Tired.
Weak, Weary

Disappointment.
Resigned, I'll get over it...

Looking ahead,
may it all be worth it.

It brings me disappointment, yet gives me hope.
at its infancy stages now, let's just allow it to make mistakes.

I made one of the hardest decisions I had to make in a long time. Words cannot describe how I feel.

Actually, numb is as close as I can get to it. All the planning has come to naught. No more thinking, wondering and grinning secretly to myself when I think of me living on my own for 5 months. Not in the near future anyway.

A rational decision was made. It can only be for the better I agree. Yet, I can't help but feel a slight sense of loss for what could have been. Hopefully, it will go away when I immerse myself in my readings and studying for midterms. 1 week to the deadline. So near, yet so far. I think it is because I have been doing so much research. Almost concrete plans... all down the drain. I shall learn how to stop mopping.

It's time to concentrate on what will be. On how not to regret my decision and to make use of the opportunities that come my way because of this decision.

Oh... did I mention, I'm not going for exchange anymore.