Sometimes, I really wonder... Do you happen to take things for granted too easily? Or do you think that having 'connections' will make every wrong right?

I'm running into a lot of corners, certain things that purportedly has been settled are apparently not. And this is frustrating because I'm working within a very tight timeline. Not to mention, I'm doing sth that is totally foreign to me. Many people ask, 'Why am I doing this?' The answer... I really dunno. Why put myself through these sort of things again and again? I'm seriously not a sucker for some certificate or some huge gratification party...

Sometimes, I just want to do things I like. Things like singing, but for the past one and half years, I have not gotten that opportunity. Been attending acapella concerts these 2 weeks. I realised the passion to perform has never died. Maybe just kept under wraps. But my commitments within school makes it difficult for me to pursue what I like now.

Instead, these involvements are something kinda new to me. I embrace things as they come, but when the going gets tough, I wonder wistfully, whether things would be different if I had put my heart and soul into something else that I would enjoy more.