Having an 'extended' break... I feel disoriented... Like I dunno what to do after lessons.. I don't even remember what I used to do on Monday afternoons before the break... I shall do work... soon...

I hate it when people in a group don't do their part for a project... I don't mind it when people push back the dateline within a reasonable frame, yet not when one makes empty promises. Please.. 1 week is definitely long enough to come up with a half page write up... I simply cannot think of any excuses...

It pisses me off because I'm the one doing the compiling... and I can't put everything together is some parts are missing. Darn... 'A's don't just fall from the sky.. you need to work for it... and at the rate I am going, I bet there is gonna be a lot of missing stuff from the first draft of the report...

On a happier note... Claire... I finally broke your Bejewelled high score... Mwahahaha... I think it not only requires skill... but luck plays quite a big element in it too... Yay!!!

Hols are drawing to an end... Well, nth on the work slate.. but plenty on the enjoyment side... I finished a book, watched a movie, sang karaoke for 9 hours, talked to a fren for a whole day, went shopping, bought a CD, applied for my campus account... and slacking away at the com. The only school related thing I did was probably my AS meeting.. at least we got our direction...

Quite an accomplishment on the slacking side I think... Now that I am recharged, I will use the past week's activities as a reminder that I should start studying, writing my paper, doing my projects and what not.. MWahahaha...

Just came across the script for this clock thingee cursor? I think it is kinda interesting...

OK man.. time to clean up... I shall do work these 2 days... and stop blogging.. I realise I have been blogging alot this pass week... It is the next best thing to doing work lar... So yeah.. I would rather write...

I was about to sleep.. until I went to check my mail... Straits Times is gonna charge a subscription fee for their online newspapers... Sigheth... Ok.. I admit I don't usually read the online version of the papers coz I have the actual one at home.. But it is good in the sense that I can just download or copy the article I want instead of cutting it out from the newspapers... And it is good to browse articles when I'm in school...

The online version doesn't even have my daily comic strips!!! Bah!

Watch Constantine today... well, my first movie since... eh.. I forgot when... I can't even remember my last movie... I gues it is sth watched during the last hols... Wow... That's long...

I felt that the show was not too bad... Keanu Reeves was spot on as the dark, brooding protagonist... and yeah... I felt that some parts of the movie was more like a horror movie than a thriller... They really know how to use shick tactics. Mwahahaha... I was like the only one who screamed in the cinema when sth shocking happened. Super malu lar...

I think the show is quite worth it... it's a good mix of humour... and lameness... and horror, gore, religious themes, suspense, twists and well, 1 main underlying theme. Well.. a hunk as a leading actor and a babe for the female protagonist... It seems to have almost everything in them... Thought provoking definitely...

Well, I shall go sleep now... Cause... I feel like it? Hahaha... Early ar... but since my room is in pitch darkness (moi sis is sleeping) except for light coming from my laptop, I think I shall not spoil my eyes any further... Plus I have to stuff those round blu-ish transparent things called contact lense into my eyes tmr morning for a cornea check up.. So I shall be considerate to my eyes and not tire them out too much...

Am doing research in the middle of the night... But I'm so wide awake... Considering that I've only been awake for 8 hours... It's like waking up at 9am in the morning and it's 5pm in the evening only. Shall try and finish my research soon... then maybe I'll not feel so guilty about not doing much this hols... and hopefully, I'll feel tired enough for a 'nap'

Got a project meeting at 1030 tmr... I need to wake up early!!!

Oh.. and Constantine!!! Yeah!! can't wait... oh.. and Hitch looks funny...

Mid Week Check

Hmmmm... let's see what I have done these few days... After spending time at the chalet over the weekend, the other things I've done is to finish a novel by Jeffrey Archer - Kane and Abel, a book on how 2 men, one rich and poor end up vying against each other because of a small misunderstanding/misinterpretation... Kinda disappointed by the ending but then again the twist was good...

Eh.. went for a whole night of karaoke... and been trying to beat Claire's score on my Bejeweled game...

This means I'm so screwed for the rest of the week... Okiez... to start work...

I just had my first meal of the day... Yeah.. ocnsidering that it started at 5... Mwahahaha.. .at this rate, I'll not be in school on Monday... but then again.. I have a project meeting at 930 tmr... So looks like I die die have to wake up early...

My throat feels tired from singing so much last night... I don't even feel like singing along to the songs when my media player is blasting them... And i think the harmonising thing is quite addictive... When I listen to a song, I'll try to harminise... But try is the key word lar... Hahahaha... Don't think I'll go for another singing session so soon..

Just got an SMS.... my meeting is pushed later... yay!!! 1 more hour of sleep... I gotta start doing work... Looking for fallacies...

Can anyone advise...

P1: Citizens above 50 will get a lower percentage of their salary put into CPF.
P2: If less money is put in CPF, those above 50 will take home more money.
P3: The amount of tax one has to pay is determined by the amount of money one takes home.
SC1: Those above 50 will have to pay high tax.
P4: Those above 50 should not be allowed to pay more tax

Conclusion: Tax rates for those above 50 should be cut.

Is the above a fallacy???

Hmmmm.. it;s almost 7,, a quick post before I go to sleep to document this momentous night...

Yeah.. you read right... I'm going to sleep... I just got home actually... about half an hour ago... was out singing KTV with frens.. wah.. after like 9 plus almost 10 hours, we STILL can't finish the songs we wanted to sing... artistes like Harlem Yu and SHE... Sigh.. I sound damn hardcore lar... Anyway, this kind of marked the first time I stayed out the whole night without having a chalet or hotel stay as an excuse... Yeah... my parents are kinda strict bout these stuff... but today, my mum said i fi really wanted, I could stay out and stuff... Hmmm... More freedom as I grow older?

Anyway, so as I was taking the first North-bound train home, I saw people or rather students i ntheir uniforms preparing for school... It was kind of weird that while I just ended my day, others are starting theirs...

For a while, I kinda wished that I was part of that routine again... Yeah... I may sound nuts.. but nvm... Like one of my fren said, I'm feeling like that cause 'I am now a visitor to the routine and not a 'regular' anymore'... Well, couldn't agree more with her...

Yawn... shall really tuen in now... or i'll only wake up when the sun sets... and I still have other stuff to do... So ya.. Night world...

I love late night bitching sessions... I can forsee my body clock going topsy turvy this hols again... But I like chatting late into the night, replying mail, reading stuff... Ok... shall turn in soon..

Good Night World...

I just realised I have no frontpage after I reformatted my laptop... Sheesh... I took 2 months to figure that out... Oh ya.. look forward to a new layout.. I'm kinda sick of my cake pic... (Yeah.. it is a cake I baked... not some donut!!!)

Hmmm... looking forward to a week of recuperation. I'm gonna sing!!! I'm going out!!! I'm going shopping!!! I don't care... I NEED retail therapy... ya.. and of course catch up on projects and stuff... Yeppies...

And DARN!!! I wasn't on the lucky winners who struck anything in the CNY Toto draw last week...

Hahaha... My mum's friends at over at my place and I'm super amused with this kid. he is 6 and he is the typical cute small boy... *screams and gushes!!!* That's what I like about life... there are always 2 sides to it.. Good and bad, Happy and sad (it rhymes!!!). I shall amuse myself with him... tatata...

I miss having an internet connection… Ok.. I was too lazy to walk to the lobby or to Macs @ East Coast in the middle of the night to surf the net… Mwahahaha…

Well, the whole thing is over and done with… No more dreaming about it days before the activity. I really feel as if a huge burden is lifted off my shoulders. I don’t want to think about the repercussions and stuff...Well, to say the thing was successful will be seriously lying through my teeth.

The last 2 days or even the past week has been an emotional roller coaster. I love the people around me who have been giving me so much support.. yet at the same time, there were also some who went back on their words and stuff like that… Oh.. I love my dad!!! Which dad would bother to drive from Novena to Geylang to pick up food, then deliver it to East Coast for his daughter? Thinking of it just makes tears well in my eyes… So any ideas what to give him for a birthday present?

I should just get a phlog… I forgot so many things I wanted to say liaoz…

I dunno lar. I think I’m too numb to feel upset… Seriously, I didn’t eat much the whole night. I just had no appetite. I don’t feel like doing anything I admit it was fun at times.. Like when we were talking to the profs or singing along to guitar or sth… but after that… you look at stark reality… The world you constructed just comes crashing down…

Have been experiencing a lot of cognitive dissonance these few days too. It’s like trying to reconcile and justify what I think and what I have done.

I shall not mince my words here… Because this is MY blog… and I want to say whatever I feel like saying here… I shall not be hypocritical or fake like the many ppl out there… I don’t think I fared very well as a leader… Serious... but don’t worry.. I’ll get over it and bounce back stronger than before… I made a few mistakes which I will definitely learn from it…

1) Never give in too much to people. Sometimes, they will just take too much advantage of you till you end up doing everything

2) If others don’t have an opinion, don’t really assume they don’t. Make sure they can commit to help you and stuff before you embark on any mission because you really need their support.

3) There is this phrase called ‘delegation of tasks’

4) Don’t think I am superwoman!

5) A wrong decision kills… Like very badly…

Oh well. End of report… I just wish things had turned out differently… But I also refuse to blame myself wholly for it. I think I put in more effort than anyone else to run this thing and it is just bad that things didn’t turn out as planned. Life will still go on. I just wished I had the chance to do it again.

Am happy once again... Feeling a lot of emotional ups and downs this week... Kinda weird.. I think I have never felt so emotional since I don't know when.. Must be the stress...

But just checked my email... There's this prof who is actively helping me promote the event... SO SUPER SWEET!!!! and he is not even a Prof from Social Science .He teaches Econs... Although response is still here and there.. but I really appreciate what he is doing...

Hmmm.. 'nuff said... I need to pia AS and pack my stuff...

So till tonight!!! Hahaha... Costa Sands has free internet 24 hrs... Expect me!!!

Ok.. I survived 2 tests... Really enjoy studying into the night... But that's not exactly the point I guess... But I'm so mentally drained, I don't even feel any emotions regarding the outing anymore... I seriously can't be bothered... i'm so sick and tired of it and I think it's all my fault... Bad planning? not being able to see the whole picture? Guilty as charged...

Bleahz... Let's cross our fingers and hope that everything will be fine... At least a turn out of 30 ppl?

Disclaimer: Relax.. I'm ok... I just needed to get it off... Don't worry so much ya...

Hmmmm... a big thank you to friends who cared... Thanks for the support... I'm fine liaoz... really... I'm sure we'll pull this off... It's just a culmination of tests, projects and stuff that got me short on my fuse that day...

Feeling at peace with myself... I don't know why also.. Though I still have more than half to study for social psychology... Not kidding really... but then so far I have been quite successful in remembering stuff covered in class... Looks like I was wrong about social psych lessons... =)

Ok.. back to the books... or else tonight really don't have to sleep liaoz...

Hmmmm... V-day came and went... Had an enjoyable dinner... Pity I didn't go sing K... even though I also didn't do much work at home.. but I guess I will feel more guilty if I had went with you guys to sing.. Mwahahaha... Oh well.. there's always the next time...

11 hours before the end of CT... presentation... wish me luck... Ok.. 1 more chapter of social psych before I retire for the night... ;)

Dearest Friends.. Kindly remind me NEVER EVER to bite off more than I can chew... and also.. to NOT EVER PROCRASTINATE again.. Oh.. how I detest that word... although I think it is more of the procrastination that drove me to the state I'm in now... 5 days of CNY hols wasted.. *Kapoot*.. down the drain.. What have I accomplished? Close to nth... a small percentage of what I ams supposed to finish and do... Bleahz...

None of the democracy stuff is going in... and I realise that social psych is not as easy as it seems... My prof notes seems sparsed which means I gotta do my own notes... I'm switching form democracy to social psych and back within hours... which can be quite traumatic...

Arghz!!! I need 48 hours a day for the next 4 days... Hmmm... on hindsight.. it may not even be enough!!! Ok... enough whining... I just needed to get this off my chest before I sleep... Lessons @ 1015 tmr... how i lurve my dad... =)

The cut on my finger has became an ugly red welt... Been super unproductive.. Took a whole afternoon to read a democracy reading... Sianz... Not working hard as usual... But then again.. I'm clearer on some stuff... Just that I need to commit them to memory... 1 more day.. Gambate!!!

Well.. obviously studying is not the only thing on my mind this weekend... but I'll just try my best to balance the 2.. .well.. I feel like I'm in sec sch, trying to cram for tests/exams the night before... Mwahahaha... Hope everything will be fine.. if not, I'll just have to write a better paper/ mug harder for finals for demo, give a better presentation/research/work harder for finals for social psych.. and err... screw CT!!! Mwahahaha...

Kinda peeved... esp when ppl dun reply your emails... which are explicitly stated URGENT!!! GaH!!! but then again... Another person just made my day... So there.. you win some, you lose some...

Hmmmm.. I like it when the words which I want to write start flowing... Gillian is a happy girl today....