After 7 months in school.. the amount of irrelevant mails I get everyday still amazes me. It's been a long day... Back to back lessons... Bleahz... At least it rained today... Cool relief from the humid weather... Shall attempt to do some work later... at least read the social psych article... I'm feeling very nua now... Tihngs are piling up... I should stop slacking... ;)

Lalala... merrily typing away at my laptop... i'm looking for things to do online.. I just refuse to start studying!!!!

I feel that my mind is very detached from my actions... I feel incoherent.. and my hands refuses to type what I want to type... I am typing the wrong words at the wrong time.. Like 'next week' became 'last week'. Must be the 6 hours of sleep I got...

Yay!! Tonight is TV night!!! Can satisfy the TV junkie in me... Shall resolve to close my laptop in 5 to 15 mins...

ok... 12 mins gone.. I'm still stuck chatting... it looks as if it is gonna rain again...

Sheesh.. I need to prolong my attention span.. This always happens.. I'll follow my demo prof for the first hour of the lesson, have nice, coherent notes and then after that, I'll drift off... Shucks... Every single week without fail...

Like Dr. Nameless said, our attention span only lasts for 45 mins... so why is SMU trying to double it??? Bleahz!!!

I have this sudden urge to visit St Nicks soon... feeling nostalgic...

I came across an interesting blog. I think that they are doing is so cool...

Having an 'extended' break... I feel disoriented... Like I dunno what to do after lessons.. I don't even remember what I used to do on Monday afternoons before the break... I shall do work... soon...

I hate it when people in a group don't do their part for a project... I don't mind it when people push back the dateline within a reasonable frame, yet not when one makes empty promises. Please.. 1 week is definitely long enough to come up with a half page write up... I simply cannot think of any excuses...

It pisses me off because I'm the one doing the compiling... and I can't put everything together is some parts are missing. Darn... 'A's don't just fall from the sky.. you need to work for it... and at the rate I am going, I bet there is gonna be a lot of missing stuff from the first draft of the report...

On a happier note... Claire... I finally broke your Bejewelled high score... Mwahahaha... I think it not only requires skill... but luck plays quite a big element in it too... Yay!!!

Hols are drawing to an end... Well, nth on the work slate.. but plenty on the enjoyment side... I finished a book, watched a movie, sang karaoke for 9 hours, talked to a fren for a whole day, went shopping, bought a CD, applied for my campus account... and slacking away at the com. The only school related thing I did was probably my AS meeting.. at least we got our direction...

Quite an accomplishment on the slacking side I think... Now that I am recharged, I will use the past week's activities as a reminder that I should start studying, writing my paper, doing my projects and what not.. MWahahaha...

Just came across the script for this clock thingee cursor? I think it is kinda interesting...

OK man.. time to clean up... I shall do work these 2 days... and stop blogging.. I realise I have been blogging alot this pass week... It is the next best thing to doing work lar... So yeah.. I would rather write...

I was about to sleep.. until I went to check my mail... Straits Times is gonna charge a subscription fee for their online newspapers... Sigheth... Ok.. I admit I don't usually read the online version of the papers coz I have the actual one at home.. But it is good in the sense that I can just download or copy the article I want instead of cutting it out from the newspapers... And it is good to browse articles when I'm in school...

The online version doesn't even have my daily comic strips!!! Bah!

Watch Constantine today... well, my first movie since... eh.. I forgot when... I can't even remember my last movie... I gues it is sth watched during the last hols... Wow... That's long...

I felt that the show was not too bad... Keanu Reeves was spot on as the dark, brooding protagonist... and yeah... I felt that some parts of the movie was more like a horror movie than a thriller... They really know how to use shick tactics. Mwahahaha... I was like the only one who screamed in the cinema when sth shocking happened. Super malu lar...

I think the show is quite worth it... it's a good mix of humour... and lameness... and horror, gore, religious themes, suspense, twists and well, 1 main underlying theme. Well.. a hunk as a leading actor and a babe for the female protagonist... It seems to have almost everything in them... Thought provoking definitely...

Well, I shall go sleep now... Cause... I feel like it? Hahaha... Early ar... but since my room is in pitch darkness (moi sis is sleeping) except for light coming from my laptop, I think I shall not spoil my eyes any further... Plus I have to stuff those round blu-ish transparent things called contact lense into my eyes tmr morning for a cornea check up.. So I shall be considerate to my eyes and not tire them out too much...

Am doing research in the middle of the night... But I'm so wide awake... Considering that I've only been awake for 8 hours... It's like waking up at 9am in the morning and it's 5pm in the evening only. Shall try and finish my research soon... then maybe I'll not feel so guilty about not doing much this hols... and hopefully, I'll feel tired enough for a 'nap'

Got a project meeting at 1030 tmr... I need to wake up early!!!

Oh.. and Constantine!!! Yeah!! can't wait... oh.. and Hitch looks funny...

Mid Week Check

Hmmmm... let's see what I have done these few days... After spending time at the chalet over the weekend, the other things I've done is to finish a novel by Jeffrey Archer - Kane and Abel, a book on how 2 men, one rich and poor end up vying against each other because of a small misunderstanding/misinterpretation... Kinda disappointed by the ending but then again the twist was good...

Eh.. went for a whole night of karaoke... and been trying to beat Claire's score on my Bejeweled game...

This means I'm so screwed for the rest of the week... Okiez... to start work...

I just had my first meal of the day... Yeah.. ocnsidering that it started at 5... Mwahahaha.. .at this rate, I'll not be in school on Monday... but then again.. I have a project meeting at 930 tmr... So looks like I die die have to wake up early...

My throat feels tired from singing so much last night... I don't even feel like singing along to the songs when my media player is blasting them... And i think the harmonising thing is quite addictive... When I listen to a song, I'll try to harminise... But try is the key word lar... Hahahaha... Don't think I'll go for another singing session so soon..

Just got an SMS.... my meeting is pushed later... yay!!! 1 more hour of sleep... I gotta start doing work... Looking for fallacies...

Can anyone advise...

P1: Citizens above 50 will get a lower percentage of their salary put into CPF.
P2: If less money is put in CPF, those above 50 will take home more money.
P3: The amount of tax one has to pay is determined by the amount of money one takes home.
SC1: Those above 50 will have to pay high tax.
P4: Those above 50 should not be allowed to pay more tax

Conclusion: Tax rates for those above 50 should be cut.

Is the above a fallacy???

Hmmmm.. it;s almost 7,, a quick post before I go to sleep to document this momentous night...

Yeah.. you read right... I'm going to sleep... I just got home actually... about half an hour ago... was out singing KTV with frens.. wah.. after like 9 plus almost 10 hours, we STILL can't finish the songs we wanted to sing... artistes like Harlem Yu and SHE... Sigh.. I sound damn hardcore lar... Anyway, this kind of marked the first time I stayed out the whole night without having a chalet or hotel stay as an excuse... Yeah... my parents are kinda strict bout these stuff... but today, my mum said i fi really wanted, I could stay out and stuff... Hmmm... More freedom as I grow older?

Anyway, so as I was taking the first North-bound train home, I saw people or rather students i ntheir uniforms preparing for school... It was kind of weird that while I just ended my day, others are starting theirs...

For a while, I kinda wished that I was part of that routine again... Yeah... I may sound nuts.. but nvm... Like one of my fren said, I'm feeling like that cause 'I am now a visitor to the routine and not a 'regular' anymore'... Well, couldn't agree more with her...

Yawn... shall really tuen in now... or i'll only wake up when the sun sets... and I still have other stuff to do... So ya.. Night world...

I love late night bitching sessions... I can forsee my body clock going topsy turvy this hols again... But I like chatting late into the night, replying mail, reading stuff... Ok... shall turn in soon..

Good Night World...

I just realised I have no frontpage after I reformatted my laptop... Sheesh... I took 2 months to figure that out... Oh ya.. look forward to a new layout.. I'm kinda sick of my cake pic... (Yeah.. it is a cake I baked... not some donut!!!)

Hmmm... looking forward to a week of recuperation. I'm gonna sing!!! I'm going out!!! I'm going shopping!!! I don't care... I NEED retail therapy... ya.. and of course catch up on projects and stuff... Yeppies...

And DARN!!! I wasn't on the lucky winners who struck anything in the CNY Toto draw last week...

Hahaha... My mum's friends at over at my place and I'm super amused with this kid. he is 6 and he is the typical cute small boy... *screams and gushes!!!* That's what I like about life... there are always 2 sides to it.. Good and bad, Happy and sad (it rhymes!!!). I shall amuse myself with him... tatata...

I miss having an internet connection… Ok.. I was too lazy to walk to the lobby or to Macs @ East Coast in the middle of the night to surf the net… Mwahahaha…

Well, the whole thing is over and done with… No more dreaming about it days before the activity. I really feel as if a huge burden is lifted off my shoulders. I don’t want to think about the repercussions and stuff...Well, to say the thing was successful will be seriously lying through my teeth.

The last 2 days or even the past week has been an emotional roller coaster. I love the people around me who have been giving me so much support.. yet at the same time, there were also some who went back on their words and stuff like that… Oh.. I love my dad!!! Which dad would bother to drive from Novena to Geylang to pick up food, then deliver it to East Coast for his daughter? Thinking of it just makes tears well in my eyes… So any ideas what to give him for a birthday present?

I should just get a phlog… I forgot so many things I wanted to say liaoz…

I dunno lar. I think I’m too numb to feel upset… Seriously, I didn’t eat much the whole night. I just had no appetite. I don’t feel like doing anything I admit it was fun at times.. Like when we were talking to the profs or singing along to guitar or sth… but after that… you look at stark reality… The world you constructed just comes crashing down…

Have been experiencing a lot of cognitive dissonance these few days too. It’s like trying to reconcile and justify what I think and what I have done.

I shall not mince my words here… Because this is MY blog… and I want to say whatever I feel like saying here… I shall not be hypocritical or fake like the many ppl out there… I don’t think I fared very well as a leader… Serious... but don’t worry.. I’ll get over it and bounce back stronger than before… I made a few mistakes which I will definitely learn from it…

1) Never give in too much to people. Sometimes, they will just take too much advantage of you till you end up doing everything

2) If others don’t have an opinion, don’t really assume they don’t. Make sure they can commit to help you and stuff before you embark on any mission because you really need their support.

3) There is this phrase called ‘delegation of tasks’

4) Don’t think I am superwoman!

5) A wrong decision kills… Like very badly…

Oh well. End of report… I just wish things had turned out differently… But I also refuse to blame myself wholly for it. I think I put in more effort than anyone else to run this thing and it is just bad that things didn’t turn out as planned. Life will still go on. I just wished I had the chance to do it again.

Am happy once again... Feeling a lot of emotional ups and downs this week... Kinda weird.. I think I have never felt so emotional since I don't know when.. Must be the stress...

But just checked my email... There's this prof who is actively helping me promote the event... SO SUPER SWEET!!!! and he is not even a Prof from Social Science .He teaches Econs... Although response is still here and there.. but I really appreciate what he is doing...

Hmmm.. 'nuff said... I need to pia AS and pack my stuff...

So till tonight!!! Hahaha... Costa Sands has free internet 24 hrs... Expect me!!!

Ok.. I survived 2 tests... Really enjoy studying into the night... But that's not exactly the point I guess... But I'm so mentally drained, I don't even feel any emotions regarding the outing anymore... I seriously can't be bothered... i'm so sick and tired of it and I think it's all my fault... Bad planning? not being able to see the whole picture? Guilty as charged...

Bleahz... Let's cross our fingers and hope that everything will be fine... At least a turn out of 30 ppl?

Disclaimer: Relax.. I'm ok... I just needed to get it off... Don't worry so much ya...

Hmmmm... a big thank you to friends who cared... Thanks for the support... I'm fine liaoz... really... I'm sure we'll pull this off... It's just a culmination of tests, projects and stuff that got me short on my fuse that day...

Feeling at peace with myself... I don't know why also.. Though I still have more than half to study for social psychology... Not kidding really... but then so far I have been quite successful in remembering stuff covered in class... Looks like I was wrong about social psych lessons... =)

Ok.. back to the books... or else tonight really don't have to sleep liaoz...

Hmmmm... V-day came and went... Had an enjoyable dinner... Pity I didn't go sing K... even though I also didn't do much work at home.. but I guess I will feel more guilty if I had went with you guys to sing.. Mwahahaha... Oh well.. there's always the next time...

11 hours before the end of CT... presentation... wish me luck... Ok.. 1 more chapter of social psych before I retire for the night... ;)

Dearest Friends.. Kindly remind me NEVER EVER to bite off more than I can chew... and also.. to NOT EVER PROCRASTINATE again.. Oh.. how I detest that word... although I think it is more of the procrastination that drove me to the state I'm in now... 5 days of CNY hols wasted.. *Kapoot*.. down the drain.. What have I accomplished? Close to nth... a small percentage of what I ams supposed to finish and do... Bleahz...

None of the democracy stuff is going in... and I realise that social psych is not as easy as it seems... My prof notes seems sparsed which means I gotta do my own notes... I'm switching form democracy to social psych and back within hours... which can be quite traumatic...

Arghz!!! I need 48 hours a day for the next 4 days... Hmmm... on hindsight.. it may not even be enough!!! Ok... enough whining... I just needed to get this off my chest before I sleep... Lessons @ 1015 tmr... how i lurve my dad... =)

The cut on my finger has became an ugly red welt... Been super unproductive.. Took a whole afternoon to read a democracy reading... Sianz... Not working hard as usual... But then again.. I'm clearer on some stuff... Just that I need to commit them to memory... 1 more day.. Gambate!!!

Well.. obviously studying is not the only thing on my mind this weekend... but I'll just try my best to balance the 2.. .well.. I feel like I'm in sec sch, trying to cram for tests/exams the night before... Mwahahaha... Hope everything will be fine.. if not, I'll just have to write a better paper/ mug harder for finals for demo, give a better presentation/research/work harder for finals for social psych.. and err... screw CT!!! Mwahahaha...

Kinda peeved... esp when ppl dun reply your emails... which are explicitly stated URGENT!!! GaH!!! but then again... Another person just made my day... So there.. you win some, you lose some...

Hmmmm.. I like it when the words which I want to write start flowing... Gillian is a happy girl today....

I wanna watch Constantine!!!

Hmmm... it's the 3rd day of the new year.. It's 12.33 at night.. Not sleeping yet cause... I gotta mug? Mwahahaha... been slacking too much the past 2 days... See ar.. even though I'm not going visiting this year, my relatives could visit me... so what I did yesterday was to rot in front of my laptop playing games... ;) and after that, at about 1 plus plus... I went to play Mahjong after my relatives left with my siblings.. Kinda funny... As it was late and stuff, there was a game my sister had one tile less.. so obviously she couldn't game... and then the very next game, it was my turn to be missing a tile... I guess we were too tired.. but we persisted and after some breaks to minch on food, we ended one whole round at 4 plus... Hahaha...

Oh.. and reunion dinner with my extended family was nice too... I thought it would be kinda weird at first cause I'm not exactly that close to my cousins... so we were just politely sitting therewatching TV... but afterwatching The Rat Race at about 12.30am, we started playing dai dee.. and bridge... and it went on to Mahjong again... Mwahahaha... so after playing Mahjong for like 2 days, my hands are not that itchy anymore... ;) Hmmmm... but we din bet any money... It's just a social game... hahaha... Hahaha.. we left at about 1 plus... almost 2am if I'm not wrong...

Hmmm.. so many updates... The Amazing Race ended it's run yesterday... I didn't want Freddy and Kendra to win... but then again.. it's all about luck... Oh well.. another month to the next season.. Yippee!!! well.. Survivor is back... and I have Desperate Housewifes and American Idol to watch currently...

Oh well.. time to start digesting some democracy... Good Night world...
Have sweet dreams.. and a Happy New year!!!

Chinese New Year is here... 祝各位：新年快乐， 心想事成， 身体健康， 万事如意， 财源滚滚， 事事顺利。。。

Yeppies!!! Time to pig out... Pineapple tarts, Bak Kwa... Love Letters... Kui Lapis!! Moi favourite... Oh.. and mixed nuts... Mandarin oranges included...

Hmmm.. realise I don't have like sweets or cookies at home... Mwahahaha... but then again, I will spend a quiet new year at home. Had reunion dinner last night... going for another one later... Pigging out lar...

But it's nice having reunion dinner... Steam boat.. with loads of food... and then bantering at the table. It's nice that we sit down as a family to eat... Felt that I haven't done it for a long time.. Especially since I was out late the last few nights.. Hahaha... Coupled with a 'high' sister... It was funny...

In class now... stoned... I got a miserable blog.. I realise I have been complaining in my last few entries... Hahaha... But I believe life has it's ups and downs... You'll be happy on some days, miserable on others, stressed on some and hyper on next... I thik it is a cycle... Though I feel that when happy things happen to me, I tend not to blog it.. but when I'm upset, my blog becomes an outlet...

I think we should all look at happier stuff and blog about them... ;)

It's been a long day... I shall happily say that my CT project is finishe.d. Now for the presentation.. Well, the can's not really done.. but we've tried our best... Hahaha... Anyway, I think it is quite a feat when you imagine 4 girls trying to do such mechanical stuff.. and plus majority of the groups was from arts stream.. Ok. No offence to Arts people here... Even me with my science stuff can't do much about the calculations.. It's more of trying to 'see' it!!!

Finally, everything about the outing is kind of settled.. Really glad for the people who have been around supporting me... and of course to others who have been patiently listening to my whining... Now awaiting the proposal.. ;)

Thinking whether I should go out for dinner on V-day... a lot of stuff to do leh.. but then again... it's kind of miserable to spend V-day alone... not that I have another half to spend it with... but at least with my frens.. It'll be nice...

I feel off my bike today... eh... like my 1st time... Maybe not fall... I was turning... or as Siyi said, swerving right when this guy came chrging towards me on his bike at top speed. I shall conclude that he is trying to show off... Anyway... he kind of tumbled and rolled forward.. while I was trying hard to balance myself... Ok.. in the end he was unhurt, and I end up with 2 very nice, deep-looking cuts... GreAt!~!~ It's kinda gross to look at it lar... it's like the skin got tore apart like 2mm maybe... but i dun thin kit is that deep.. shall apply some antoseptic later... *ouch!* it will hurt later when I bathe... :(

Yeah.. what pissed me off was that he put the blame all on me... and he was more concerned about some stupid thing at the front of his bike that costs 200 freaking bucks (maybe for him to show off) instead of me!!! IdI@T! ok.. I just like the '@' sign there... Luckily I didn't scrap my knees..

word of caution: don't go cycling when you are sleepy.. I had trouble trying to peddle my bike today... my legs are aching... Yeah.. lack of exercise... Luckily I dodn't develop any phobias for bicycles... Don't think I grew much darker even though the sun was blazing...

Somehow, I think it's gonna rain during CNY... as it has been almost every year. Why? Cause the sky was threatening to rain the last 2 days.. but somehow, the blazing sun will always shine through... So if it rains during CNY, remember, you read it here first!

Shall go clean my wounds and then go sleep... I'm super tired... Making a trip to East Coast tmr again... If I can wake up earlier tmr, I can squeeze in some time for studying democracy. after that, I 'll be trying out how to do my pringles can.... Wish me luck... Do or die.. 1 more week to presentation!

Another stone for me to trip over... Can't believe I'm looking at the outing stuff barely 7 hours after I stopped last night... nvm.. happier times are in sight... Going out later...

You Are a Peacemaker Soul

You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can.War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace.You are a good mediator and a true negotiator.Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy. While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental.You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take.On the flip side, you've got a great sense of humor and wit.You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice. Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Made a stupid mistake today!!! Shouldn't have been too anxious to send out the email... Now it's gonna be quite stupid if I gotta retraqct it.. Ah well.. Gillian.. sth on the learning curve... Shit! Why did Sentosa do away with their big and nice chalet? Those 12 beds-2 bedroom kind... Now we are stuck with a room for 2 persons max according to costa sands website.. totally don't make sense.. can I just spend the night by the beach, watching the stars?

Super stressed this week with the outing... Time's running out! ack! Really appreciate the help that Renjie, Meiju and Baoqin gave... Don't know what I'll do without you all.. Serious... Now.. need to straighten out the arrangements... Hahaha...

Bleahz.. it's gonna be another of those nights.. whereby I'll toss and turn cause I can't get the thoughts out of my head... It's late.. almost 4.10... And I've been doing work.. as in more official stuff since 4 hours ago.. Winz... A lot of re-shuffling, strategies and stuff... urgh! Not very friendly...

I'm super messed up now.. Why Sentosa and not East Coast? I also don't know... WHY??? HELP!!! I need to take a breather... Going cycling tomorrow... I need it...

On a happier note.. spoke to a fren... just enjoyed the conversation whining, bitching, complaining... and basically just talking to her though the connection over Skype was kinda bad.. hahaha...

I'm kind of pissed.. I'm supposed to have a project meeting now.. but a lot of people haven't done their research yet... Sheeeeeetttttt lar... I hate it when people in your groups don't coorperate... As in this wasn't like a last min thing... areas were assigned like 2 WEEKS ago!!! You mean everyone is so busy that they don't have time to do research? What about ppl like me who stayed up to compile then (Ok.. i was also playing games.. but I don't think that is the point!) Excuses like Internet was down.. things like that... Gets on my nerves sometimes.. plus I'm sleepy and hungry now...

I hate in when I'm in a group when the people are like super off... And i feel like i'm in 2 of it now... Sianz...

I've been in a 'Stress Gillian out' mood the last few days.. putting pressure on myself to study demo, social psych cause I realised I haven't touched anything since start of school... Superb! I'm trying to turn myself from Slacker to Mugger in 1 sec flat.. which obviously doesn't work cause I'm bloggign instead of studying despite the fact that I have readings to do, AS homework to attempt, it is 12.30 am at night and I have 830 lessons tmr... Sheesh! I need to get my priorities right!

I'm starting to put pressure on myself cause I realise my mid terms are coming. Maybe doing decently well last term has made me mor ecomplacent... I wasn't that hardworking last term.. but at least I understand what is going on. This term, I feel like I'm just floating from class to class, lesson to lesson, not absorbing much. Maybe it is because I don't really like what I'm doing this term. Or I haven't grew to like it.

Did some quick research for democracy tmr so that Iwon't be like a dumb idiot when we talk about electoral systems.. I actually think it is interesting... Yeah.. i think I'm kinda nuts.. but if I have the time to read them and go thruough them carefully, I think it can be interesting... I need to do less stupid things online and actually do work!

I stayed in sch till 9 today... CT project stretched ALL the way from 1 to 6. and we still haven't gotten the container done... sucks leh... but I still like our idea... Yeah... trying not to admit defeat here... Sighz.. after all the hard work put in, 80% completed, the last 20% had to screw up... hahaha... Tomorrow will be a better day.

Bogged down by the planning of social science outing too.. Don't exactly regret taking it up.. but it is hard to coordinate 5 persons... So it sucks.. but I think today's meeting was quite productive... I just hope things will go as planned.. after all, it is the 1st 'big' even to be organised by SSS... I think I'm just killing myself slowly... On week 7, I have CT presentation, Democracy test, Social Psych test and the outing is on the Sat that week... This is just so wonderful!!1

Ahhh!!! I have 5 days next week during CNY... Muggerhood.. here I come!!!

Oh... I'm going to get the result of the MAPP Personality test I took 2 weeks ago tomorrow... Kinda excited.. though I'm too tired to feel it now...

Shall try and understand a bit more democracy.. then it is going off to dreamland.... I shall do AS tmr during democracy... Mwahahaha....

No I think I am super bo liaoz... hahaha.... It is like 445 am!!! and I was like photo blogging pictures of my nice room.. I must be insane!!! Oh well.. better do it now that I got the mood or else I'll procrastinate and never post them up.. Mwahahaha... Oh.. and I put them in chronological order.. so you can just scroll down and read instead of scolling up. or rather, the latest entry is what happened first...

Now, my room is a nice hue of morning glory.. which is like kinda beige... Mwahahaha... Okiez.. that's all for now... If I'm in the mood, I'll take pics of my room now... if not.. then too bad...

My nice display cupboard... yes.. everything had to be packed up... 

And a picture of my messy table while I was packing... 

After like packing for eons... The table was almost cleared... and most of the cupboards were empty... 

Another empty cupboard!!! Where did everything go???

I put some of my stuff into a big box...  

And all my soft toys into a big bag...

Hahaha.... sort of shoved quite a lot of things into the cupboards... See my Kamien is lying at the bottom together with my Music dictionary and AB guides... Mwahahaha.. Haven't touched it in a long long time... As for those I could not hide, I moved them into the living room.. and so.. erm.... 

This created a mess in the living room!!! 

I'm super tired... spent today and yesterday packing my room... Bleahz...

No time to do readings or any work.. shall do sth tmr now that everything is back in place... Shall now entertain you all with photos of me clearing my room a few days ago... =)

This is a pic I took when I watched the Singapor evs Indonesia final @ the National Stidium... Bleahz.. Lousy Camera... maximum zoom and the players look so blurred... 

My room is freaking tidy.. and clean and neat...

ShaLL post pics up soon... Of the long, ardous task of pakcing my stuff, clearing my room of bits and pieces.. and the mess I made out of the living room.. Mwahahaha... All in a bid to get my room a nice new coat of paint.. the process of which I was totally not involved cause I stayed in school trying to study democracy... (Note: trying is the keyword.. as usual)

so... my room is now spick and span with the cupboards empty, waiting for me to fill it up.. and i got a whole new layout.. as in the furnitures were rearranged... hahahah...

Hmmmm.. Just an observation... In the past, when I wanted to go out, I would ask, "Mummy, Can I go out today?"... Den my mum may come with a barrage of question like who and where I'll be going... Now, I just go.. "Mum, I'm going out later" or "I'll be going out on Sat... and I just go out...

Mwahahaha... Times have changed...

I saw Taufik and Sylvester!!! ok.. big deal.. so did like a hundred other people at SMU.... Hmmm.. paying them so much just to come here and belt out 3 songs each... Ok lar... wasn't that bad... as in I still think Taufik can sing... as for Sly, I think he has to like increase his repetoire... He sang 安静, It's my Life and He's ain't Heavy, He's my Brother... It wasn't tt bad... but ok lar... Taufik sang Me and Mrs Jones, Superstition and of course, I Dream... I think Taufik's a better performer than Sly.. but Sly seemed mor efriendly.. as in he bothered to get down and shake hands with screaming girls @ the front of the stage... (Nope.. I wasn't there...) whilst Taufik came on with shades and stuff...

however, I think it is still a waste of money.. In fact, a lot of things about Patron's Day is like 'for show' kind... I dun think that many students stayed back... A lot of people were involved... but the crowd was ok.. Not like super packed or sth... Others would rather stay at home on their free day or leave after lesosns...

Like how many people actually walked around the booths? Those who came for our lucky dip is like our own people and friends and the occassional strangers... Hmmmm... But it was also the first time I stood so close to President Nathan lar... Hmmm.. not more than half a metre...

Oh.. went Adam Road Hawker Centre and I saw Stephanie Sun... She is really really very skinny... and she is so small size... And she looked quite plain... so couldn't really recognise her...

Today's patron's day!!! yay!!!

The School is buzzing with activities, setting up of booths, big tents, and loads of food!!! Mwahahaha... Me? I'm stuck in gsr (groups study room) trying to do some research for a meeting that is gonna take place in half an hour's time.. will miss the beginning but I do hope the meeting ends early enough so that I can join in the activities later... Mwahahaha...

went for my cousin's wedding dinner yesterday... Food was not bad though it was my 1st wedding dinner in like years... Yeah... and I bet there is a longer waiting time for the next one.. cause the rest of the cousins on my father's side is like my age or younger and studying... and I doubt we'll get married tt early.. Mwahahahaa...

Hmmmm... I'm slacking my time awaaaaay... So much reading to catch up on...

Ok... my project mates will think I'm a crazy nut who wake up at the crack of dawn to reply their emails... Mwahahaha....

School Fees have gone up!!! I think I need to get a job... an increment of $850 is quite a lot... Well, just to dispel the 'myth' that SMU undergrads are rejects from NTU or/and NUS... they have decided to charge what a premium university charges...

Ya... premium with rather useless lessons... which has assigment topics like "My Sky is in My Heart". And with profs which uses their lessons as an opportunity for their frens with extreme views to air them... it certainly provokes thinking... Hmmmm... Creativity!

Hmmm... now to shift your attention to another (of my favourite) sport.. Tennis! The Australian Open, one of the 4 Grand Slams of the tennis season started today... However, defending Australian Open Champion, Belgian Justine Henin-Hardenne, a player whom I think is damn cool is not playing due to some injury...

Hahaha... nth much lar.. just looking at the live scores now... I feel that tennis is such a game that can be so unpredictable. Like players who are seeded ( ie: Players who are ranked the top 32 in the tournament based on points they received from each tournament) can be eliminated in the early rounds of the match by lessor-known opponents...

Hmmm.. watched the Singapore vs. Indonesia match live at Kallang Stadium yesterday... It was painted in red with only a small portion reserved for the white-wearing Indonesian fans... But then again, because the flags of the 2 countries are so similar, I mean you would be supporting either side if you wear red or white... Hahaha...

Anyway, shouted till my voice is kinda hoarse today, aggravating a cough I had since yesterday.. But it was fun.. Like not heart-stopping excitement or sth.. given that Singapore had like a 2 goal lead going into the final leg so if they lost it, it was like a major screw-up! I think I feel more excitement watching a Manchester United vs. Chelsea match or sth... but then again, last night was as close as I could get to any major soccer match! The bad thing about watching a match live is that there are no replays.. so if you missed the goal, well, you missed it! Heh! and there was no commentators... and since I didn't know who was who except for Agu Casmir simply because of his hair colour, I had no idea who was passing the ball to who. Hahaha.. I gotta admit I think I watched too many EPL matched... until I can sort of identify players from certain teams just be looking at their numbers or from their profile... Anyway, the Kallang wave was good... but quite out of point since you can't watch the action when the wave goes on... and because I was seating rather near the Indonesian fans, there were a few instances whereby Singaporeans were standing on the seats cause sth happened... Oh.. and not to mention spectators who think they know everything and they can play better than the players... criticizing and giving comments. What I didn't like was the fact that Singaporeans boo-ed whenever Indonesia's name was mentioned like when the starting XI was called and stuff like that.. Please show some graciousness. Or maybe it is due to the 'rivalry' before the match. However, all was over after the match when Indonesians recieved their medals to thundarous applause... :)

Hmmm.. so finally sth to show that Singapore soccer is not dead yet...

Hmmmm.. I feel as if I am going to move house... What I did today was to pack stuff from my cupboard into a big big box... What were they??? Hmmm... letters, yearbooks, my autograph book.. yes.. the one from Primary School whereby people write 'nice' stuff and particulars and stuff.. Gee... I dun think I've kept in touch with any of them... hahahaha... I dunno.. and a lot of rubbish.. Programmes from most concerts I've attended... Photos of all sorts.. Thailand, Prague, Crap photos.. and loads of letters... :)

Nope.. I'm not moving house.. but my room's gonna get a new coat of paint... hence the packing and stuff... and yeah.. a bit of re-arranging of furnitures and stuff.. my sister got sick of sleeping on the floor... she wants to upgrade to the 2nd level (ie: a double decker bed!) Mwahahaha... but I bet it'll be be another 2 or 3 weeks before everything is settled... So meanwhile, my cupboards are empty but the table is as messy as ever.. hiakz...

I feel my life is kinda void.. No.. I dun exactly need a guy.. but just that my blog is nth but work related... Like hellos? Anything more interesting thing about me???

This term has started off at a very fast pace.. I still feel as if I am like running for the bus.. or even a train... It is not that I don't understand my lessons.. but I just don't bother to do the extra readings, notes, research which I think I should do. I'm just gonna leave everthing as it is and panic when exams/tests comes.. Great! *rolls eyes*

actually I feel quite slack this weekend... Though I'm positivly sure I will have loads of things to do when I get down to counting it... Why not start now?

1) Read up on Sical Psychology. My prof's at chapter 2 or 3.. and I'm still stuck at maybe the foreword..

2) I have a BGS individual assignment that takes up 15% of my grade due next Thursday.. Now, shouldn't I like read the chapter to find out more of what it is about?

3) I should really read through my Analytical Skills book instead of just skimming through and deluding myself that I know what it is talking about because I DON'T!!!

4) Yeah.. read up about constitutions in the World for Democracy...

Throw in a soccer match on Sunday... but balance it with a supposedly free day tmr except for a meeting.. I think I can afford to slack tonight away except that it feels exceptionally weird... Like exceptionally free...

I've been rotting in school for the past 2 hours... waiting for some talk to start at 5.30.. which means I have to go soon... Ok... i admit... I judge ppl too easily and on too frivolous things... Had a meeting with my project grp today... It wasn't as bad as I thought.... and yeah.. I hope we can work together... Mwahahaha...

My Democracy prof speaks greek!!! HELp!!!!!!! I'm seriously having trouble understanding him.. and I dun think he has a good impression of the class.. or else he is just in a bad mood today...

So many things to blog about, so little time.. and everything's stuck... It's the 2nd week of school only.. yet I feel that I have been laden with so much to do... Bleahz...

Lemme see... I need to go read up on BGS, Social Psych and do my AS homework... after my talk which ends @ 6.30... so I bet I'll just go home and rot somemore on my laptop... Mwahahaha... and yeah... wad was I doing the past 2 hours I was rotting while waiting for my talk? I was... err.. on MSN... playing stupid games... and i dunno wad else... stoning i guess...

8.30 lessons tmr.. I should go sleep soon... I finally dropped CAT... I finally found a bag I like... I may go get it... or maybe get 2... Mwahahaha.. I'm greedy...

I should go sleep soon... but I think I'll just hang online till 12.. then tmr I can't get up.. Great... I need to bathe too! Cya soon world...

Tmr I'll be home early too... I lurve school (not)!

I change my layout.. or rather, just the picture since Christmas is over.. and since I have no idea what to put there, I decided that I will indulge you readers with the view of the Chocolate Fudge Cake i baked over the hols... Mwahaha...

First week of school came and went... countdown: 13 more weeks... Time flies so it'll be over before I know it... Great~!~

This reminds me I gotta change my blog layout cause it is out of point.. .Christmas'04 was over yesterday.. Yeah... after the 12 days...

Well, we are assigned our projects for the various modules... My groupings are generally ok except for one whereby there are ppl with not-so-nice histories... But then again, it's good to be drawn out of my comfort zone and experiment working with them... I seriously dun mind giving everyone a chance... :) ya right.. lame consolation... *wink*

I finally dropped CAT.. after like 1 mth plus of agonizing over it... and simply cause I've decided to be more active in some other projects... and I dun think I can cope.. Simple. Short. Sweet.

And so, On my first ever free day since I started uni, I woke up late... at about 11.. which I consder a luxury since I'm up before 9 the previous 4 days... and I just so wanted to nua at home... and after lunch, I went to fix my phone's keypad before the warrenty expired... The Nokia Care Centre at Wheelock is freaking packed!!! Bleahz.. I waited 1 and a half hours for my turn to 'complain' about my phone, and 2 hours for them to repair my phone.. At least I got it back on the same they... They should open more counters or sth.... Or maybe it is because I went after lunch.. there were like 46 ppl ahead of me in the queue?

So I went shopping... Borders, Topshop, S&K... and I got depressed... Can't find clothes I like... or those tt look good on me... sianz... and here I am, back home, blogging... I need more clothes.. and I wanna go Bugis and look at bags...

I'm in the midst of my first CAT class... It is all about excel and nth else.. The first lesson kinda boring cause he's teaching the damn basics of basics of excel like adding in toolbars and other things... but the module is not as easy as it seems.. dreading the formulas and modelling and whatever stuff tt I can't recognise... Bah!!! But no choice.. it is not a core module... I just hope they won't announce next term that it is NOT compulsary for social science students... I'll just KILL myself...

Yawn.. better pay attention.. he seems to be going on to more interesting things...

But the good thing is I can surf the net and do a lot of crap stuff legitimately as long as I don't lose him or he doesn't lose me midway... =)

I walked out to the bus stop and I realised sth... I'll be turning 20 this year!!! Ok... and so will most of the people reading this blog.. but that's not the point!!! Ok.. I dunno wad's the point... nvm....

reformatted my com... din feel any sadness at all.. but now there is a slight hitch... I can't seem to get all the IBM stuff... Like when I adjust the brightness or volume, the level does not appear on the screen.. Looks like I gotta make another trip down to the computer helpdesk tmr... Afterall, I haf like the afternoon free... But i got Office 2003 which looks quite cool... Hahaha... I shall resolve not to load too many things (read: games) into my laptop...

8.30 lesson tmr... shall sleep early and not be late and not take a cab...

I think there should be a rule that prohibit the hosts of Charity Shows to speak when artistes are doing some death-defying stunt cause I think it disrupts their concentration... I'm not exactly interested in their chattering about making calls to the donation lines and the number of opportunities in the lucky draw. I kinda dislikes these charity shows that dangles lucky draw prizes for people who donate cause I believe that donations come from the heart. The way they put it is 'Please donate so you can win a prize or get some discount coupon'. And their commercials run along the line of: "I donated and I'm the lucky recipient of a new car, or a windfall". Like do we always expect sth in return when we give.

Ok.. what a post to start off the new year. But I was just watching the tape of the "Affairs of the Heart' charity show and I really couldn't stand the hosts chattering when Tay Ping Hui was trying to walk the tightrope backwards in heels... Like just shut up lar... they went on and on about how many more minutes left before the chance to win $10K in cash is gone...

Okiez... The past year has been full of ups and down. I learnt a lot about myself which i think is good and becoming half-financially independent is quite a good thing but there are the many tragedies that happen on a large scale basis like the tsunamis and stuff... but then again, Life still goes on... I still gotta wake up early for school tmr... blah blah blah.. but i think you can really see the world kinda united for once, sending help, people of different races, different countries making donations to the affected countries... It brings people together... But then we mourn for the hundreds of thousand of lives lost. Family who got seperated, children orphaned.
I mean it's a weird thing to happen to 'usher in the new year'.

Other than that, I gotta switch myself to mugger-project-mode. See all smu-ers in school by next week... the only thing I'll be looking forward to is maybe the end of Thursday every week and no project meetings on Friday... Hahaha...

Christmas came and went... But as I grow older, I realise I no longer look forward to the presents and stuff.. or maybe there isn't really much to look forward to anyway. I mean I am no longer a kid who fancies toys.. anyway, I can always go buy things I like instead of waiting for ppl to give it to me.. But then, it is always the thought that counts.. (and it feels good to be remembered...) Afterall, you don't expect ppl to get you an iPod mini for Christmas.. .Mwahahaha..

Went carolling at Raffles today. After 4 long years, I still feel kinda lost and overwhelmed... Miss the 2 pm session.. but felt kinda bad after that because there were only 3 altos singing... *oops* but then again, I dun think I would have made such a great difference anyway.

well.. This Christmas is more of going for gatherings, spending quality time with friends and family... and pigging out on turkey, ham, roast beef and other Christmas-sy food.

But this Christmas also made me see the fragility of human life. How growing old can be scary... and how easily one can collapsed when one is old and in ill health. Shall be MIA for the next few days as I have some family matters to attend to...

Anyway, Happy Boxing Day!!!

Merry Christmas to One and ALL!!! yay!!! Spread the warmth, and joy and love of Christmas!!! *hugs*

Crap at 1.45 am at night...

Things I've Realised!

1) I've changed over the years...
2) I can survive without the telephone
3) I have a high level of tolerance (eg: Working at the law firm)
4) I'm too nice for my own good (refer to the law firm example)
5) I like to wallow in self-pity (Ha! Ha!)
6) I think I look good with brown hair...
7) I actually can live without my laptop or going online when there's no school...
8) I'm crapping here...
9) Uni Life is NOT slack!
10) I hate individual presentations
11) I kinda like it... (refers to above - despite my whining)
12) I'm a genius (according to a certain Ms Peh) since I managed to learn how to cycle in 2 sessions!
13) I'm still fickle-minded and indecisive
14) I kinda like baking (Look at the cake below!)
15) Karaoke is a quite a close replacment for choir...

which brings me back to carolling.. I was at Raffles Hotel watching my juniors perform yesterday... and I invariably found myself singing along to almost every song... I guess carolling is what sets me in the Christmas mood for the past few years... It's like so nice to be a part of them, singing away, trying to spread the Christmas cheer.. and maybe I do enjoy the applause I get from people... Hahaha...

I dun get it why Orchard is so crowded nowadays... I still dunno wad to get for my mum.. It's seriously the thought that counts... so I dun wanna buy some stupid frivolous stuff for the sake of it... but then it's like I also wanna show some gesture... Gone were the days I would make some card or paper flowers or stars... I've kinda grown out of it... (and a lot of things along the way). I guess I'll end up giving her nth... Sigh... and I'm not exactly in the Christmas mood... Maybe when I see the food, turkey, ham and things like that... hahaha... but I'm not piggish!

Yummy Yummy!!! 

Nice cake? 

hahaha... I like the 2 pics below.. Spent the 1st day after work nua-ing at home, listening to/watching VCDs and DVDs... and abandoning my plans to go out to 1) Get my laptop fixed.. and 2) get Christmas presents.. and err... 3) go carolling.. But I'll go tomorrow.. Really...

Not to mention I still have to pack my table and stuff.. but it's just so me.. I'm a big procrastinator....

But the best thing I did today was of course bake the wonderfully delicious cake below... looks pro or not??? Chocolate Fudge Cake!!! Hey.. this is not from some cake mix kaez... must sieve flour, cook the fudge and stuff... but it's also kinda scary when you see 300g of butter.. which is errr.. like one and a quarter cube of butter going in... And 300 g of chocolate.. so it is indeed quite chocolate-y... Yummy!!!

P.S I think I own sufficient VCDs/DVDs to have quite a nice karaoke session at home... Mwahahaha...

My face feels tight now... I used on a mask just now... Sigh.. pimple breakout again... I didn't have it last time (when I was like in sec sch...) so why ain't i growing any taller now?

Welcome to my mundane life... Work's fine.. I have 3 more days.. 20th, 21st and 27th.. Dun ask why 27th... Yar... Life's fine.. just a tad routine-y and boring... Christmas is coming soon... in like a week?? So how come I'm so not in the Christmassy mood? This sucks!!! Dunno wad presents to buy, piles of Christmas cards waiting for me to write in them... And i dun wanna go down to Orchard to walk walk.. cause it is freaking packed... but then again, it is where I can shop the longest... Where can I find some christmas cheer??? I just find this Christmas so empty... Maybe it has to do with not carolling??? Since I have been busy during Christmas the past 3 years with carolling... But if I go back, I kinda feel extra... so it is quite sianz also....

I need to find sth meaningful to occupy myself with.. Does driving count?? Or I'm sriously contemplating volunteering... I have no idea why.. but I feel that my life is such a blank now.. so aimless, nothing to work for, nth to do.. I just play computer, chat... read books, watch tv...

It's like if I din haf a job, I really dunno wad I'll do... Maybe go out more often? But then, maybe not.. so i'll rot even more at home? Great!

I shall go and rent more books tmr... Read this book by Jean Sasson... . it is a story of a Saudi Arabia princess... and there are a few more books to this sth like series... I kinda like these sort of books tt tells of a culture tt is different from ours... next on my list: Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown since the WHOLE WORLD seem to be waxing lyrical about it... Man and Boy by Tony Parson.. heard it was a good book.. but haven't had the opportunity to read it yet... I think reading is therapeutic... =)

The whole world is bored.. I keep seeing these words on people's blog.. You mean we have all transcended to this stage that we are BORED of HOLS??? But I don't exactly welcome school... Mwahahaha....

5 more days to may last day... Counting down is kinda hard... afterall, a day of work is like 9 to 10 hours... Kinda sucks.. but I'm not exactly complainging cause I get extra pocket money though I would actually love to alck more.. Wel.. optimistically, I have like 12 days after I quit to slack... I hope it is enough...

I'm thinking whether I should drop a course I bidded for next term... 6 modules, 5 credits... or 5 modules, 4 credits? Any advice?

This I gotta blog... Maybe this is why more and more teens are getting stressed...

Imagine overhearing a parent saying that she is gonna lock up the computer cause her child who is in lower secondary played the computer (with no Internet access) for 45 mins...

I felt like going up to her and telling her I spend much more time on it.. and your kid does not even surf the net lar... Just playing some game...

I can't fathom why such an act has to be met with such drastic action since this is the hols...

Wait a min... or is it just me?

You Are Strawberry Pocky

Your attitude: fresh and sweetComforting, yet quirky ... quietly hyperYou always see both sides to everything

What Flavor Pocky Are You?

My first foray into baking sth from scratch and not relying on Betty Crocker's pre-mix was not bad at all... My chocolate cheesecake turned out pretty okiez.. mwahahaha...

Tired.. shall sleep soon.. though i have been awake for less than 12 hours... Gotta work tmr... Maybe I'll go have my O'Brien's sandwich again... mwahahaha...

The good thing about having short hair.. it dries pretty fast compared to long hair... Once my hair dries, I'm hitting the bed!

had a good day today... I really like it when I go out with my family to walk walk, have dinner, shop around... Which was precisely what I did today! Except my brother was away at chalet enjoying himself lar...

But my parents, my sis and myself went down to town after my mum, sis and I attended this Children Christmas Party for single parent families. Cause my mum is part of this single parent group and she wanted to bring us there to help out. In the end, we were just sitting around and observing vause the organisers had everything planned and under control...

Yupz.. back to town... It was packed.. Like very.. and there was the ever-present and famous Orchard Road jam... Luckily we were not caught in it cause traffic was NOT moving at all... I kinda pitied the ppl in cab cause the meter would be like running and they will not be moving... and I think it may be faster if they walked or sth... Hahaha...

So we were just walking from taka to wisma and to tangs and back to taka for dinner... It's like just nice to spend some time with your family... amidst the hectic lives, when I dun see them for like much for the whole week excpet at night cause we are all at work or sth... and we are occupied with friends, other aspects of lives that we tend to take each other for granted and grow apart gradually as strangers... I've hears stories of how siblings treat each other as virtual strangers and stuff.. and I hope it won't happen to me lar...

Yup yupz... today was a nice day..

and my sis and I are gonna sink our hands in baking... mwahaha... cause we got this recipe book showing us all the wonderful things we can do with CHOCOLATE... YES!!! Whole book on chocolate cookies, cheesecake, ice cream and other desserts and stuff... So we shortlisted 2 cakes... bought the ingredients for Chocolate Fudge cake and Marble Cheesecake... sounds good ya... Okiez... if it turns out well.. den I'll be baking it more often... mwahahaha... hopefully those I noe will have 口福 to try them... Hiakz!!! And I hope this interest will last... mwahahaha...

Which was also why we went grocery shopping today... but after we bought back all the ingredients, we realised the eletric egg beater, which we had for like eons.. and not used for the past 10 years (at least) could not work.. I'm totally not surprised lar... mwahahaha... so tmr we r gonna get a new egg beater and then it is baking time! Watch this space for more updates on my experiment at baking from scratch!

Hectic week at work... Kinda wondering what the hell I'm doing back at work... Oh... you all simply must try the sandwiched at O'Briens. It is an Irish sandwich and coffee bar or so they claim... It is pricey lar... for 2 pieces of bread.. but quite generous servings... and choice of veggie... similar to subway... but a bit more ex... but it's good...

I can't see my latest post on my blog again!!!

Mwahahaha.. I'm so DARN proud of MYSELF!!!! I Love ME!!!

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everyone is changin their layout for their blog.. Maybe I should do sth about mine too.. mwahahaha... see my mood.. maybe I'll work on it some night after work.. or will some kind soul help me? Or is she too busy playing Sims 2??

It's weird not to be enjoying myself during the hols... or rather, putting 9 plus 10 hours of my waking hours working... Everything has not changed... I see the same old faces... The same old bank tellers... I mean it is good cause it shows they have not lost their jobs... hahaha... but then again... It kinda scares me... I don't wanna be stuck in sth like that... Such a mundane life... But then again.. job security is what people want... Oh well.. that is too far...

I realised I haven't been to any job interviews at all for any jobs.. the closest i ever got was when I went to recruit express to ask them to put my name on the 'interested applicants' list... All the jobs I've had are all wither introed by people I know.. or I work for people I know... or both... I dunno wad to make out of it... But i htink it has it's pros and cons...

See ar... If that person know you, they tend to be not so harsh on you... but then again.. you may be doing a lot of things out of obligation... What makes the world tick?

Positive thinking: I'm working for the money.. Not that much anyway... but enough to pay my cab fare for next semester... (I'm Serious!!!) considering I took a cab to school almost every other day during the first term...

After backing up all my precious files from my laptop with the intention of bringing it to the CIT aka the Laptop Hospital, I didn't go.. and now that I've started work, I can forget about going... This sucks...

So many things to say.. yet dunno how to express it... Sianz...

Hmmmm... I'm going back to my 'favourite' company to work for 2 weeks... After all the 'I'm never going back there again!', I'll be starting work at the law firm again tomorrow... That's what I like about uni hols.. you don't have to worry about next semester's modules unnecessarily... no need to mug before hand... ok.. not that I did in sec sch and jc... but we had this thing called holiday homework then...

Oh well.. maybe i need that extra cash... or maybe I am just being nice.. hopefully everything will turn out fine... Yupz... and there goes my next 2 weeks.. no more meeting ups... and shopping trips.. unless you wanna meet me for dinner...

So maybe I should go buy my christmas cards soon and start writing them during lunch break in the office!

It's the end of exams!!! lalala... and...

*cues music* It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas, everywhere you go... there is a tree in the grand hotel, one in the park as well, the sturdy kind that doesn't mind the snow.. ow.. ow...

Haha... Christmas is coming the goose is getting fat, please put a penny in the old man's hat. If you haven't got a penny then a ha' penny will do, If you haven't got a ha'penny then God Bless You!

As you all can see, I'm in a Christamas-sy mood.. So many things to do... So many things to buy...

Oooh.. should go watch The Incredibles.. It is a very cute cartoon!!!

Hmmm.. how come I can blog so much faster on my desktop compared to my laptop? Weird...

Anyway, Tmr's last day of exams!!! Yay!!! 1 month to meet up with frens... do up my blog, slack... Christmas! means presents and more money... $$$

5 more chapters to go... wish me luck...

Exams are driving me to do things that I don't usually do... Besides mugging.. hahaha...

Where oh where have all my time gone? Horror of Horrors!!! I have less than 19 hours to my first paper... Hmm... reminds of what i studied for psych.. this internal turmoil that is telling me to do stats and study psych and then there is ther other part of me who wants to go online and stuff... Hahaha....

*Gillian.. Go do stats! Don't Blog!*
Me: Ya.. Real soon....

Got mack one of the grades for my module... Quite satisfied with it.. now for the other 4.. .Hahaha... Have been getting B minus-es for psych... so not having my hopes too high... 80 MCQS!!! !Lemme reiterate my point! I hate papers with a lot of mcqs!!! 80 is way too much... after mugging psych the whole of last week, started doing stats yesterday.. and doing today... I feel so much better working with numbers (though i make a lot of careless mistakes) than looking at words.. Not that I don't like psych.. but I get a bigger sense of acheivement when I get the correct answers.. hahaha.. I'm narcissistic.. I need reassuarance and these little things to make me feel good... Mwahahaha....

Ok.. 1 more afternoon of stats and tonight I'll be mugging psych.. Still got 1 big chunk in the middle untouched.. and I don't exactly feel like touching them... Mwahahaha...

Oh ya.. i hope i can wake up tmr.. Morning Paper!!! DarN!!!! I wake up at 11 everyday.. if it happens tmr.. I'm mightily screwed... =)

Shout out: All the best to everyone who has exams....

Mugging is the latest, coolest and most 'in' word!!! If you think so too, welcome to my world!!!

The dreaded 'E' word is here again... All the Best to people taking exams!!! It'll be over soon... Friday!!!

Anyway, just wanted to register a post on how I seriously can't believe some of the lucridous and weird theories some famous psychologists come up with!!! Yes!! The whole point is that they became famous from that theory!@!~! Bah! I can also come out with crap like the Oedipus complax and whatever in this case...

Hahaha... i think the thought psychology has consumed too much of my brains.. sadly... It's almost 4! WoW! Record... Great.. need to adjust my Circadian rhythm (another psych term for body clock) back in time for exams...

I can't seem to republish my blog.. Oh well.. figure it out later.. shall nap then go study... and I'm in school.. Hahaha.... everyone around me is mugging.. only my in front of my ocmputer playing games... Oops....

I spent a rather fruitful afternoon in school mugging.. and well.. crapping .. Hahaha... But at least i did sth.. and i spent the rest of the night playing some lousy game (Heroes 3) and I still can't pass that elusive last level. Bah! What a waste of my time! Should have played my stupid cow game instead...

FYI, Heroes is basically a war game whereby you gotta build your troops and fight with opposing troops controlled by the computer... And my hero got killed.. SaD... maybe I should try it after my exams...

blogger takes eons to load nowadays... so wols... Tmr will be another of mugging in the school lib.. and i better go sleep like now.. tmr got lesson (Psych review) at 9 am!!! THAT is FREAKING early!!! considering my be dtime is from 3 to 11 the last few days...

Made up my mind not to go Hong Kong.. Bah! Too many uncertainties and doubts! Hope I don't regret.. well, too late even if I do... Mwahahaha....

Karaok-ing is therapeutic i tell you!!! If only it will be cheaper...

Was thinking of going carolling. It is like some part of my life liaoz... but then again, it's like I dun even keep in touch with any of them... So? Go and be a loner again? Sighz... i hate that!!! So bloody no point lor... den make small talk to people I know? Meaningless.. seriously reconsidering my decision... maybe if i'm optimistic, then suddenly, our frequency and wavelength will be on the same level and we will talk normally? Bah!

Ironic now that I think of it... I think I am closer to someone whom I just met in uni (ie for about 3 mths) as compared to some other people I know for 2 years... Sad huh? Different attitude? I suppose so... It is just me... too bad for you if I have don't have a good first impression of you...

I feel guilty... I know it is no big deal going blog surfing... But I feel like a lousy voyeur reading about people's life.. and interestingly, the blogs i'm reading are of people who have once been part of my life... I wonder if any of them will ever stumble or would have stumbled onto my blog or not...

Part of my life... yeah... never keep in touch with a lot of the liaoz... not even close in the first place.. those hi-bye frens I suppose though i think some of them would have been nice people to noe... too bad i'm dao... mwahahaha...

Was in town today.. and i saw this pri sch cum piano fren... but din say hi cause i'm quite sure she won't noe hu I am.. anyway not as if it would make a very big difference... But i just marvel at how easy it is to know people.. yet how hard to keep them as friends... Like how many cliques do you have? How many different group of people do you mix with?

Forgive me... i'm in a rather cynical mood today... I've had my shaer of fun.. Now i've gotta start mugging for exams... Oh ya.. and my paper... It is interesting to note that for the past few years, I never had to write reports and papers... Now... a 20 page essay... But then again, it is quite interesting to write. I feel that i express myself better with words... plus I can't really like give a speech for nuts sake... I'm loving it...

So it is 2.55 and you can still hear me at my laptop going 'tippity-tap, tippity-tap...' Hard at work? It is up to you to guess... :)

my psycho notes... Ok.. I'm bored... 

Ok.. here is a pic of the slipper... Hope it comes out right... 

Eulogy to my Trusty Ol' Slippers

It's been a good many months... You, brown slippers from Accessories, gotten from a sale... You have been with me through thick and thin, wet and dry... You have served me well, shielding my feet from the dirty floor... However, signs of old age was showing. First, the sequins fell out but by bit. Later thread started running. However, the last straw was when you no longer held up on wet ground, making it easy to slip. It is time you took a good rest. I promise I will call upon your services if I need it in future... Rest Well....




Trusty Ol' Slippers

The beautiful view from Pasir Ris Park 

I realised my blog has been in existence for about 1 and a half years...

and guess what.. I'm still whining... Was looking through my archives.. the only difference is that I don't post that many quizzes anymore... and I don't apologise for not blogging in a long time... Lalala...

I'm still aching.. though not as badly from saturday... went to learn cycling.. Though I haven't mastered the art of it yet.. I'm sure I will soon.. anyone wanna go cycling this weekend again? hahaha... Though my leg is full og red spots, they are surprisingly not very itchy... Yeah.. but blueblack appeared... Must have knocked my leg into the pedal too often... Hahaha...

Photos will be uploaded soon... after I clear my stats assignment....

Hahaha... I haven't felt the joy of doing maths for a long long time.. I remember the countless tutorials... Especially statistics... at least 10 questions from the TYS... That was the norm. Now, I'm doing stats homework due tmr (or rather, later today since it is 12 plus liaoz...) I've finally became last minute! I miss maths... I think many of you would think I am nuts.. but i seriously derive pleasure from solving a challenging maths question. Which was why I preferred mechanics to stats because the questions were harder. Stats questions are more repetitive.. Just like what I am doing now... Ok.. I shall stop my debate on maths... Now, I have to concentrate on readings, and readings and papers and reports... No more (or rather, less of) racking my brains over challenging questions... No more deriving pleasure when I solve a super hard question. It is a matter of time before I return all that I have painstakingly learnt and practiced, the formulas that I've memorised to my teachers...

Okiez.. back to my homework...

I slept for 13 whopping hours!!! Hur hur hur... Refreshed... Err.. not really refreshed... esp after 5 presentations in the morning... got err.. 10 more now???

Kerry's losing! Okiez.. I dun even know why I am so interested in the politics of a foreign country that I have no part off.. Maybe it is due to the fact that we don't vote here... (not much anyway).

School's almost out... I got 2 8.30 days next semester.. wish me, someone who can't even wake up for 10 am lessons good luck!

Almost at the end of my first semester, wrapped up my final presentation today... Now for my political science paper and 2 exams to go... Looking back, I felt that time just flew by... How we concluded our projects and how I survived my presentations... applying what I've learnt, sth different from the science and maths I've been working on for the past 10-12 years of my education. It has to do with my faculty I guess.. psychology and political science... It is sth that we had no contact with at all... and now, I see things from different perspectives, read more into things... Hahaha...

I need a life! I've been way to stressed over my grades.. I need to re-evaluate my life! What I want!!! Sianz....

hahaha... i think medicine that causes drowsiness makes me damn high!!! Hahaha... I overdosed on my vough mixture today.. and I'm super high now... Oh wells.. i need the euphoric effect cause i got a bloody long day.. Sianz...

Hahaha.... 1 more presentation... Sat going out!! I'm finally gonna learn cycling!!!