My first exam this semester in 12 hours time... still spending time with my beloved notes... Time ot end my break I guess... just a couple more chapters and I'm done... :)

i.need.to.work.
i.need.to.concentrate.and.finish.this.before.i.sleep.tonight.
i.am.irritated.

The things I do when I don't feel like working would be...

to surf the many various sites I have on my favourites list.

Revisiting some forums a couple of them 'just in case there are some new posts/updates'

Start posting replies to topics in forums that I usually just lurk in the background and read.

Play games found in the forum

Listen to a MV continuously. for like 5 or 6 times. (Ok.. at least the song is nice)

Procrastinating going out to get the drink that will signal the start of work for me.

And now, I'm finally going to get my drink, close all my browser windows and maybe find a way to lock up IE and Firefox. Wahahahhas... It's 2.09. Wish me luck! :)

*Oh ya.. and I forgot one more point... blogging about it!*

Just finishing up my meal of lunch/tea or rather, it's more like dinner since it's almost 7 pm... Ultimate Indulgance I think...

What did I have?

Let's see... One cheese-filled sausage with bacon wrapped round it. Sinful ya? 2 buns, a slab of butter, a sunny side up with a runny yolk the way I like it. Plus a serving of salad - lettuce and carrot.

See! I know how to balance my meals... and well.. *shepishly* it's my first big meal of the day. Had a bowl of super sweet muesli before I went for class earlier. Ok.. so maybe I should manage my eating times better... Hahahaha...

oh.. and I bought a can of lychees at an exhorbitant price (ok.. not so much in the Swiss context, but from Singapore perspective, it's indeed quite pricey). So that can be my dessert.

Life... has been busy. with what? I am also not sure. Well.. the workload has increased as the term draws towards the end. Just had my one and only presentation earlier. One more paper to write and 2 more exams to go. Not to mention, settling travel plans - booking of hostel and flight tickets due to some last minute changes. 3 more weeks and I'll say tschuss to my room in St Gallen.

Ok... on top of that, I have been spending a lot of time doing irrelevant, time-wasting stuff... like surfing the net and playing games. Sounds like my life back in Singapore no?

Just heard the 2007 NDP song... 'There's No Place I'd Rather Be'
(http://www.ndp.org.sg/multimedia/audio/index.html)

It's by Kit Chan... and the lyrics are just so reflective of what I have felt and experienced these 3 months. (Yep! it's the 3rd month I'm in Switzerland today)

http://www.ndp.org.sg/multimedia/audio/no_place.html

Just read a post over at Char's blog.. which struck a chord and started the memories started flooding in...

I particularly like this sentence (which Sheena, a junior said) and I quote: "There's a distinct difference between striving for the best.. and trying to maintain your top position... the former being more fulfilling."

And I realise and can fully understand what that meant...

My memories of VJ was singing in the choir. Maintaining her 'legacy' and position as a top choir in Singapore. I especially like singing in mixed positions - where I would be standing with someone not from my own section - to me, it was a challenge. Because almost everyone there had strong music background, it seemed that we spent little time on learning the songs, but more of learning how to execute it. But there is the challenge of attempting tougher and challenging songs in various languages. Now, I probably can't remember much of the songs I've learnt.

And of course, I remember the stress of having to perform well cause we are VJ choir. The high expectations and striving to meet them.

It was a good experience - going to Prague, singing at the Esplanade, performing in concerts.

What started me out onto the path of choral singing? St Nicks choir.

And in contrast, SN choir was, well, not as accomplished as VJ choir. For the first couple of years I was there, I would say we were quite a dumping ground for girls who couldn't get their first choice of CCA. We were initially unadventurous - sticking to songs with accompaniment (in contrast, we hardly did any songs with accompaniment in VJ).

Yet, in SN Choir, I remember the struggles - the struggles of attendance (ie: getting people to come for practice), the despair felt after failing to teach the sections how to sing their parts, the difficulty in putting the song together.

I remember also, the 'individual testings' we had to go through under a certain Ms Toh. The fear I felt before my turn because I didn't want to incur her wrath.

Other fond memories - going up to the roof of the new extension after a particularly bad practice, the playground, sitting in the canteen enjoying ice Milo and shortbread.

The songs we sang were definitely simpler and even though SN Choir is such a long time back, I still remember the words to some of them ~ Silver Lining, Donna, Laudate... I remember learning the Hallelujah Chorus in Sec 1. IT was massive! and I like Jubilate Deo! :)

This was where I first got acquainted with Victoria Concert Hall. The steep steps up and down the stage.

And you know what? given a chance to relive my moments in the 2 choirs, I think I would choose to go back to the time when I was a SN choir gal more than a VJ choir member.

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Meanwhile, I reek of lethargy. Can't bring myself to do stuff. I have less than a month before I leave St Gallen. It's getting tough. I feel like hibernating at home everyday. I hope this phase passes soon.

I feel like aunt agony. Maybe that's why the procrastication. 600 comments to look through. I feel sad. Cause if they are so different, there is nothing I can do to help them look any better.

*Edit 5 mins after last entry - ARGHZ!!! grandmother stories! Why bother writing 5 lines when 1 will suffice?

It is 12:18. I have work to do. I have school tomorrow at 9. Should I sleep? or should I plough on?

I have been blog surfing instead of doing my work. Procrastination is bad. I know. and yet, i persist.

I have unwritten blog entries. More procrastination. Vienna, Berlin, Heidiland, Engelberg, Yishan in St Gallen, my jog to the Wildpark. and after Saturday, UK and Spain.

Dinner at my place for the bunch of Asian exchange people tomorrow. I'm making chinese soup! my 2nd time in 1 week!

I'm feeling alone. and tired. I so want to rest. But I have class tomorrow and Friday. They are full day classes (9 to 6 tmr and 8 to 5 on Fri). I want a break. I want to sleep early, to stay at home and do nothing but watch and read stuff. I can't.

I am leaving for London on Sat. I will be away for 1 week. When I return, the whole school thing just starts over again.

Was I too ambitious? Am I travelling too much? Travel fatigue perhaps?

I didn't know what to cook for dinner tonight. I wanted my dinner to be ready for me. I wanted to be able to eat my hor fun from a zi char stall. I want my hokkien mee.

Wishing I can somehow be back home NOW. Missing people loads. I.AM.TIRED.

May tomorrow be a better day (with a full day course, not thinking it's gonna happen)

I am spending my 22nd birthday in a domesticated way...

Yishan, who 'bus-ed' over on Vienna to spend the last few days with me left this morning... Appreciate the gesture and had loads of fun.

Since today's a Sunday... and I'm have rather tight schedules the next few days, I have to do my laundry today. Basically, going to chill at home, maybe even go for a run in the evening and straighten up my room.

Not to mention, some work to do, entries and photos to post up.

Happy 22nd Bday to me! :)

Dang! 5 minutes and everything changes!

I was following livescores of both the soccer match of the FA Cup Final between Manchester United and Chelsea and the semifinal tennis match between Nadal and Hewitt.

Man U and Chelsea were 0-0 and playing extra time and then within 5 minutes, Chelsea scored. Bleahz! and they went on to win the cup.

and then, Hewitt, who was playing well against Nadal today also lost. (Can't someone just break Nadal's clay streak?)

Sports results not going my way that's all... :)

Life in Singapore seem so distant now. What do I do at home? What do I do on weekends? Definitely not vacuuming my floor, nor washing my clothes. I do not have to cook lunch or dinner, or worry about what to eat or if I have enough food to last me x days.

I take the bus/MRT around, but where do I go? To school? To town? What do I do in town? How do I manage to stay in school for 6 hours 5 days a week?

In truth, I'm a little scared of returning to Singapore. I'm sure things will go back to normal and I will adapt back to life there. I will survive, just like how I've survived venturing here. It's just that life in Switzerland has just become the norm now and I'm so comfortable with everything. . I lead my life the way I want it. Plan almost everything on my own and everything.

It's just like when you have experienced something good, it is hard to settled back into something not that ideal.

Oh sure.. I miss hanging out with friends, going for ktv sessions with the Gassy gals, chill out sessions with everyone. Dessert and gsr sessions with Meiju and Baoqin, having fun with Social science ppl. Playing games at Mind Cafe and stuff.

I miss crapping with my sis, chatting with my mum. Watching soccer with my dad and watching my brother play his mindless games. I miss curling up in my bed with a good book.

But when I think of what I actually do on a day to day basis in Singapore, I really don't have am amswer. Maybe it's because I was so used to life in Singapore before I came over.

Maybe it's too premature to think about what I will miss when I leave... but the thoughts do loom overwhelmingly when I realise I am almost halfway through my term. And now, time just seem to fly. I wake up, have breakfast, go to school, come back, prepare dinner, have dinner and then spend some time in front of the computer and voila, the day is gone.

Oh well... may tomorrow be a better day!

Having some kind of 'blogstipation' here... Topics pop out and then discarded, ideas drift in and out and I can't seem to string proper sentences together. This is going to be a rambling post, with loads of mished and mashed thoughts...

Watched the Korean movie, 200 pounds Beauty last week. Of plastic surgery and attaining beauty. Would only pretty girls find happiness? Do all men look at girls so shallowly? I think this is a pretty good movie. Do you lose yourself in the process of achieving something? Is beauty all that matters? The topics discussed in this movie is nothing new, but I do like how it is presented.

On another note, been here for almost 2 months. (2 more days to my 2nd month here). Happily settled in, loving life. Now, I am wishing my last 2 months here will be longer...

From balking at the price of groceries on my first day to just indifference and acceptance now.
Got use to walking almost everywhere.
Ich kann kochen (I can cook) - and pretty decently I must say. hahaha...
From travelling here with locals I barely know, to meeting new friends from other countries.

And more importantly, living a psuedo jet-setting lifestyle. I've been out almost every weekend since I've arrived. And out means out of the country or the small town I am in. I just think.. how much this would change when I go back to Singapore - I mean I don't even travel out of Singapore every year - not to mention every weekend!

Is there such a thing as over travelling?

Meanwhile, everyday, or every trip is a new experience.

My first week in St Gallen - surviving without my laptop adaptor, getting used to life here.
To Paris, I took my first night train, alone.
At Saentis, I experienced my first time on a snowcapped mountain.
To Munich, the uneasy feeling of walking around a concentration camp.
In Vienna, got back into a big city. A mix of magnificent historical buildings and a busy shopping street.
In Berlin, went for my first tennis tournament - seeing the big name stars upclose and a spat of fan-girling.


And in Switzerland, just the wonderful, wonderful scenary. I'm so going to miss the mountains and lakes - sights I would never fail to spot on a train ride.

AHHHHH!!! Liverpool!!!

Just came back from watching the penalties of the Champions League semifinals between Liverpool and Chelsea! Liverpool beat Chelski on penalties! 4-1!!!

Was kinda following the score online and when the aggregate was still 1-all after the extra time, I decided to go out to watch the penalties. Afterall, I am just like 1 hour ahead of UK. So not as if I would lose sleep over it or sth.

My loyalties still lie with Man U... but was just willing Liverpool to win this. or rather, hoping that Chelsea will lose. Hahaha... Why? I just happen to not like them, or rather, their manager, or maybe just both.

Hahaha... my heart was in my mouth when I saw them getting ready to take the penalties. Could see the tension on both the players' and manager's faces.

Almost whooped aloud for joy when Reina (Liverpool's) goalkeeper saved Robben's shot, giving Liverpool a 1-0 lead for penalties. And then again, he saved Chelsea's 3rd shot by Geremi. And Kuyt fired his shot past Cech to clinch a berth in the Champions League finals for Liverpool! All of Liverpool's penalty shots went in. Not bad huh?

Now, Man U has to win or draw tmr night's match to get there!
*btw, I think Xabi Alonso of Liverpool is quite cute! :)

Venice. 17th May to 19th/20th May.

to go or not to go?

I suddenly miss St Nicks A LOT!!!

Anyone knows how choir did for SYF?

I finally did it!

I booked tickets to watch the 3rd round of the Qatar Total Open - held in Berlin, Germany on 10th May...

Today's my one-month anniversary in der Schweiz. Hahaha.. from the emo, slightly homesick feeling I had in the first week, to the 'I dun wanna leave Europe' feeling now.

In the past one month,
I have experienced snow, and now, Spring where all the pretty flowers bloom.
I am used to taking walks to school/town and basically, getting around.
I think that taking one hour train rides is pretty normal. And they do seem rather short.
I took my first ever night train alone.
I drank quite a bit in the one month i was here... (more than what I would drink in a month in Singapore anyway) - a beer here, a (beer+sprite) there, red wine, white wine. Falling in love with white wine though. So far, the ones I had were pretty good...
I got from getting shocked at the prices of stuff here.. for it to turn to acceptance - or cheaper shopping across the border.
I am now cooking more meals on my own.

Being independent, making decisions like where to go for the weekend, whether I should go on certain trips, should I buy some stuff, or even what to cook.

Taking care of myself, making sure I don't end up in shit, making sure I don't fall sick.

It's tiring.. but also exactly like how I envisioned it.. meeting different people with different experiences. Knowing that how like almost half of the people I met, especially Europeans are pursuing a Masters.

Now, 3 more months seem so short...

Hahaha.. this i have to blog..

Manchester United beat AS Roma 7-1!!!! in the 2nd leg of the Champion's League quarterfinal match!!!

Woohoo!!! and I watched it! It kicked off at 8.45 here... Hahahah... the benefits of living in the same/similar timezone!!!

I couldn't believe my eyes as the goals just kept coming one after another... hahaha....

Heh... Thanks to Siyi, I'm watching SG Wannabe mvs on youtube...

Actually, I just watched 2 stories which is made up of 2 mvs each.

What I can gather:
1. they like elaborate mvs.
2. their mvs usually involve gangsters or the Korean mob
3. there is a love story involved
4. the endings are usually like 'WHY!!!!!!'
5. i like what I've seen so far. :)

Can't seem the embed the videos from youtube... but here are links to the videos for Only the Wind and New Shoes by SG Wannabe and Kim Jong Kook.

Part 1: Only the Wind - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cz8sRUI4qsE

and Part 2: New shoes - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E-ZOFZrZA0k

New shoes

Trying to post in multiple blogs is super-multi tasking... but there are so many things I want to tell the world at the same time - to different audience, about different things.

The survey which I was (kinda) slogging my ass off is out. I know it's long!!! But it's not my choice. Thank you to a dear friend, who is proud of my efforts and is excited for me, for my work. I really really appreciate it. It is something massive - for a project that hopes to involve all students in the school. and now, my 'baby' is finally out...

Anyway, picked up this from Char's blog... Me likes it! :)

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It's been two and a half weeks.

You know you are settled when:

You start calling the room you live in 'home'.
You can walk to town, navigate the streets and get to your destination quite easily.
You feel fine walking up a hill and now take 15 minutes instead of the 25 minutes previously.
You stop referring to a map!

Definitely more settled in. Spring is here which makes it all the more better. It's still chilly at night, but it's fine in the day. The sun is up till quite late - like 8 pm?

Heh... I don't even mind 40 mins to 1 hour of cooking every night! Then there's the planning of my 'menu' in advance. What to cook, what would spoil soon, when to cook veggies or what kind of veggies to cook.

Trying to clear my perishables as I'll be in Paris from Wed night to Mon... Then the whole grocery shoppign process begins again... :)

Heh... Spent a lazy sat afternoon at home, researching for my Paris trip, just settling my courses and now, I'm watching Tennis now... Some final live featuring Justine Henin and Serena Williams. hahaha... Life is good...

I feel domesticated again. Clothes washing downstairs, i cooked 'dunch' - Potato with mince meat and rice... Nowadays, I just cook like one dish - either a soup or sth with gravy and eat it with a staple.

Went to a party in Zurich yesterday. Happening hor? Alcohol is like almost free here lar... When you order like a mix, they put like one-third alcohol into the cup. It's damn strong lar... But I took a beer... hahaha.. dun wanna get wasted in Zurich. I still have to take a train back to St Gallen. Then the music was a bit weird. Like the DJ was supposed to be playing some hip-hop and R&B. It was some weird song lar. Nothing like R&B at all. Then there was some goth like band who played some weird songs too... Then caught the 1 am train back to St Gallen and reached backed at 3 plus and it was SUPER COLD!!! Stayed over at a friend's place cause I dun wanna walk back at night. Had tea and bathed. Slept at 5 and woke up at 10. Missed the trip to Bern though. Nvm.. I'll go another day...

Heh.. some updates.. going to Paris from 4th to 8th April.

Uh oh... the i-think-i-live-near-school-and-thus-can-dally syndrome has started. I decided not to go for 2:30 german class today cause I had just finished bathing at 2:10 and there was no way I could be in class on time.

It's almost like back home. I stay a 15 to 20 mins walk from school.. sth like the half an hour bus ride from my place to school. The only diff is I can't and I won't pay for a cab to bring me to school. Firstly, cause cabs don't ply my area here and secondly, it's SUPER ex! I think the flag down rate is like 5Fr or sth...

Spring is almost here... I see green leaves everywhere, flowers, the snow melting, birds in the garden! Nice! Even the weather is a bearable 7 deg instead of -1 or 0.

I like pics of the snow melting. I think it's cool that there's grass and stuff under the snow... wahahahs... like so oxymoronic...

It's been hectic since classes started. I have german lessons from 8:30 EVERYDAY till about 4. Went for a city tour, a talk on the history of St Gallen which I promptly fell asleep in. Went Lake Constance on Sat. Sun stayed home, but was catching up with ppl at home. Yesterday, even though I had a day off, woke up even earlier to go Saentis. So it's just been out early, home late kinda thingee... and I don't feel very rested. Hahaha... But I guess things will be diff when school starts. My timetable is looking good (ie: slack!). More time to chill...

But slowly settling in here... more at ease with walking back at night. Quite sure I won't get lost in the near future... so ok...

Hmmmz... Day 12 in Switz...

Ok.. i think i was kinda pms-ing before that, therefore, all the emo thingee. Plus now, things are more settled.

I am enjoying German lessons. We kinda learn basic conversational German and how to form simple sentences like

Ich heisse Gillian
Ich bliebe ein Semester (i will be here for one semester)
Ich arbeite erst zwolf tage (I have been here for only 12 days)
Ich spiele Klavier gern (I like playing piano) - Oh.. have I mentioned, I have a piano in my house!

2 more days to end of intensive German... Kinda settled my timetable.. so yeah.. Looking forward to school to start!

Anyway, I feel soooooooooo domesticated.. cooking, washing, ironing... Watch out for more pics over in my other blog! :)

Hmmm.. I think i just need to be around ppl.. The worse times are when I wake up in the morning... and I have nth much to do... Like dun have to rush to school... Then I'll just sit back and contemplate my surroundings... But not that I want to rush home immediately.. I want to go tour Europe! I want to go to Basel, Geneva and Bern...

I dun miss home... not even the food... But I miss the people at home...

But once I take the bus ride to town, I will just go like 'Waaaaaaaaahh...' cause the view is really very good. Think snowcapped buildings when u are on a road winding slowly into town... Magnificent... I'm having a good time when I hang out with the other exchange students... and stuff.. Maybe I'm just pms-ing... or i need to get rid of my 'morning homesickness'.

Hahaha.. exchange is fun.. no doubt... I really see a lot, hear a lot from others... It's like for a lot of people especially the Europeans, they speak more than 3 language. It's like English, German and maybe French or Spanish, or both plus other languages like Swedish... then the things I See here is also so different. I like the recyclign way of life... I don't exactly mind my 'exchange diet*'.

*Exchange diet is just like rabbit food (ie: Salad) or like simple stuff cause I'm too lazy to cook. But I went shopping in Lake Constance, Germany. The things there are cheaper! Wahahhas.. and I bought biscuits and stuff... :) Now, I just have to start eating them...

But the downside is you have to be prepared for these pangs of longings especially when you wake up with nothing much to do.. Sometimes, I wish you all can be over here with me.. Then it'll be a blast cause we'll have fun. Or sometimes, I wish that I can get home easily... But I also like the times I have here... It's contradicting.. But hey... there are many facets of emotions for every individual...

Everything is foreign here.. like how much walking I've done, like following a bus schedule, rushing for the last bus, taking the train to another city... going grocery shopping. Planning my menu.. walking to school.. blah blah blah... but slowly getting the hang of things. Go look for 'Acztion' or sth like tt.. It meants Action! I think.. which means the product is on sale.. wahahhas...

Ok lar... I'll be fine... a couple of weeks more and I'll probably be gushing abotu the people I meet instead of pining for the people at home. :)

Heh... It's one week since I've been here... Yet.. I sometimes feel like I've been here far longer than that. Sometimes, I can't wait to leave cause I'm missing you all back home, but other times, I just think that 'gosh... I'll be here for only 3 more months'. I'm like a pro liao.. shopping at Migros, the grocery store here... walking to town, walking home from school. Even prepping dinner or packing bread for school

Like I told some friends, I think i'll walk more in these 3.5 months here than in the past year back in Singapore. Like a 20 mins walk to school is normal for me.. Hahaha... I guess i'm really spoilt in Singapore.

Sigh man... I'm still missing home... Ok.. I think it's normal. But sometimes, its quite shitty that I would just tear up when I read my sister's email me or when I think of home or my mum, dad and bro. This is especially when I'm all alone or sth... HOW?

Thank goodness I stay connected via the internet... but the thing is it still feels different. Plus I'm not staying with the other Singaporeans, or have like other exchange people that I can talk to. Maybe I'm just not that emotionally strong.

German classes for 3 days already. It's not too bad. I think I'll continue with the course during term time... But 830 class is like hell... Wahahahs...

Heh... I'm spending more time online thanks to the fact that I will go to my friend's place to charge my batt tmr.. and hopefully, I will get my package by Tues!!! *crosses fingers*

Anyway, settling in quite nicely... I'm enjoying what I've seen so far... Like going grocery shopping - u just look for the budget stuff. Hahaha.. poor students ma.. the 'MarktPlatz' which well, is the marketplace.. which is bustling with people from Mon to Sat esp Sat, but it is super quiet on Sunday cause all the shops are closed...

Eh.. saw this super nice cathdral.. I will post pics up once I get my adaptor.. dun wanna waste precious battery.. that's my mantra for the last few days...

It's just that cause I am living quite far away from the Singaporeans, up on a hill, I will leave town earlier when there is still light. So when I'm cooped up all alone in my room and not being able to use too much internet, I do think of home excessively sometimes.... Hahaha...

Haiya.. but I'll be fine when school starts cause I'll probably be occupied... Erm.. I'll update the other blog in chronological order and with pics once I get my adaptor...

Even the blogger interface is in German.

I Love skype!!! Cheap calls out to overseass lines...

Ok.. I'm finally here...

I think I'm a bit slow. So indifferent the few days before I flew.. even up to the point when boarded the plane... and when I reached here, it kinda struck me that I'll be on my own for 4 months. I'm feeling a lil lost... hahaha... being so far away from the world that I know.. and to my horrors, I discovered I did not bring my laptop adaptor. So smart hor~!~ Gonna get my mum to send it over... and meanwhile, I'm so glad I got a new battery the last time round so at least I have like 3 hours of connection time. Plus, I'm thinking of borrowing

See! I knew there was something important I would forget. I could feel it even before I left. Everything's fine... except for some pangs of homesickness when I called home after I arrived.

Anyways, I like my room. It's like quite big, neat.. and comfy... Hahaha...May be going grocery shopping later.. I'll see how everything goes...

I'm ALMOST done packing... and that's actually quite a big almost. Cause I'll have some last min thing to stuff in... Prob is.. my big luggage is a wee bit heavy... Bah! I think I stuffed too many things inside.. maybe i should diversify some into my not-so-full other bag...

A lot of should I bring this? or should I not... going to and fro. Taking things out, putting things back in.. yada yada yada...

------- 10:49 am on Thurs ------------

Ahhhh........ Still packing...

This is starting to feel so unreal... I can't believe I'm leaving in slightly less than 48 hours to Switz for 4 to 5 months. Wow... Not particularly excited, not even feeling as emo about it as I thought I would be.

Somehow, there is a little sense of indifference. Maybe cause I'm busy with trying to clear some work before I leave. Maybe I'll feel more hyped up after tomorrow. and get even more excited and emo the day after. *pre-flight jitters*

My room is currently in a mess cause I haven't put some of the stuff into my luggage yet. So whatever I need to bring, or bought is sitting on my table, hiding in my cupboards. Tomorrow is packing day. Hopefully, everything will fit. Or somehow, I will make them fit.

Now.. just what should I wear to the airport on Thursday? hahaha...

Stress.. and not from packing...

So many things to clear before I leave! Argh!!! 钱真的不容易赚！

4 more days!!! I'm feeling more and more excited... and I'm still half done packing. What is necessary, what are extras. What to put in each bag? Is bringing too much?What other work do I need to clear before I leave... So many things to do...

Oh... and thanks to all who took time out to meet up with me. Hahaha...

Tea/Dinner/Coffee with Val and Zhumei on Wed. At least I don't think I will miss jap food that much when I get over there. Heh...

Happy gaming @ Mind's Cafe with social science pioneers on Thursday... 'Ugly ugly!!!'

Dinner and mahjong with gassy on Sat. Next time we should meet earlier to play more mahjong. and we'll probably have yet another tutorial. :)

Random fact of the day: I receive like 30 over spam mail in my gmail account everyday. No wonder I keep having like 900 over spam mails even though they will clear the spam mailbox every 30 days.

Was just looking at some old photos when clearing my photos folder... Pics from trip to Down Under, Gold Coast in 2003, December...

I especially like the above pic with the mother kangeroo with the joey's head sticking. Cause I remember that she actually stopped and posed for the photo, as if to show off her joey...

And then the one below is of me feeding a kanga...

I miss times like this...


Ok.. maybe not so much of the mugging... but just G1 ppl sitting together in a GSR all doing work... I would presume this is rushing AS homework or studying for some test or sth...

Gosh.. this was taken at old campus.. which is almost 2 yrs back!

Leaving in one week's time...

So many things to do... Meeting up with friends, doing (very little) packing, just got my laptop back yesterday and Im now trying to load all the applications I usually use in... Being a temporary 'ahmad'...

Can't wait to get over... I've been tempted too much by the many many pretty pics i've seen posted by other exchange student...

I went back to school yesterday... and the most common refrain I got was 'Why are you STILL here?'. hahaha.. It's been a long wait.. but I'm kinda glad for the break I had... But I do so want to clear my comm service and internship report before I leave... Shall try and squeeze it in somehow...

Add baking pineapple tarts on the 14th night of the Lunar New Year @ 11pm to the list of quirky baking practices I am capable of... and that includes baking cookies till 3 at night.

Hot and bothered and tired and irritated...

I'm only getting my laptop back on Mon... and so far, I've just been... packing and repacking stuff, going to the school gym and driving. I kinda spent the whole day out from like 8 plus in the morning till 7 plus at night as the chauffeur. It is tiring and tedious... and I feel as if I've no life. I love my dad! Cause he usually just drives us around without complaints...

Haha is in hospital - 'Haha' being the name that my sister gave to my trusty ol' laptop.

Going to reformat it so that it would be as good as new! Meanwhile... sobs.. i shall go read a book or sth.

A nice day out sharing, sitting, chilling, laughing, photo-whoring, eating, eating and eating! Oh... not to mention being fangirls and going gaga over Shinhwa...

Royalties, I heart you two!

Heh.. this has been a rather quiet CNY... Maybe with a lousier substitute driver, they decided to spare me, the car and not let me drive so much.

Except for a seemingly hectic Day 1 where we went first ot my aunt's place, followed by a gathering of my relatives from my maternal side at my place, yesterday and today have somewhat been rather activity-less. An ex-colleague of my dad came over yesterday afternoon. Afterwhich we went out for a while. Then it was hiberbating at home last night. And I was home today...

Ok... and to add on to my previous list of being a not very good driver, I forgot to lock the car door yesterday. *diaoz* win right? And I discovered it when we were about to go back. Hahaha... I had a kinda bad feeling about it... but I didn't expect to have not locked it at all. Well.. have to be more careful.

Oh.. .and stuff from my Swiss uni came! I think I may have a 2 week semester break from 21st May to 3rd June. Woohoo! But I came across this module which takes place on Mon, Wed, Fri and Sat of the week of 21st May. The class is like from 10am to 5pm... Woah.. talk about intensive lessons. Not sure if I will actually do it though. Hahaha... and looking at the introduction programme, I'm gonna have like a totally intensive week of learning German cause I am a beginner. Imagine lessons like from 9am to 1 pm, then another round from 2pm to 4pm or 5pm or sth like that. Bleahz... and it's for one and a half weeks! I'm quite sure I'll be able to speak some German at the end of it.

Oh.. and a bit late.. but here's wishing everyone a great year ahead!!!

新年快乐，身体健康， 万事如意，心想事成，大吉大利， 恭喜发财。。。 财源滚滚来！！！

Driving is extremely tiring... and hazardous... yet liberating (going on expressways) and makes me feel in control.

Heh.. have been behind the wheel a lot the last couple of days since my dad fractured his wrist last week and was put in a cast. Thus, I've become the chauffeur, driving ppl here and there.

In the past, I only drive my brother back to camp on occassional weekends. IN the last couple of days, I
1) Drove to Balestier to buy veggies for reunion steamboat.
2) Drove to Ulu Pandan (yes Fran... I actually passed ur place!) twice, once ot pick up something for my Mum's friend and another time to pick up her phone which she left behind.
3) Went to somewhere near Queenstown to pick up sth
4) Went to Chinatown
5) Woke up at 7am to drive my brother back to camp early this morning (yeah.. on 年初一). It was ALL the way to the jetty at Pasir Ris...

Heh... and not without incidents lor. On Friday night, I backed into a car when I tried parking at the void deck of my uncle's place where we went for reunion dinner. Sigh.. didn't realise there was a car behind me. and I tried to reverse into a lot. Smart right? But was quite miffed with the lady. She actually ASKED ME... 'You SURE YOU GOT LICENSE?' (Argh!!! *smokes coming out from my ears*) It was an unintentional mistake lor...

Then today... got horned at. Cause there was a lousy car from the oncoming lane which was turning right, yet jutted into my lane. So of course I had to go around it. So some car behind me had to brake and stuff so that it won't hit me. Sigh...

practice makes perfect. At least my vertical parking is not that bad. But driving can be quite stressful... and ironically, fun. I think I sound quite sadistic. Fun when I feel stressed. But haven't driven alone before. Hahaha... always got ppl in the car one.

Anyway, my stint as a driver makes my appreciate my Dad even more. All the driving up and down and without complaints.

Yesterday was such a lovey dovey day.

Couples, roses everywhere. But why does this happen only on vday? A commercially celebrated day? But nevertheless, still a day for people to feel loved and appreciated.

Me? Still a member of the Lonely Hearts Club. But hah! Went for a good lunch and wonderful dessert. Got my Jim Brickman CD which was aptly titled 'Valentine'. Came home and listened to it. Hah! Who said singles can't have fun?

And yet, conflicting thoughts... When will I become part of a lovey dovey couple? My mantra has always been 'Let Nature take its own course', 'It is a 2 person thing, no point if it is not reciprocated'. Honestly, I'm quite happy being single (unless the air gets filled with too much saccharine sweetness...) Having no one to answer to, no need to fit someone into my life or change my life for anyone.

It's not that I dun believe in what I preach. But sometimes, especially during times like this, I do look around wistfully and wonder, when will it be my turn? How long can I go on being happily single? Why can't there be someone? But I believe in finding the right apple. Maybe not that big, red, shiny juicy all-in-one apple, but at least one with some semblance.

To all who have found their halves, may you fall deeper in love with each other, and have many many more wonderful memories.

To all singles... may the right one come along. soon.

Heh.. this is a little fast.. but I have settled my housing. Walalalas...

Actually, I didn't really have an issue with where I stay. But more of the location where my parents would be less worried. After troubling the housing coordinator (I may have been the most picky and fussy exchange student he ever dealt with... heez), I finally got myself a room in a modern house with a garden apparently. Whatever.. shall reserve my comments until I see it.

I'll be contented as long as I have my internet connection. If I really dun get along with my apartment mates, then I'll just lock myself in my room everyday or sth. The whole point of an exchange is probably to experience what life overseas is about. So, I'm fine whether I get to stay with locals or other exchange students. In fact, staying with students from other nationalities may even be better. But I think older generation have this preconception to 'play it safe'. Ah wells... settled.. Dun have to think so much about it now.

And after paying up for my insurance, I think I've settled most of the major stuff. There's only the passport photo left! Woohoo!

St Gallen housing woes...

It's about 1 month to my departure date and I still haven't settled accomodation. Blame it on.. I also dunno who. Well.. hope i can confirm sth soon. *prays for a miracle*

I'm damn sick of everything!!!

Ever had the feeling that when you see something, sometimes, you would think 'oh.. it's perfect for so and so' or that 'this suits whoever'. But how often is that 'someone' your mum, your dad or even your siblings?

That hit me real hard today when my dad and I were thinking of what to get my mum for her bday. How much do we know about our own family members?

Packing my room is like bringing me a trip down memory lane... (ok... not that long ago... but still...)

Ojects of notable mention are:

The farewell note that 校长 gave us when she retired in 2000. In it, she talked about her journey as Principal of St Nicks. Reading it brings back memories of her calling us 宝贝 and her treats, and her announcements to 多多喝水. It even has a note telling us her rationale for giving us the farewell gifts - a bag, watch, water bottle and scarf. Heh.. I have no idea where my water bottle went.

Then there is my VJ carolling scores. I got them at the end of Sec 4. (2001) when I joined them for carolling. What followed was 4 years plus of carolling with them. Plus wonderful memories of putting up concerts (2 SOVs plus a couple others) and of course taking part in SYF where I performed on Esplanade stage. (Hey! At least I could say I did that!), not to forget a trip to Prague. Alas.. won't be going for Symphony of Voices this yr as I am going to be in faraway Switz.

Also, there is the box of brochures which I brought back from Australia in 2003 because I wanted to do some sort of s scrap book... that never took off...

Then the notebook I got from freshmen orientation 2004 when I first entered SMU plus old copies of the school magazine, Blurt, which talked about the move to the city campus and stuff...

Oh.. and I still have my f. maths TYS. Maybe to serve as a reminder that I once could solve those complicated and questions

Check out this video... Look at the grand piano in the middle of a frozen lake or sth...



I'm now falling in love with Jim Brickman's song. They are totally beautiful... Pianist with New Age albums. But some of his songs has vocals as well. I just think the lyrics and melody is just oh-so-nice and some of them can be quite touching!

Check out Valentine and The Gift if possible! :) :) :)

Came across a 'recording' of John Cage's 4'33.



Heh... just thought it is interesting because of the nature of the piece. -Silence- Hmmm... I wonder if the orchestra players/conductor got paid for sitting there and doing nothing.

From Siyi...

YOUR REPORT CARD:
Category	Grade
Love	C
Friends and Family	A+
Body	A
Mind	A+
Finance / Career	C
Your Life's Average Grade: A
'What" is your Life Grade?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Heh.. Law of Averages? 2 Cs and 2A+ gives me an average of A?

Heh...

Went on a shopping spree yesterday...

Bought myself this pretty white laptop case. hahaha... Cause my blue one's a bit wonky. And I needed something harder than the red one cause i wanna protect my lappy when I get over there...

Let's see.. I bought earphones after all those I had at home decided to go on strike some time in the last sem.

And I got my adaptor... the ever elusive adaptor for Switzerland. It came in a pack with a lot of plugs for like many many diff countries. Hahaha...


Ok... I've bought almost everything I need. The only major things left to settle is insurance and probably changing my passport photo. Other than that... I can't wait to go over!!!

It's weird seeing your friends get on with their school life while I have the chance to languish at home, doing things I like. I feel so cut off from them in fact. :(

But i'm also enjoying whatever slack time I have. Just chilling, enjoying my books, music and what shopping. Hahaha... Well.. New Year's coming... maybe that's something to look forward to.

After CNY, then maybe time will pass faster as I start my packing and stuff...

Packing is still incomplete cause I haven't touched it since I stacked it up a couple of days ago.

Well, haven't been blogging about this, but as the Australian Open - the first grand slam of the year draws to a close (finals being played over the next 2 days), I'm thinking if I should go watch the French Open when I happen to be in the region some time in May. Wahahahs... Allow me to indulge in a little tennis ramble...

Maybe cause Justine Henin (formerly Henin-Hardenne) didn't play this year, I haven't been as avid fan as I could be. Everything seems a little flat. Like how things do not seem that competitive especially in the later stages where things were supposed to heat up.

Andy Roddick, who had been playing well in the earlier rounds lost meekly to Roger Federer, 6-4, 6-0, 6-2 *ouch~!~*

Or that the woman final is being contested by 2 great players (Maria Sharapova vs. Serena Williams), but who both just happens to be not my cup of tea. Sigh... I still think Maria is over-rated. Yes... she's young, majority of the world thinks she's pretty, she does play rather impressive tennis.. but no... something about her just irks me. Maybe it's how she seems to *diao* her opponents, her being the media and sponsor's darling...

But I do like the 2 finalists for the men finals though...

Fernando Gonzalez of Chile

Roger Federer of Switz (Woots!)

My brain says Fed would win but my heart says Gonzo.

Ok.. enough tennis talk... tis late...

... and Happy Birthday Fran!!!

I've been packing my stuff this afternoon. Nope.. not so ks lar.. not preparing for the trip yet, but filing away notes and stuff from last term. Yes... I'm slow... I just did it..

Anyway, the amount of journal articles I've amassed amazes me... I think I printed like 9 diff papers on one single topic that I based my term paper on. Woah... not to mention readings for class...

And as I was reading through a term paper I wrote, I kinda shocked myself at what I was writing. I had no idea I could write like that. Wahahahs.. sounds haolian right? Dunno leh... I dun think it was a fantastic piece given that I do spot errors here and there... and that some phrasing just makes me cringe. But over all, I can't imagine I wrote like 3000 over words. I wonder how i thought about those things to come up with something coherent.

Oh wells... should hurry and finish packing. Am going for CIP tmr morning... and then, meeting Fran for lunch... and going for a briefing at 7. Time to drag the lazy self out of the house after nua-ing at home for the last few days.

Enjoying my faux summer hols...

Waking up late, not much worries, going shopping when I want to... Hey.. even my face is clearing up! Heez...

But it's just weird... given that almost everyone is in school. So less people to go out with, less things to do... and the weather's not helping. It's sunny one day, rainy the next... and I dun exactly like going out on rainy days. It's cold and dreary... and I get wet even though I have an umbrella. How about that?

Next aim: Maybe to sleep earlier and get rid of my eyebags.

I am getting increasingly frustrated with my internet connection. It has been crawling for the past few days. Sigh... I'm not sure if it's cause of the pages I'm loading or what. But sometimes, it feels like I'm on a modem all over again.

Meanwhile, life's been good. Went bowling on Sat morning where I *ahem* didn't do very well. Was throwing gutterball more than hitting the pins. And well, it was like a school competition. (so malu~!~) So the bunch of Social Science gals were like bowling with 13 other teams made up of random people. Hahaha.. and we were top from the bottom. ><. Oh.. but Mabel his a turkey-that is like 3 strikes in a row, in the last frame of the 2nd game. Wow!!!!

Other than that, I'm just hanging around, going out to buy stuff, preparing my packing list and stuff. Maybe I need a mor eeventful life. :)

Is it me or is this year's Project Superstar not as hyped up as last year? And me thinks the contestants are not as good too. Hmmmz.... *thinks*

Idol's back. I'm kinda losing interest. Like how I didn't follow last season's at all. Then again. May not be a good idea to follow it. What if I don't get Idol on TV in Switz?

just sat in for class today. Cultural psychology! Heavy heavy readings, but at least they are interesting!

But again, I ended up doing other random stuff in class with my laptop on. Not paying 100% attention. Well, at least 50% of the things went in i guess. Not in the swing of things with the 4 or 5 mods a sem work load. Just throttling along on my slow engine.

I shall resolve to do my readings and pay more attention in class next week. :)

It's raining AGAIN! Day in day out... Well, at least I'm home and not out like on Friday.

It's been quite a week, being out everyday, running errands like reformatting my laptop and fixing my phone.

There's been a nagging problem with my keypad for some time. Can't seem to press the buttons '1' and '9' properly - according to them, keypad is insensitive. And when I went to collect my phone, i thought the conversation the staff and I had was quite dumb.

The staff told me that they had to 'resolder' something back on. And so I asked, 'what?'. They couldn't answer me. Just that it was something. When I asked her what was wrong, she just kinda gave me a dumbfounded look. Oh wells... not expecting her to rattle on the super technical part, but I thought she could at least tell me what could have caused the problem. Nah.. just they they had to resolder something back on. Insightful.

People are leaving/have left for exchange. Me, still hanging around. It's another 8 and a half weeks before I fly. Not long ago, it was 11. it's kinda scary how time passes by so quickly. On another note, I bought this language thinge where I'm supposed to learn German in 30 days. Hope I can speak some decent German by the time I get over.

Anyway, my weeks are quite occupied. Wed and Thurs mornings, I go down to RDA to do my CIP. Basically, it's watching out for disabled kids who are attending the riding lessons. Somehow, my heart aches at the thought of them - being unable to support themselves, comprehend instructions. Like a fellow volunteer said of one kid, it went along the lines of 'There is nothing wrong with his brain, when I look at him in the eyes, I can see a connection. It's just that he is unable to articulate or command his body to do certain things'

I hope they will all make it and overcome their disabilities cause I've also seen how riders who have attended more than 1 term be able to follow instructions and articulate what they want.

But since it's bene raining, the arena where they have they lessons are quite muddy. Yeah... so I've got muddy shoes now. Hope it stops raining soon.

I am upset.

I should not have borrowed Harry Potter's Order of Phoenix and Half Blood Prince. Now I have to wait like eons for the last book to be out. I knew there was a reason why I stopped reading Harry Potter - I didn't want to wait too long for the book. And the wait between book 4 (Goblet of Fire) and book 5 (Order of the Phoenix) kinda killed my interest. Yet... after reading these two, or rather, one and a half books, my interest in the world of magic, muggles, Hogwarts, Harry, Hermione and Ron got ignited once again.

And now... I have to wait for the last book. Starting surfing around for some info. Looks like Rowling has loads of loose ends to tie up. Maybe the book will be like a thousand pages long? Hahaha... and it's not even out!!!

Ok... I haven't technically finished Half Blood Prince yet. But I read the last few chapters. My heart wrenches. Argh.... WHY??? *wails....*

Biopsych lecture at NUS was... a reminiscence of JC life. It's been well, some time since I've been in a lecture hall with hundred over ppl. (Well, the media conference didn't really count i guess) and we realised it had been 5 years since we had class together (2002 ~ 2006) and this also marked the first time that all three of us attended a lecture together. Wahahahs...

Lecture was fine, for the first hour anyway. As the lecturer started droning on about history of biopsych, my mind drifted off and i started doodling. after a while, i was just glancing at the digital clock in the front of the LT, willing for the numbers to jump faster. Then i wondered... what do i do during 3 hour seminars? Ok... maybe I shall find out on Friday whe nI go for cognitive psych. Once i decide to wake up early enough to attend 830 class.

Funny that i dun think of SMU seminars as 'seminar's, but as class. No distinctions between lectures and tutorials either. Hahaha... Oh.. met up with Char as well... who happened to be around school! yay!!!

Anyway, walked vivo since Siyi had a un-crashable class as it was in a classroom, very packed and anyway, was feeling a bit 'seh-ed' after the lecture. (well, Angie claims its the burger at Macs that we had... nvm). Well, covered more of vivo than I ever had. and here I am, back home.

Been out a lot the last few days/weeks. Settling stuff for exchange like getting my debit card done, fixing my phone before warranty runs out. Things i'll have to do would be to reformat my laptop on Thurs afternoon, erm... and change my passport photo since the immigration officer did tell me that if I didn't change my photo the next time, I'll probably won't be allowed to leave Singapore. Ok... I guess that's cause it was a photo from like primary school. Hahaha... or maybe Sec sch. Can't remember.

Long days this week. Tmr... I start my weekly comm service. Every Wed and Thurs morning for 10 weeks. And then, internship briefing on Thurs evening. Well, i technically dun have to go for it since I've already done it. But nvm... time to meet up with ppl!!!

Getting tired. Sometimes, i just want to sleep in. stay home. I've just been out like forever...

Happy New Year!!!

My first post of the year... although slightly late.

But here's hoping everyone has a great year ahead. Stay happy! Have Fun! and may everything be smooth sailing. :)

Not bothering about school when everyone is in the midst of bidding and preparing for school feels surreal and a bit weird. Like not having to check which SRs/CRs where I'll be having class. yadayadayadayada...

had a great end of the year with more food. *I really should go and exercise more. Gym or swims anyone?* Stayover cum movie marathon with Gassy gals... Gosh.... I love you all!!! and I wanna watch Death Note 2 soon... errr... Watching The Holiday which was fine, but not fantastic. As in it's just sweet and nice, one of those feel-good movies... not epics like whatever...

Hmmm... Hols will be ending soon for most people. Looking back, it's been one of my most relaxing and enjoyable hols. I set out before exams with a list of things to do during this hols.

Things like:
1) Fix my lousy phone's keypad

2) Get a job

3) Pack my room

4) Swim more

5) watch full house

6) Watch youtube

7) Finish my internship report. (Yes, Val and Zhumei... I haven't done it YET!) It was due like erm... a couple of months back.

According to my list, here's what happened to the items:
1) Haven't fixed it yet cause I would have ot send my phone to the 'hospital' for 3 days. Need to find 3 days where I don't mind using a lousy standby phone. Maybe when school reopens.

2) Well, I did manage to get a job. So at least that's done. Work ahead...

3) Nope.. my notes are still not filed up. Does clearing up my cupboard (to make way for new clothes) count?

4) No thanks to the weather, didn't spend much time swimming. None at all in fact.

5) Watched half of episode 1 of full house. I think I should really bring it with my to Switzerland to while away any free time I may have. (Later I end up not watching at all! Hahaha...)

6) Spent a grand total of one night youtubing. (which is rather little I would say. Maybe I just have the knack of doing the wrong things at the wrong time. like trying to watch Goong in the midst of the school term with projects and papers piling up or watching xman when I have papers due.)

7) What internship report? Wahahahas... (I shall try to do it before school reopens)

What else did I do?

Went eating at Amoy Street food centre with Meiju and Baoqin. Walked to Maxwell Food Market and went to the stall where I fried our own ham jim bang. Except well, I got a bit freaked out by the oil. It was freaking BLACK lar!!! And I like the sweet potato balls.

Hmmm... Royalties! We can go there and eat one day!!! A lot of food! Maybe we can finally do our food hunt!

Attended a couple of 21st bday parties.

Reconnected with the inner singer in me. Hahaha... ktv session (note: no plural.) Wanna add an 'S' to it before school reopens? And singing carols...

OOohh.. Met up with the gassy gals many many times. nice nice~!~ Makes me realise how little we meet up during school term. It's really nice being with you girls. It's been like 9 years since Sec 1 Truth. Cooking and baking at Mabel's house, shopping for Mabel's present. Today's Boxing Day shopping. Sitting and talking.

Hahaha.. Yeah.. I went shopping today. I got a nice new pair of shoes. I think I have been buying a lot of shoes. Or rather, i usually just buy shoes when I go out. hurhurhur. Saw a nice black dress today. But dun really have a good occassion to wear them. SO nevermind. Shall save up. Cause I'm meeting up with more people in the next few days. Haha...

Oh yeah.. and not forgetting my trip to Hong Kong and Guangzhou. Nice time spent with family!

as the year draws to a close... here's looking forward to the next...

Merry Christmas!

Been out the last few days. Went for Sam's party on the 22nd. Us vjchoir people started singing Christmas carols. Yes.... in SATB and all. It was warm. A sense of familiarity. And well, you just don't forget some things like lyrics. melody and stuff though they were a bit rusty. I miss singing.

and yeah.. I got myself hooked onto mapling again. :) teeheehee...

Started watching youtube again last night.

What else but Xman and more Xman. Caught episode 62 which was the World Cup special in Germany with Shinhwa as guests. I finally appreciate why so many people are in love with them. Me heart Eric!

Anyway, as usual, I was all cracked up over the episodes. They. were. hilarious. My mum thought I was having fits or something when I started howling with laughter.

And then I watched episode 69 with DBSK (Dong Bang Shin Ki) or TVXQ (Tong Vfang Xien Qi) which is another Korean group.

*drools... * another 5 cute guys... who are all like 20 years old!!!

And I like him...

Hero, Kim Jae Joong

Planning for my imminent exchange gives me this little rush of excitement. The thought of being almost all alone, far away from friends and family for at least 3 months. part of me can't wait, while part of me is thinking of the different possibilities. There is this whole feeling of apprehension and excitement bubbling in side me now.

Maybe I am too ambitious, wanting to go to almost everywhere. Sigh... I wish I have more times. Also, thinking when I should book my return flight back. It's like... I will move out of my hostel on 15th July. So how long do I want to spent lugging my huge luggage around? 2 weeks? or 3? or more? Well, I have like until late August - before school starts. But I do need to settle back in Singapore.

Have been spending the last couple of hours looking at course outlines to look at the courses I am interested in taking, trying to look at air ticket prices, thinking if I should apply for hostel card and stuff. So near yet so far. Most of the friends I know going on exchange will be leaving end of this month or early next month.

Next task: To plan travel plans...

On another random note, I wish it would stop raining soon. Just as soon as the skies start clearing, the rain comes pouring down. It's been a wet day. Nice day to sleep in, and yet, I had ot go out. But I do like the chilly feeling. :)

I think I'm finally done with the preparation for tomorrow's event. :)

Tomorrow, or rather, in a few hours time, SMU Rotaract will be going down to conduct a one day fun and experiential learning workshop for a group of children. The last few days were spent preparing/buying logs.

Oh ya.. was also busy looking for wings for Mabel's themed birthday celebration which was held at Mind Cafe yesterday! Shall update later... (Yeah.. I think I owe like 2 entries liaoz)

Am falling in love with F.I.R.'s not-so-recent album. I didn't like their 2nd one cause I thought it was too similar to their first one. But this one surprised me with the different types of song. And I think Faye (the lead) is super pretty. Hahaha...

Haven't really been updating myself with the latest in music. at this rate, I'll end up being stuck in my 1990s-early 2000s music. Wonder how it will be when I go overseas next year. Hmmm... 4 months without keeping track of new songs? I mean like ya... I will go check out albums online. But I think I get introduced to songs more during ktv sessions. Hahaha...

Also looking forward to buying Hacken Lee's Concert Hall 2 album as well. And heez... maybe his concert VCD/DVD.

oooh.. and I'm getting a kick out of trying the new 'Label' thingee from Blogger.

It's 6:30 am. I am either a super early waker of a dan later sleeper right? Unfortunately, neither. I had trouble sleeping half the night. I dunno if it's the coffee or if it's the slight indigestion I'm feeling. Sigh...

I've been tossing and turning for hours. Managing ro catch like a it of sleep then waking up to longer periods of tossing and turning. Shall try and sleep now.

Hmmm... lack of updates. I've just been majorly chilling. Waking up late, playing computer games, slacking, catching Doha games highlights...

Got back results of 3 of my 4 mods... Heh... happy with them. :)

Other than that, I may be potentially starting a job soon, Mabel's 21st this weekend. Something on here, there, everywhere... and I still haven't started on youtube craz-ing yet...

I am BACK!!!

HAhaha... Will post pics and stories later...

THE TERM IS OVER!!!

At 5.05 this afternoon, i finished my last paper (for the term anyway). My grades are both in the prof's hands... and in Whoever-I-believe-in's hands. And I truly believe in miracles.

Just 24 hours ago at 9:36 PM on 30th Nov, I was sitting in a swivel chair in SR 2.2, consolidating my social cognition stuff. Integrating and reading 24 articles and/or mini reports, trying to understand and remember all of them was kinda pure hell. I'm thinkful for study groups. I don't know what would have happened to my social cog today if we did not discuss it.

Left school at 11, had a late late dinner... and then... at 12, MUG HCM! I barely touched it during the study week cause I was doing up a social cog paper and other stuff. YOu can imagine the state I was in. Head swarming with social cognition stuff, methodology of the studies, and still trying to cram in recruitment methods, selection process, interviews and what nots for a 40% paper!!!

I could have DIED!!!

Thanks to all out there who listened to me whine, your smses/hugs/wishes brightened up my day and it did help me survive 2 papers today! Awww... *BIG HUG* I really really appreciate having all of you around...

And I believe in miracles cause I could actually do the HCM paper. Woohoo! NEver again am I going to be so last min. :) I promise myself.

Lastly, I love you Fran!!! For your nice present... and also, for coming early to tell me about Training and Development methods. If not, I could never have done that question! YOu are a good spotter!!!

Hahaha... as I am half packed for Hongkong, I think I shall leave this post as it is now. Will update more when I get back. 1 glorious month of holiday~!~

It's the middle of the exam week... I just finished 1 paper. 1 more this evening, and last 2 on Friday... I have nothing to blog about. Except perhaps for how I went to Starbucks to study today and was productive for a couple of hours.

My life revoles round mugging, drifting off, forcing myself to mug, playing games after a while, drifting off and going to sleep nowadays. Great~!~

My mind is a wandering... Hong Kong, new games, planning for exchange... oh.. and I'm hungry...

Heh... more self-amusement times...

Learn Chinese In 5 Minutes
directions: read these outloud

I think you need a facelift
Chin Tu Fat

Are you hiding a fugitive?
Hu Yu Hai Ding?

See me A.S.A.P.
Kum Hia Nao

Stupid Man
Dum Gai

Small Horse
Tai Ni Po Ni

Did you go to the beach?
Wai Yu So Tan?

I bumped into a coffee table
Ai Bang Mai Ni

It's very dark in here
Wai So Dim

This is a tow away zone
No Pah King

You are not very bright
Yu So Dum

I got this for free
Ai No Pei

I am not guilty!
Wai Hang Mi?

Please stay a while longer
Wai Go Nao?

They have arrived
Hai Dei Kum.

Stay out of sight
Lei Lo

He's cleaning his automobile
Wa Sing Ka.

Your body odor is offensive
Yu Stin Ki

I thought you were on a diet?
Wai Yu Mun Ching?

Heh... can't help but post this. I *heart* Yoon Eun Hye. Shucks... going through this 'everything is better than studying' phase... Thus... youtubing...

Tired. Still in the midst of writing my last paper due on Fri. *Biiiiiig SIGH* and trying to study. (Note: trying is the keyword here) Not very productive on the studying front as well... Better do sth about it soon.

Looking forward to 1st Dec 4pm! and the rest of the glorious holiday!

Good luck with mugging for all those out there with exams! Then its time to play play play!

*groan... yes again...* Someone.. remind me why I came to SMU again. For project work? TO rush tons of papers hours before the deadlines?

Been thinking/reflecting the past few hours. Ever since I came across a commentary by someone I worked with over the term. Well, for one, I dun exactly relish being called an unfortunate groupmate.. thank you very much.

But what's over is over. I don't regret much of what I have done. Maybe this could have come out right from the start. I'm not a mind reader. And I'm not obliged to check in with everyone even though I try to. Instead of these misunderstandings/ miscommunications that popped up. Perhaps its the whole notion of working with friends I had. Maybe there were too much instances of trying to accomodate each other and trying to work well with everyone.

*groan*

I'm not surprised, but feeling a little indignant.

Study...

3 papers down... 1 more to go. This is such a hellish week. Ok.. projected tome for end of paper was wrong.. I finished.. at like 1700h.. Just right to hand in on time. Wahahahahas...

I shall resolve to hand in my Social Cog paper early...

Really cutting it close this sem. Rushing papers till the wee mornings, printing and handing them in minutes before the deadline. Actually, its just this week. 1 more paper to be delivered by 1700h today.

Estimated time of completion: 1500h. *crosses fingers*

After that... Weekend eo finish my last paper followed by Sakae buffet on Mon! Mugging from Tues to Sun, exams on Mon, Wed and Fri. Sat... OFF TO HONGKONG!!! :) :) :)

I feel like I'm in the eye of a tornado.. All's calm now. I'm lounging in a louge. (hurhurhur), listening to nice music. and just chilling.

Ahhh... bliss... before rushing more paers. 2 more papers on Fri, one more next week. Then exams exams exams...

It's 5.38am.. Yeah.. AM!!! You read correctly. I think I'm a bit screwed...

I got a paper due at like 12 noon... and I'm still merrily typing away and gosh... I'm not even halfway there. This is procrastination to the MAX!!! Actually, I dun think I procrastinated. For lack of anything, words elude me tonight. it is taking me eons to get the phrasing done to convey what I want to say. Maybe my brain is clouding from the lack of sleep. I dunno..

That said, I'm quite happy with my research and the ideas for my paper. I shall attempt to finish it soon... Aim: 7am?

Then again, I kinda enjoy the working through the night feelings. Except my brain seems to be protesting. Sigh... What to do? Wake up gillian... Time to kick some ass!!!

I think i was a type B+ personality when I stepped into SMU... :(

Look what 2 years got me...

You Have A Type A- Personality

You are one of the most balanced people around Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you. When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love! You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

Another week has gone by.

Deadlines looming, presentations to prepare for and the dreaded finals in 3 weeks. Ahhhh...

Energy level at an all time low.. I dunno why. No motivation to do work even though there are projects/essays to be completed. I long for the time I can just stay at home and rot... Sometimes, I would rather be in a decomposing pile with flies hovering around me than having to drag myself off to school...

I want to watch the Prestige. Anyone interested?

I kinda finished speed watching Goong on Youtube. well, considering that I only watched a quarter of Ep 1, then like half of Episode 11 and 12. And then I jumped to 13 and watched till 15. And then I watched 20 to 24. Not bad huh?

At first, it was kinda sweet... then as it got draggier and draggier... and how Shin and Chaegyung kept misunderstanding each other even though it was blardy obvious they liked each other. It got a bit irritating... cause there will be this awww... sweet moment.. and then they end up fighting the next. Plus the politicking sucks...

And Yul... so cute... so innocent. and I felt so sad when he confessed to everything even though most of it was not his doing. But ahhh... even though I think Yul is cuter, but I like Shin a lot more. His melancholic brooding *heart melts*... and Chaegyung is so cute! Hahaha.. and pretty.

In the end, I was watching cause I just wanted to watch the happy ending. Hahaha...

I'm tired. I want to go home.

I can't.

Make up class.

Exhausted, Fatigued

Halloween party. not going.

It's freaky. I didn't check my mail for like from 10 this morning till like just and I got 38 new mails. Bah.. endless spamming...

P1: Everything on the Internet is a the public domain.
P2: A non-privatised blog is put on the internet
C: The non-privatised blog is on a public domain

if it is a private blog, privatised it!

Just some AS thoughts and comments after reading about blogging issues.

it's been a while...

Sports Awards Night is done and over. A great experience, I think Yishan's, Damon's and my heart stopped a few times that night when there were unexpected glitches while the programme was running. Playing with music, lights, mic running out of battery. Yet, when the confetti gun was popped at around 930pm that night, the feelings were overwhelming.

Ok.. there was the 'OMG! It's over feeling', the 'Thank God we survived... (and pretty well I think)', the 'Yay! It's finally over!' and the 'Shit! How are we supposed to clear up all the confetti?'

But it wsa a good working experience.

Sat.. I slept my day away. Make up for the lack of sleep ma...

After that, life pretty much settled into a routine. Work work and more work...

There is a first time for everything.

I'm still in school at 2.41am!!! Wahahhas... No.. not crazy, not staying over. I'm leaving school at like 2.50 am. and I have a 830 class tomorrow.

Well, rehearsal for Sports awards Night went ok.. but stayed back to clear a million and one things so that tmr won't screw up. Hahaha... tataz...

I have a horrifyingly short attention span. Have bee ntrying to write my DMA report since 7. And it's not that I'm not writing it, but I'm spending more time clicking around and on irrelevant stuff before like typing a few lines here and there.

Waking up at 7 to do work is quite a nice feeling actually. Really. Plus the fact that there is a deadline breathing down my neck. But hey.. as long as I get it in today, anything goes right? Hahaha...

Good thing is I looked through the results and know what I want to put into my report. Thus, it's only piecing them together. Bad news... I realised I'm a big big big procrastinator. I got the assignment 2 weeks ago. and yet, i chose to do it last minute. What's new?

MSN has been logging me in and out.

Struggling to do my lab report. And i didn't bring my PA manual to school. So I don't really know what to add in.

*chants* After Friday... After Friday... After Friday... After Friday...

Decided to overhaul my skin. Yeah.. sth like my 'annual' spring cleaning. Can't remember when I last changed it though.

A far cry from the last one which was bright and cheery. But I like this one. It screams dark, it gives me the impression of being deep in thought, pondering over the complexities of life? Yet, it is not something that is sad or sombre. and I like the sphere thingee in the pic. Oh.. and I tried something with my comments thingee. Added a picture. Except that is comes out too big. Do let me know if you would prefer me to remove it.

不知不觉，我已经 blog 了三年多。时间过得真快。看回以前写的东西，不禁笑了起来。 刚开始写时，我还在读高二。那时还是要面临会考。太久没和华文字联络了。写了以上几句也觉得曼辛苦的。Forget it! I should just back and do Mandarin 101 or sth.

Anyway, those were the days when I was still logging into ICQ!!! Blogged about the finals of Choir competition, and cheering when tuition got cancelled (I noticed I blogged about it at least twice, guess it showed how much i dreaded physics). Those were the days I woke up at 10 to study and I considered that late! Hahaha... memories...

Somehow, I think I have the knack of doing the wrong things at the wrong time.

I don't feel like doing my work.

And I am packed till end of term break week.

bye bye term break. :(

Today is my declared 'Stay at home' day. Actually technically not since I'll be going out for dinner to celebrate my sis' bday. But it's still better than nothing.

It's getting increasingly difficult to grab those few precious hours to myself. I went to bed at 12 last night. and woke up at like 10 plus 11? Hmmm.. must be trying to clear all that sleep debt accumulated from Social Science Retreat.

Over the weekend, I felt as if I didn't have control of my life. I was just at specific place at specific times due to prior commitments, responsibility and what not. Driving on Sat afternoon which I booked for some time ago. Yeah.. I went out despite the stupid PSI hitting 150. and had a horrendous driving lesson which eroded whatever confidence I felt prior to my test.

after that, it was nua-ing a bit at home. and for overlooking the fact that Meiju's concert started at 7 instead of 730. So ya.. I was still happily packing my bag when Qinny called to asked where I was. Dragged myself for the concert, but I didn't regretted it. Hearing the original compositions by Paul, Eugene, 9K and Junjie... I felt a tinge of regret that mine wasn't up there. But I know that if I had tried to rush it, I would have been unable to juggle that many things. Oh well, "On a Whim' may be truly finished some time in future. But I never regretted going for the course. Met nice people, and learnt a lot. When your dreams were about to become reality, it just feel so surreal. To find out that my composition would actually be played at a concert. But it was too little too late. And i didn't have the energy to push through.

And then... Social Science Retreat. It was absolutely rocking fun! I feel that the Society will be in VERY good hands judging from the people who were there. They had so much heart! And truly, we have branded Social Science as a very 'family-oriented' faculty. To hear all 9 applicants who were there saying the same thing. I had this wild thought to even cancel my driving test to stay on for their 2nd day of teambuilding activities. This was how much I heart them. Yeah.. thankfully, my dearest social science gals talked me out of it.. Hahaha.. Yeah.. must have been a bit too crazy after the lack of sleep and the exhausting activities.

"SSS Love" (Share the Shit, Spread the LOVE!)

Monday.. driving test... I thank everyone for your calls, messages and wishes. I just felt so warm. :) And then.. yada yada.. I'm sure half the world knows i've passed now. And the thing is, I haven't even set foot into the family car yet. Sigh...

And then.. after meetings yesterday, today, I'm at home. With two projects and a proposal to be done by tomorrow. Oh well.. let me bask in the feeling of slacking for a while more. Ok.. that's what I've been doing from the time I woke up till now.

and then... to look forward, Switzerland next year. part of me is so so excited, I really wanna hop on a plane over now. On the other hand, it's a shitload of money. New experiences to try out, new places to go. Planning for trips to other countries, to visit friends in Europe. I'm worried I can't pull it off. It's just so exciting!

Let's see where I wanna go...
Austria
UK/Scotland
Eastern Europe (Poland, Czech Republic-Prague and Hungary-Budapest)
France - Paris and Normandy?
and definitely Venice!, throwing in Rome/Vatican City.

and I heard that Belgium is nice too, plus Barcelona and not to mention, to travel around Switzerland.

Ok.. I really seriously need loads of moolah to pull this off! Maybe I need a sugar daddy. Hahahaha... or to seriously work my ass off from Dec to Feb. :) I guess I'll choose the latter.

I PASSED MY DRIVING!!!

After the 3rd time... YEAH!!!

Ok.. my left leg cramped a bit.. so i couldn't really control a bit. And the testor's comment was like... "very jerky, clutch control not very good". Hahaha... And my test-route changed cause of some construction/road works. So I ended up on a slope half the time. and did quite a fair bit of using handbrake and stuff...

And 2 driving school cars stalled in front of me!

And I went for Sharon's 21st after that! Good food, great company. Thanks Sharon!

And I came home.. and spent 2 hours clearing emails.. Just drafting mails, replying, deletingstuff.. whatever.. Sianz...

Term break week doesn't really feel like term break week. It just seems like a week without lessons, but life in school still goes on with people doing events and stuff. I'm too tired to be coherent...

a long weekend ahead. 2 reports to email to proj group mates, a 3D 2 N retreat in a couple of hours time, Meiju's concert (all the best gal!), not to mention sth big happening on Monday.

I see my break week shaping up.. with project meetings and stuff. Shall keep at least 1 day free to nua at home. :) Let's see how possible it is.

I. hate. politics. miscommunication. and. inefficiency.

Most of all, I hate being stuck in the middle of a combination of the above 3... 'nuff said.

I don't feel like dragging myself to school...

Class in 35 mins...

*after reading 2 happy posts... I think I'll post sth about the long long lunch I had at Sakae on Monday.*

I thought I would take a nap before embarking on my social cognition articles. But no... The world was dead to me until 830 this morning. But it was a good sleep. More than what I've had for the past 2 days.

It's interesting how people in my generation (as opposed to my parent's generation) have grown up and lived with computer terms like pdf, blog, spyware, html... It's like... automatically, we would open pdf files with adobe, navigate though webpages with ease, change codes... whatever. Was helping my dad with his work just now. And he was puzzled as to why his pdf file came out gibberish in Word. and I didn't know how to explain because it seemed 'duh'. But then looking back, my parents did not have the luxury of growing up with a computer. Hell.. I dun think computers were invented yet or was produced for the mass market until much later. In fact, if my memory serves me correctly, the first computer was this srt of equipments which took up one whole room in UPenn. :) (credits to intro psych)

Just thought it'll be interesting to blog this observation down. If I ever decide to read thru my archives when I'm 50 years old, maybe I can appreciate why my kids would be staring at me, shaking their heads at what I thought is an innocent question when it's all that they have grown up with.

School side... Awards Night coming up in 2 weeks. A almost non-existent break next week. But I'll really like to go back to St Nicks. (What morning/afternoon can NUS ppl make it? Fri?). A trip to settlers? KTV? and interperse that with research for individual papers, meetings to beat deadlines and Awards Night rehearsals.

tired tired tired. I can't believe its week 7 already. I'm blogging in school and going off in a while cause my mum just screamed at me for staying so late. I have meetings to do, stuff to clear and once I go home, I'll most prob hit my bed.

Reason being I slept very little last night. And when Gillian does not get enough sleep, she is easily irritated by the slightest things, go manically crazy when talking to her friends and cannot think coherently. and that explains why I'm still in school.

Had fun chatting with Val and Zhumei... just like the old times at PA. questioning, grilling. Wahahahas... let's meet up soon again

Thanks to all who heard me whine today. And for the two sparks that brightened up my day immediately while attempting a 3-way conference call. It. was. hilarious. And I immediately felt much much better and cheerier!