Ok.. besides random one-liner posts whining, i haven't really been blogging. Call it lack of time, blogstipation or what not... it's just that I feel this sem spinning far out within my control. It's hard to explain why.

Been staying in school to clear work. Looking for articles, writing up my study, doing random stuff... Work is piling up. Thesis, projects, papers, presentations, proposal report. All due within the next 2 to 3 weeks. It is daunting. amd I'm getting rather worried.

I will press on... Clear things one at a time, do damage control to make up for my absymal midterm grades.

Came across this poem. Very poignant. Kind of describes how I feel sometimes.
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Lost Again (http://j181.deviantart.com/art/Lost-again-62866363)

I am
back to where I started
I am
so far from myself
and I am
so lost again

I don't want to see
everything I've lost in me
and I need sometime to sort myself out again
Everything was so simple back then
And you were the only one
Only you understood my spontaneous outbursts of randomness
You were the anchors to my everything
And now I can't seem to find myself
and every time I try,
I wind up lost in the end
I'm back to picking up the pieces of my broken life
I couldn't imagine me without you
I had dreams of you being my wife
I'm only a shadow of my former self.

I am
back to where I started
I am
so far from myself
and I am
so lost again.