I'm lacking in topic to write.. blog about.. whatever.... Maybe cause all my entries seem to be complain-y about school... <-- Means i got nth much to complain about school... Yay!!!

Should blog about brighter, cheerier topics.. Like???

Hols are coming!!! I should be going for carolling I think... But now i'm just croaking away...

Haha.. It's over!!! It's over!!!

no more breaking out in cold sweat, no more sweaty palm... and no more individual presentation... at least for this term...

next term's timetable sucks... got lessons either at 8.30 or end at 6.45... gotta analyse and see how to plan my timetable... I want a free day!!!

Whoever decided that school must start in the morning? WHO decided that we should only haf 24 hrs a day??? Bah! I need more time...

Stupid, mugging, presentation week...

3 more days to FrEEDOM!!! 24 hours to individual presentation.. Booz...

How scary can it get???

Good morning Ladies and Gentlemen.. this is Gillian Koh from .... Thank you for your time, Good bye...

I feel so LiBeRaTED!!! Woo Hoo!!! I declared today 'No-School Day'!!! *Streamers and balloons*

Haha... did the above like give you an insight of the inside state of my mind now??? Crappy as usual... Finally ponned stats... After 10 weeks of school.. I honestly din know why it was so hard to pon lesson when I started uni when last time I have no qualms about ponning like physcis lecture for the whole year??? Especially given that Stats is like zzz....

The competitiveness of the whole environment is getting to me.. Even my mum realises it... she thinks I'm giving myself too much pressure to perform well... But i dun think it is entirely my fault.. blame the culture...

I mean there were people who would say things like 'Oh... you are gonna be a threat to me" abeit jokingly, when she realised I did the same question as her for some spastic test... Like huh??? Just because I did not bad on a couple of practice letters?? Me... a C6-er for GP a threat?? Jokingly yes.... but why jokes like this??? Rubbish!!!

And how not to be competitive for modules like bloody stats cause the whole class did well?? Like 2 mistakes and i'm below average... Sigh.. I miss the 'fail-test-also-heck-care' Gillian...

Dun get me wrong.. I like my environment, my school, my modules... but I just wish I can come home and slack instead of having to meet datelines. Not to mention stupid presentations... Like huh??? But so far my profs are quite encouraging... *phew* But usual comments are not to hide in one corner and present but to stand in front of the class... Haha... training in progress...

I spend a lot of time online and most of them like crapping and chatting... and I still go for dinners and stuff... but when I'm back into my school work mode, I can go nuts...

The woes of a undergrad... 2 more weeks.. GamBate~!~

Hmmm... anyone can shed light on how come the number of posts I have on my blog does not seem to change whenever I log in although i posted new stuff?

I screwed up my bloody day lar... Or rather, i missed this meeting with one of my project mates... Sorry gal... I tot it was tmr... and she tot it was today... and I'm super screwed... Got a lot of stuff to do... Lemme indulge in a bit of good natured whining... I'm seriously so sick and tired of LiFe!!! I just wanna skip school tmr... BaH~!~

MIA... Me... Yea... synonymous...

It's too early to blog sth... Was too ambitious to drag myself up bright and early for stats lesson... at 8.30... Bah.. shouldn't have slept at 230... Whoever who ruled that lessons had to start before 10 is a moron... and I even haf trouble waking up for 10am lessons!

Attending this talk by a psychology professor on 'development' later... Went for part 1 yesterday... She made a good point that when we are going, the 'friendship' that we have with people are actually 'peerships'. As in we are all there to, in a crude way, make use of one another as we need the support from each other to develop.

Sad but true... I think back of the 'friends' i have and think of how many I actually bother to keep in touch with. How many names do I have stored in my handphone that I have never sent a message to or talked to for the past few months? Futility of human life... I'm so sick of it...

Forgive me... it is just too early in a stats class to be coherent enough... I'm looking forward to my year end break. So many things to do again... and I bet I won't even come close to completing half the things I intend to do.... Mwahahaha...

I got problem with my gmail... Booz... I'm tired... shall go sleep early.. though i doubt it'll happen... lesson tmr... zzz...

Gillian is bleary and stoned after spending hours reading napster-related stuff on her laptop... with a mixture of English, Chinese and Cantonese songs blasting from her media player... After she got her router.. you can find her plonked right in front of her lappie in her room almost every night without fail!!! WooHOo!!! Welcome to my project infested world!!!

Haha... the 1st day after the break.. Sighz... din even felt like I had a break... not bad ya... but then again, shall not complain cause I did have time to slack... Now, the whirlwind of activities, meetings, presentations and tests have started again... Wish me luck and pray that I have the strength to last another 6 weeks... :) (I'll be eternally grateful)

Contemplating getting a tag board... just that I feel that it may be under utilised... Anyway, that shall come later... Dun have the time to do all the bloggy stuff now... which reminds me that this layout is a wee bit too old too... Oh well.. these trivial stuff will have to wait!!!

Sighz... so disgusted at the way Singapore Idol has turned out.. but Hey.. it is like my only source of entertainment on TV nowadays... The rest are spent in front of my com lar... Haha... Are they tone deaf?? Or does it just prove a point that 'Money will make the World go round?' Hmmm.. if they didn't charge such an exorbitant price for one vote... I'll gladly vote... but 50 cents iS a bit TOO MUCH!!! That is 2 Macdonalds ice cream cones lor...

Okiez... Enough crapping... Long day tmr... proj meeting and studying for stats... and going out to buy clothes.. Gonna burn a big hole in my pocket.. SoBz...

Hmmm... how fast 7 weeks can change a person... Yeah.. Me! I'm descending into the realm of muggerhood fast and furiously... I have a stats test next fri and I'm actually *GoSh* contemplating muGGing for it now... when in the past I'll just start the day before the test or sth... Plus given that it is stats... which what I have learnt is nothing compared to what I was trying to do 10 months ago for A levels... oh.. which seems so distant now... Oh well.. Actually i dun think I'll get down to it today.. But i'll start soon... Maybe it is just seeing the people around you and the things they are doing are affecting you... LiFe! It is all about competition.. Sad but true.. But i'm so glad for this break.. at least I have time for myself instead of just for projects...

had a good time yodelling my lungs out yesterday... Singing is thereupatic! I miss singing... Wish i could harmonise though...

Heh Heh... I'm in a pleasantly good mood today... Feeling happy and satisfied for not really good reason... (I mean when you still have 1 more presentation to go and 1 more project meeting, how happy can you get? ) Haha.. But i'm feeling so happy now... Maybe it has to do with the fact I just woke up from a well-deserved nap~!~

Yay!!! I look forward to friday.. then I can get a break... Yes.. I bet i'll be either back in school like half the time doing projects or trying to study pscho. (we started on social psychology today and I think it is sooooo... interesting!) Haha... and stats.. got test after mid term.. but like finally, all the group project stuff is almost done (still got lar.. but not that bad) At least I know I won't get so pissed with myself! =)

Hmmmm... I found someone who likes to b*tch too!! So we were like dissing our proj mates cause they can get annoying at times.. but let's not go into too much elaboration here... I mean I'm not gonna shoot them the next time i see them or sth lar.. we still can work... and let's just leave it at that...

Mamma Mia!!! Going on Sunday!! Yay!!! And i got the tix at student price.. worth it lar... i think the show would be good...

'Dancing Queen, young and sweet, only 17...'

Haha... I will be find soon... as soon as after tmr... serious!!! =)

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I am sitting in my political science class, wondering why I am blogging instead of listening to him.. actually he's talking crap lar... so not tt bad... Hohoho... long day today... Will the end of the week come soon?

Gillian is bleary eyed after attending an 8.30 am lecture/seminar.. whatever... yes.. i know i shouldn't be complaining cause some people do have lessons at 8.. but I'm very tired... waiting for project meeting at 11.... but it also means I can go home and sleep after that.. yay!!! In the midst of creating yet another powerpoint presentation... Hip Hip Hooray... Bleahz.... at least this one will be put to use...

zzz... zzz... zzz...

Gillian is in a freaking bad mood after spending 4 hours on a project meeting in the sweltering heat.. And I am very certain the heat was not the main culprit!!!

Allow me to indulge myself in some good natured whining!!! How would you feel when something you spent 6 hours on a sat afternoon doing was flushed down the toilet bowl and washed into the deep blue sea??? Yes.. like what I am feeling now... freaking pissed... Actually I learnt a lot from doing the movie on sat... but that is inconsequential! It was like they didn't even give a bloody damn about what I did... and changed the whole concept of the presentation... Tell me why then did I stay back for 3 hours last wednesday discussing the same presentation when all the ideas we discussed were thrown out of the window!?! I mean you could at least read the minutes and consider our suggestions before tossing them out... or hear what we had to say instead of coming up with a brand new action plan yourself!!! And cut the crap about the 'group' deciding on certain aspects when 3 persons went out to get lunch for a couple of minutes...

Woo~!~ I feel so much better now... I could have screamed my head off la... Anyway, got back my horrendous psycho test.. did better than I expected... Mwahahaha... and I'm gonna get 1 more mark! Cause she marked wrongly... which brought my total up by 1 grade! Yay!!!

Hmmmm.. i"m mightily amused!!! I'm currently in the school library trying to kill time and charging my laptop batt and supposedly looking for info for my political science paper and obviously chatting on msn... I'm sitting in those cubicle-liked seat... suppose to aid concentration... but i udn think it works... andyway, that's not the main point... ade msn-ed me regarding the politicla science paper... and then i realised she was also in the lib studying!!! Den ar... She was just at the next aisle... as in we were sitting diagonally face to face... Seperated by a wall... not bad huh?

"You!!! Supposed to be studying!!! Not blogging!! or Chatting!!! Go! Go! Go!!! you got loads of stuff to do!!!"

Oh.. that was just my conscious trying to get me to turn off my msn and to start surfing for information and not useless stuff.... Sianz... i know it is lame.... but yeah... my brains are fried... actually, I haven't been myself since the psycho test on Wed.. I need a good long sleep.... and must be REM sleep... oh well.. nvm.... psycho stuff...

Getting into action for my project later.. that's why i'm in school... I'm feeling horribly guilty cause i have been taking a lot of cabs to school.... Haha.. I shall cure myself of the bad habit soon....

Just added lyrics of 'Everytime' at the side... Dunno... just think it is a poignant song... Anyway, i think i need to change the layout of my blog...

Hmmmmm.. I'm back... after being silent for errr... 9 days... More on the idiosyncrasies going on in my oh-so-busy life... just woke up from a well-needed nap... i think my muscles are stiff and not coordinating cause i have some problems typing... Oh well... it's been an emotional and draining (or issit emotionally draining yet i dun think it was dat emotional.... maybe physically draining ba...) day...

Lemme whine about the psycho test i had... 70 MCQ QUSTIONS!!!!! ARGHHH!!! NUTS OR WHAT??? Still got 3 essay questions.. all in the span of 90 MINS!!! Hmmm... feels much better after that ranting.. Oh well... which means I dun harbour very high hopes of doing exceptionally well for this particular test.. and i better start studying for the next one... (okiez.. just kidding.. given my slack nature.. I'll start thinking about the next one when it draws nearer... speaking of which, I dunno when it'll be lar... ) *Poof!* There goes 20% of my final grade...

Other than that, I think I'm coping pretty well given the perils of being in a project-based, American styled university... My project presentation today was not exactly great but passable, and most of them are quite on schedule i think...

I miss people!!! My timetable clashes with the rest of the world like crazy... or have i whined about this before... Anyway, there is nth good on tv anymore... There's Amazing Race later... but i just read the synopsis of today's episode.. Shhhh.... Just felt bored ma... Anyway, gotta do reading for political science... Been spending too much time on project meetings and studying for the psycho test...

I need to get a grip on my life... it's slipping away from me... being buried under the piles of work... which reminds me i gotta start filing up all my notes soon... they are in stacks in my room... So what else is new?? I'm glad i took the time out to watch 13 going on 30... Not a fantastic show.. but ok for the $6.50 I paid... Absurd I guess... Haha... but it was fun just chilling out... Hmmm... and Collateral died... i tot it'll be on longer since Tom Cruise acted in it... Maybe they chose to release it at the wrong time....

I need to prioritise and organise... which i suppose means not spending so much time at my favourite spot typing silly things like this into the computer... I take my hat off to those who wants to run for SA, join tons of CCA and still seemingly cope rather well with their workload... *Envious* I wonder how they do it... maybe they dun spend as much time slacking like I do... but well... I NEED A LIFE... Even if they dun...

I just scrolled up and spotted a million spelling errors which is like way off... not just pressing the wrong buttons... my fingers just refuses to type what my brain is thinking... or there is sth wrong with it's 'aiming' skills today... Hmmm.. I do have an theory about what is happening after extensive study of the brain.. but i shall not bore you with the boring facts... see.. gibberish again...

Okiez... I'm dying to go ktv and belt out a song or two.... for maybe a couple of hours... any takers?

Thanks Empress for the wonderfully delicious lunch yesterday... but we really must go eat chilli crab one day!!! Argh!! Got craving...

Anyway, just spent today discussing project again.. Yeah.. wad else to do esp when you are in a project based environment right?? Finally got everything trashed out, a plan! a programme to sell to people!!! except that errr.... we have to get a letter to the organisation signed by Wed 12 noon and we haven't really got an affirmation from that particular organisation we approached... *cross fingers* Mwahahaha... you just need that spark to set a ton on bricks on you and all the ideas will be forthcoming and wadever.. Haha...

Anyway, as Spy is busy mugging for her psycho test... Hmmm.. i also gotta start doing my assignment... Bleahz.. got a whole load of backlog! Irritating! Loads of reading... And i figured i better start paying attention in stats class... (ie, not attempting to blog in class) Maybe i should even keep my laptop closed...

Haha.. and i figureda new way to take note! Laptop!! Den at least i wun have to read my horrendous handwriting esp when i'm like on the verge of falling asleep!

Finally replaced my pencil case today.. Got a yellow one... Bright huh?? But ok lar... can put all my stuff... Oh ya.. andi got photos to upload.. but tt gotta wait till maybe fri?? unless nth crops up out of the blue tmr after stats like today.. Haha... Tot i could get home by 2 today.. but got home barely an hour ago... Haha... Like i say and i reiterate my point - the perils of studing in a project based environment!!

Oh.. I got my locker liaoz... the only problem is... i dun seem to have anything to put inside.... Hooray! Wad a waste of moolah~!~