I walked into a 830 am class at 9 am last Friday! Bah.. I totally didn't hear my alarm go off at all... and I jumped out of bed at 8.40... Luckily my dad was home to give me a ride down to school, thus incurring i-dunno-how-much worth of ERP. Surcharges i nthe morning is damn ex espeicially when your school is in town. Luckily I didn't take a cab. (or maybe I couldn't even find one if I wanted to since it was PEAK period - think of the $2 morning surcharge plus i dunno... 2 plus 3 for ERP. It has to be as ex as my cab ride!)

Anyway, had a packed weekend... Let's start off with Fri... or maybe Thurs... or maybe Wed... Bleahz! My days all gel into one another so much that I can't seem to differentiate them. I feel as if I'm having like full days... Cause my classes are usually at 12, and then I'll stay in school till late.. like 9 plus 10. Wlecome to my life~!~

Sat.. had to wake up bright and early in the morning to go bowling with kids from Gracehaven - a Salvation army home on a Rotaract community service event. It was (for lack of a better word) - eye-opening. I didn't know how to react to the kids there. They look so young, yet they are there for a reason.

I see a future in those girls and really wanna help them, but I'm afraid to commit to the cause.
I want to spend more time with them, get to know them yet am afraid of building long-term and stronger bonds.

Am i cut out to 'counsel' them? Is that what I want for my future job? To help people move on in society? Then again, am I that '伟大'? It is something that one does not get paid a lot, not much recognition, but a job that will bring about much satisfaction?

What about job prestige? Salary and the likes? Do I have such a 'caring' persona or issit just a done on a whim, a spur of the moment thing because of what I saw on Sat?

Anyway, went for Be*Dazzled, the acapella concert at night. Cool! Really really makes me feel like performing again. and well, Juz B was there... with screaming teenage fans... :) made me feel like I'm in a SuperBand recording or sth... Going for concerts just makes me realise how much I miss performing on stage. Now, even if I want to, I'm also not sure what I can do, how I do it.

And this is what makes choosing a certain path in life so scary. It's an unknown risk cause different paths leads ot different outcomes. And this is what makes my decision to do on exchange even scarier. What doors does this exchange open up for me? and what have I given up for it?

ponder ponder... check back this blog in 10 years time and maybe you'll find the answer...

Discovered sth interesting... Was looking at the lyrics of 心雨 online from mtv123 and i nthe 3rd line of the chorus, it's "雷云盖明星更伤的牵挂 "

But when I checked the actual lyrics, it's "泪晕开明信片上的牵挂"

I changed my mind... 退后 is my fav song now.

And my tagboard is becoming a "Which Jay Chou song from his new album do you like?" discussion. But nice nice! No regrets buying the album... :)

Photobucket is down.. and so my picts dun appear as they should...

Doing my internship report... and meeting sstarting liao.. tatas...

OOoh... MSN is down...

After slacking for well.. 3 days plus, it's sch again! And well... I'm hooked onto Jay Chou's album. Haven't managed to lay my hands on it, but I'm so glad there is streaming!

Here's my fav song (so far)... Love the melody and chorus...

心雨

小小的绿叶芽
白色的竹篱笆
好想告诉我的她
这里像幅画

去年的圣诞卡
镜子里的复杂
画面开始没有她
我还在装傻 噢

说好为我泡花茶
学习白道茶
学生宿舍空荡荡的家
守着电话却等不到她

心里的雨倾盆的下
也沾不湿她的发
雷云盖明星更伤的牵挂
那伤心原来没有时差

心里的雨倾盆的下
却始终淋不到她
寒风经过院子里的稚芽
也冷却了我手中的鲜花

Basically, this post is just to say that I am alive and kicking... and I'm going to Switzerland!

I'm feeling miserable today.

I dunno why. I just feel positively miserable. Must be a mood swing. or not enough sleep.

Whatever... Need to get thru a (long) meeting, and loads of work waiting for me... sigh...

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Anyway, my dilemma is more or less solved. I'll just accept whatever that comes (most probably) and work my ass off this sem. And I'll just leave everything as it is. Plus my mum is willing to support me for an extra sem if I die die have to do it. So most of my probs are solved...

Why do I always end up having to think of so many things? Is there sth wrong with me or ewhat I want? Should I just heck it or sth?

My dreams, my future, or my sanity and exchange?

Meanwhile, school has been busy...

Tons of readings (and yes.. I' mreally doing my readings this sem), (almost) weekly assignments, and well.. meeting to plan for stuff...

There's Awards Night and acad stuff for Soci... but feel motivated to do them. Yeah!

I hate having to make decision that will affect my life! Too many of them sucks!

First week of school is great! Ok.. the not so great thing is I'm spending a BOMB on books! Bah! $40 for a Human Resource text, and I heard... 85 for another module. Cause there are 2 books. Anyone bought some APA manual and would like to sell me?

Classes are basically introductions, I don't have to stay in school for project meetings yet...

And i'm happy spending time with frens... Slacking in the library.

But a library is not exactly an ideal place to slack... If given a choice, I would slack at home. But...

Actually, I'm rotting in the library cause I got a briefing session at 7 and I have 4 hours to kill cause my class ended at 3. And I'm bored cause I got nth to do in the library! So i start disturbing ppl on msn...

I like Psych courses! you go into class and know almost the whole class in there! Whoo!

p.s.: I think I'm going ot break my own record.. I'm have blogged for 3 consecutive days!

You know school has started when...

You get tons of spam from the various CCAs advertising something or another
The concourse is packed with people
The empty Kopitiam is bursting with life and you can't find a seat
You go into a seminar room and see a prof in front of you
You have to wake up early to make it to 830 class
You see people queuing at Verts to sell their books

I'm listening to my music, typing away at my com... with another 5 hours to rot away. Lalala... can arrange photos and maybe blog.. and yeah.. do internship report...

Today... school starts.

I'm still undecided over whether I should concentrate on a double major or single-major-plus-track (some new stuff offered by SMU) degree. One will according to my parents and other people, give me more marketability on the job market and will be more beneficial. The other gives me a chance to take things slow and in my opinion will help me more in trying to pull up my GPA cause I won't have to do so many modules every semester.

What can an OBHR major do for me when I can also take on extra OBHR courses but without having to squeeze that many in to qualify for a double major. think think...

I'm being eaten alive by mosquitos in my own home. It's sad. Really. I woke up at 2 am last night with at least 8 red welts all over me. And like 3 on my fingers... Like 'itch itch itch.. scratch scractch scratch...'. But mozzies are quite smart creatures. They disappear after feasting on blood - cause I couldn't catch any last night.

I feel unprepared for school. Need to clear stuff on my laptop, the book-buying craze begins... and I got a million things to blog.. Ok.. maybe 3... The Genting trip and Yuanshan's bday and Sentosa! Woohoo!

And I think I'm too lazy to queue at Verts to sell my book.. so... wadever.. they can rot for one more sem in my cupboard.

Pens out, games aside.. it's time to start a muggery term!

Gillian still cannot drive! :( Well, on public roads that it. and before I start a lengthy post ranting on pompous testers who are pain in the you-know-where, well, I'm kinda over it. I will make it on my next try. and in true honesty, I'm in a little bit of a rush cause I'm suppose to meet some friends soon, but I'm still lounging at home. But I just thought I needed to get this off my chest.

I suddenly feel overwhelmed. It is the effect of taking on too many things on not delivering. I try to ignore the emails sent, but I can't do anything about the nagging guilt growing somewhere inside of me.

I took them on because I enjoyed them, but juggling so many things with internship was no joke I realised. That and my penchant for fun. after today, things will be back on track I promise. My composition (if you all will still want it) and the proposal will all be done these 2 days.

and yes, I realised I have 3 sets of photos sitting prettily on my desk. It will be uploaded soon too.

I'm back!

So many things happened in these 2 weeks. And I think I've been eating thru these 2 weeks. Let's see...

It was Angie's birthday on the 2nd... and we had a cake with 21 candles, a bottle of beer and 5 other drinks between us.

5th.. Meet up with Char, Da and Yeesh @ Marina Sq Cartel in the afternoon. I didn't know Cartel changed to table service (ie: they will take ur orders and serve you water and bread. Actually, I would much prefer cutting my own bread.. wadever...) Errr... we just sat there for hours and talked. Updates, complains, whinings, funny stuff.. wadever...

after that, it was rush to Yishun for Angie's bday party? gathering? Loads of food, yummy mango cake. Last minute writing of card with an interesting message. Hope you like the presents!

Eh... then Genting trip on 8th night. Was in school for the Singapore Guitar Quartet concert. It was good. :) The concert showcased pieces by Robert Luse who is a very good guitarist himself. I'm very glad to have met him while doing a course. A very grandfatherly-liked old man. :)

And because of the Fireworks frestival, there was this terrible jam along my school. Sigh man... I left school at 9 and had to be at Golden Mile by 945! Luckily my dad came to pick me from school. Rushed home, checked that everything was packed and then it was off to pick Siyi up from Little India and to Golden Mile...

Looked for our bus, got on and we began the trip to Genting! Woo hoo! My first time there I think. The last time I went, I was only 1.5 yrs old or sth. Can't exactly remember anything. Stopped at Customs, chop passport... then it was all the way up! There was quite a lot of room on the bus as it was a 26-seater. But can't beat the comforts of your own bed lar. Changed position every few hours... Reached Genting at 5 plus.. and it was food, themepark, more food from then on. Shall talk more with photos later...

Then Fri was my last day at work. Got a cushion and my colleagues treated me to lunch at this cafe-liked place near Bugis. Not too bad lar...

Today.. Yuanshan's birthday. We finally got our quan2 jia1 fu2 after many many many months... Good food, nice company.. what more can I ask for?

The week ahead looks pretty packed too...

Tmr... Rotaract installation. Will be in school the whole day.

Driving from Mon to Wed...

Thursday! PA interns outing!! Wahahhas.. can't wait to have a day of Sand, Sun @ Sentosa!

Let's talk about doping in sports.

Ok.. I don't exactly play sports, but I am quite an avid follower of sporting events from Olympics to World Cup and of various sports like Tennis, F1, soccer or whatever... and ya.. I caught bits and pieces of the Tour de France - the cycling thingee.

Floyd Landis, who won this year's Tour de France after a remarkable come back (he outcycled th rest by 8 minutes on an ardous mountain climb) has been revealed to have an unusually high level of testosterone in his urine sample after that particular stage. And now, he is labelled a cheat and stuff... It's like from hero to zero? What's the point of having all those accolades and congratulatory message written about you when you won the Tour when it is all revealed ot be a farce after that?

Yeah... his lawyers and publicist claim someone is out to set him up. Conspiracy theories flying here and there. Even if they've managed to clear him on this, there is always a shadow of a doubt there. and if someone wants to really sabotage you, then you must have screwed him damn badly for him to do sth so vindictive towards you. Later they just get a scapegoat to take the blame or sth.

The (only) other explanation: the lab who did the testing screwed up. Really no idea man.. waiting for the 2nd urine sample to be tested.

Another doping news.. Justin Gaitlin, the Olympics 100m sprint champion and current joint world record holder tested positive for some other drugs... Like... there goes his career... (maybe he did make enough money to retire comfortably.. but with a tarnished reputation?)

Doping is not uncommon in sports. In a bid to get fitter, stronger, better, many of them turn to drugs so that But what makes the atheletes think they can get away with it? I mean i still think they are damn stupid esp if they know the labs are definitely going to test for certain banned substance.

Ah well.. enough of my ramblings... this just needed some sort of air time. :)

I can't believe its over!

So much wonderful memories, glorious feelings. Seeing the realisation of sth that you had a hand in planning, coping with last mins screw ups, walking to the library at 3 am in the middle of the night to print stuff for camp the next day - and thanks to the guards who allowed us in to print our stuff.

First time doing programmes for such a large scale, saw, learnt, experienced a lot. It was quite a foreign task to me. Details, logistics, and most importantly, creative juices for coming up of games and other stuff. Juggling internship and planning... (tt's why internship is such a hindrance)

During the freshmen challenge, I literally burst with pride. At the fight we put up, at the spirit we showed. I felt so damn proud of them at tha point. It was emotionally overwhleming. Maybe I was running on adrenaline, but the feeling was shiok! :)

Glad that everything fell into place. though there will always be improvements. When it ended, I was overwhelmed once again. Not wanting to believe that everything you planned for has been executed well, everyone had a good time and that you don't have to bother about staggering bathing times or clues or games or wet weather like forever. :)


Quote of the day: "I learnt that sex sells... *cue cheers and laughs* but gay sex sells better" ~ Chiching at her closing speech.

2 more days to orientation... Details to finalise, packing of logs tomorrow...

and most importantly, churning out my clues for my activity. First time planning programme for a camp... Not to mention being in charge of programmes for a 2 day 1 night camp. Learnt a lot from more creative friends who have prior experience.

Meanwhile, I have been extended at my internship for another 2 weeks. The only problem is I don't think i did ask for an extension, nor was I given a choice whether to extend or not. That's a long story for another day. And I think I've whined enough of it to my friends already.

I'm hooked onto this CD I picked up over the weekend. It's by this Broadway singer by the name of Lee Lessack. It's actually a compilation of duets of him and different singers. Very beautiful songs. and I'm rather obsessed with one of those online game thingee called Gold Digger/Miner? Whatever...

And I cut my hair... It's short... and coloured it golden brown (according to the guy).

back to preparing for my game...

I've never felt so irritated in a while... Was told by my supervisor that I may not be able to leave until 13th Aug for this stupid internship. Cause they want all the interns to leave at the same time. But it is not my fault that my dept requested for an intern till 31st July only what. So now it is up to OCS to trash it out... OCS says I'm right lar... but...

The bad news is I just looked at the letter of offer that i signed. Somehow, the period was till 13th Aug. I have no idea why I didn't see that initially. Bah! How??? I have evil plans to hand in slip-shod work, give her a black face whenever I see her, pon a feedback session that is compulsory and stuff... or maybe I should just tell her I booked a holiday. Wahahahs.. talk about lying thru my teeth. But then again, I think I'm too nice to show my displeasure. So... stuck at work for another 2 weeks? I'll probably end up taking 5 days of leave .I DON'T CARE! I booked my driving lessons already. They cannot stop me! If not.. I'll just take MC or sth. YESh! I'm freaking pissed now!!! Not as if I feel particularly useful lor. I want cheap labour or what?

Ok.. before the booboo was discovered yesterday, I had a nice week. Went to Wanling's place for BBQ on Mon to celebrate her 21st! I like the watch! :)

Tues.. Dinner at Rice Table. Thank you Ade for the treat!!! Really miss going out with you all. It's like... multiple conversations, crappy stuff, funny stuff. I haven't felt so happy in weeks. hahaha...

Wed... I went out to do survey.. at Eunos.. which was full of cats. It got a bit freaky.

Thurs... I know I didn't go home.. but I can't remember what I did... Oh.. Dinner with Sharon. and sad to say.. I missed the Acapella Championship thingee at Esplanade. But congrats to Char and Da for coming in 1st! Woo! I'll see you all at Acafast! :) and let's meet up some time in Aug ya?

Fri... went home early. or rather, after work. Bought a whiteboard. Which is sitting/standing mightily in front of me now.

Today.. still slacking. Things to plan and type up. Application for exchang eyet to be done... Orientation stuff to settle. Next week will be a super packed week. Carribbean one day... and then preparation for Fri-Sat's camp. And then.. I really hope I get to leave on 31st! Sob sob...

I've never felt so irritated in a while... Was told by my supervisor that I may not be able to leave until 13th Aug for this stupid internship. Cause they want all the interns to leave at the same time. But it is not my fault that my dept requested for an intern till 31st July only what. So now it is up to OCS to trash it out... OCS says I'm right lar... but...

The bad news is I just looked at the letter of offer that i signed. Somehow, the period was till 13th Aug. I have no idea why I didn't see that initially. Bah! How??? I have evil plans to hand in slip-shod work, give her a black face whenever I see her, pon a feedback session that is compulsory and stuff... or maybe I should just tell her I booked a holiday. Wahahahs.. talk about lying thru my teeth. But then again, I think I'm too nice to show my displeasure. So... stuck at work for another 2 weeks? I'll probably end up taking 5 days of leave .I DON'T CARE! I booked my driving lessons already. They cannot stop me! If not.. I'll just take MC or sth. YESh! I'm freaking pissed now!!! Not as if I feel particularly useful lor. I want cheap labour or what?

Ok.. before the booboo was discovered yesterday, I had a nice week. Went to Wanling's place for BBQ on Mon to celebrate her 21st! I like the watch! :)

Tues.. Dinner at Rice Table. Thank you Ade for the treat!!! Really miss going out with you all. It's like... multiple conversations, crappy stuff, funny stuff. I haven't felt so happy in weeks. hahaha...

Wed... I went out to do survey.. at Eunos.. which was full of cats. It got a bit freaky.

Thurs... I know I didn't go home.. but I can't remember what I did... Oh.. Dinner with Sharon. and sad to say.. I missed the Acapella Championship thingee at Esplanade. But congrats to Char and Da for coming in 1st! Woo! I'll see you all at Acafast! :) and let's meet up some time in Aug ya?

Fri... went home early. or rather, after work. Bought a whiteboard. Which is sitting/standing mightily in front of me now.

Today.. still slacking. Things to plan and type up. Application for exchang eyet to be done... Orientation stuff to settle. Next week will be a super packed week. Carribbean one day... and then preparation for Fri-Sat's camp. And then.. I really hope I get to leave on 31st! Sob sob...

Life is like Jigsaw Puzzle. Think of it as an immense puzzle, or a few different puzzles...

People and things/events come in different shape and sizes. We all try to fit into each other, fit events into our schedules like how the pieces fit into one another.

Why so philosophical? I dunno... but I guess my body is trying to tell me sth when I shut down for 12 hours stright. And I didn't even finish the world cup match. I need a breather. I feel quite choked up with my 'to-do' list.

1. Complete composition
2. Check up on Exchange! *impt impt* or else cannot go
3. Complete this stupid piece of work that my supervisor has been hounding me for eons (yeah.. i'm working on my day off!)
4. Do up logistics list for dry run on Sat
5. Dry run for Orientation on Sat and I havden't planned my game yet!
6. Recce for the above-mentioned game on Thursday!
7. Draft Agreement for PostSecret (oopsie.. will update soon!)

Damn you England...
Stupid Rooney who got himself sent off... and the whole load of you who can't score a goal and just keep blasting the ball and missing penalties!

Nerve wrecking quarter finals between England and Portugal... Portugal won.

and Portugal... I don't like you too!

There is nothing to blog about. Harlow world.. I'm still alive. :)

My take on work...

If I have a choice, I want to stay in school forever. This internship, while interesting at times and slightly beneficial has gotten me thinking A LOT! Given that this is a big organisation I'm working for, I just think that there are many layers to clear before you can do something.

On top of that, I just think that it is very hard to send msg across. Like in school, if you want something done, you would do it yourself if necessary. But in an organisation, you would first have to feedback to the relevant dept, who may/may not pass on the msg and yada yada yada... so...

The thing is I spent weeks doing something, only to run simple tests on them. Or not even test... it is like writing a long and complicated formula with loads of macros only to calculate perhpas what '1+1='. It just seems like a lot of wasted effort. Where are the crunching numbers that I am supposed to interpret? Somehow, this dept simplifies a lot of things I learnt. Which further highlights the difference between school and work. Things are just different. Or maybe I just have this thought that work life is challenging and mind boggling. Right.. I spend one qurter of my time there using my brains and the other three quarters doing brainless work.

I knocked on 20 doors today. Only 6 of them opened. Wahlaoz... I can just so see this line in my internship report.

"I managed to get hands-on experience in doing research as I was sent to conduct a door to door survey."

Yeah... so that was what I was doing in Woodlands for two and a half hours tonight. And did i mention I was in heels cause I went after work?

The good thing? I get tomorrow off... It is fun if more people opend up. At least I won't have to waste time to make another trip there again. Sigheth... Better luck this weekend ba...

Which reminds me this weekend is kinda packed cause I have to go for a blood test and Char's concert. Squeeze in more knocking... and exchange research, completing of composition plus planning programmes for camp and *poof* I can so see my weekend evaporating.

work is tiring... and routine... and mundane... and repetitive...

and there are just so many more adjectives i can use to describe work.

Ok.. plus.. the World Cup is here... so I've been juggling my time between catching matches, or snippets of it, playing Zuma and trying ot get a high score, meetings and dinners with friends after work. Hence, this explains why my blog has been so stagnent.

I mean there is nothign much to blog about work. Don't think you all wanna hear about how I have to do data entry and coding for 7 open ended questions for 1000 over responses. And you won't believe how weird and unbelievable some of the responses can be! and...

Ok.. I guess I just managed to described a bit of my work.

Ya.. and now to a weekend of rotting before the whole routine starts again on Monday...

I realised I haven't updated for eons. Just tired after work. Plus meetings after work, movie outings, renewed interest in maple story together with live telecast of French Open has kinda kept me off the Internet and MSN the past few weeks.

This is actually a rather old post. Wrote it in Wed but blogger wasn’t being cooperative... It didn't let me blog about Da Vinci Code.

Caught Da Vinci Code with Fran earlier… Well, there are instances where I think the pen is mightier than the sword. This was one of it. Perhaps certain things are just more exciting when you read about it happening instead of watching it. Or maybe words just make certain scenes sound better. Maybe it was due to anticipation, thus, the movie felt a little flat. There was no climax. Just like telling a story.

Also, the movie missed out on some explanation, changing a bit of the details here and there. Went for the movie despite the not so good reviews. It was ok I guess. I didn’t really regret because I felt as if I was transported to Europe for 2.5 hours, getting glimpse of the Louvre and other sights.

As for the controversial storyline… well… despite all the protests and calls to ban the film, I would put it down to a work of fiction, by an over-imaginative author, who can put one and one together to make three. Honestly, if people cannot discern between fact and fiction, and as a result, lose faith in their religion after watching the show, it just illustrates that they aren’t really in it.

Hmmm.. I wanna watch XMen 3… and Over the Hedge! Oh… and there’s Pirates 3. I didn’t catch 2.. but 3 looks exciting. Btw, as we were waiting for the movie to start, they showed a trailer for the new James Bond movie. Have to say that I think that Pierce Brosnan looks so much better compared to the new 007. But we shall see…

So many movies.. so little time! Spent Saturday slacking. Was supposed to either go cyclig with Angie or catch a concert with Sharon. Sad to say, I didn't do both... woke up at 1 plus and decided not to go cycling. and I kinda slacked the day away...

It's time to sleep...

Ok.. this is long overdue...

THANKS EVERYONE!

Thanks to all of you who made my 21st such a memorable one. The 2 weekends of revelry, fun...

SMU peeps

St Nicks gals...

Family...

To gassy peeps, thanks for the surprise! and the 'repeat' thingee was super funny.

To a dear friend... SIYI!!!
Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks...

so packed.. so packed...

These 2 weeks have gone by in a flurry. Besides internship... where the work is starting to pick up.

Then on top of that there are tons of things to be done.

There's preparation for the presentation for the Singapore Youth Media Conference on Sat... Classes to attend on Tues nights - which reminds me to start writing my music.

Hmmm.. meeting for the various stuff I'm involved in..
Handbook, Social Science Orientation, Comm service stuff...

There's social gatherings... meeting a friend for dinner on Mon, Da Vinci Code with Fran on Wed. Wathcing Over the Hedge with my sister someday... and I want to watch XMen 3 too!

3 hours into my 21st year of existence...

Looking back, what have I done, where have I been?

Travelled from Novena to Clementi for 2 years to complete my Primary Education at NHPS. Clumsy me broke my arm in Primary 4, and fractured my foot the year after that.

Went to St Nicks mainly because of MEP... MEP was a bad decision (I wonder what possessed me), but never regretted going there because of all you wonderful people out there. I remember the Cruise in 2004...

Establishment of REHK... and the 2 revered Royalties. I remember silent conversations, passing messages and throwing them across the room during Father Balhatchet's class. Hurhurhur...

Tuition @ Angie's with Bubble Tea and Ms Tay.

1 Truth, 2 Truth, 3 Purity, 4 Purity. Cai-pok, Flaming red hair TG...

Sec school life seems like a blur now - it seems to revolve round choir... Performances, practices, rehearsals and 'tests'. 'Clip-clopping' across the VCH stage. The classic Monica Toh followed by Susanna Koh.

It was where I developed an interest in choir, then a passion for singing which brought me to the next phase of my life - VJC

Failed my first Exam - Physics. Got my first 'F' for Econs common test in Yr 2 Common Test 1! (I don't think I will ever forget that)

Mulling over tons of Maths problems and trying to grasp econs concepts.
Ponning lecture to go lib, sleeping in practically all my lectures in year 1.

A year one Physics tutor which was a big joke, the replacement was not much better wither.
Physics Tuition with Gary Chan. Wahahahs...

Fun and slack class, which unfortunately do not really keep in touch.

But more importantly, I remember choir - the feel of singing with a choir that strives together, produces good sound. It started with Carolling 2001. The toil and sweat. Practices at least twice a week, lying on the floor of the hall in Siglap South CC. Doing weird stuff and the intensive drilling of competition songs. (try 'Ni-hil-sub, So-lei No-Vum)

There was Prague, my first foray into Europe and first experience of winter.
Preparations for SYF... 'dung da-ah-ang-ing' for months trying to sound like gamaelan. Putting up of SOV performances - Horrotorio and the funny choreo the year after.

Performance at Esplanade. :) :) :) - It was just a nice feeling to know you had been there.

Pioneer batch of SMU Social Science students. Fun with Social Science Society exco! Nice and friendly Profs. Interesting modules. First time in a class of 16 people. Daunting presentations - I remember Comms 101 - individual presentation.
But more importantly, the experience I pick up while taking part in or organising activities.

Wonderful G1 friends, thanks for being part of my life since 2 years ago! The infamous 'Zhong Ji Mi Ma', G1 gathering, crapping sessions, apples discussion...

The Impossible Trinity, we rock! :)

To all those who are a part of my life, a sincere 'Thank You; from the bottom of my heart together with a great, big hug. May the friendships we forge withstand the test of time.

Oh oh oh.. not to forget.. Karaoke was DISCOVERED!!! Wahahahas.. the endless hours of fun we had singing, screaming and harmonising (or trying to anyway)!

Most importantly, I won't be who I am today if not for my family. To por-por, Mummy, Daddy, Gin and Jonah, I love you all very much! Thanks for being there to listen to me, to cheer me up when I'm down, to amuse me with your antics.

Phew.. I just felt as if I made an Oscar acceptance speech! :) May this post be something to mull over and serve to jolt my memory when I read my archives in future.

Hmmm... sang this at KTV last night...

枫 by Jay Chou...



and here is the continuation...

彩虹天堂 by 劉耕宏



These 2 mtvs tell a story... :)

Gillian is a happy girl!

First of all, a big thank you for all of you who came yesterday! Thanks for the presents!

TO Fran, Meiju, Wanling, Baoqin, Cynthia.. I really like the jacket! Hahaha.. I'll wear it to school often enough so you all will see it! Yes Fran.. you and Meiju have good taste! :)

To Gan Ann, Renjie, Duan, Chiching... I'm still not over the book! It's so nice!!!

To Claire... what can I say. The cake was marvelous... and I think you just converted me into a sour cream and onion dips person! Thanks for all your help!

TO Sharon... Thanks for your gift! I'll try and remain inspired.

Special mention to Baoqin who came over on Friday to help me with this!

It's so princess-y! Haha... and one night's work for hanging 26 balloons and 2 streamers. Not bad huh? We should practice more and them go into events management.

Ya.. and thanks to my brother who helped me collect the sushi... and my parents, sis and auntie who helped to make it food with all the food and stuffies!

And all who came... I hope you all enjoyed yourselves and the food and the fondue!

SMU peeps... and..

St Nicks frens! :)

Oh.. oh.. oh.. I must post this!

The 2 SS guys at my mercy!!! Wahahahs! :)

Had a great time playing the infamous 'polar bear'... and Uno Attack!!!

After that was a ktv session @ partyworld!

Serenading, yodelling, butchering of songs, dueting, harmonising.. and who can forget! (Come on everyone! 1... 2... 3...) "霍霍霍霍霍霍霍霍", "我我我我我我我我"

SO high!!!

Good food! GREAT COMPANY! Fun people, Karaoke! What else can I ask for?

I got my laptop back!!! Woohoo!!!

Hahaha... slowly trying to build it up to what it was initially. Putting in peripheral programmes I used... I got a new hard disk cause the old one apparently spoilt. Well.. maybe it will last longer now...

Was quite unused to typing on a desktop for a week... Ahh.. the lovely keys of my laptop goes a-tapping!

Lost all my emoticons... so next time you all see me on msn... just use ur emoticons! hahaha... and the good thing is I still have the more important stuff like photos, works, so I'll live. The importance of backing up. :)

A bit incoherent now.. still trying to remember what else I need to put in. Starting on a blank slate, now I shall slowly build it up again... Ooh... I got LOTR screensaver. A bit passe... but Legolas and Aragon is still cute!

Oooh... super long since I updated.

Busy interning at PA... 4 days of work... and I wonder how I can hang in there for another 2 months and 3 weeks... It's not that bad. Just need to get into the working mode. Then now gotta organise my life around work. Which.. i guess means a lot of dinners out. :)

My laptop is officially dead. Have to get my hard disk replaced... A lot of upcoming commitments and events. Hahaha...

Ok.. Came across this meme thingee from AKK's blog and decided to try it...

Basically, the instructions are as such:

Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question. NO CHEATING.

here are my answers:

How does the world see me?
今夜你会不会来 - Wei Lan (This HK Singer.. but it is like a remix version of the Leon Lai's one)

Hmmm... so does the world think that I usually don't go where I am supposed to? Doubting whether I will appear? Maybe not on time lar... but I seldom pang seh people one lor...


Will I have a happy life?
Every Tomorrow - Eason Chan

This is an english translation of a Cantonese song. Dunno the real title... So I will only have a happy life every tomorrow?

What do my friends really think of me?
True - Ryan Cabrera

Awww... that's so sweeet!


Do people secretly lust after me?
Breathe Again - Toni Braxton

Errr... how am I supposed to decipher this? Like no, no one lusts after me, thus I must breathe again? Or breathe to suck in my fats?

How can I make myself happy?
留多一分钟 - Hacken Lee

Well, a translation of this title would be either 'Stay Longer for a Minute More' or 'Give One More Minute'. So I should give myself more time?

What should I do with my life?
Too Serious Too Soon - Gareth Gates

Ok... I'm too serious about my life too soon? So when should I start planning for my life and a career? I'm already 21!

Will I ever have children?
Forever - Backstreet Boys

I will forever have children? Why couldn't the question be 'Will I ever Have money'? I like that answer...

What is some good advice for me?
Mr Beasley - Corrinne May

Ok.. I dunno how to decipher this. The lyrics go like: 'Just be yourself, Mr Beasley, It's your soul that makes me fall in love with you'. Hmmm... *deep in thought*

How will I be remembered?
Danny Boy - Various Celtic singers

I'm a girl.. not a boy! Besides, my name is not Danny.

What is my signature dancing song?
Someday, Someway - S Club 7

Ok... I dun really dance. Maybe not dancing song.. more of signature phrase?


What do I think my current theme song is?
My Perogative - Britney Spears

What can I say?


What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Your Song - Moulin Rouge

No comments...

What song will play at my funeral?
With All Your Heart - Plus 1

Ok lar...

What type of men/women do I like?
Something about You

Obviously, when I like someone, there has to be something about them I like before I like them right? But Something About You is not really a type... nvm...

What is my day going to be like?
园游会 - Jay Chou

Errrm... the translation is... I dunno. Tried Babelfish and they gave me 'Garden You Hui'. They might as well have said ' Garden Swim Will'. Wahahahas.. but I think it is sth like a fair? Is it not? So does that mean I'm gonna have fun?

I think... I can finally, sort of let my grades go. I've not been as reactive to bad grades and failure as I would have been 1 sem ago. Maybe I'm starting not to get so uptight over grades or academic stuff. Looking @ the big picture, hope I can do things I like, balance my life out.

Got my Econs back.. not good... I believe in the Law of Diminishing Returns... Somehow, you'll get less over a prolonged period of time. My mum thinks it is a natural phenomenon for people to do well in their first year in uni and deprove. For me, I think it is a regression and I'm finally finding my true standard. got a little lucky in my first year... Now.. to maintain...

I got my PA internship! It's till 31st July... So gals.. we'll have to plan a weekend trip... Dun think they will take too kindly to an intern taking a week off to go jetting off to HK! And with that... I can plan for my exchange! Wahahahas... getting an internship this summer is part of a bigger plan for me to go on exchange in Year 3. I just hope nothing weird crops up that will spoil my plans again.

I seem to have signed up for quite a number of summer activities - various school projects, comm service... Let's hope I have the energy and drive to carry through with them.

I feel so lucky and blessed to have nice family and friends! :)

Thanks for cheering me up, listening to me whine, drawing pics to perk me up, sharing nice brownie and cheesecake. Thanks for being there!

I went for my driving test today. It was well... quite bad.

it actually started out ok. Like I went for my warm up drive which was very smooth. I didn't even feel nervous when I was going down to the car with my testor. Then it had to happen... It started drizzling the moment I got into the car (or there about). Then when I was turning out, I checked and there was not car... then this car popped up and the testor braked a bit for me.

** warning bells went off in my head... was trying to kepe myself from muttering 'shit!'**

It started pouring.. like cats and dogs and I couldn't see a thing in front of me. Is that luck or what? And I struck a curb when turning out from doing directional change. 10 points down the drain...

and it continued pouring... and during the test route, committed some stupid mistakes. The roads were clear for me to do lane changing (one of my weaker subjects) but the drive sucked! And I hate driving in torrential rain and I didn't have much practice driving in the rain somemore cause whenever I go for lesson, it was bright and sunny.

Wahlaoz.. fate or what?

the best part comes now: The freaking rain stopped after I parked the car. It was all bright and sunny when I walked out of the driving school, 154 bucks poorer. Seems like a crule trick was played on me.

Well, I'm kinda over it.. but I just feel so sian.. cause it's just disappointment. I wasn't 100% sure I would pass, but I was hoping I could avoid stupid, costly mistakes like striking curb. Unfortunately, it din work out that way... The next test is in July! That's a long long wait! Now let's hope I get a job/internship or whatever... :)

a day spent curling up in bed with books... mapling...

Another day spent out with friends and more friends. :)

Tomorrow gonna be spent driving and shopping...

I feel so blissful... nothing much to worry about...

Met an interesting cab driver.. who was talking about gays openly touching him in the cab and of a drunk women who forgot where her boyfriend stayed and made a fuss in his car. Talked freely about how he enjoys sex and errrm... how some people like to do it 'from behind'. I felt kinda unnerved, undomfortable and I was rather glad when I reached my destination...

a BBq that took forever to start the fire.. then my first time at Penny Black... well, it's this pub thingee at Raffles Place, Boat Quay area... had fun talking.. and crapping. Wish I could have stayed longer for the bbq though...

I went swimming this afternoon and I tanned myself and ended up with a rubber band line on my wrist where I hung the locker key. so smart right? And I think alcohol dun go very well with a swim. My muscles feel weird... and I dun think it is the effect of a swim only.

I have a craving for Magnum ice cream... dun ask me why.. Cravings are unexplainable...

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a multi dimensional wonderland, with many layers.You're the type that always has multiple streams of though going.And you can keep these thoughts going at any time.You're very likely to be engaged in deep thought - and deep conversation.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

After hours of cramming,
5 x(times) last minute panicking,
days spent studying in freezers...
loads of food therapy,
tons of papers being used,
blisters from writing too hard and
pen with only hald the ink left,

I have finished my exams.. and so with the term that goes along with it. A gruelling term which made me think twice about how I plan my timetable in future, but a fun term nonetheless.

Abpsych was well.. weird... cause it made me believe I was suffering from some of those symptoms .

IO was interesting... both the subject mattter and the presence of an intelligent prof who was friendlier and nicer. Small class of 16 which made it nice (to some extent).

T&A was a mess... with its cheem readings of the works Marxism, Durkheim and Weber... try reading some abstract ideas written in flowery language and you'll get what I mean. I think it helps in like interest reading, but not to mug for exams. But another nice prof...

MPW was fun! Watching movie during class, loads of class activities. Really learning from experience... Didn't end on that high a note iwth a rather killer exam imo cause i couldn't really do some of it. Hahaha...

International Econs... a love hate relationship with it... I quite enjoy the subject matter and doing project with wonderful people! Yet... killer exams and I just dunno how to study the subject, It was nice to read about it though...

Finishing Touch... learning how to eat properly and dressing well for 830 class was quite a challenge. Learnt some stuff, disagreed with others.. had a forgettable interview... and well.. it was too short to really leave an impact on me.

Ok.. so this kinda summed up my term... 2 years over in a blink of an eye... Plans for summer, curl up in bed with good books, hopefully get my internship, earn some cash... Go on a trip... make myself useful somewhere, somehow?

Good luck to all those who have yet to take their exams...

As much as I dun mind my econs class... studying for the econs exam is a big pain in the ass!

Ya.. it's my last paper.. I think I kinda lost steam... I think I'm so not gonna sleep tonight...

Why Man U draw with Sunderland? :(

Can't even overcome a team that is relegated! No more hope of a title... unless Chelsea screws up big time which I doubt. Having their lead cut was already like a wake-up call to them.

Soccer aside. MPW paper in like... 5 hours time. I feel unprepared. Sigh...

Great... I got myself started on some war/strategy game called Caesar 3. I still have 2 papers.. How smart can I get?

The answer is quite.. cause the game is so hard, I got a bit sick of it (cause I can't pass the blardy stage) and then will now start studying.

Hmm.. just thought I would blog this down...

Has your brain literally felt 'full'? I felt like I was cramming stuff down my brain when I was studying for the last 3 papers the last couple of days. and it just felt saturated. Then after IO psych, i felt as if I emptied my brains and crammed in a whole load of Durkheim suicide and research design thingee... I just find the 'literal' feeling very fascinating. I wonder if the brain is like a one-litre water bottle. Like u fill it to the brim or sth...

Hmmm... the 'thrill' or having 3 papers in 2 days...

Looking back, I think it is not that bad. Yeah.. post decision dissonance. Not really decision. Maybe post-event dissonance if there is any theory like that. You feel good after you do something.

People have asked me if I am crazy, doing so many modules in one sem and squeeezing my exams. I dunno... cause it's like... if you ask me to choose which modules ot give up, I can't really pin point anyone. I don't regret taking any of them because of the friends in there, project group, nice profs and a lot of other reasons. So... yeah.. just give up FT hor. Unfortunately, it was preassigned. So not much of a choice.

So why not take a slack term of 4 modules? I dunno.. cause it is really quite slack? Wahahhaa... ok.. I'm really not thinking very well liao...

How will I do? I dunno... Can't deny that it is at the back of my mind. But when you get so tired of everything, think so much also no use lor. Just take things as they come ba. I'm in a rather stoned mode now. Effect of relying on stimulants like coffee and ginseng to get me through these few days. Yeah... if I had started earlier, maybe things will not be so bad. Unfortunately, a bit too late lar...

2 more papers... and it is the end of my 2nd year. That's damn fast lor...

I'm going cranky and mad. I really cannot fathom how on earth I could have left so many freaking things to the last minute. BleahZ... Despite knowing the fact that I have 5 papers, and knowing that I have 2 reports due on the first day of exams.

Am suffering the consequences of my procrastination. Been typing out abpsych notes, finishing my End of Course evaluation for FT and putting together bits and pieces of my T&A report. Sheesh! I have yet to comprehend Durkheim and his Suicide Theory. Bah!

a few mor ehours to the end of the day. Please give me the stregth to carry on and hope I won't screw up to badly in the next 2 days. Even if I do, I pray that my last 2 papers will be able to save my grades.

My eggsa (look at side panel) hasn't hatche dyet... as of 7.14 pm. Ok.. I checked.. it is 3 am over at the site.. wherever they are.. so they are probably sleeping.

my 3rd day in presentation outfit (read: black suit) in a row.. Bah! I feel os overdressed when I'm walking around school. But bo bian lar.. it's like FT mock interview on Monday, FT Dineout on Tues at 9am! and I received a call from Ascott group to go for an interview at 4 for some internship that I applied at. So I appeared in school black pants with blazer in tow again..

The interview went ok i guess... didn't feel like 'connection' but wasn't that unpleasant too.. But half the time, I wished I was mugging.. which leads me to...

I AM FINALLY, slowly getting into the swing of mugging... of studying. I have THE DRIVE! Yay!!! Now to sustain it for a week. Cannot lar.. a few more days... so many paper. start to panic liao...

Like my fren said... 'If i dun study, at most I screw up 2 or 3 modules... if you (ie: me) don't study, you will screw up 5' so yeah!

Time to hit the books! :)

I dun wanna study anymore!!!

BLEAHZ!!! :( :( :(

Ok... I never really started.. but i want the term to end like NOW!!! Bah!!! Gah! Pah! Fwah! whatever~!~

I feel like an absent-minded fool... I went to collect my term paper 2 hours before the stipulated timing - but I still got it back.. so nevermind. So many things on my mind. Dunno where to start studying, preparation for interview... Sianz...

I'm just been having this panic-ky and very 忐忑不安 feeling. I dunno why. Study Study... mug mug mug...

Am feeling relieved at the moment... I received a mail from a prof today.. apparently I somehow forgot to attach the 2nd page of my report when I handed in the hardcopy. Yeah.. it was the one whereby I finished at 4.15 when the deadline was 5pm. Sigh.. should never have left it till last min. *phew... wat a close shave. I'm glad I was allowed to send him my softcopy... Although I dunno what will actually happen to my grades. Apparently the papers were all not very well done. So yeah... *keeps fingers crossed*

Had a nice de-stressing session (cue: ktv) with the gassy people (ok.. I think 'the gassy people' sounds weird) But yeah... then went for a long swim and a nice dinner with my sis. Tmr I shall start completing all my reports (note: plural). I think I've had enough merry making. It is time to settle down and start mugging.

I'll be in school on Monday and Tuesday courtesy of FT.. other than that... shall see my mood.. and a whole load of other factors.

I am so screwed! Instead of studying for my abpsych test, I am blogging, I read blogs. I took an online memory test.

I think I'm suffering from personality disorder - antisocial disorder because I am not following the norm. Throw in a bit of depression whereby there is loss of mood and appetite.

Hopefully I don't have any sexual disorders... nor problems with gender identity. I am glad I'm not a caffeine (stimulant) addict. Maybe I should take some sedatives and go to sleep. Miss the class and presentation.

I think i'm displaying symptoms of schizophrenia. Studying abpsych... No.. not contemplating suicide though. Hahaha...

test in 1.5 hours. I gotta be in school in half an hour. Help!!!

I din get selected for any of the 5 projects under the govt internship. Ah wells... maybe it's time to go back to HR. Or maybe this particular London/New York thingee... but I dun really like overseas internships. It's scarier than a local one.

1 presentation, 1 more test and my term is effectively over.

Been in a choir-y mood recently. Feel like singing all the SN songs. 'Candle on the Water', 'Silver Lining'. Don't know what caused the certain bout of nostalgy.

Slides to prepare, script to write, notes to study. Seems like a lot of things to do before I sleep tonight.

spent the better half of my abpsych lesosn stoning... surfing net... clicking around...

I somehow see symptoms of schizo in me... That's the bad thing about doing abpsych...

Last week of school... 2 presentations, 1 test, 1 full day. And all these is gonna happen within these 3 days. I've been feeling... so nonchalent, that I can't believe it. HAhaha...

Just felt like blogging this lyrics down...

Broken hearts,
Crying eyes....
Wait alone, in the dark of the night
It's time we went beyond the walls of our own lives...
It's time we heard the difference, it's time we heard the cry

One by one...
Hand in hand...
Hearts to hearts... oh we've got to understand
There's so much more to life than living day to day.
We got to bridge the distance,
we got to make the way.

Let's be the hands, that comfort every cold and lonely man
Let's be the feet, for those who do not have the strength to stand
Let's be the love, that reaches out to every boy and girl
Let's be the arms, that reach around the World

One presentation down... I would say this was one of the nicest presentation and better one I had. So three cheers!

These couple of weeks have been kind of a roller coaster. Kinda slacky (cause I only have 2 presentations), yet fraught with deadlines and anxiety as prsentations loom and exams knock on the door.

I would say I'm not a very good presenter. I had blanked out or rambled through what I say, or speak inaudibly (or so I think). Hahaha.. so today was good..

Slackign in the school library now... Dinner with qinny! Yay! good food! :)

A post I wrote on 1st March, the day before my t&a... wrote and saved it as draft... looks like I was right after all...

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Perhaps it is because I have the list of question that is coming out for tmr's paper in front of me... I don't feel like starting.

Perhaps it is because my lessons start at 145 tmr and so I know I will have the more time tmr to study.

Perhaps I just want to drag late into the night... and hopefully lengthen the time I have.

What I believe in: Everything comes at a price. I slack now and I have to pay it back later in terms of grades, insecurity, carelessness, more pressure @ 4 am later...

hohoho.. I just realise I have no class after tmr's t&a midterms... and me just realised my T&A midterm is worth 40%!

got back my most horrendous midterms... horrendous grades...

I see how I am actually applying psych theories in this case... Maybe lowering expectations of goals... trying ot justify (I had 3 midterms tt week!)... but... sigh... still feeling down... down.. down...

One of my worse midterm grades ever... tt's kinda bad... :(

Ever woke up feeling bleahz? Like your back is aching, you sense a headache coming up, you walk around feeling weird and you just want to nua the day away on the bed, sleeping?

Today happens to be one of such morning. I don't know what I did wrong... (I didn't exactly sleep that late.... nor wake up that early) Yet I'm feeling like crap now...

I gotta drag myself off to school soon... *ulps*... Week 12 is a-coming! Lalala...

Sometimes, I do wish for an apple to drop... :)

Gillian flops over... I hope I don't die tmr...

IO paper due tmr @ 5. Thank goodness for late deadlines. but it doesn't really change the fact that I am quite dead...

3000 - 4000 words... Current word count: 191. Congratulate me... But I do believe that words will flow once I start proper... Hahaha... *crosses fingers* In fact, I hope I will be able ot churn out more words than needed... Cutting is easier than squeezing more things out.

I don't feel panicky at all. Instead, I had the time to watch TV, watch shows yesterday... talk about prioritising and making effort...

Hahaha.. interesting IE class. My prof actually told this joke in class.

There is Big Ben of London and the Leaning Tower of Pisa.

One day, the leaning tower of Pisa said to Big Ben across the English Channel:
You may have the time, but I have the inclination.

It's been a long yet satisfying weekend. Went to IMH on Sat morning for some volunteer talk... Most prob gonna join a group there. Take it as a chance to clear CIP, as well as to see if this is suitable for me. :)

After than, went back to SN! I so miss the school! And I realised we did a lot of walking when we were there. The school just seems so big! From the Street 13 entrance to Sunken forum. :)
The fair was ok. We walked around, but there wasn't much to like entice us. Games do not really attract us... and food was like... normal? Usual funfair stuff? hahaha... We had like $30 bucks worth of coupons left after walking one round. But they sure brought in a lot of stuff. Amusement rides, EZone gaming machines... Oh ya... It was so freaking hot!

So later, we went to Soyabean to chill. Hahaha... one of our hang-outs then? and it was pouring! on the spur of the moment... we went yodelling!!! Wah! It was a good stress-reliever! So much for having impromptu friends.

Can't help but notice how things have changed. But memories are always there. I go back to SN not really to see the teachers (cause they can't really remember me. Stood in front of TSW for some time, but she showed no hint of recognition! hahaha...), not really to see the school (cause it's painted in quite a disgusting colours now) but more of to relive memories.

Today was SMU open house.
Question no. 1: What are the job prospects of a Social Science Student.
Question no. 2: Can you tell me more about your degree programme?

Ok.. so... what do you want to hear? Bah! I felt like I was on repeat mode after a while lor. You can do what you want.. social science disciplines provdie you with certain skill sets that you can use in most jobs... It depends on your interest. LIke... what do you want me to say? you can be a prof, a psychologist? a hypnotist?

I think some people do have some misconception of a psychologist. Maybe not 'enlightened individuals' as Siyi puts it.

Oh... Question of the day: I am interested in Sociology. What does a sociologist do? like....

A whole myriad of other questions that I spent 4 hours answering. It was rather excrutiating, yet I dunno if I was like that the last time. Oh.. and the banging of drums came at the most inappropriate time. There was this performance by a drumming ensemble in the school and the freaking place was enclosed lar. How smart can people get? There was no way people could ask/answer questions! I had to raise my voice a few decibels and felt I was shouting.

A lot of money spent on the 'wow' factor. And seriously, I think the admin building is a big waste of money. The offices are located from Level 7 onwards. And there is virtually nothing much from the 1st to 6th storey. What a waste of prime office space! Just a sports hall, a conferent hall and load of space! we are not having some art exhibition lor...

as I sit in a room waiting for my next meeting, another Thursday( my free day) spent in school.
no one is online or on MSN between 11 and 12! or rather, no one I want to talk to... I suppose everyone is on their way to school.

Had an interesting chat yesterday. Are all of us too caught up with pursuing wealth, power, control that we neglect other things? My friend was commenting that many people just follow the set route. The 'go to uni, get a degree, slog your guts out, make big bucks and be successful'. But in the process, we forget the lesser things that we would like to do. Those that do not pay much, but is something that we would really really like to do.

Hmmm.. I have no answer to that. are we really too conditioned to do well in life?

I am pursuing what I think I love. but I dunno what other things I would really really like to do, but turn my back on it. have we been conditioned to just pursue the material things in life? It's like maybe it is not a wrong thing to pursue psych, but it is the filed I go into that matters. Do I go into something because it has more career prospects? Or do I do something like social work and counselling which doesn't pay a lot, but helps people? Could there be a balance?

perhaps it's just that I am indifferent to a lot of things. Anything can-go. I am not passionate about certain cause like Animal Welfare, Youth issues and stuff.

Ok.. enough rambling. My meeting is supposed to start in 2 mins. Any guesses that people will be late?

plucking words from mid-air...
conjuring sentences from nowhere
a commentary paper I must write
of personality and IO psych

Ok.. my rhyming sucks... got no literary flair unfortunately. Makes this sound like a juvenile poem...

Hmmm... been a few days since I last blogged.. that's the toll of what 830 lessons did to me!!!

But surprisingly, I've been trying (quite successfully) to sleep earlirt (read: 12 - 1). hahaha.. woke up at bright and early 9am this morning... and I actually managed to do some work before heading to school soon for IE meeting...

Wahahahas... Hopefully I can keep this up with deadlines looming... I still dunno what to write for my IO paper yet... it is supposed to be a commentary on one of the various topics. Hmmm... comment on what? and did I mention, it's supposed to be 3000 to 4000 words. So.. that's like this weedend's work cut out for me.

I refuse to stay up the whole of wed night to rush it for Thursday's deadline like what I did last year for my RMSS paper and other stuff.. Wish me luck!

I adopted 2 eggs today... (via Char's blog) :)

Caught NTUCO at Singapore Conference Hall yesterday... It was like a gathering of SN girls... Went for face-off on Friday... Rock concert by 3 good bands... Ok... i only liked 2...

A satisfying end to midterm week... Now time to pick up the pieces and start work...

A packed week ahead with interviews for MPW project scheduled, planning and preparation of IO psych paper, filling out Econs Project, Research note and MPW journals due...

and to watch Munich!

What happened to the days where you can just slack at home listening to music blaring from any machine, cuddling up in bed with a book?

Instead of wasting time on writing cover letters and trying to sell myself, writing resumes... and desperately trying to fulfil my quota of 5 reflection journals (only did 1.. win right?).

Time to drag myself off to school... 45 mins to class! hope i can make it! Another fun-filled day.. Retro evening plus Face off! I think I am enjoying life too much! Somebody... Help me!

uh-oh.. i have a problem.. define retro?

Ladies and Gentlemen (though I'm inclined to think that my readers would be ladies):
I've survived my 3 social science midterms that tok place on 3 consecutive days! *clap clap*

I have never felt freeer, more weightless after my T&A paper today. I literally felt a burden being lifted off off my shoulders.

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On another note:

another disappointment...

What constitutes a disappintment?

Below expectations performance?
or have I expected too much of myself?

My heart sank when I saw my abpsych results... they were within reasonable expectations. yet... there was this much more I could have done.

I have no excuse this time round. I didn't put in the effort I should have. Makes the finals an even more daunting task...

I'm kicking myself because the papers had been do-able.. and yet... I chose to give up on them. I can't even give the excuse that the paper killed me. It's like committing suicide. I will try not to make the same mistake again *chants it 100 times*

~breathes~

A post I wrote on 1st March, the day before my t&a... wrote and saved it as draft... looks like I was right after all...

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Perhaps it is because I have the list of question that is coming out for tmr's paper in front of me... I don't feel like starting.

Perhaps it is because my lessons start at 145 tmr and so I know I will have the more time tmr to study.

Perhaps I just want to drag late into the night... and hopefully lengthen the time I have.

What I believe in: Everything comes at a price. I slack now and I have to pay it back later in terms of grades, insecurity, carelessness, more pressure @ 4 am later...

hohoho.. I just realise I have no class after tmr's t&a midterms... and me just realised my T&A midterm is worth 40%!

Almost at the end of my 3 consecutive midterms... Abnormal was not too bad (I hope)... considering I chose sleep over studying that night...

IO... a prof that marked 16 scripts during the break and returned it to us within the same day... Well... what can I say... Impressivo~!~ But... but... I think the grade was justifiable, given the effort I put in... But...

Sometimes, it is not the grade that gets me down... It is the knowledge that it was an easy paper and how much better I could have done if I had just bothered to study that little bit more, to start that bit earlier. everything came form the notes/textbook! I wasn't stumped! I just didn't have the answers because I didn't study them. I rue the missed chances...

Ie went surprising ok... Not top... actually, nowhere near top.. but given my limited Economics capacity... was happy with my grade...

Been struck with thoughts recently. Plans, future... Maybe I should just focus on studying... Been slacking off more than I would like...

Time to start T&A...

and so starts the whirlwind week...

Midterms from Mon to Wed, project meeting on Thurs... and tons of undone work...

Didn't accomplish much this hols.. academically that is... but had loads of fun

Abnormal psych test starting in a minute's time... :)
Wish me luck!

Was away from civilisation for a while...

Isn't this pic gorgeous?

Love the colour of the sky for this one!!!

I was still in sunny Singapore... just in some ulu corner. Changi Aloha to be exact. I could spend the whole day just walking the boardwalk, staying at the beach.

Took the pics just as the sun was about to set... about 6 plus I guess.

My only regret was not bringing my camera to snap more pics... Took what I could with my not very good camera phone... but still satisfied with the results!

Hmmm... the time at the chalet was good.. nice food, funny, crappy people, long walk... :) and more importantly, we actually SLEPT! Hahaha... haven't really 'slept' during chalets for some time.. usually end up spending the night playing cards and stuff...

Thanks Meiju for the invitation even though I'm not a Sissimo member...

we got a new past-time!

Being photo-whores while 'studying' in gsr.. clicking away with our camera phones... Bursting out into laughter and having fun suan-ing someone..

Still happily posing at like 9pm despite being in school!

Wahahahas... cupid uniform!!! Gillian has wings!!! Courtesy of Meiju and Sissimo!

On a parting note.. we are finally going home!!!

Jumped on the Johari bandwagon... Complete this if u are too free.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Gillian_205

Woke up at 6 plus AM this morning.. Surprising huh? Me? The sloth... waking up even before the sun rose!!!

Yeah.. kinda shocked myself when i did that.. went to East Coast for a nice morning walk/jog whatever with my parents and sister today.. Fresh cool air... gave me some time to sort out my thoughts...

Taught my sister how to cycle... Ok.. didn't really teach teach... cause cycling is just learnt like that *snaps finger*. You can fail a million times... but suddenly you just get it! Remembered how Angie and Siyi taught me that time. Yah... so she can cycle now...

But because I woke up so early.. took a nice long nap in the afternoon.. sth I haven't done is quite a while...

Note to self this hols:
Revise for midterms in week 9
Go shopping (I need stuff for Finishing Touch! anyone wanna go shopping with me?)
Finish up MPW journals
Try and sleep more :)

It is kinda unnerving to be listening to eating disorders in abnormal psych class... Are we really subscribing to an anorexic society? Where one must look good to feel good?

btw, SMU is raising it's school fees to $7500!!! Wahlaos! It's exorbitant lar!!! No.. it doesn't affect me.. but it is still damn ex compared to NUS and NTU's $6100... Like... ya.. the fees won't rise at all.. but that is almost $2000 more than what we paid when we went in as first years. Do they want to make this a rich men school? I think it may become discriminatory...

I still really want to go Europe very much!

I seem to have a knack for screwing up my presentations recently... not a very good sign given that I have quite a few more to come. But I shall try...

Another decision to make... To go Europe or not? I've wanted to go there for a long long time... but rationally, I can go next time in future. Bleahz... This is confusing...

Nightmare presentation that showed the lack of preparation under the high scrutinity of a small class and that prof...

It's over!

I'm so proud of my sis!!! :)

Correction: My sis says that above one line is too short to actually show how proud I am of her... so she ask me to write more...

OK lar.. smart (aleck!) and cute (ugly but adorable)...

She got back her 'O' level results today... actually, am proud of her Higher Chinese results... she only took HCL from Sec 3... managed to get A2 wor...

I got this prof who likes to answer his own questions because he asks weird questions like

"What affects money demand"
=> Answer: Everything!

I dun wanna hear econs anymore... I just understood one portion.. he had to use the last 15 mins to start a new portion.. I feel like switching off!

I'm fine... the sun is shining now...

just needed an outlet...

I just felt like saying...

我想哭 但是哭不出来
等到思念像海
淹没我而爱已不再
你以绝望的离开
没有泪留下来

Tired.
Weak, Weary

Disappointment.
Resigned, I'll get over it...

Looking ahead,
may it all be worth it.

It brings me disappointment, yet gives me hope.
at its infancy stages now, let's just allow it to make mistakes.

I made one of the hardest decisions I had to make in a long time. Words cannot describe how I feel.

Actually, numb is as close as I can get to it. All the planning has come to naught. No more thinking, wondering and grinning secretly to myself when I think of me living on my own for 5 months. Not in the near future anyway.

A rational decision was made. It can only be for the better I agree. Yet, I can't help but feel a slight sense of loss for what could have been. Hopefully, it will go away when I immerse myself in my readings and studying for midterms. 1 week to the deadline. So near, yet so far. I think it is because I have been doing so much research. Almost concrete plans... all down the drain. I shall learn how to stop mopping.

It's time to concentrate on what will be. On how not to regret my decision and to make use of the opportunities that come my way because of this decision.

Oh... did I mention, I'm not going for exchange anymore.

Confused and lost... planning for exchange is a MASSIVE headache...

Courses I want to take are not being offered the term I want to go, if I wait one more sem, I will have to do my internship this summer... There is this important psychology course that I am advised to take as soon as it is offered (ie: next sem or wait another year).

Bleahz... having a massive headache!

Rules: Bold the following that are true about you, italicize things you wish were true, add (+) one true thing about you, and then tag five more people.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch much TV these days.
I love olives.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
I hate the rain.
I'm paranoid at times.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have fresh breath in the morning.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way that I look.
I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
I know how to cornrow.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I think prostitution should be legalized.
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
Slept with a Suitemate.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone. (actually it depends on who...)
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in (a) God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I currently like someone.
I have no idea what I want to do with my life
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
I have at least 5 away messages saved.
I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I have avoided assignments at work/school to [blog] be on Xanga or Livejournal.
When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbour or chum.
I enjoy some country music.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I watch soap operas whenever I can.
I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.I
love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I like surveys/memes.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
Conservative Republican.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
I believe in prophetic dreams.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient on a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs. (depends on the nature of the job...)
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went to college out of state.
I am adopted.
I like sausage.
I am a pyro.
I love the Red Sox.
I have thrown up from crying too much.
I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colors.
I love Dear Abby.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I think school is awesome.
I think pigtails serve a purpose.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I don't like multi-textured ice cream.
I think John Cusack is adorable.
I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
I watch Food Network way too much.
I love coaching youth sports.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I would not be friends if they weren't family.
I wear a toe ring.I have a tattoo.
I love vaginas.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know who Santos L. Halper is.
I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed.
I love wrestling.
I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
I'm an artist.
I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made.
I have an unhealthy Taco Bell obsession.
I have had a crush on a cartoon character when I was a kid.
I have spent more on anime and manga than many spend on computers or other high end products.
I only clean my room when neccesary.
Weight is my enemy!
I love to sing.
+ I love to procrastinate

Wahahaha... time to do those space fillers.. haven't filled them out in a long long time...

7 Things That Make Me Smile

1. Listening to my sister talk rubbish and joining her
2. When I see nice scenary (picture or in person)
3. Singing and watching people sing
4. Receiving unexpected messages from people around
5. Meeting up with friends whom I haven't seen in ages
6. After reading a good book
7. Listening to kids make innocent remarks which are super funny

7 Ways to Win My Heart

1. Understand Me
2. Accept me for who I am
3. I need my space too...
4. Flowers help! :)
5. Surprise me!
6. Carry out a good conversation with me
7. Do things because you mean it and not for the sake of making me happy.

7 Things I Believe In

1. I believe that there is a special someone out there
2. I believe that certain things happen for a reason
3. I believe that whatever won't kill you will only make you stronger
4. I believe in myself
5. I beieve that family and friends are more important than money
6. I believe in enjoying life to the max and not shortchange yourself on anything
7. I believe in travelling

7 Things I'm Afraid Of

1. Making the wrong career choice
2. Losing family and love ones
3. Losing friendship
4. That I will not have the chance to accomplish things I set out to do
5. Losing myself in the pursuance of grades, wealth, power at the expense of more important things around me
6. Horror shows
7. That my kids I have in future will not be healthy.

7 Things I Do Everyday

1. Listen to music
2. Surf the net for the latest HK entertainment news
3. Check my email
4. Sleep
5. Eat
6. Drink
7. On my laptop
   

7 pple you want to see now

1. Justine Henin-Hardenne
2. Hacken Lee
3. People who have once walked into my life
4. I dunno...

7 People I Tag
Anyone who wants to do it...

I wish i could have a good and happy day like Siyi... Not to be bogged down by thoughts of projects, assignments, tasks... Ya.. just thoughts! I'm not even doing them!!! Ok... Maybe I did have a good day. I should learn how to enjoy the simple pleasures in life.

So here goes... The good thing that happened today was that I had a chat with Sharon, I saw friends around... I spent half my day listening to nice songs. and well... I think I'm falling in love with Sweden. :)

Exchange is a headache. Maybe I should stop all the second-guessing and just put the uni of my choice.. which happen to be in Australia, New Zealand, Canada, US... and now, Sweden. :) So I'll still need to narrow down my choices and stuff... I don't know where I want to go... just someplace, somewhere where I can hopefully get to look at life from a different perspective.

Have you ever felt like taking time off from school? Like just dropping everything so that you'll be able to play computer games, PS2 and read the whole day long? To laze around in bed, to not worry about having to rush to school or participate in class or do your readings...

Ok.. time ot return to reality. I really enjoy my courses this sem.. but I need to do sth about them! Not just attend class!!! Journals to be written, project research, media conference paper, exchange...

Happy Chinese New Year! (or issit Lunar?) Anyway, 恭喜发财， 身体健康， 万事如意！ 心想事成！

Chinese New Year seems to have crept up upon us amidst settling into a new term, busying myself with sch stuff, having a couple of public holidays prior to it, driving lessons... Actually, the tell-tale signs were all there... blasting of CNY songs from shops, the 'sudden' attack of the red!, aromatic pineapple tarts baking, buying of new clothes...

New Year to me is a period for eating and more eating. Reunion dinner(s), Bak Kwa, pineapple tarts, Kueh Bungkit (? the white stuff that melts in your mouth! => my fav!), mandarin oranges! You eat when you go visiting cause relatives will stuff you with food, my relatives came over on the first day and my mum cooked up a feast... Sigh.. how not to gain weight?

And with the new year comes a new layout... I think I change my layout like once a year? Now it is so pink! As usual, an SOS call... with my limited html knowledge, anyone can help expand the box? I feel that it's quite concentrated in the centre now.. got a lot of space at the side...

I feel like I'm trapped in a pit... trying ot claw my way up, but after inching up for a few centimetres, I fall back by even more... I can't seem to extricate myself from the sleep-late-wake-up-late cycle... When I sleep early, I end up sleeping even later the next night just because I have to finish something that I put off doing.

I need to get a grip on my life. What is important and what is urgent? Health vs Commitments? Sleep vs Readings?

I dragged myself up earlier than usual to go to school for an sppt @ 9... Needless to say, I happened to be late... It was supposed to be an experiment... So I didn't do it in the end... I'm feeling horribly guilty now... It's like breaking a promise... Maybe I shouldn't have signed up for it in the first place... or slept so late the night before...

And so i rushed ot school only to be told they had started.. So i trudged up to the library... and I've been here since 930.. Am supposed to get some research going on for another thing I signed up for... I think I'm just drowning myself by taking on too many things that I think I cna handle when I committed but the plot is unravelling horribly for me...

Am on a posting spree...

This is the gingerbread man that Claire gave me! :) It lost a leg cause I was hungry. :)

Well.. not a very clear pic.. but this is what is left of gingerbready... Yummy yummy!!!

I finally found a use for my International Econs text...

And no.. it is not for reading up for my econs class...

Ta dah!!!




it props my laptop up so that it won't get overheated up! Hahaha...

Just a thought...

I met an impatient man today...

I just thought, life would be nice if you stopped to sniff the flowers, to appreciate the things around you.

There are much more things to life than keeping a tight schedule and rushing from one appt to another. :)

I was once again a performer today... Yes.. I miss going on stage to perform something that has been painstakingly rehearsed for months.

I miss the jittery feeling backstage, the slight anxiety before we walk onto stage.
The ridiculous, but threatening thought: 'What if I fall when I walk across the stage?'

Tonight, some of them came back. No longer a 2 hour show, but just a 7 minutes piece, hours of rehearsals were put into it. SMU Grand Opening was today... I feel glad that I am actually able ot take part in such an event. The feeling is just great! How the collective cheer went out when we were informed that we were going according to dry weather plans.

The skies have been kind. It had been pouring almost incessantly the past fortnight... Yet, they decided to hold their showers tonight. Being one of the performers, we were mainly sitting around and waiting for instructions. I wonder how the committee must have felt as they tethered along the borders of anxiety, stress and worry.

TOnight was a night to remember. My first performance as a keyboardist. I'm glad I got roped in. Get to experience the arts again... A highly satisfying day. It made all the rehearsals worth it.

Now, as Meiju puts it, time to resume the life of a student...

Have you ever been in a class whereby you are so not interested in what is being taught?
Marxism? I haven't done the readings.. so I dunno what he is actually talking about.. Bleahz... :(

I need to get my life together again. Well, it is the first time in that many terms that I feel the need to read up and prepare before each class. But alas, the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak. Am 3 weeks behind... plus tons of things looming and stuff to do.. *big sigh!*

Ooh.. my prof just talked about the 'Marriage of Figaro' (spelled correctly?) Hahaha.. reminds me of those days... except that nothing much is left except for certain names here and there.

I think gloomy, rainy days are taking its toll on me.. I've been feeling sluggish these few days... And it's always such a good time to sleep. Sometimes, i dun feel like going to school... actually, it's more like everyday.

But all in all, lessons are still so far so good... or maybe it is the company of Friends! Yay!!! They make up for the uncomprehensible greek and uninteresting modules... :) Not to mention, just chilling out with others...

Am behind on some deadlines.. oops.. will try to get it out as soon as possible...

Tennis is back in season! Yay! More things to entertain me and lure me away from my work...

Did I mention, i dun really like driving in the rain. Couldn't really see.. and somehow, I made a few bad judgment today. Tried to squeeze into the lane... and turn into the wrong lane... and tried to cur corners and stuff.. I should learn to be less reckless.

It's been quite a few wet and rainy days... Weather is chilly and nice... that is if you do not have to drag yourself out of bed or even the house to go out/school.

Am significantly enjoying my classes more this sem compared to last. Oh well.. maybe it is just a way of trying to psych myself for the term. International Econs still sound greek. So many concepts to remember. Very simple things that might have been overlooked is now brought back into play!

As for Theory and Analysis of Sociological Theory (T&A), I tried to do the 'short' (according to the prof) readings of 66 pages assigned. I barely got past page 4? It reminds me horribly of my democracy readings which I never really did till just before the exams and stuff. Actually, i think it is even more incomprehensible than Demo. Bleahz...

Now.. trying to do research for some stuff.. been looking at like webpages for like forever...

I feel a headache brewing.

IE = greek? I think I returned all my econs stuff to my econs tutor liao. I only retained snatches of it which I am racking my brains to recall in this first lesson of International Economics. Didn't help that I wasn't that good an econs student also.

Did I mentio how glad I am that I didn't take any morning classes?

Yay! My first post of the year!

Hmmmz... This blog has been going on for almost 3 years! That's a long time given that I tend to lose interest in things easily. I believe the Roylaties can attest to that.

The Hols just came and went.. and me? Too lazy to post anything on New Year's eve, or on New Year's day. I had to do it the day after new year!

What did I do yesterday? Hmmmz.. spent my technically my whole day at Tampines Mall helping my mum. It's been a while since I got down to work with kids. Nowadays, I prefer to spend time in front of my laptop, going out with frens than halping her out. YEsterday, I went there abeit reluctantly at first. But as the day went on, I kinda missed it. It reminded me of the 2 months I spent at United Square.

Actually, I can't believe school starts tomorrow. Technically, I know it starts tomorrow. But it's like I need to pinch myself to remind me of the fact. Hahaha... It feels weird cause it's like I dunno what I have to do.

Tomorrow, my sis also starts at her new school. At least she knows she has orientation, but me? Haiz.. just lessons proper followed by rehearsal! I just don't feel prepared for school. Anyway, it's as if the year hasn't ended at all. Days seem to blend into each other. The good thing is I have a 3 day week. So school and rehearsal on Tues and Wed. Driving on Thurs and Fri. Not bad huh? It's time to get that driving license before my 21st birthday! :)