I feel like such a fickle-minded, indecisive idiot sometimes... Why do I have to keep going back on my decisions?

Because I never wanted to make the decision I did in the first place? or am I such a weak person who gets easily swayed?

then why can't I stay firm on what I have decided now???

Gillian is troubled...

and Baoqin.. thank you so much! *hugs* I really really appreciate it!!!