Working makes me appreciate weekends more.
Working tires me out.
Working is heping me to re-adjust my body clock. Yes.. I try to sleep before 1 everyday because I have to drag myself up at 8.

Shucks lar.. I just got a mail regarding exchange.. briefing is on 17th June... Bah! I'm working!!! Shall take leave or sth.. Hahaha...

Anyway, have not been blogging much... after staring at my laptop the whole day at work, Dun really feel like looking at another computer screen... Plus I am busy watching the French Open. hahaha... I feel kinda cut off from the rest of the world. It's like Mon-Fri is work day. Then I only have the weekends to slack, watch tv and stuff. I wonder what I do on weekday nights.

Anyway, I have aan affinity for getting jobs whereby my supervisors stay late, or are ultra busy or stuff like that. Hahaha.. I see uncanny resemblance in my present job and my past job at the law firm. Oh well.. I hope I can learn sth new. I daresay my excel skills are a wee bit better after 4 days. But we'll wait and see... Welcome to the corporate life. I dun think that is for me though.. Hahaha...

Gillian had her 1st day at work... Her horoscope today should have read: 'You will be unexpected. Sitting alone in a sea of strangers.' She rotted for 4.5 hours. with absolutely nth to do...

So she sent out like 30 smses to freinds who would listen to her whine and have a conversation with her. And played a stupid word game:

In the word CONSOLIDATED, she found 15 three-letter words, 22 four-letter words, 6 five-letter words, 1 seven-letter word, 1 eight-letter word and 1 eleven-letter word. Hahaha...

But after I got my laptop, it was fine. Was busy calculating. experimenting with Excel... May tomorrow be a better day... Maybe I should prepare sth in case of unforseen circumstances.

I woke up to a letter from the 'Traffic Police Division' on the coffee table this morning.

They sealed the enveloped with super glue or sth... Took me a long time and a lot of unsightly tears on the envelope before I could retrieve the piece of paper inside.

The first thing I saw: 'Successfuly candidates are required to produce this notification and identity card personally when applying for a Class 2B PDL!!!'

ahahhaa.. .I passed my Basic!! yay!!! Thanks to all well wishers. ;) Shall try to give u all a lift in like... 1 yr's time? (though I hope I'll be able to drive much sooner!)

I thought today was just gonna be an ordinary day of KTV and a good dinner... and of course, getting pressies...

Fine... I got a sms at 11 saying that the meeting time was pushed back by 1 hour. Fine with me cause I was still lazing in bed. When I was bathing, Siyi called. She refused to leave a message. Just nice after I emerged from the bathroom, Angie called.

My jaw dropped when she asked me to open the door... :o

Oh well, so I thought I'll just get escorted to town. Then...


Tada~!~ 

The cake looks quite pro right? Well, the 2 non-home econs girls actually baked this!!!


Pics of the lovely and delicious peach yogurt cake (with loads of butter cream) 

Siyi and Angie!!!

*Muacks!!!* I LOVE YOU BOTH!!!

I'm really touched that you all stayed up till 530 to bake the cake and for coming down all the way to surprise me!!! Thanks for making the 21st of May 2005 such a memorable one!!! Hahaha...


US! 

Had a scrumpelicious dinner! Look at the food we polished off! Well.. glad that it was well within 'budget'! ;)


Dinner! 

Ok.. I'm having fun experimenting with Picasa now... So here are more pics!


More pics! 

Happy Happy Gillian...

Well.. getting serenaded with a birthday song by strangers was quite an experience... =) Dinner at pastamania was made nicer by Meiju who came down to meet us. Thank you to Claire, Renjie, Baoqin for the not-so-surprise surprise... hahaha... So paiseh!!! but I really appreciate it!!! and the cheesecake was SUPER NICE!

A big thank you to Ade, Crystal, Cheryl, Sining, Wenjie, Hanjie (I dunno if all of you are reading this, but anyway) for the presents. Hahaha.. listening to the CD now... Nice~!~ Shall start on the book soon. Thanks especially to Ade and Crys who took time out even though both of you are busy preparing for Cambodia. ;) See you in 1 mths's time!!!

Thanks for the SMS-es and birthday wishes... Gillian really really appreciate it. *hugs*

I'm 20!!! I'm 20!!! I'm 20!!! *bounces up and down*

Hahahaha... Just hyper...

Anyway, I think this year's date is so cool!!!
20052005! Gillian turns twenty on the twentieth of May, twenty-oh-five. Cool right?

My last posts as a teen... *SobZ* Growing OLD!!! Ya.. and what will happen when I turn 30 man... Hahahaha...

Nah.. I dun think I'll wake up and morph into someone totally new... Though sometimes, tt thought does cross my mind... but nvm... But I guess when you hit the 'TWO-oh', it marks another phase of your life? Or maybe I will get to see the changes when I hit 21. hahaha...

Anyway, just thought I'll do a little take back on my teenage years... Yesh.. Think this will be rather short since I've been talking quite a lot about the pass in the previous entries. Readers, just bear with me... Actually, you can just skip this whole post... hahaha...

13 marked the 1st year. The 1st yr in SN where I spent 4 glorious years! I have simply too many wonderful memories to jot them down, met many of you... yes, you special people who have become a part of my life... A blur Sec 1, the only one from my primary school... joined choir by elimination. (Yeah.. I didn't want to pick up a 2nd instrument though I'm regretting it now).

Then after 4 years... year 17 and 18 was spent in VJ... Actually I remember sleeping in almost EVERY lecture in J1... Dun ask me how I did it. I dun really believe it now when I think about it.. Hahaha... After that, all I remember is like ponning lects, going to the lib, physics tuition, choir practices and mugging for the 'oh-so-impt' A levels...

Spent a good half of my 19th year of existence working... and learning and seeing new things... Spent the next half grappling with a new school, new friends, new passion...

I see myself changing over time... I see priorities shifting. And well... I love all of you out there who have been there for me, listen to me crap, whine, moan, be it ppl I've met from SN, VJ or SMU. Thanks for being part of my life.

Hahaha.. it's 12 now... Spent quite some time blogging... ;)

Ok.. This shall be one of my last few posts as a teenager...

I got the Singtel job!!! Yay! Thanks a lot Fran! Yeah... 1 week after the interview and test...

Gillian is now gainfully employed!

My arms feel as if they have just broken off like an over-used pair of oars... Proud to say I swam 30 laps...

Nevertheless, it is nice to go swimming in the evening... You dun get the sun - therefore, you reduce the risk of getting some deadly cancer. The air is just about right. Not scorching hot as compared to the afternoon. And you dun have to wake up early... =)

All the reality shows I watch have either drawn or are drawing to a close... Sigh... American Idol will end next week... This year's fight to get into the finals is tough... Not like last year's. OK. All 3 finalists are not exactly 'Idol' material. But I guess they'll undergo some packaging course. I like Carrie since the start though she really has nada, zilch, zero, kosong stage presence. Bo, I don't want him to win. I mean he is a good performer... Ok.. I'm not a 'rock' type of person and I dun see what's so nice abt this guy swinging his long hair and jumping around on stage. he just screams the rock songs. Maybe if he did more ballads, I may like him better.

Back from SOV... Somehow, I felt the songs they sang were much better than what we did last time. As in more challenging? More like 'Water Night'? And the juniors seem to be multi-talented.. Hahaha.. Instruments were 'incorporated'... Clarinet, Violin...

I felt like it was more like a gathering. You see seniors, juniors, friends...

No man is an island,
No man stands alone
Each man's joy is joy to me,
Each man's grief is my own...

Back from basic theory test... It was ok I guess but then again, it was how I felt after I took last year.. and I failed... Hahaha... I'll update next week...

SOV in 2 hours plus time? Hahaha... I should really go get ready to leave the house. Toodles~!~

Mugging Studying for tmr's Basic Theory... Frankly, I don't care whether it is a dotted white line or a continuous white line or a continuous double right line that acts as a road divider... bah! But then, I learnt that those under 1.5m are actually exempted from wearing seat belts. Hahaha... 90 over more rules to memorise... Sianz... Feels like mugging for some exam or sth.

I hope I can pass tmr's test!!!

Went for 'It Takes Two' today... It was HILARIOUS!!! I laughed till my cheeks were sore... somewhat like after smiling for too long at the camera. but the jokes they told.. so tongue in cheek.

I guessed it was because the topics Selena and Hossan covered were very 'Singaporean'. From migrating to Australia, to the IRs, to just talking cock... I like their singing... and Hossan is such an accomplaished pianist.

Sigh... I better start mugging for my basic theory on Tues... Die!

Went back to St Nics today... after like 1 yr plus plus plus? I really cannot remember the last time I went back. Teacher's Day in J1? Anyway, the school is painted a disgusting pale yellow and rusty red combination with PURPLE doors!!! Everyone.. Say 'YUCKS!!!'. I wonder who is the one with such bad taste. Ok... Maybe it is not to my taste. But ya... And they kinda colour coded the school by level? Like scared that peopel will get lost with their 'half' levels??? They painted the secondary block GREEN!!! Scream people!!! Even the walls near the primary school music room. The green walls made it feel as though the area is closing in on me... I have no idea what is the fascination with the rusty red... Even the pillars in Sunken Forum are that colour. Makes everything blend with the track and the roofs of the houses along Ave 2!!! and they named the science labs 'A to H'. Oh.. and the pillars in the canteen ar epainted differenct colours.. and so is the ceiling of sunken forum. Like my friend said, it looks like a kindergarden. or maybe even a kindergarden not dun look that bad...

Yes.. enough whining about how bad/hideous/horrendous it looks. Cause I really miss the place... We took a walk to the new extension... then went down to New Music Room, walk thru the back where the peacocks are kept... pass the MEP rooms and back up to the canteen. Memories of the place - like Geog remedial in the Humanitiess Room, Experiments in the science labs, Choir in MPRSitting at the specs stand, last minute mugging for O lvl Chinese exams at the round thingee...

I still feel attached to the place. You can take a SN girl out of SN, but you will never take SN out of a SN girl... Sounds corny? I dunno.. but I think it is kinda true...

Ok.. enough reminiscing of SN.

I think NUS Library is freaking big... and it has so many books!!! Saw a few psycho books I would like to flip through... Somehow, I never sort of bothered to find out what sort of book SMU library carries. Hahaha... And I took a non-aircon 151 to NUS. Hahaha... I almost forgot those bus existed. Those with the rattling windows, noisy exhaust whereby you get wind (and a lot of carbon monoxide blown in ur face). I thought they were phased out eons ago. I mean I do see non-aircon 186 passing SMU bus stop... and maybe I did see a few 151s.. but somehow, it didn't really register in my long term memory... Hahaha... But it was a good experience because it wasn't raining today and it wasn't too hot and crowded...

Not in the mood for anything much... Still have 3 unwatched DVDs. Maybe I should start on them soon. Library book overdues... Darn!

Read in the Sunday Times yesterday that we should not write in long sentences that comprises of 50 words or more as it will become too dreary for the reader and will be ineffective in sending the message across, unless it expresses the same train of thought and even in the event that we do manage to come up with such a freaking long sentence, it should be sandwiched between much shorter ones. Ok... Let's see how many words did the above come up to: 72 words.

Hahaha... Holiday plans are still not fixed yet... Been slacking too much for my own good... but then, I'm still enjoying it... So I guess... It's been 3 weeks and 3 days since I ended my last paper. Time just seems to pass by...

Gillian is bored. Any nice games, books to recommend? Ok.. I know this is a little tongue in cheek for those of you who are out there slogging working your guts out... But well, hope ur jobs will go well!

Gillian shall look elsewhere for entertainment...

I'm hungry. Gillian, the night owl is on the prowl again...

Like my new layout? Yes, It was supposed to be bright and cheery, but well, though the background is still black, I think this mood is much lighter than the other one... Ahahahaha...

Shall go find food...

I'm so glad Scott's finally out of AMI!!! Ok... actually his voice kinda grows on me. I kind of liked his voice when he was singing tonight.. But a bit too late. Plus, I can't stand his guts.. super arrogant.. and that sneer on his face. The camera should have turned to his face when Ryan announed that Vonzell, Carrie and Bo were the Top 3. I would love to see the smug look being wiped off his face. Afterall, he looked super pleased when he was told to go over to the couch. I think he should have been voted off long long ago! Then maybe Constantine would have stayed on for another week.

Anyway, I think Anthony's version of Incomplete is much better than BSB. Sorry lar.. but their vocals a bit cannot make it... Or it may be the version that I streamed. It just sounded weak.. Thought that Anthony's version was stronger.

Yes... welcome to my life. I watch TV, read story books... Just finished 'Howl's Moving Castle' (the novel by Diana Wynne Jones). Understood what some ppl meant when they say the movie didn't follow the novel closely... But now I feel like watching the movie again...

Need to change my blogskin... This is a happy month!!! Hahaha... But need to run errands again tmr... Sigh...

Had a super duper long meeting tonight... Started at 7 plus and ended at 10 plus... So many things happening, so many things going to happen... But this entry is not going to be about the meeting. Instead, it is going to be about me!

Sometimes, I ask myself what I want out of life. Often, the answer is not clear. I know I want to travel, I know I want to experience working in other countries. I know I want to be surrounded by people I love. I want to be respected. On the other hand, I think I take a rather laid-back attitude on stuff...

Can't get a job? Nevermind lar...
Missed out on a grade by a bit? Don't bother appealing.
Things don't go my way? Oh well, other things may come along.

I guess I can say that I accept things as they come and as long as it is within some 'acceptable limits' that only my mind can fathom. And it helps to be optimistic about things. I guess I learnt my 'never say die' and 'nothing is impossible' attitudes from my mum. (Yah.. and I learnt 'Impossible is Nothing' from Adidas)

But that being said, it also doesn't mean that nothing can bring me down. I'm still exploring my limits, I still get pissed off, I still whine... But I live by a super cliche motto "Anything that doesn't kill me will only make me stronger"

Ok... just some thoughts of the moment.

It is good to cherish what you have, to be thankful for the people around you. Without my friends, there would be no one for me to whine to, no one to listen to me patiently, to put up with my nonsense.

I never realise how important my family is to me. I won't be who I am without my parents... From trivial things like my passion for Hongkong stuff (shows, singers, songs) to the way I live my life and the way I approach life.

I appreciate the closeness I share with my siblings. How we can crap with each other and don't shut each other out of our respective worlds. I like my sister's witty retorts and brilliant ideas. My brother's thoughtfulness and kindness. (Yeah, he picks me up from the bus stop if I reach home too late) Yes... simple gestures like that warms my heart and makes me feel truly blessed.

On hindsight, I may not be that good fren. I tend to turn up late, forget birthdays, overlook details. Not as meticulous as I would like to be to my friends.

It's been one of the most reflective entries for some time. Usually, I just steer clear of revealing too much about myself... but decided to pen these thoughts down today. No particular reason, no particular message to send out. Perhaps just for future reference.

Sometimes it is not good to keep pondering and weighing pros and cons (Like who will read it and how they feel after reading it). I realised I missed out blogging a lot of stuff. Usually, I don't bother to describe things in details. Now, it becomes a just blurry memory.

Reading my archives, I don't think I will make it as a 'famous' or 'infamous' blogger liks xiaxue or mrbrown that will command a huge following of readers. Yes.. you see this childhood dream of attaining 'celebrity' status (Must have read too many fairy tales).

I feel slack... I read and hear about people working, doing meaningful stuff. Me? I'm just like waking up late after staying up to chat, going out, reading, playing games.

I really ought to get sth done soon... My mum just asked me today why I refused to go back to help out at the law firm since I am so slack and I just hang around and do nth... I keep thinking that I'll be busy with my driving and stuff after my basic theory. But will I really be? I mean it is hard to predict what will happen. As for devoting my time to community service, I haven't exactly heard from the organisers yet... Maybe I should go look for sth to do. Pick up cross stitch again? Piano?

Ya... maybe I should just move my butt off the chair and start doing sth instead of sitting here and whining about it.

I don't get it sometimes... why is it so difficult for people who are bigger in size to find nice clothes?

Why must clothes that come in bigger size make the wearer look like an auntie? Or have designs that scream 'auntie' from 10 miles away?

This has to do with media portrayal of 'the perfect body'. I mean it is NOT a crime to be overweight... I think it is disgusting that girls who are like super thin complain that they are 'fat'. Some of this can be genetic... and people can't exactly control how they look and develop. Yes... there are some who doesn't give a damn... but there are those who try and still, they can't really change things. Would we really look at these people differently and discriminate against them?

Advertisements for slimming pills and slimming centres don't really help... plus, who can question the effectiveness of such stuff? I mean them getting slim celebreities to endorse these products is like... *bangs head*

Sometimes, it seems that it is such a crime to be fat. People think that you are a glutton, that you are a lazy sloth... But i think it is better to be fat and healthy than thin and unhealthy... I mean some people just smoke to stay skinny. How healthy is that?

I just wish that shops will actually stock up more on nicer clothes for bogger size people? I mean they are widely available in the States, Europe, Australia cause most of them there are bigger size than us. So why can't some of these be brought over here?

Well, the long weekend has just passed.. .Well, it didn't exactly make a difference to me cause I'm slacking... But nonetheless, decided that I should finally pack my room and started clearing my notes and readings... Then i decided my drawer needed cleaning out too. And I couldn't stand my earrings being all over the place in plastic bags... So I did up....

Ta.. Da...


My Earring Storage Box!!! (oh.. and that's my sis in purple mugging for mid terms)

Oh well.. but I realised I dropped like halves of 2 of my favourite pairs and broke half of another one I really really like... Yeah.. I think I am a careless girl. So I'm going to look for materials to try and re-create my lost earrings... Anyway the materials look buy-a-ble...

And yesterday, I went to Rivervale @ faraway Seng Kang for Sakae... (ok lar.. it wasn't tt far) Ahahaha... then went to town and shopped... Well, bought a pair of new heels... I like it A LOT!!! I'm too lazy to go take a photo of them... So you'll see then when u next see me!

Today is packing day... well.. cause my laptop's not with me... Ya.. this 'packing' thing occurs at a few predicatable times a term only... See... I pack my stuff usually the weekend of the term break.. then after that I'll pia for projects and tests, after which my notes, papers and stuff will be strewened all over the place... Then I'll consolidate them during the study break week... and finally, file them up one fine day after exams (like today!)

Actually I'm still left with Social Psych... but now the thing is questioning the usefulness of filing things up. What are the odds of me ever referring to them anyway. Things like democracy? BGS? Hmmm.. at least for psychology stuff, it may come in handy one fine day... but then the rest are like...

Just like the pile of 'A' level materials.. Yes.. I religiously filed everything away. I have lik3 or 4 files for Maths alone cause it was for 2 subjects.. btu I don't even see myself referring to them anymore! And I think keeping like Maths stuff is not much of a use. But then... I can't bear to throw them all away leh...

Ya... I realise I still have some of my MEP notes... and Lit notes... Hahaha.. don't ask me why I still keep them... But it is not as if I'll ever need to know the character analysis of Scout from To Kill a Mockingbird or about the plot of Romeo and Juliet!

So I keep a lot of junk (or rather, memories)... and I'll accumulate even more over the years. And them I'll start throwing some away to make room for the newcomers. and I forsee that this cycle will continue!

After spending the afternoon playing this game, with music churning out via Windows Media Player, I conclude that my Wondows media player is a fan of Jay Chou and Avril Lavigne.

Why so?

Simply because it played a few other Jay's songs and in particular 世界末日 at least twice... Yeah... I remember cause of the screaming part. Ditto for Avril Lavigne. It seems to appreciate her 'Thing's I'll never say' Play count stands at 15!

And my player is on shuffle. And out of the tons of song I have, the player picks song by a few selected artistes. Hmmm.. Looks like I have a choosy player.

Anyway, if you like investigation-like, who-dunnit games, the above game can be quite interesting. Basically you take on the role of an investigator. Fine. I'm just too bored at home cause after a while, the game gets a little boring. It's kind of like those point-and-click games.

Oh... got back all my grades for this term. Happy.

I really enjoy snuggling in bed and reading a book... Missed that feeling.

Had durian and rambutan for supper... Ok.. not exactly supper.. but I ate them like 5 mins ago... Haven't eaten durians in AGES! Ooh... the soft, creamy flesh... Yummilicious! And the rambutans were sweet!!!

Oh ya.. remember what I wanted to blog about liaoz... went for an OG gathering yesterday.. That is like when I haven't seen them around much in school... But it was fun... BBQ in faraway Jurong... Well, crappy OG group... but it was fun... and 终极密码 seems to be 'THE' game to get people to eat all the leftover food...

Oh.. did I mention that there was a CUTE Golden Retriever puppy called Casper!!! Ahahaha... ok.. now I think I will go back to my book...

I'm finally to start to feel that the laptop is not number 1 priority!

Walked to Novena Square just now to get some stuff from Cold Storage... Saw this group of people doing line dance there... I guess they are there every Thursday. Been seeing them for quite some time...

Well, it just reminds me of St Nicks... Anyone still remembers how to do the line dances? Well.. still haven't found a job.. But I'm also not looking for one that actively. If you all have lobang let me know!!!

Anyway, borrowed 2 DVDs from Esplanade Library - Kate & Leopold and My Big Fat Greek Wedding! Yeah.. had to upgrade my membership.. but I figured it was worth it.. $21 for a year's membership. Then can borrow scores too...

But then... not earning money liaoz still go and spend money... Sigh...

Nevermind.. I've got books and scores and movies to entertain me!

Gillian is hungry tonight... And Gillian woke up without a headache today. =)

I want to go sleep.. but my sister is still mugging... (she has mid terms this week!) Shall stay up with her... Ok.. maybe I just refuse to sleep...

Looking at my sis mugging for chinese, it just reiterates the point that no matter how MOE tries to change the syllabus, the mugging component to memorise the words will never disappear. If it is not important, would the teacher bother to give the class 听写 as a form of revision the day before her mid terms? Would the school make them buy a book full of essays to read thru them? Ya.. I bet they read it to memorise the 成语 used in the essays...

SO many changes implemented, yet it seems as though nothing has changed...

how to make a blog a happy blog?

Went for a talk by a guy from World Bank. I guess.. unless you are particularly intersted in helping poor countries develop their economy through policies or implementation of new ideas, and making sure that money (to the tune of MILLIONS!) is well disbursed, then maybe u shouold get there...

It helped that the guy was brutally honest about how some of their plans have not worked as well as they hoped... and also, how some countries are super screwed up... Hahaha.. He actually managed to tie a certain country's electoral system into his speech and well, it coincided with what I learnt in democracy... Hahaha...

And well... I guess usually, people are too critical of international organizations like IMF or WB. As the speaker said, If everything is so easily resolved or as simple as some think, then there would be no need for these organizations to exist. and those problems would have been solved long long ago. Which I guess is true... It's always easier to talk and plan but things may bot go according to plans because of different cultures, way of doing things.

A very poignant point:

"If you have a choice to give $10 million to a country for them to build infrastructure for run down villages and you know that $1 million would go to corruption, would you still go ahead with it?" The alternative is that no help be rendered to the poor people. What do we actually one? I think this is kind of a slippery slope argument whereby when is the money going into corruption too much?

Am having a throbbing headache now... I put my finger on my vein and I feel it go throb... throb... throb... like my heartbeat

It has no reason to ache though.. Anyways, I shall go sleep...

If you haven't figured, this post just screams 'Gillian has a headache'

Gee... I guess I'm bored... Oh.. and I think I hold the worse records for MSN Minesweeper. Lost 18, won 5. Go figure...

Anyway, on a happier note, went shopping with Fran... Hahaha... Looking for shoes... Well, found a pair i thought I liked.. until I realised there was no grip... Saw a few other pairs that looked quite nice too... but they were heels... i dunno if they can be classified as wedges though... But rather comfy...

In the end, I didn't buy anything... Couldn't decide plus I was broke.. so I shall wait till I have money... ;)

Hmmmm... nowadays, people asking for donations have picked up some psychology techniques...

Was at Orchard just now... and I was approached by this guy asking for a donation. He whipped out a list and said "Some of these people have donated... some donated $10 and look, one even donated $50". I felt like telling him i learnt it in psychology... Ya.. those 'foot-in'the door'techniques whereby you start off with asking a small favour...

But in the end.. i didn't donate.. hahaha...

Got back 3 of my grades... contented... but a lil disappointed with social psych though i totally deserved it lar... The decision not to submit any questions for the finals is coming back to haunt me... Shucks... I'll just live with that...

I'm kinda sick of chilling... and slacking.. Maybe I should go out.. but financial constraints lar... Maybe it's because I'm not feeling good today. My tummy feels queasy... but that's about it. And there's nothing to watch on a Sunday afternoon.

Been busy with SS stuff... Ahahhaa... Hopefully no screw ups this time round... ie... people better RESPOND and do my survey!

Just took the MBTI (Myers-Briggs Type Indicator) test... actually, I took it twice... and I got 2 diff scores... INFJ and INTP. But after reading the descriptions here, I think I am more of an INFP.

Waiting for my results... Trying to stay neutral and not think too much about it. But there's always the feeling that something unexpected may happen and it may wreck my GPA. Yeah... I know this sentence reeks of competitiveness and over-achieverness and everything. But when you are on a roll, you want to keep it there right?

Hols = boring days = nth much to blog...

Gillian is tired...

Well, My ex-boss... yeah.. the one at the law firm has kindly asked me if I can lend him a hend since I'm free now... Gillian shall be mean this time round... Gillian shall learn how to say no. Much as I like to earn the money, I dun wanna make myself feel obliged to work for him just because 'he asked me' It's just not worth it... From 'for a while', it may stretch to weeks, months...

Not to mention, I'm trying to do a million and one things this hols.. looks like earning moolah has to take a backseat...

Anyway, bought my tix for SOV... Was contemplating whether to go or not.. finally couldn't resist... anyone knows of any acapella concerts going on? I feel like watching one.. ;)

I'm tired...

Cycled again today... This time with the Group 1 ppl... It was fun! Poor Sharon had to blade all the way to SAFRA Tanah Merah CC which was quite a distance away...

According to a certain Mr Zheng, the official distance clocked today was about 15km... but it didn't feel that far AT THAT TIME... Now, my legs are kinda aching.. and I suddenly feel old... Hahaha...

I really ought to get a job.. but the way things are going, I think I'm just gonna bum my 4 mths away...

I felt like Joyce from TAR today.. went to cut my hair.. and no.. I didn't shave... but when the hairdresser first cut a bit, i could picture the scene when Joyce has her hair cut. *ouch!* For non-TAR fans... this was what happened.. the team who took this particular challenge could get to the pit stop immeditely. The challenge required the team to shave both their heads.. And Joyce did it!!! I'm kinda still in awe... cause her hair wasn't that short! To bravely shave her head bald was just... indescribable...

And no... I didn't meet any cute guy and I didn't fall in love with anyone I noe... =)

Reasons why my mum dun let me go Tioman

She thinks...

1. I'm not a good swimmer

2. I'll drown

3. There may be a tsunami... *eurgh!* --> Psychology: Availability Heuristics!

4. The boat may capsize

5. I cannot snorkel and I cannot learn how to...

5. I may endanger my life

7. I should not be too ambitious...

8. I cannot take care of myself...

Basically, she'll worry non stop if I go and I should not do things that will make her worried... she's trying to be protective of me... I know she loves me and I love her too... but sometimes... this gets kinda annoying... Wait and see lor... if not you all can go and take loads of photos and super-impose my face on them...

I really should go cut my hair... but I was too absorbed with surfing the web...

Have to make a phonecall... which i dun really enjoy... Sometimes, I prefer indirect forms of communication... Maybe I just don't want to make a fool of myself... Actually I think I'm thinking too much... =)

If 2 people have feelings for each other, yet no one acts, is it all over? I think I have high expectations...

Random thoughts on a Thursday afternoon...

Lalala... Holidays are nice.. and fun... and enjoyable... and it's making me broke...

Hahaha... Trudged to school 3 hours before the talk this morning.. Made me realised how long I haven't walked up the hill.. Ya... I know I'm a spoilt lil girl... but wells... anyway, the walk didn't seem that bad, nor that long... No rush, no cars... Just me soaking in the sights...

I'll miss the old campus...

SIgh... my mum dun let me go tioman... how???

Updates, Updates, Updates... (3 posts full...)

Hahaha... Freedom never felt so sweet... and surreal...

Went back to school today (yes! the first day of the hols) for some talk by a visiting Prof... I think these talks are interesting. I learn new stuff and latest development. And the thing is you'll see the profs talking among themselves, arguing different ideas... at the same time, u see other students, asking rather intelligent questions...

I stop and wonder... is this what I want to do? I often take what is being said, and as long as I understand it, I won't really go and ask about it... When I see people doing it, I wonder if it is me or them... Maybe I'm suffering from a bad bout of contingent self-esteem whereby I feel that I need to verify and prove to myself how good I am... Makes me wonder if this is the path I want to go... But I understood the talk... what the concepts were all about and what was being said... I should learn to examine thinge more critically...

Went to catch 'Be Cool' after that... show was fine... Liked the songs in the show... Uma Thurman has freaking long legs... she looked old with wrinkles and stuff... but still attractive...

Crap... I dun like to run in and out of my room just because my mum can't figure out how to add music to some show she is doing of the photos from her China trip... Yeah.. she has a fascination that she would burn all the photos into a VCD that we can all watch at home... like a slide show except that it is on TV... And I haven't even seen the photos since like 3 weeks ago...

The casino has been approved... HUGE, MEGA BIG surprise... Bah! Blogged too much for tonight... shall not go into my thoughts...

Anyway, another pissi-fying thing was the NKF show... I hate it because...

1) The hosts/artistes all take out their phone and try and coerce people in the studio to all call together. I know it worked in a show quite long ago... but this things loses it novelty when you overused it... and having it in ALMOST EVERY segment DOES NOT MAKE IT EFFECTIVE!

2) I don't dig death-defying stunts.. Does Jeff Wang wanna get permanent brain damage from smashing his skull through 2 wooden planks??? And what's with the height thing? I seriously don't get the 'Save Kym Ng' ploy... Lame actions, maybe it would work on an episode of Fear Factor... Perhaps if they had a storyline to go with it.. instead of a stunts thingee, it would be more palatable.

3) I detests it when the hosts keeps on yabbering when the artistes are performing difficult stunts... Can't they just SHUT THEIR TRAPS and let the artistes concentrate??? It's liek an irritating fly buzzing in the background. I find it bloody irritating when they go on and on about how dangerous it is and how you should call... Yeah.. I dun see a correlation! In fact, I think it may even compromise on safety standards as it causes concentration lapses.

4) What's with keeping the artistes hanging upside down for a longer period of time just to get more calls in? Who's gonna be freaking responsible if sth should happen. You could see veins popping out of their forehead and that Timothy Cao was still going like 'Let's keep them hanging longer so that more calls will come in.' If he likes it so much, he can hang there himself then...

5) I don't like NATO hosts... can anyone tell me whether Timothy Cao has done stunts to raise money. He just talks and talks and talks... going on and on abt how much the artistes are suffering, prolonging their suffering...

6) I dun like Timothy Cao (as if it was not evident from the above 2 points). He came up with the 'brilliant' idea to have the local celebs plea and beg for 'One More Call Please' just so that they can hit one million calls. I think that was a stupid move and they looks spastic...

7) I don't really fancy hearing a sob story on someone who is struck with kidney failure hen having my dinner because it makes me feel quesy... I know they are playing on pathos... but maybe if they show it later... or sth...

8) The show gets dragged on with the hosts repeating their lines just to hit the desperate mark of 1 million calls. Couldn't they get Celest Chong to sing a song from her album or prepare another small segment instead of just standing there and begging? The number of calls will hit 1 million. It just depends on what time the show ends! Actually I think if Zoe Tay had bothered to drive down to caldecott Hill and made a 'surprise' appearance, the calls may go up...

I seriously believe that if Mark Lee and Gurmit Singh had a longer segment, they would have raised more money... I enjoyed they segment the most... cause it was simple and entertaining.

The musical 'fountain' thing was nice too...

I'm not saying we should not donate.. it is just that some of their actions are nauseating... I understand they need money to sustain operations and for giving kidney patients a subsidy and stuff... Having had a lot of calls last week, they should expect that there would be less this week... and after a while, the stunts are stale... nth really fazes the audience anymore and I don't think making it more dangerous would help.

Where are all the local singers? All stuck in Taiwan? Shouldn't they do a part for this show?

Can't believe I missed Kate and Leopold because of that... Sigheth.. I believe I would feel happier if I had watched it!

Sunday was spent lazing around... Backing up files so I could load in SP 2... Visited the library to deposit the books I borrowed for my democracy paper 6 weeks ago.. I renewed them.. Don't worry... And borrowed a few books in the process...

One was on abstract art and impossible figures... Like the picture that looks like a lady and an old woman from different perspectives... Trying to read Emotional Intelligence by Daniel Goleman now... I see a shift in my reading habits...

Anyway, 2 significant things to blog about...

First was the big hooha some PSC scholar created when he apparently made some rascist remarks on his blog. *blinking of warning lights... a blog is dangerous* Someone was actually free enough to bother to crack his password to access his blog *yes.. he locked it!* and posted the content of his blog on forums. Perhaps he came under fire because he was a scholar... People just have a thing when it has to do with taxpayers money... Shouldn't a blog be a place where you can leave your thoughts? I would even go as far as to say that perhaps his comments were quoted out of context. So what happens? His scholarship is under review and if it gets withdrawn... there goes the future of one young man. I'm not condoning racism here... but to blow up a matter like that... ridiculous!

Yes.. I concur that you have to be responsible for what you post... But to go to the extent to get to his blog... I think it just stinks of sabotage... Yeah... another of my wild theories...

Shall dedicate another post to the other significant event... NKF Charity Show...

Watch Amelie just now... a simple, feel-good show... quite nice for unwinding after the last paper... sweet... depicting the life of dreamers... and an interesting twist!

Ate a WHOLE slice of cheesecake just now... *guilty* should really curb my sweet tooth. I shall go running soon... but now for the wonderful picnics tomorrow!!!

Sitting in front of my laptop has never felt so good, so relaxing... =) Like no worries in the world, no need to flip textbooks, write notes...

This week has been fine on the whole... nothing drastic and bad happened (thankfully) as in the papers were all do-able! *claps in glee*

Got back my demo paper which I slogged till 5 am 2 week ago... Got a B+. Eh... For something I didn't proof read, I'm kinda ok with it... But then, something makes me wish I had started on it earlier. But one can never be truly satisfied where grades are concerned I guess... Always wishing you had done certain things different after you received comments for it.

Looking back, this past 2 terms (i refuse to call it a year!) has just whizzed by... I can't believe I'm a quarter way done with my university education. If things are gonna be like that, I think uni life is too short... I know I bitch and whine and get all stressed up... but it is all bitter sweet. Like dark chocolate! When you look back, I just remember the happy times I spend crapping, laughing with the 'wonderful people' (do i sound like Kirpal?) from group 1, social science people... Those whom I've been doing projects with...

Now that yr 1 has come to a close, it is time to do things that I've been putting on hold for way too long... Enjoy your hols people... and shout out to all: let's find a day to meet up kaez...

Oh... all the best to NUS and NTU ppl!!! happy mugging for exams!!! Good Luck!

Gillian hasn't been studying today... Bad girl! One more paper...

Can't seem to concentrate.. My mind has been wondering the whole day... bah!!! And I can't heck this exam!!! On top of that, it is not open book! Argh!!! My brain just refuses to cram stuff in. Been staring at the 'list of possible questions' for the whole afternoon already and it is just half done... *wails...*

I will persevere... Luckily it is an afternoon paper... I just hope I know enough to go in and do the paper and get something out of it... Oh all modules, I like this one the best... and I really hope I don't screw it up... (ya... i'm so capable of it)

Maybe it is because it is the last paper... I usually lose my motivation to study... but I haven't been studying a lot... Bah!!! Maybe I should stop typing more stuff for this entry and go back to the window that says 'Microsoft Word'.

I just learnt how to break up with someone... =)

And with that, I've finished all the chapters tt's gonna be tested for social psych tmr... or so I think...

This week just seem to fly by... which I guess is quite a good thing... Now to either

a) Get a job or
b) Get involved in a Community Service Project

I don't think I can do both... not a full time job anyway... but I really wanna clear the 80 hours of comm service soon (I have 50 left)... but at the same time, I wanna go work too...

Decisions will be made soon... I think I should return to my book...

Joke of the day... super lame...

Imagine a guy name Luke Warm... Here's how he goes introducing himself...

Luke: Hi, I'm Warm, Luke Warm.

So one day... he got an interesting reply...

Reply: I'm Cold, Very Cold...

Ok.. I bet u readers are feeling cold too... ahahahaha... Feeling looney after democracy paper lar... but hmmm.. not as bad as expected... hahaha...

2 more days... one more paper...

I'm feeling jaded... like super tired and immuned to stuff... Just taking one day at a time... On hindsight... maybe I'm burnt out (ya right.. when I haven't been doing a lot...)

I only seem hardworking because I haven't been working throughout the term.. make sense???

But I do feel productive today.. and I realise I know some stuff about democracy! Yay! But.. my brain feels full and empty at the same time... It's been a long time since I can say I finished studying anything.. usually, I burn the midnight oil, speed read thru notes again the next morning or minutes before the exams...

Today... I'm walking away from my notes and readings...

Maybe it is the uncertainty of what is going to come out... No point speculating, no point guessing...

All the best for whatever exams left...

Quote of the day: "Democracy will be easy because I SAY SO!!!"

Hmmm... While half the SMU worlds is having their MA paper in school today, I'm up and wake bright and cheery in the morning -not! Eh.. awake but not cheery...

Notes strewn over the table... Readings all half-highlighted...

Democracy... I slay thee!!!

This marks 33 since hours since I've last touched my computer. Gillian was a good girl yesterday. She did not on her laptop, did not go online and chat... did some work and actually managed to break the 'trend' of sleeping at weird hours (read: 5am). Slept early but at a price.

Oh.. and I even managed to squeeze in watching a bit of White Chicks her eand there while reading the papers this morning... The show was spastic-ally hilarious! And very SICK!!! But then it was a good laugh...

Not freaking out yet.. which is good... I realise I like to change my style of mugging just before the exams becasue I invariably run out of time to write notes... So now it is just highlighting, reading and more reading... Ahahaha...

My social psych books seems endless... I'm drowning under piles of demo readings... and I'm gonna mug AS today...

Since I'm well-rested... it's battle time...

I really shouldn't study in a group. I wasn't productive both yesterday and today.. and I'm sorryif my presence distracted the rest of you who were studying in 37 today...

Am tired... shall nap soon... Meanwhile, my computer is taking eons to scan for virus!

Good luck to everyone with exams looming! after that, it is play time! and I will learn driving! *promise*

Still mugging... it's 335...

Anyway, part of a lil break, I just checked out the vc forum (vc - victoria chorale). I suddenly feel this urge to sing again. (no.. not ktv crooning, but choir-style acapella, SATB singing).

In Song 2005, which is VC's concert. I see people I know performing, I see juniors performing.

Deep inside, I knew I was the one who made the decision to give up choir. I didn't think I was that good, didn't think I could commit. But I do miss it. I did go for carolling but it is nothing like the hardcore practices I went through, the excitement of preparing for a concert, memorising songs, standing in quartet position, even polishing choreography. The jittery feeling before I go on stage, squinting at the blinding stage lights, watch the conductor... 1... 2... 3... and we start, in harmony, trying to convey the message of the song, dynamics, feelings. The level of commitment, your zeal and passion driving you to want to do more, do better.

I'm rather emotionally charged now. I had a good 6 years singing with choirs and these are things you will never understand until you've been there. I remember the countless times I whined and complained... but... I'm still attached to it - very.

Now, everything seems so far away. I do harbour hopes of singing in a choir again, but as time passes, this dream just seems increasingly improbable.

Perhaps... it's just time to move on...

Hmmm.. studying makes one into a compulsive blogger. Seen many people updating their blogs.

I dun like to watch any NKF or to that effect, any govt sponsered shows... They are so propagandish. and NKF has such a freaking sad storyline. Caught tonight's episode... Everyone falls sick, everyone relies on NKF medical funds... -> Thus, we must donate. If we donate, we win prizes... and we have to pay $0.40 for telephone charges. If 600,000 calls were made, that is $24,000 for telephone charges. Interesting.

I'm not saying one should not donte.. but enough is ENOUGH!!! Bah!!! From $2 a call in the past, to $5 or $8, dangling juicy carrots in front of you with all their prizes thingee. This is so not altruistic!

Applying social psychology
According to Social Exchange Theory, one would help to alleviate the distress one feels one seeing sth happens. Thus, while watching celebrities perform heart-stopping, gravity-defying, death-heading stunts, one would feel uneasy that they are doing so much and would thus call.

The solution: Don't watch such programmes!

I watch a lot of HK shows... so I know for a fact that HK has a lot of charity show every year too... How do they get their donations? Singers perform or perform simple stunts or skits to get donations. Their ministers or some influential business people go up on stage to present those large cheques with huge amount of donations.

How come we dun see that happening here?
Oh ya... Singaporeans are humble people who would donate annonymously.

What's wrong with a singing and dancing programme?
That has been done! But the last time they tried, Taufik and Sly din pull in a lot of donations.

What about other singers?
Oh wait.. Singapore don't have that many singers and entertainers that can draw in the donations... I forgot... oh..

Actually I think they can consider a stand up comedy... I think it would be interesting...
Right.. we dun have that many comedians around too... cause the art scene is quite pathetic and they are struggling to survive (based on what has been in Life these few days)

And so.. it is back to death-defying stunts that will compell viewers to donate and the newspaper will have a field day the next day trying to compare which celebrity chalked up the most donations.

Eh.. Nice Translation...

OK.. I'm so not studying!!! Anyway, thought this may be kinda funny.

For those who are not well versed in Chinese, the translated version of the words in Chinese is 'At KFC, we are right to be prostitutes'.


Got the above from mrbrown (via Jay-walk via Lancerlord)

Pedro De La Rosa - Spanish Test Driver for McLaren-Mercedes team of Formula One

I'm a sports fanatic. No!!! I don't do sports, except for some swimming and cycling. Ok... Fine... I'm a couch-potato sports fanatic *throws up hands in despair*

Anyway, was enthralled by the above guy on Sunday. He was chosen to race on the Bahrain Grand Prix as the team's 1st choice driver, Montoya was injured while playing tennis. Anyway, this guy really takes risks man... He was doing some dangerous manuevring and over-taking which does not occur very often during races nowadays. And one of the reasons I sometimes spend 2 hours watching these super fast cars (read:200km/h?) go 65 times round a track is because you can taste the thrill of the speed and excitement when cars overtake.

But I bet I won't see him racing again unless one of the 2 McLaren-Mercedes' drivers, Juan Pablo Montoya and Kimi Raikkonen is injured or sth. Oh... can I say sth.. Kimi is quite hot too!!! He has very nice eyes!!!

Kimi Raikkonen - I like his blue eyes!

Random Musings:

Why does the Life section like to publish reviews of concerts, plays AFTER the freaking thing is over... I feel like they are making a dig at poeple who didn't go watch it if it is good. Like what's the point of saying 'It was a good concert, the performers were magnificent" and after the reader's interest has been piqued, you realise it is a one-off performance or the play has ended its run or sth...

Totally useless...

P1: If I have things to blog about, then I will blog
P2: I did not blog
C > I have nothing to talk about...

AS in the middle of nowhere.. I do say I think it is valid!!!

*and my white chocolate coated strawberry doesn't appear!!!*
Edited at 6.12 pm... it does appear!!! looks yummilicious!

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been rotting for the past one and a half hours... Studied 1 chapter of demo.. .and I stopped because I dunno wads going on for the next!!!

got trashed in minesweeper flags... Bah! The game just doesn't like me!!!

I really should shut off my laptop and concentrate but I'm hungry and I'm waiting for my dad to pick me from school

I'm freezing in the library

I met my junior today when she came for her interview. Hope she gets in!

I will return to mugging...

Spent some time reading through my archives... if there's one thing that hasn't changed, it is my atrocious typing... yeah.. i spot al ot of typos here and there.. so ya.. Siyi.. go ahead and diss me! Bah!

Time just flies... I blogged about SYF finals, about my SMU interview, bitched about my lousy job @ the law firm... and well, basicallly just me with a lot of whining... and in the past, my posts were peppered with quizzes I took... now.. just words...

Tired.. shall sleep... Happy mugging tmr... Night world...

One glorious day of the study break gone!!! Good luck Jill!!!

The long long list of chapters to study looks daunting... like super, very, extremely daunting...

Shall drag myself off to sch tmr and hopefully I'll be able to study better...

Am tempted to post up my long list of to-dos. But i figured I'll just stress everyone (read: SMU peeps) out... It is a freaking 1 page long list!!!

Been hanging loose... like real loose... and I like it... =)

Anywya, just like to share a thought:

Been reading a lot about the euthanesia case... commentary, news and stuff... Basically, what happpened was this lady, Terri Schiavo had been in a coma for 14 years... surviving on a feeding tube... yup.. no life support machine... just a tube that makes sure all the food goes to her, but oblivious to her surroundings.

About 2 weeks ago, her husband decided to pull the tube... and faced resistance from her parents. Ugly accusations rang out. Him , accused of trying to keep the money she left for himself and perhaps just get on with life, judging from the fact that he had a live-in lover and stuff... and her parents, being accused of trying to wrest part of her inheritance from him.

A few days ago.. this lady passed away... but not before her case was actually tries in court...

The point of this... I was just wondering... to die from starvation? I mean granted that if you are in a coma and can't feel anything, to die from starvation is definitely not the best way to die for me... I guess unless you are in their position, you won't ever know the full story...

But euthanesia... sth good or bad? If one had the choice, one would definitely choose to live.. but what if the odds are stacked so high against you that there is no alternative? Do we get a loved one to pull the plug? Would they do it? Conversely, what if one has a strong will to live? Would giving up on that person be unfair? Circumstances, Consequences, all differ with time..

Then.. what about the thousands of lives lost in the earthquake? A case of being in the wrong place at the wrong time? Why does it seem that natural disasters often occur in developing countries? I see it as making matters worse and money will be pumped into rescue effort, restoration processes and crippling their already crippled economy. Yes... you get foreign aid... that fuels corruption and for some, make the country even more debt-ridden than before.

Depressing thoughts, but these are the things that are happening all around us today... Maybe one should just take things easy... For you'll never know what will happen...

As the chinese saying goes, 生老病死 (birth, age, illness, death) these are the 4 stages that people have to undergo in life...

I just squashed a cockroach which scurried under my jeans (yes!!! *Sobz*) under eh... 1 term of Intro to Psychology notes... Yeah.. Kinda just smashed the file on the poor 'lil yucky thing with my sister jumping on it for good measure... Well.. my jeans was spared.. but the file was smeared with cockroach juice... like white goo-ey stuff... (hope you readers aren't eating when reading this). And *ahem* well, I screamed... or screeched.. as usual... and those who have heard it can testify that my scream isn't really sth that you wanna hear at 2 am at night..

What am I doing up so late? Eh... I was and am still baking cookies... Mwahahaha.. my sister just had this impulse to bake and I was like 'ok lor'. Hmmmm.. but seriously, one shouldn't pick up baking.. you see what are the things that go in.. Thick big slabs of butter, like 230g or sugar which is A LOT!!! Ok.. I cut it down to 170... but it is still one big chunk!

Sneaked away to blog about my 'cockroach scare'. Need to check on my 2nd last batch of cookie.. Yay!! Can sleep soon...

Sheesh.. 5 posts in 1 day... Compulsive blogger @ work.. no wonder I was late for AS this afternoon @ 12 and I'm so sure I'm gonna be late for my dinner appointment @ 730.. Toodles.. till maybe 11 tonight?

Try listening to Corrinne May. She's a local based in Canada and her songs are nice!!! Smooth vocals, soothing songs (yeah.. I know I'm a sucker for slow songs) but ya...

Try streaming her music from www.corrinnemay.com!

Ok.. enough of the depressing part.. Going for dinner soon... and I've just spent the afternoon playing games... I'm sort of addicted to thsoe 'walk-through games....

If you are interested, try looking for them at www.nordinho.com. They post up different games there. Basically, these games use flash or sth and you just have to click here and there to escape from rooms or find treasures of stuff like that.. Can be rather addictive.

I shall resolve to not be too stressed out.. I think it is just the cumulation of rushing so many things the past week... I need time to recuperate before we start again... I just wish I wasn't so consumed by grades...

Been thinking a lot and talking to people these 2 days... I feel as though I'm being eaten alive by the rat race... I think it is bad... but I really admit that I'm not just happy with a 'B' grade nowadays... Yeah.. overachiever.. I hear some of you mumble.. then again... over inflation of grades in SMU?

Very cynical view of myself and of life nowadays... I mean I like school and stuff.. but I get scared of myself whenever I try to set sky high expectations for myself- sth I never did until last year...

I need to get a grip of myself before I spiral out of control. It's like I think a lot.. yet at the same time, I dun work hard enough during term... I just panic and do last min work, hoping that sth good will come out of it and then I whine and worry and panic after that. Kinda ironic...

I just need to organise my thoughts.. Dun worry about me.. I'm fine.. I just need to get this off... If not I'll just keep thinking of it...

I've been doing so much work (papers, presentation) on my laptop the past week that I don't even know what to do when I don't have any work tonight.

Yesterday marked my last presentaton of the term.. I felt that it fell short of a lot of stuff. Shucks lar... It's like thoughts and images keep playing in my head and I can't help but kept thinking of ways that it could have been better. It's like walking away from sth that you know you can do much better.

Ok. I'm done feeling sorry and sad and regretful. Nothing I think, say or do will turn back time. So I shall not be too harsh on myself. Plus it is not only an individual effort... Speaking of which, I have given up 2 points for class participation for social psych class because I was too tired to do anything about it...

I'm not exactly feeling euphoric now though I've officially ended lessons (though I still have one more make up class in 45 min). I think it is cause I'm too tired... Actually... I think if we ended on a high note, I'll be happier...

Slept before 12 yesterday... That's like how freaking early... But at the same time... was slammed left and right by my sister for sleeping at 5 am.. She apparently thinks I'm nuts... and actually, I think so too...

To sum up: Yesterday was one of day of pros and cons. At then end, I'm feeling tired, yet happy but not satisfied..

Hmmm... now for some quiet time, recuperation, and then intensive mugging... 2 more weeks to the end of the term. I should pay a visit to the library soon.. I need to read books...

I'm supposed to be in sch in 45 mins.. I'm still sitting here blogging and hoping that my laptop battery doesn't run out before I finish... (6% left...)

So many thoughts to blog. I kinda feel immense freedom knowing that I still have 1 week to study...

Oh.. and Happy April Fools Day!!!

Today has been a mixed day... My body was on shutdown this morning.. couldn't wake up... so didn't manage to go to Far East Flora to get cheaper rose... Then ar.. took a freaking cab whereby the stupid driver thought SMU was SIM... Sigheth... so paid more for the cab than necessary... I had to tkae a cab cause I woke up late see... Mwahahaha...

But then got back my psych presentation score.. happy!!! good to see the recognition for pia-ing so hard for the presentation. Last presentation of the term later... Hmmmm... Hope it'll be good....

Lalala... I usually detest looking at 'Times New Roman' font but after looking at looking at it for 2 of my paper the whole of last night... I seem to be rather immune to it.. Was taking notes when I realise I haven't changed my fonts yet...

Mean exposure effect?

boogly eyed after doing the paper till 5... I'm sitting in class now after 3 hours of (barely there) sleep... 2 parts took 5 hours... After like 3 am, my mind was saturated and I was just typing and re-typing a sentence over and over again... Bah! Give me the strength to survive today...

Been cabbing a lot these 2 days... But I don't care... If I don't get enough sleep, I need to make it up to my body in other ways... Ok.. shall pay attention...

Super funny... the prof is asking a question.. and the class is just throwing out random answers. LIke no one can catch what he is asking probably because people don't pay attention?

couldn't resist sneaking in a post now... I;ve never felt so pressed for time, yet so relaxed at the same time... It's 12.24 am.. I have an 830am class tmr where I amd supposed to hand up a paper and I'm still halfway through it... Well done Gillian... I just hope I can pull it off like I said in the previous post. Afterall, it is all about democracy, sth which is equivelant to Greek in my opinion. Interesting no doubt but worried about the applications part...

Just finished my AS individual assignment.. Shucks.. i just can't seem to sit still in front of my laptop and do work.. I'll e doing other stuff.. but I would say it is a not bad piece of work (ok.. I'm just trying to console myself)

Anyway, I think it is time to morph back to democracy mode, Nigeria and Tunisia, here I come.. According to my essay outline, I technically have 2 more parts to write - economic development and description of situation in Tunisia. After that, I'm about done... MWahahaha... I'll keep you posted on the status..

Do I mention that I am currently chatting on MSN? oh bother...

The last week of school is unravelling... fast... and I still have a lot of stuff hot on my heels... AS individual assignment and democracy paper both due tmr.. both half done... BGS presentation on Thursday... thrashing out tmr after the submissions of my papers... A tight dateline but I'm sure I can do it... Just hope my papers sound decent enough to get me a decent grade...

I've been whining incessently about a certain project group I have... yet today, when I was meeting, I find that as long as you don't take things too personal, sometimes it can be fun too... Or at times, you can just choose to ignore certain elements.. instead of branding the group as a single entity... and have fun with the rest...

If others want to leave early, fine...
if others decide to come late, fine too...
If others sudddenly realise there is another meeting waiting... just ignore them...
Ditto for those who don't seem to be doing much...

Just work with those who are willing to work, crap with those who want to crap... and it'll be nice... I should learn not to bring my prejudices in for meetings... instead, leave them outside and you can always pick it up again after the meeting... Brilliant huh? So when I next whine about any project groups I have, kindly direct me back to this post...

Been trying to increase my threshold for staying awake... Because I just do too irrelavent things like reading a storybook 2 nights before my papers are due... And I seem to be succeeding... I should not to abuse my body.. but I do get a kick out of it. Looking forward to tmr so I can just go and collapse on my bed... Ditto to Thursday where I can 'celebrate' my last presentation of the term...

This term is ending soon... Doesn't feel like 13 weeks have passed... After this week, the next thing on my agenda - mugging... After that.. so many things to do...

1) Get a job
2) Learn driving
3) Hong Kong anyone?
4) Prepare for camps
5) Eh.. windsurfing
6) Slack
7) Slack
8) Slack

Dreams...

Nothing but... fleeting thoughts
Nothing but... manifestation of activities in the day
Nothing but... an imagination
Nothing but... the effects of an overworked mind
Nothing but... an escape
Nothing but... sweet...

Interesting... I still see ppl online at this weird hour. Seems like I'm not the only night owl here... The democracy paper is getting on track. But I kinda wish I could have started on it earlier.. There is just so much to explore.. so much to read... and I love getting lost in literature and words... (and it is definitely more interesting than when I did my research for Napster for Plural Perspectives). But it's doing great.. got my structure out, trying to fill in the blanks now... Constantly on a search engine...

Sigheth.. always too late for regrets... but I think the thing about social sciences is that it makes you ponder and think... Not just a straight in the face thing... But I'm really to stoned to think now...

There's still AS individual.. Darn!!! I shall squeeze time... Sometimes, it's like trying to squeeze water from a rock... If only I wasn't such a procrastinator...

Hmmm... had project meeting today... Felt that my group wasn't as bad as I portray them to be.. Mwahahaha... I mean the few hours spent with them was rather enjoyable... Pity is that we can't click.. I dunno.. it's just different.. You can tell that there is some sort of a 'invisible wall' between us... Not as straight forward.. it is more task oriented.. I think it is kinda a pity cause they are all nice ppl...

I think you won't know how much you can act like someone or realise how one's actions can be so reasonable until you reflect on it.. It's like I got pissed off by someone's attitude and actions at the last meeting.. but today, I caught myself doing sth which I felt was similar in nature.

What happened was that we were debating whether I should be presenting or not. I didn't exactly mind not presenting but at the same time, I was kinda reluctant to give it up. But my part wasn't important. More of like speaking for the sake of speaking. So we were just there stoning, and I was like 'What do you all think'... I mean I didn't tell them that I wanted to do it (since I wasn't that sure) but I didn't say that I don't want to do it either...

I should stop passing judgement on others so quickly... If not I'll feel bad when they turn out nicer than it seems...

Finally got started on my democracy paper.. I just hope I have enough space to squeeze everything I want inside... Should finish by tonight... (mwahahhaa... ie: 3 am or sth).

And I'm so proud of my video! (Did some tweaking after feedback in today's meeting) Yes! it has been in my last 2 entries.. but hey.. I toiled hard for it.. so I guess I earned the bragging rights! It's like when you've done sth great ,you just wanna show it to the whole world and bask in their compliments... Mwahahaha... I sound rather egoistic! This video is really a breakthrough for me... Have never attempted sth so complex? I mean the concept is simple and I'm really using an idiot proof programme... but I like the way everything gels together... searching for clips, creating my own clips... Mwahahaha... *beams with pride*!

At the same time, I sometimes wonder if it is worth it... I mean there is no difference between having a video and not having one. I mean those points can always be covered in the presentation. And I could have done it much simpler - just a slide show of pictures. Then again, I like experimenting with programmes. So I guess the video is not that important. Instead, it is what I have learnt from building it...

Oh ya... had a nice Good Friday... stuffed myself silly with food... and kinda slacked the whole day away... just talking, crapping. It's like relieving all the stress that have been building up the past few weeks. My friends never fail to brighten up my day and make me less cynical and feel less stress whenever I'm with them and after I've spent time with them.

And I learnt a lesson.. when your body suffers from a lack of sleep, do not expect it to respond on command... although I slept relatively early last night (at 1 cause i figured even if I have to wake up 10.30 am, I would get 10 hours of sleep which was a lot compared to 5 hrs...). But my brain decided to wake up only at 11.50am this morning... which rendered me late for my meeting in school at 12! I should learn not to torture my body so much... Which means earlier nights for me... which means I better start doing my democracy paper now...

Hmmm.. this entry is disjointed.. so many points in one entry... Whatever... I am always incoherent...

Gillian is on a high now and feeling accomplished!!! 2 nights spent building a video from scratch... I love Windows Movie maker (though it hung on me like 5 times tonight!) But it is finally done... Final product will be screened between 330 and 645 in Biz Lvl 1 CR 2 next thurs.. Stay tuned!!! I'm so proud of myself!!!

tomorrow will be a brand new and better day.. I WILL (must, die die also can) finish my democracy paper by tomorrow!!! and I'm so sure I can do it!!!

I have this uncanny thing for staying up late when I shouldn't... But the consequence of too much slacking is that work is piling up like crazy... and it's starting to take a toll on me... Doing 2 videos for my presentation next week... Still halfway thru the 1st one... Another thing is my democracy paper... been putting it off for way too long already.. I better get it done soon.. And there;s still AS individual Assignment... Yeah.. doesn't sound like a lot.. but when you meet a procrastinator like me, I can just rot one who day away or sth.. without feeling guilty... or I'll try to stay up and may end up unproductive...

Sheesh! It's 3.29 liaoz... I need to be in sch by *eeps!* 1015 tmr... Bah!!! Good Night world...

I'm feeling frustrated and overwhelmed... not exactly pissed.. just irritated... I see a cycle... I get stressed up when my datelines are approaching... when I have tons to do... Fine.. I'm a procrastinator...

I'm sick of trying to be the middleman for my project.. It sucks lar... 4 persons trying to edit the final draft of a report... Differing views and I dunno why but I'm chatting to the other 3 in 3 diff MSN windows... So I have a zillion copies of the final report with a few changes here and there in my laptop. And it really doesn't help tt there is sth wrong with my MSN... sometimes, I dun get the msg tt ppl try to send me... i dunno if there is any info lost or not... cause if u r chatting to a person, they dun go silent for like 10 mins or sth... What's wrong with my MSN??? We should have just met! Bah!

I usually don't post lyrics but I like this song...

童话 by 光良

忘了有多久, 再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久, 我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了什么

你哭着对我说, 童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂, 从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里, 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信, 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

我要变成童话里, 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信, 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

我会变成童话里, 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信, 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局

You can go listen to the song by searching www.baidu.com.

I think I set quite high expectations... especially if it is sth I am interested in... But I feel like I can get too strong headed when I don't get what I want or what I have in mind... and I feel guilty after that. Hmmm... At the same time, I refuse to compromise on what I feel would like add value. It can be sth as simple as the way the slides look or even the type of animation for instance. Yes... I do go into the details which has its pros and cons.

Oh well... just some after thoughts after a presentation today... I feel like I've came on a bit too strong to get it going.. Makes it a cause and effect thing... I appear to want things done my way because others have no opinion. When I have a direction, others are afraid to voice out and I end up doing things my way because others don't know what I have in mind exactly.

And the fact that it is nth major... just things like alignment and stuff... Sheesh.. I didn't know I'm such a detail freak. I mean I usually am the one who overlooks the details. I think I end up stressing myself too much over sth minor or going all out to correct it. I don't feel that it is necessarily a good thing cause other ppl in the grp may find that I don't trust them or want to claim credit or sth. Or maybe they just feel that they look bad. and i'm really sorry if I have evoked those feelings. It is not exactly about them, but more of me. But it is hard to communicate this idea across...

Because I know what I want, I impose my ideas on others. I mean I realise that when you are with people who are 随便 (in the sense they do not have a direction and would just go with the flow), one has to get the thing moving or it will just stop there... But when is doing a bit more too much? It's like a slippery slope argument - where is the boundary?

Overtime, I realise I judge people very quickly... be it good or bad... but if you prove yourself to me, I'll change my mind... and I would actually respect you for that. I admit sometimes, hastily judging someone would cause a lot of problems... Why this sudden thought? Well, changed my opinion of some people for a particular project... I like it when ppl at least try... compared to others where things don't go thru their thick skin...

MY MSN IS SCREWED!!!

Bah!!! It is selective what message I can send out and what message I can receive.
It disconnects me when I'm in the midst of chatting.
I can't reconnect after that.
If I can, the whole world appears offline thought i'm so sure there are people online.
Screwed!

HELP!!! Any way to cure it??? Or maybe it is my freaking internet connection... Fwah!!! It disconnects halfway when I'm using... Like weak signal. I got this nagging feeling that someone may be tapping it... But i dunno how to set password... My cable is not tt fast kaez.. plus it supports 2 desktops... and 1 laptop... and one of the desktop is like perpatually online playing DOTA or sth... (eh.. it's a game). Help!!!

I have a short fuse when I dun get enough sleep.. and I don't constitute 5 hours as enough... I got irritated by some parents at the open house who asked so much about admissions, trying to improve the kid's chance of getting that interview... Yeah.. she was that direct... I was thinking, if the kid already got the results, there is nth much that can be done!!! I so sure I can memorise the whole Bachelor of Social Science Curriculum lar... Everyone asks me that!!! I would rather talk about student life or sth lar... But I din get a lot of the 'What job prospects are there' questions... Hahaha... Oh.. I saw a guy who I think is my choir junior.. Eh.. I actually talked him and found him familiar but I just didn't recall anything about him... until another vj girl remembered him.

I'm super tired.. Imagine standing for eh.. 5 to 6 hours??? But there are also nice ppl to talk to... So it wasn't so bad I guess... I'm just whining... It's a memorable event... But holding it at Raffles city, I felt that there wasn't a chance to showcase the student life... More of an uppity affair... Looks very pro though... Hahaha...

Oh.. and I realise I can see my house from the 69th floor od Equinox! hahaha.. Ok.. cheap Thrill.. I admit.

Gillian's battery is running low.. Needs to recharge soon... But there's a million and 1 thing left.. May my presentation go well tmr... ;)

*note: Edited the frist para @ 2.40 liaoz...*

I don't know why I'm still awake at this hour... But this has set me thinking for these 2 days...

Went for a feedback session yesterday... I see a whole new host of opportunities for a Social Science graduate... going into research, working on a project basis with reknowned and prestigious institutions, applying into graduate school, going the academic path. Yet... I can't help but wonder, is this possible? I mean perhaps it has to do with the fact that I was brought up in a sheltered (and some may even say pampered) environment. Protective parents, I get what I want... I just wonder... are the above achievable? For a Singaporean? In addition, this is not a tried and tested route? Though I want to be adventurous... but the question is can I?

Can I leave behind everything and pursue a path which I'm sure would lead me overseas? I love the thought... And I was fine with it, and for a period of time, thinking that I'll just stay overseas to work after getting my masters... but now, we are looking at (possibly) a phD... a very far thought that I'm scared to entertain.

Also, there is a lot more at stake here... The life sounds good I admit... but there is more to life than the tangibles... Intangible stuff like relationships, kinships, friendships, warmth, family? can I just pluck myself here and lead a life of a travelling researcher for instance?

And again... would they consider students from Singapore?

From a dream to be a child psychologist, now I find myself open to other possibilities that sounds sppealing to me... and yet, seems so unachivable... Maybe it is good to take one step at a time... Just be consistent and find out more along the way...

O shall go sleep.. tmr (eh.. later) going for open house... Panda eyes again...

Hmmm... the social psych handout is done!!! at like 5 plus last night (but stupid blogger was down so I couldn't gush over it...) but the sense of satisfaction is GREAT!!! Mwahahaha... if i daresay, I haven't seen such a pretty handout before!!!

In school tackling another project.. I feel on a roll now...

I'm over the moon!!! I can finally start my sleep late at night routine!!! cause I don't have to go to school early.. Just me and my music, in front of my laptop, chatting, working... Silence reign in the house, no temptations from the blaring of TV outside, no programmes to watch, no annoying siblings...

I feel productive in the wee hours of the night... plus I had a nice nap before idol results... so yeah... recharged and raring to go!!!

I love my social psych handout... Thanks to Meiju and Baoqin for the idea... and the 'copyright'... Hahaha... dateline: tmr 12... Shall finish it tonight...

Survived a long day... wasn't that bad... and I came home to unwind i nfront of the telly.. Mwahahaha...

I shall go recharge soon... Real soon.. probably after this... Oh.. I wanted to comment on sth which I think is rather funny... I was just looking at a forum, talking about some entertainment gossip news or sth... So there was some stuff about some stars under going plastic surgury or sth... No big deal right? You'll be surprised... The whole topic was like spammed with posts of their fans, declaring outrage at such a 'ridiculous accusation'. Most of then were like 'No! No way...' and basically, the rest were like just so similar...

My point: actually I also dunno.. but i don't get it.. I mean like it is just a comment.l.. there is no need for a barrage of fans to defned their idol cause there is nth to defend... I mean there are so many things based on hearsay nowadays...

Oh... kinda finished my part for presentation next week.. hip Hip Hooray!!! but yeah.. haven't started on democracy yet... but then guess what?? I have a one week extension!!! yay!!! *grinz* So that kind of frees up some time... More of BGS on my mind now... totally zero communication, accusations, comments thrown all over the place. But people don't seem to be doing much... I'm frankly quite irritated myself too.. though I think I may have contributed to the mess.. Mwahahaha... Shall see what happens during the meeting on Friday.. or maybe tmr if the prof gives us time...

BTW... I think that Phil Keoghan, host of The Amazing Race has such a cool job... Oh! I finally remembered what I wanted to blog about... I don't think I wanna go into HR in future.. Mwahahaha... after this talk I attended... But nvm.. back to Phil... he gets to host such an amazing programme... and I think he is quite funny... esp when you watch the behind the scenes clips... Fine.. I'm a sucker for travel programmes... but yeah...

Oh.. Ade!!! Congrats!!! you passed!!! now can drive me around!!! Mwahahaha...

ok.. shall stop my senseless gushing... Good night world...

Hahaha.. i just stoned through my whole democracy class... and Darn! He knows my name!!! and it was super obvious tt I wasn't paying attention lar... Staring at my laptop the whole time without looking up at him... But I think like 99% if not the whole class was doing sth else... Hahaha...

Now I feel kinda guilty... Bah! Cause he knows... But i dun think i'll go round making promises that I will study harder for demo to make up just in case I can't fulfil them.. Hahaha....

I bet my democracy prof is regretting that he is making us write the Constitution of Nigeria. He has been going on and on about our draft for the past one hour... and it seems that there are quite a lot of controversy.. Mwahahaha...

Been dreaming a lot lately.. I htink I ought to really not think so much.. Imagine dreaming of the scarecrow in Howl's Moving castle in some sort of a zoo where I was supposed to be having lessons or sth... Bah! I would rather fall into a deep slumber and not remember my dreams...

Oh wells.. everything has been rather mundane.... Just playing games, slacking and doing work... Mwahahaha.. Welcome to My Life!

Power

Well, just some after thoughts after reading a few chapters of 'Dangerous Alliances - Civil Society, The Media & Democratic transitions in North Africa' (Yep! I'm finally starting to do research for my paper...). Anyway, this kinda started me thinking... What is it about power? Why do people go back on their word, make empty promises and cause a whole load of suffering for others? Put it simply, if you are a good ruler, people would not want to dispose of you. So why would the ruler of Tunisia and well.. his ministers and the police force want to go after people who want to challenge him, clam down on the media, make life difficult for people and stuff? Well, there are literally spies and eavesdropper everywhere and the police and government has the ability to monitor everyone there... Kinda scary huh? and they call themselves a democracy?

Just to drive the point home, I happen to watch a bit of the 7pm show on Channel 8.. Some pugilistic show... but nevertheless, another story about power struggles... How people want to master certain skills, moves, create chaos to in short, become the 'Most Powerful Man on Earth'

Just me thinking... is it because of power, that's why people lose their mind? (as in after they rise to power, then they start plotting and stuff), or is it vice versa? (They have all those evil thoughts before they rise to power.. and thus, they try to rise to power so that they can carry out those dastardly acts!)

This is beginning to sound like psychology... Interesting huh?

Just a very 'bejewelled' Gillian rambling on and on... Nagging thoughts...

This I gotta blog... was trying to clear my phone inbox... I came across a strong of messages from my dearest sister... She was trying to tell me the results of American Idol.. Whereby the group of 16 was shrinked to the final 12... Let me reproduce these messages for you...

'Federov vonsel mario and the ryan seacrest equivalent that woman is in!'

'Kerry? a girl called kerry...' --> My personal favourite!

'nadia.. I type her name use dictionary become mafia! Haha...' Hmmm... major grammatical error.

'keanu reeves and crooked mouth' --> Eh... Constantine and Bo Bice!

'anwar! Yay! jessica? Who's that...'

'Got scott nikko and travis left.. I want nikko... Got the river deep mountain high girl (aka Amanda) ginay (aka Janey) and someone (aka Mikalah)' --> She claims she forgot that 'someone' was Mikalah... though I dunno whether it is subconscious cause she doesn't like her... Hahaha...

Lalala... I still think it is super funny... Notwithstanding major spelling and grammatical errors, she has this uncanny sense of humour... Mwahahaha...

Lalala... blogger locked me out yesterday.. so here is my delayed review of the past few days... Mwahahaha...

BGS was crap lar... my short answer became like mini essays... Hahaha... I'm still in a floaty-floaty mood... after like regurgitating everything i memorise out... (think vomitting). Mwahahaha... Serious wad... this sort of pure memory test makes me sick to some extent... And a lot of crap lar.. There are some you gotta understnad... but then.. Gimme psych any other day man... Even democracy sounds more appealing than BGS...

But then again, it is over!!! So now for the report!!!

Caught Howl's Moving Castle... Not a bad show... but I still can't catch the anime craze... Mwhahahaha.. i think it is just me... Characters a re cute lar.. but my stnad is that after a while, everyone will look the same cause there are only a few ways you can draw sth.. Hahaha.. Nice storyline.. I mean kinda typical.. but then again, I'll salute whoever or whichever movie that does not have a typical boy meets girl, boy likes girl storyline... Or a predictable twist in horror shows... Hahaha...

Lalala.... back to work... been playing too much of bejeweled...

Lalala.. I can feel my 'disease' acting up.. I lost my Prof when he was talking about Hoar (I dunno who's dat) and am surfing around and stuff... Bah!

This happens every week!!! I shall resolve to do my work.. cause I have reports and presentation due...

I wanted to say sth.. but I forgot... Bah! I think I'm addicted to blogging!!!

Bah! Man U is out of Champions League... and Chelsea managed to overturn a deficit to advance! Bah!

Thank goodness for the existence of extension of project datelines!!! Woohoo!!! at least I have more than the one week I have now for my AS group assignment... Although it will also jam up somewhere later down the line... Hahaha...

Now.. to mug BGS.... 9 Chapters!!! wish me luck for sth I don't understand at all...

Oh.. can I mention that I know there are smart people around... In fact, it can be fun to have conversation with smart people... but I dislike pompous intelligent species who think that they happen to be the best thing that appeared on Earth and that the rest of us around are just their supporting actors... These people irk me to no end! And a word of caution, when you say something, make sure that the people you are talking (ie:bitching) about don't happen to be in the vincinity by chance.

Lalala... I'm supposed to be preparing my outline for my political science paper now.. but as usual.. I'm doing what I'm NOT supposed to do... Hahaha...

Still undecided whether I should pick on an African country that is familiar (ie: Nigeria) or explre something new like Tunisia in North Africa cause I'm currently reading a book about the politicla situation there... Lack of time to do research... Sianz...

Plan for today till Thursday: Study BGS

A 5 day week this week... ok.. like some who know may say, it is a bit 自找 one also lar... But when opportunity comes a knocking, it is hard to ignore it too... Mwahahaha...

I was doing some research today... I got this feeling that with an increasing reliance on technology... we all tend to overlook a better, more efficient way of searching for information - the good ol' library...

I dunno about you.. but if you ask me to so research for a project, I'll automatically search the Internet... Google, Yahoo.. you name it... yet I was in the library today, searching their catalogue for books I need for research, something I haven't done in like eons...

Now.. to plough through the 3 books I borrowed on Africa, Democratization and Politics... wish me luck!!!

create your own visited countries map
or vertaling Duits Nederlands


Hmmmm... a bit inaccurate.. since I haven't exactly been to the whole of Australia... and the one big patch that represents China is also wrong cause I've only been to certain parts of it (Like Hong Kong). I shall aim to have the most of the map covered by the time I am 70...

I am tired.. I wanted to sleep early.. but I was charging my laptop.. So i thought I would on it for a while... I was bored... and tired of surfing the net... but then I got entertained... and I entertained myself.. Thus, I'm still awake... but now me shall go sleep...

Good night world...

Ok.. another irrelevant, nonsensical, crappy post by a sleepy Gillian who will be off to bed soon...

Lalala... end of the week... weeks ahead looks daunting... Loads of datelines to meet... Shall buck up soon... but then again.. there's always tmr... I need a good rest... My eys and face (one side of it) has been feeling itchy... Dunno why.. Allergy? To what? lack of sleep???

Time flies.. tis week 9... This week actuallly seems non-existent, whizzing by in a flash... I have a bad feeling... like I'll drown in work soon... due to too many of my breaks...

People around me are stressing... Tests, datelines, everything's coming up over the next few weeks.. Shout out to all: Relax ya... and cheer up... Create time... I'm sure you'll be able to survive...

*Gee.. I sure hope I make use of this piece of advice for myself too!!!*