EONS since I last saw them.. As usual, it was a pigging out session (What else right?). Loads of crap... Hahaha...

And I finished a book yesterday... 'Scent of Danger' by Andrea Kane. Read a huge chunk of it at the airport.. went home to finish it. The plot was not bad. Hahaha... That's so me... Usually, I try to finish my books in 1 reading.. unless it is too heavy which means I dun read a lot.. Cause I dun have the luxury of a whole day to enjoy my book.

Hahaha.. this is called 'Practicing Selective Blogging'.

Your IQ Is 125

Your Logical Intelligence is Above Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius Your General Knowledge is Exceptional

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

I spent one and a half hours cutting my hair.. Can you believe it!!! Ya.. the guy was very patient, helping me thin my thick hair that was spewing all over the place. And tried his hardest to blow the curls out.. But alas.. after I washed my hair, it no longer has the 'bob' look.. Hahaha... As usual, the hairstylist asked me to rebond my hair if I want to keep the unruly curls under control. Oh well... I've been tempted too many times but well... if I'm that desperate to have straight hair, I would have jumped on the rebonding bandwagon ages ago when it was a big hit a couple of years ago. Ok lar.. parental opinions also has a part to play in this decision. =)

I amaze myself sometimes.. I really wonder why I procrastinate doing some things so much and yet, when I bother to sit down and finish it, it is less tedious and takes up less time than I imagined it to be.

Work is picking up... I remember whining for the first week that I was slacking for stretches of hours.. Now, I'm just staring at excel sheets the whole day. jumping from one file to another.

I just feel like I spend 9 hours everyday from 830 to 630 in twilight zone or sth... I feel cut off from civilisation. and I only open my mouth to talk for that one hour during lunch. I feel deprieved of talking. Hahaha...

Gillian has been rather crabby of late... Been losing my patience at trivial stuff.. No good... I should really go pick up sth new before I rot and die from the boring routine of going to work and back home where I spend a couple of hours in front of the tv and/or computer.

It's a Friday! 2 glorious day ahead! Hmmm... when you start working, are weekends the only think you look forward too? Shucks.. Maybe I should start getting a life...

GSS is on! But nth has really caught my eyes... Which I guess is good. Can save money. Hahaha... Life's a bore...

Know how people are glad it is a Friday and they go TGIF (Thank God it's Fri)? Well, I was on my way t owork on Monday and I thought... ONIM (Oh No! It's Mon!) Do you think it will be as catchy as TGIF? Think not.. Hahaha...

Anyway, I feel so unmotivated after I started working. It's like I miss out on the little joys in life, not excited, feeling immune to a lot of things. Hell... I kinda feel like a zombie that wakes up at 8, goes to work for like 10 hours, reach home, have dinner, plonk myself in front of the TV watching tennis matches and then come online and surf a bit then sleep at 1 or there about. been following this regime for a couple of days now.. I don't even bother appearing on MSN nowadays... Sigheth...

Oh ya.. should I get a MuVo?

Working makes me appreciate weekends more.
Working tires me out.
Working is heping me to re-adjust my body clock. Yes.. I try to sleep before 1 everyday because I have to drag myself up at 8.

Shucks lar.. I just got a mail regarding exchange.. briefing is on 17th June... Bah! I'm working!!! Shall take leave or sth.. Hahaha...

Anyway, have not been blogging much... after staring at my laptop the whole day at work, Dun really feel like looking at another computer screen... Plus I am busy watching the French Open. hahaha... I feel kinda cut off from the rest of the world. It's like Mon-Fri is work day. Then I only have the weekends to slack, watch tv and stuff. I wonder what I do on weekday nights.

Anyway, I have aan affinity for getting jobs whereby my supervisors stay late, or are ultra busy or stuff like that. Hahaha.. I see uncanny resemblance in my present job and my past job at the law firm. Oh well.. I hope I can learn sth new. I daresay my excel skills are a wee bit better after 4 days. But we'll wait and see... Welcome to the corporate life. I dun think that is for me though.. Hahaha...

Gillian had her 1st day at work... Her horoscope today should have read: 'You will be unexpected. Sitting alone in a sea of strangers.' She rotted for 4.5 hours. with absolutely nth to do...

So she sent out like 30 smses to freinds who would listen to her whine and have a conversation with her. And played a stupid word game:

In the word CONSOLIDATED, she found 15 three-letter words, 22 four-letter words, 6 five-letter words, 1 seven-letter word, 1 eight-letter word and 1 eleven-letter word. Hahaha...

But after I got my laptop, it was fine. Was busy calculating. experimenting with Excel... May tomorrow be a better day... Maybe I should prepare sth in case of unforseen circumstances.

I woke up to a letter from the 'Traffic Police Division' on the coffee table this morning.

They sealed the enveloped with super glue or sth... Took me a long time and a lot of unsightly tears on the envelope before I could retrieve the piece of paper inside.

The first thing I saw: 'Successfuly candidates are required to produce this notification and identity card personally when applying for a Class 2B PDL!!!'

ahahhaa.. .I passed my Basic!! yay!!! Thanks to all well wishers. ;) Shall try to give u all a lift in like... 1 yr's time? (though I hope I'll be able to drive much sooner!)

I thought today was just gonna be an ordinary day of KTV and a good dinner... and of course, getting pressies...

Fine... I got a sms at 11 saying that the meeting time was pushed back by 1 hour. Fine with me cause I was still lazing in bed. When I was bathing, Siyi called. She refused to leave a message. Just nice after I emerged from the bathroom, Angie called.

My jaw dropped when she asked me to open the door... :o

Oh well, so I thought I'll just get escorted to town. Then...


Tada~!~ 

The cake looks quite pro right? Well, the 2 non-home econs girls actually baked this!!!


Pics of the lovely and delicious peach yogurt cake (with loads of butter cream) 

Siyi and Angie!!!

*Muacks!!!* I LOVE YOU BOTH!!!

I'm really touched that you all stayed up till 530 to bake the cake and for coming down all the way to surprise me!!! Thanks for making the 21st of May 2005 such a memorable one!!! Hahaha...


US! 

Had a scrumpelicious dinner! Look at the food we polished off! Well.. glad that it was well within 'budget'! ;)


Dinner! 

Ok.. I'm having fun experimenting with Picasa now... So here are more pics!


More pics! 

Happy Happy Gillian...

Well.. getting serenaded with a birthday song by strangers was quite an experience... =) Dinner at pastamania was made nicer by Meiju who came down to meet us. Thank you to Claire, Renjie, Baoqin for the not-so-surprise surprise... hahaha... So paiseh!!! but I really appreciate it!!! and the cheesecake was SUPER NICE!

A big thank you to Ade, Crystal, Cheryl, Sining, Wenjie, Hanjie (I dunno if all of you are reading this, but anyway) for the presents. Hahaha.. listening to the CD now... Nice~!~ Shall start on the book soon. Thanks especially to Ade and Crys who took time out even though both of you are busy preparing for Cambodia. ;) See you in 1 mths's time!!!

Thanks for the SMS-es and birthday wishes... Gillian really really appreciate it. *hugs*

I'm 20!!! I'm 20!!! I'm 20!!! *bounces up and down*

Hahahaha... Just hyper...

Anyway, I think this year's date is so cool!!!
20052005! Gillian turns twenty on the twentieth of May, twenty-oh-five. Cool right?

My last posts as a teen... *SobZ* Growing OLD!!! Ya.. and what will happen when I turn 30 man... Hahahaha...

Nah.. I dun think I'll wake up and morph into someone totally new... Though sometimes, tt thought does cross my mind... but nvm... But I guess when you hit the 'TWO-oh', it marks another phase of your life? Or maybe I will get to see the changes when I hit 21. hahaha...

Anyway, just thought I'll do a little take back on my teenage years... Yesh.. Think this will be rather short since I've been talking quite a lot about the pass in the previous entries. Readers, just bear with me... Actually, you can just skip this whole post... hahaha...

13 marked the 1st year. The 1st yr in SN where I spent 4 glorious years! I have simply too many wonderful memories to jot them down, met many of you... yes, you special people who have become a part of my life... A blur Sec 1, the only one from my primary school... joined choir by elimination. (Yeah.. I didn't want to pick up a 2nd instrument though I'm regretting it now).

Then after 4 years... year 17 and 18 was spent in VJ... Actually I remember sleeping in almost EVERY lecture in J1... Dun ask me how I did it. I dun really believe it now when I think about it.. Hahaha... After that, all I remember is like ponning lects, going to the lib, physics tuition, choir practices and mugging for the 'oh-so-impt' A levels...

Spent a good half of my 19th year of existence working... and learning and seeing new things... Spent the next half grappling with a new school, new friends, new passion...

I see myself changing over time... I see priorities shifting. And well... I love all of you out there who have been there for me, listen to me crap, whine, moan, be it ppl I've met from SN, VJ or SMU. Thanks for being part of my life.

Hahaha.. it's 12 now... Spent quite some time blogging... ;)

Ok.. This shall be one of my last few posts as a teenager...

I got the Singtel job!!! Yay! Thanks a lot Fran! Yeah... 1 week after the interview and test...

Gillian is now gainfully employed!

My arms feel as if they have just broken off like an over-used pair of oars... Proud to say I swam 30 laps...

Nevertheless, it is nice to go swimming in the evening... You dun get the sun - therefore, you reduce the risk of getting some deadly cancer. The air is just about right. Not scorching hot as compared to the afternoon. And you dun have to wake up early... =)

All the reality shows I watch have either drawn or are drawing to a close... Sigh... American Idol will end next week... This year's fight to get into the finals is tough... Not like last year's. OK. All 3 finalists are not exactly 'Idol' material. But I guess they'll undergo some packaging course. I like Carrie since the start though she really has nada, zilch, zero, kosong stage presence. Bo, I don't want him to win. I mean he is a good performer... Ok.. I'm not a 'rock' type of person and I dun see what's so nice abt this guy swinging his long hair and jumping around on stage. he just screams the rock songs. Maybe if he did more ballads, I may like him better.

Back from SOV... Somehow, I felt the songs they sang were much better than what we did last time. As in more challenging? More like 'Water Night'? And the juniors seem to be multi-talented.. Hahaha.. Instruments were 'incorporated'... Clarinet, Violin...

I felt like it was more like a gathering. You see seniors, juniors, friends...

No man is an island,
No man stands alone
Each man's joy is joy to me,
Each man's grief is my own...

Back from basic theory test... It was ok I guess but then again, it was how I felt after I took last year.. and I failed... Hahaha... I'll update next week...

SOV in 2 hours plus time? Hahaha... I should really go get ready to leave the house. Toodles~!~

Mugging Studying for tmr's Basic Theory... Frankly, I don't care whether it is a dotted white line or a continuous white line or a continuous double right line that acts as a road divider... bah! But then, I learnt that those under 1.5m are actually exempted from wearing seat belts. Hahaha... 90 over more rules to memorise... Sianz... Feels like mugging for some exam or sth.

I hope I can pass tmr's test!!!

Went for 'It Takes Two' today... It was HILARIOUS!!! I laughed till my cheeks were sore... somewhat like after smiling for too long at the camera. but the jokes they told.. so tongue in cheek.

I guessed it was because the topics Selena and Hossan covered were very 'Singaporean'. From migrating to Australia, to the IRs, to just talking cock... I like their singing... and Hossan is such an accomplaished pianist.

Sigh... I better start mugging for my basic theory on Tues... Die!

Went back to St Nics today... after like 1 yr plus plus plus? I really cannot remember the last time I went back. Teacher's Day in J1? Anyway, the school is painted a disgusting pale yellow and rusty red combination with PURPLE doors!!! Everyone.. Say 'YUCKS!!!'. I wonder who is the one with such bad taste. Ok... Maybe it is not to my taste. But ya... And they kinda colour coded the school by level? Like scared that peopel will get lost with their 'half' levels??? They painted the secondary block GREEN!!! Scream people!!! Even the walls near the primary school music room. The green walls made it feel as though the area is closing in on me... I have no idea what is the fascination with the rusty red... Even the pillars in Sunken Forum are that colour. Makes everything blend with the track and the roofs of the houses along Ave 2!!! and they named the science labs 'A to H'. Oh.. and the pillars in the canteen ar epainted differenct colours.. and so is the ceiling of sunken forum. Like my friend said, it looks like a kindergarden. or maybe even a kindergarden not dun look that bad...

Yes.. enough whining about how bad/hideous/horrendous it looks. Cause I really miss the place... We took a walk to the new extension... then went down to New Music Room, walk thru the back where the peacocks are kept... pass the MEP rooms and back up to the canteen. Memories of the place - like Geog remedial in the Humanitiess Room, Experiments in the science labs, Choir in MPRSitting at the specs stand, last minute mugging for O lvl Chinese exams at the round thingee...

I still feel attached to the place. You can take a SN girl out of SN, but you will never take SN out of a SN girl... Sounds corny? I dunno.. but I think it is kinda true...

Ok.. enough reminiscing of SN.

I think NUS Library is freaking big... and it has so many books!!! Saw a few psycho books I would like to flip through... Somehow, I never sort of bothered to find out what sort of book SMU library carries. Hahaha... And I took a non-aircon 151 to NUS. Hahaha... I almost forgot those bus existed. Those with the rattling windows, noisy exhaust whereby you get wind (and a lot of carbon monoxide blown in ur face). I thought they were phased out eons ago. I mean I do see non-aircon 186 passing SMU bus stop... and maybe I did see a few 151s.. but somehow, it didn't really register in my long term memory... Hahaha... But it was a good experience because it wasn't raining today and it wasn't too hot and crowded...

Not in the mood for anything much... Still have 3 unwatched DVDs. Maybe I should start on them soon. Library book overdues... Darn!

Read in the Sunday Times yesterday that we should not write in long sentences that comprises of 50 words or more as it will become too dreary for the reader and will be ineffective in sending the message across, unless it expresses the same train of thought and even in the event that we do manage to come up with such a freaking long sentence, it should be sandwiched between much shorter ones. Ok... Let's see how many words did the above come up to: 72 words.

Hahaha... Holiday plans are still not fixed yet... Been slacking too much for my own good... but then, I'm still enjoying it... So I guess... It's been 3 weeks and 3 days since I ended my last paper. Time just seems to pass by...

Gillian is bored. Any nice games, books to recommend? Ok.. I know this is a little tongue in cheek for those of you who are out there slogging working your guts out... But well, hope ur jobs will go well!

Gillian shall look elsewhere for entertainment...

I'm hungry. Gillian, the night owl is on the prowl again...

Like my new layout? Yes, It was supposed to be bright and cheery, but well, though the background is still black, I think this mood is much lighter than the other one... Ahahahaha...

Shall go find food...

I'm so glad Scott's finally out of AMI!!! Ok... actually his voice kinda grows on me. I kind of liked his voice when he was singing tonight.. But a bit too late. Plus, I can't stand his guts.. super arrogant.. and that sneer on his face. The camera should have turned to his face when Ryan announed that Vonzell, Carrie and Bo were the Top 3. I would love to see the smug look being wiped off his face. Afterall, he looked super pleased when he was told to go over to the couch. I think he should have been voted off long long ago! Then maybe Constantine would have stayed on for another week.

Anyway, I think Anthony's version of Incomplete is much better than BSB. Sorry lar.. but their vocals a bit cannot make it... Or it may be the version that I streamed. It just sounded weak.. Thought that Anthony's version was stronger.

Yes... welcome to my life. I watch TV, read story books... Just finished 'Howl's Moving Castle' (the novel by Diana Wynne Jones). Understood what some ppl meant when they say the movie didn't follow the novel closely... But now I feel like watching the movie again...

Need to change my blogskin... This is a happy month!!! Hahaha... But need to run errands again tmr... Sigh...

Had a super duper long meeting tonight... Started at 7 plus and ended at 10 plus... So many things happening, so many things going to happen... But this entry is not going to be about the meeting. Instead, it is going to be about me!

Sometimes, I ask myself what I want out of life. Often, the answer is not clear. I know I want to travel, I know I want to experience working in other countries. I know I want to be surrounded by people I love. I want to be respected. On the other hand, I think I take a rather laid-back attitude on stuff...

Can't get a job? Nevermind lar...
Missed out on a grade by a bit? Don't bother appealing.
Things don't go my way? Oh well, other things may come along.

I guess I can say that I accept things as they come and as long as it is within some 'acceptable limits' that only my mind can fathom. And it helps to be optimistic about things. I guess I learnt my 'never say die' and 'nothing is impossible' attitudes from my mum. (Yah.. and I learnt 'Impossible is Nothing' from Adidas)

But that being said, it also doesn't mean that nothing can bring me down. I'm still exploring my limits, I still get pissed off, I still whine... But I live by a super cliche motto "Anything that doesn't kill me will only make me stronger"

Ok... just some thoughts of the moment.

It is good to cherish what you have, to be thankful for the people around you. Without my friends, there would be no one for me to whine to, no one to listen to me patiently, to put up with my nonsense.

I never realise how important my family is to me. I won't be who I am without my parents... From trivial things like my passion for Hongkong stuff (shows, singers, songs) to the way I live my life and the way I approach life.

I appreciate the closeness I share with my siblings. How we can crap with each other and don't shut each other out of our respective worlds. I like my sister's witty retorts and brilliant ideas. My brother's thoughtfulness and kindness. (Yeah, he picks me up from the bus stop if I reach home too late) Yes... simple gestures like that warms my heart and makes me feel truly blessed.

On hindsight, I may not be that good fren. I tend to turn up late, forget birthdays, overlook details. Not as meticulous as I would like to be to my friends.

It's been one of the most reflective entries for some time. Usually, I just steer clear of revealing too much about myself... but decided to pen these thoughts down today. No particular reason, no particular message to send out. Perhaps just for future reference.

Sometimes it is not good to keep pondering and weighing pros and cons (Like who will read it and how they feel after reading it). I realised I missed out blogging a lot of stuff. Usually, I don't bother to describe things in details. Now, it becomes a just blurry memory.

Reading my archives, I don't think I will make it as a 'famous' or 'infamous' blogger liks xiaxue or mrbrown that will command a huge following of readers. Yes.. you see this childhood dream of attaining 'celebrity' status (Must have read too many fairy tales).

I feel slack... I read and hear about people working, doing meaningful stuff. Me? I'm just like waking up late after staying up to chat, going out, reading, playing games.

I really ought to get sth done soon... My mum just asked me today why I refused to go back to help out at the law firm since I am so slack and I just hang around and do nth... I keep thinking that I'll be busy with my driving and stuff after my basic theory. But will I really be? I mean it is hard to predict what will happen. As for devoting my time to community service, I haven't exactly heard from the organisers yet... Maybe I should go look for sth to do. Pick up cross stitch again? Piano?

Ya... maybe I should just move my butt off the chair and start doing sth instead of sitting here and whining about it.

I don't get it sometimes... why is it so difficult for people who are bigger in size to find nice clothes?

Why must clothes that come in bigger size make the wearer look like an auntie? Or have designs that scream 'auntie' from 10 miles away?

This has to do with media portrayal of 'the perfect body'. I mean it is NOT a crime to be overweight... I think it is disgusting that girls who are like super thin complain that they are 'fat'. Some of this can be genetic... and people can't exactly control how they look and develop. Yes... there are some who doesn't give a damn... but there are those who try and still, they can't really change things. Would we really look at these people differently and discriminate against them?

Advertisements for slimming pills and slimming centres don't really help... plus, who can question the effectiveness of such stuff? I mean them getting slim celebreities to endorse these products is like... *bangs head*

Sometimes, it seems that it is such a crime to be fat. People think that you are a glutton, that you are a lazy sloth... But i think it is better to be fat and healthy than thin and unhealthy... I mean some people just smoke to stay skinny. How healthy is that?

I just wish that shops will actually stock up more on nicer clothes for bogger size people? I mean they are widely available in the States, Europe, Australia cause most of them there are bigger size than us. So why can't some of these be brought over here?

Well, the long weekend has just passed.. .Well, it didn't exactly make a difference to me cause I'm slacking... But nonetheless, decided that I should finally pack my room and started clearing my notes and readings... Then i decided my drawer needed cleaning out too. And I couldn't stand my earrings being all over the place in plastic bags... So I did up....

Ta.. Da...


My Earring Storage Box!!! (oh.. and that's my sis in purple mugging for mid terms)

Oh well.. but I realised I dropped like halves of 2 of my favourite pairs and broke half of another one I really really like... Yeah.. I think I am a careless girl. So I'm going to look for materials to try and re-create my lost earrings... Anyway the materials look buy-a-ble...

And yesterday, I went to Rivervale @ faraway Seng Kang for Sakae... (ok lar.. it wasn't tt far) Ahahaha... then went to town and shopped... Well, bought a pair of new heels... I like it A LOT!!! I'm too lazy to go take a photo of them... So you'll see then when u next see me!