I feel guilty... I know it is no big deal going blog surfing... But I feel like a lousy voyeur reading about people's life.. and interestingly, the blogs i'm reading are of people who have once been part of my life... I wonder if any of them will ever stumble or would have stumbled onto my blog or not...

Part of my life... yeah... never keep in touch with a lot of the liaoz... not even close in the first place.. those hi-bye frens I suppose though i think some of them would have been nice people to noe... too bad i'm dao... mwahahaha...

Was in town today.. and i saw this pri sch cum piano fren... but din say hi cause i'm quite sure she won't noe hu I am.. anyway not as if it would make a very big difference... But i just marvel at how easy it is to know people.. yet how hard to keep them as friends... Like how many cliques do you have? How many different group of people do you mix with?

Forgive me... i'm in a rather cynical mood today... I've had my shaer of fun.. Now i've gotta start mugging for exams... Oh ya.. and my paper... It is interesting to note that for the past few years, I never had to write reports and papers... Now... a 20 page essay... But then again, it is quite interesting to write. I feel that i express myself better with words... plus I can't really like give a speech for nuts sake... I'm loving it...

So it is 2.55 and you can still hear me at my laptop going 'tippity-tap, tippity-tap...' Hard at work? It is up to you to guess... :)

my psycho notes... Ok.. I'm bored... 

Ok.. here is a pic of the slipper... Hope it comes out right... 

Eulogy to my Trusty Ol' Slippers

It's been a good many months... You, brown slippers from Accessories, gotten from a sale... You have been with me through thick and thin, wet and dry... You have served me well, shielding my feet from the dirty floor... However, signs of old age was showing. First, the sequins fell out but by bit. Later thread started running. However, the last straw was when you no longer held up on wet ground, making it easy to slip. It is time you took a good rest. I promise I will call upon your services if I need it in future... Rest Well....




Trusty Ol' Slippers

The beautiful view from Pasir Ris Park 

I realised my blog has been in existence for about 1 and a half years...

and guess what.. I'm still whining... Was looking through my archives.. the only difference is that I don't post that many quizzes anymore... and I don't apologise for not blogging in a long time... Lalala...

I'm still aching.. though not as badly from saturday... went to learn cycling.. Though I haven't mastered the art of it yet.. I'm sure I will soon.. anyone wanna go cycling this weekend again? hahaha... Though my leg is full og red spots, they are surprisingly not very itchy... Yeah.. but blueblack appeared... Must have knocked my leg into the pedal too often... Hahaha...

Photos will be uploaded soon... after I clear my stats assignment....

Hahaha... I haven't felt the joy of doing maths for a long long time.. I remember the countless tutorials... Especially statistics... at least 10 questions from the TYS... That was the norm. Now, I'm doing stats homework due tmr (or rather, later today since it is 12 plus liaoz...) I've finally became last minute! I miss maths... I think many of you would think I am nuts.. but i seriously derive pleasure from solving a challenging maths question. Which was why I preferred mechanics to stats because the questions were harder. Stats questions are more repetitive.. Just like what I am doing now... Ok.. I shall stop my debate on maths... Now, I have to concentrate on readings, and readings and papers and reports... No more (or rather, less of) racking my brains over challenging questions... No more deriving pleasure when I solve a super hard question. It is a matter of time before I return all that I have painstakingly learnt and practiced, the formulas that I've memorised to my teachers...

Okiez.. back to my homework...

I slept for 13 whopping hours!!! Hur hur hur... Refreshed... Err.. not really refreshed... esp after 5 presentations in the morning... got err.. 10 more now???

Kerry's losing! Okiez.. I dun even know why I am so interested in the politics of a foreign country that I have no part off.. Maybe it is due to the fact that we don't vote here... (not much anyway).

School's almost out... I got 2 8.30 days next semester.. wish me, someone who can't even wake up for 10 am lessons good luck!

Almost at the end of my first semester, wrapped up my final presentation today... Now for my political science paper and 2 exams to go... Looking back, I felt that time just flew by... How we concluded our projects and how I survived my presentations... applying what I've learnt, sth different from the science and maths I've been working on for the past 10-12 years of my education. It has to do with my faculty I guess.. psychology and political science... It is sth that we had no contact with at all... and now, I see things from different perspectives, read more into things... Hahaha...

I need a life! I've been way to stressed over my grades.. I need to re-evaluate my life! What I want!!! Sianz....

hahaha... i think medicine that causes drowsiness makes me damn high!!! Hahaha... I overdosed on my vough mixture today.. and I'm super high now... Oh wells.. i need the euphoric effect cause i got a bloody long day.. Sianz...

Hahaha.... 1 more presentation... Sat going out!! I'm finally gonna learn cycling!!!

I'm lacking in topic to write.. blog about.. whatever.... Maybe cause all my entries seem to be complain-y about school... <-- Means i got nth much to complain about school... Yay!!!

Should blog about brighter, cheerier topics.. Like???

Hols are coming!!! I should be going for carolling I think... But now i'm just croaking away...

Haha.. It's over!!! It's over!!!

no more breaking out in cold sweat, no more sweaty palm... and no more individual presentation... at least for this term...

next term's timetable sucks... got lessons either at 8.30 or end at 6.45... gotta analyse and see how to plan my timetable... I want a free day!!!

Whoever decided that school must start in the morning? WHO decided that we should only haf 24 hrs a day??? Bah! I need more time...

Stupid, mugging, presentation week...

3 more days to FrEEDOM!!! 24 hours to individual presentation.. Booz...

How scary can it get???

Good morning Ladies and Gentlemen.. this is Gillian Koh from .... Thank you for your time, Good bye...

I feel so LiBeRaTED!!! Woo Hoo!!! I declared today 'No-School Day'!!! *Streamers and balloons*

Haha... did the above like give you an insight of the inside state of my mind now??? Crappy as usual... Finally ponned stats... After 10 weeks of school.. I honestly din know why it was so hard to pon lesson when I started uni when last time I have no qualms about ponning like physcis lecture for the whole year??? Especially given that Stats is like zzz....

The competitiveness of the whole environment is getting to me.. Even my mum realises it... she thinks I'm giving myself too much pressure to perform well... But i dun think it is entirely my fault.. blame the culture...

I mean there were people who would say things like 'Oh... you are gonna be a threat to me" abeit jokingly, when she realised I did the same question as her for some spastic test... Like huh??? Just because I did not bad on a couple of practice letters?? Me... a C6-er for GP a threat?? Jokingly yes.... but why jokes like this??? Rubbish!!!

And how not to be competitive for modules like bloody stats cause the whole class did well?? Like 2 mistakes and i'm below average... Sigh.. I miss the 'fail-test-also-heck-care' Gillian...

Dun get me wrong.. I like my environment, my school, my modules... but I just wish I can come home and slack instead of having to meet datelines. Not to mention stupid presentations... Like huh??? But so far my profs are quite encouraging... *phew* But usual comments are not to hide in one corner and present but to stand in front of the class... Haha... training in progress...

I spend a lot of time online and most of them like crapping and chatting... and I still go for dinners and stuff... but when I'm back into my school work mode, I can go nuts...

The woes of a undergrad... 2 more weeks.. GamBate~!~

Hmmm... anyone can shed light on how come the number of posts I have on my blog does not seem to change whenever I log in although i posted new stuff?

I screwed up my bloody day lar... Or rather, i missed this meeting with one of my project mates... Sorry gal... I tot it was tmr... and she tot it was today... and I'm super screwed... Got a lot of stuff to do... Lemme indulge in a bit of good natured whining... I'm seriously so sick and tired of LiFe!!! I just wanna skip school tmr... BaH~!~

MIA... Me... Yea... synonymous...

It's too early to blog sth... Was too ambitious to drag myself up bright and early for stats lesson... at 8.30... Bah.. shouldn't have slept at 230... Whoever who ruled that lessons had to start before 10 is a moron... and I even haf trouble waking up for 10am lessons!

Attending this talk by a psychology professor on 'development' later... Went for part 1 yesterday... She made a good point that when we are going, the 'friendship' that we have with people are actually 'peerships'. As in we are all there to, in a crude way, make use of one another as we need the support from each other to develop.

Sad but true... I think back of the 'friends' i have and think of how many I actually bother to keep in touch with. How many names do I have stored in my handphone that I have never sent a message to or talked to for the past few months? Futility of human life... I'm so sick of it...

Forgive me... it is just too early in a stats class to be coherent enough... I'm looking forward to my year end break. So many things to do again... and I bet I won't even come close to completing half the things I intend to do.... Mwahahaha...

I got problem with my gmail... Booz... I'm tired... shall go sleep early.. though i doubt it'll happen... lesson tmr... zzz...

Gillian is bleary and stoned after spending hours reading napster-related stuff on her laptop... with a mixture of English, Chinese and Cantonese songs blasting from her media player... After she got her router.. you can find her plonked right in front of her lappie in her room almost every night without fail!!! WooHOo!!! Welcome to my project infested world!!!

Haha... the 1st day after the break.. Sighz... din even felt like I had a break... not bad ya... but then again, shall not complain cause I did have time to slack... Now, the whirlwind of activities, meetings, presentations and tests have started again... Wish me luck and pray that I have the strength to last another 6 weeks... :) (I'll be eternally grateful)

Contemplating getting a tag board... just that I feel that it may be under utilised... Anyway, that shall come later... Dun have the time to do all the bloggy stuff now... which reminds me that this layout is a wee bit too old too... Oh well.. these trivial stuff will have to wait!!!

Sighz... so disgusted at the way Singapore Idol has turned out.. but Hey.. it is like my only source of entertainment on TV nowadays... The rest are spent in front of my com lar... Haha... Are they tone deaf?? Or does it just prove a point that 'Money will make the World go round?' Hmmm.. if they didn't charge such an exorbitant price for one vote... I'll gladly vote... but 50 cents iS a bit TOO MUCH!!! That is 2 Macdonalds ice cream cones lor...

Okiez... Enough crapping... Long day tmr... proj meeting and studying for stats... and going out to buy clothes.. Gonna burn a big hole in my pocket.. SoBz...

Hmmm... how fast 7 weeks can change a person... Yeah.. Me! I'm descending into the realm of muggerhood fast and furiously... I have a stats test next fri and I'm actually *GoSh* contemplating muGGing for it now... when in the past I'll just start the day before the test or sth... Plus given that it is stats... which what I have learnt is nothing compared to what I was trying to do 10 months ago for A levels... oh.. which seems so distant now... Oh well.. Actually i dun think I'll get down to it today.. But i'll start soon... Maybe it is just seeing the people around you and the things they are doing are affecting you... LiFe! It is all about competition.. Sad but true.. But i'm so glad for this break.. at least I have time for myself instead of just for projects...

had a good time yodelling my lungs out yesterday... Singing is thereupatic! I miss singing... Wish i could harmonise though...