I managed to win Hearts without conceding a single point! Hah!

ok... enough of frivolous games.. After sleeping for like 14 hours (Try 9pm to 11 am) last night, it's time to attack the ever growing pile of journal articles... and essays waiting to be written...

You know things are heating up in school when:

1) You can't book a GSR for the next day's meeting
2) It is sooooo hard to arrange a meeting
3) Meetings are arranged for Sat evenings
4) You can't book a GSR on Saturday
5) There are people doing filming and stuff in school on Sunday
6) My pile of reading just gets thicker and thicker. (It's 6 psych journal articles and counting...)
7) You see groups setting up booths for fund-raising for their ltb projects
8) You had your first mid-terms exam in week 6...
9) Project groups are starting to call for meetings

As you can see, school work is piling up... project groups are meeting up... busy busy busy.. still have to squeeze in driving. (I MUST PASS!).

On a side side note... went to Eskibar last weekend to literally chill. It was blardy brrrr... cold... While the NUS and NTU ppl are having their one week break this week - enjoying their anime, korean drama and what not, I've been mugging in school for a mid term, had a long meeting to trash out ideas and well, found enough time to recuperate some beauty sleep.

I'm freaking out for social cognition.. cause I'm starting not to understand the articles I'm reading. bah! Need to find my highlighters and start colouring my article... and ooo... reports to rush. It's starting!!!

and I've been trying to beat my sis' scores on minesweeper and trying to win Hearts with zero points. The stupid things I do when work piles up...

I walked into a 830 am class at 9 am last Friday! Bah.. I totally didn't hear my alarm go off at all... and I jumped out of bed at 8.40... Luckily my dad was home to give me a ride down to school, thus incurring i-dunno-how-much worth of ERP. Surcharges i nthe morning is damn ex espeicially when your school is in town. Luckily I didn't take a cab. (or maybe I couldn't even find one if I wanted to since it was PEAK period - think of the $2 morning surcharge plus i dunno... 2 plus 3 for ERP. It has to be as ex as my cab ride!)

Anyway, had a packed weekend... Let's start off with Fri... or maybe Thurs... or maybe Wed... Bleahz! My days all gel into one another so much that I can't seem to differentiate them. I feel as if I'm having like full days... Cause my classes are usually at 12, and then I'll stay in school till late.. like 9 plus 10. Wlecome to my life~!~

Sat.. had to wake up bright and early in the morning to go bowling with kids from Gracehaven - a Salvation army home on a Rotaract community service event. It was (for lack of a better word) - eye-opening. I didn't know how to react to the kids there. They look so young, yet they are there for a reason.

I see a future in those girls and really wanna help them, but I'm afraid to commit to the cause.
I want to spend more time with them, get to know them yet am afraid of building long-term and stronger bonds.

Am i cut out to 'counsel' them? Is that what I want for my future job? To help people move on in society? Then again, am I that '伟大'? It is something that one does not get paid a lot, not much recognition, but a job that will bring about much satisfaction?

What about job prestige? Salary and the likes? Do I have such a 'caring' persona or issit just a done on a whim, a spur of the moment thing because of what I saw on Sat?

Anyway, went for Be*Dazzled, the acapella concert at night. Cool! Really really makes me feel like performing again. and well, Juz B was there... with screaming teenage fans... :) made me feel like I'm in a SuperBand recording or sth... Going for concerts just makes me realise how much I miss performing on stage. Now, even if I want to, I'm also not sure what I can do, how I do it.

And this is what makes choosing a certain path in life so scary. It's an unknown risk cause different paths leads ot different outcomes. And this is what makes my decision to do on exchange even scarier. What doors does this exchange open up for me? and what have I given up for it?

ponder ponder... check back this blog in 10 years time and maybe you'll find the answer...

Discovered sth interesting... Was looking at the lyrics of 心雨 online from mtv123 and i nthe 3rd line of the chorus, it's "雷云盖明星更伤的牵挂 "

But when I checked the actual lyrics, it's "泪晕开明信片上的牵挂"

I changed my mind... 退后 is my fav song now.

And my tagboard is becoming a "Which Jay Chou song from his new album do you like?" discussion. But nice nice! No regrets buying the album... :)

Photobucket is down.. and so my picts dun appear as they should...

Doing my internship report... and meeting sstarting liao.. tatas...

OOoh... MSN is down...

After slacking for well.. 3 days plus, it's sch again! And well... I'm hooked onto Jay Chou's album. Haven't managed to lay my hands on it, but I'm so glad there is streaming!

Here's my fav song (so far)... Love the melody and chorus...

心雨

小小的绿叶芽
白色的竹篱笆
好想告诉我的她
这里像幅画

去年的圣诞卡
镜子里的复杂
画面开始没有她
我还在装傻 噢

说好为我泡花茶
学习白道茶
学生宿舍空荡荡的家
守着电话却等不到她

心里的雨倾盆的下
也沾不湿她的发
雷云盖明星更伤的牵挂
那伤心原来没有时差

心里的雨倾盆的下
却始终淋不到她
寒风经过院子里的稚芽
也冷却了我手中的鲜花

Basically, this post is just to say that I am alive and kicking... and I'm going to Switzerland!

I'm feeling miserable today.

I dunno why. I just feel positively miserable. Must be a mood swing. or not enough sleep.

Whatever... Need to get thru a (long) meeting, and loads of work waiting for me... sigh...

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Anyway, my dilemma is more or less solved. I'll just accept whatever that comes (most probably) and work my ass off this sem. And I'll just leave everything as it is. Plus my mum is willing to support me for an extra sem if I die die have to do it. So most of my probs are solved...

Why do I always end up having to think of so many things? Is there sth wrong with me or ewhat I want? Should I just heck it or sth?

My dreams, my future, or my sanity and exchange?

Meanwhile, school has been busy...

Tons of readings (and yes.. I' mreally doing my readings this sem), (almost) weekly assignments, and well.. meeting to plan for stuff...

There's Awards Night and acad stuff for Soci... but feel motivated to do them. Yeah!

I hate having to make decision that will affect my life! Too many of them sucks!

First week of school is great! Ok.. the not so great thing is I'm spending a BOMB on books! Bah! $40 for a Human Resource text, and I heard... 85 for another module. Cause there are 2 books. Anyone bought some APA manual and would like to sell me?

Classes are basically introductions, I don't have to stay in school for project meetings yet...

And i'm happy spending time with frens... Slacking in the library.

But a library is not exactly an ideal place to slack... If given a choice, I would slack at home. But...

Actually, I'm rotting in the library cause I got a briefing session at 7 and I have 4 hours to kill cause my class ended at 3. And I'm bored cause I got nth to do in the library! So i start disturbing ppl on msn...

I like Psych courses! you go into class and know almost the whole class in there! Whoo!

p.s.: I think I'm going ot break my own record.. I'm have blogged for 3 consecutive days!

You know school has started when...

You get tons of spam from the various CCAs advertising something or another
The concourse is packed with people
The empty Kopitiam is bursting with life and you can't find a seat
You go into a seminar room and see a prof in front of you
You have to wake up early to make it to 830 class
You see people queuing at Verts to sell their books

I'm listening to my music, typing away at my com... with another 5 hours to rot away. Lalala... can arrange photos and maybe blog.. and yeah.. do internship report...

Today... school starts.

I'm still undecided over whether I should concentrate on a double major or single-major-plus-track (some new stuff offered by SMU) degree. One will according to my parents and other people, give me more marketability on the job market and will be more beneficial. The other gives me a chance to take things slow and in my opinion will help me more in trying to pull up my GPA cause I won't have to do so many modules every semester.

What can an OBHR major do for me when I can also take on extra OBHR courses but without having to squeeze that many in to qualify for a double major. think think...

I'm being eaten alive by mosquitos in my own home. It's sad. Really. I woke up at 2 am last night with at least 8 red welts all over me. And like 3 on my fingers... Like 'itch itch itch.. scratch scractch scratch...'. But mozzies are quite smart creatures. They disappear after feasting on blood - cause I couldn't catch any last night.

I feel unprepared for school. Need to clear stuff on my laptop, the book-buying craze begins... and I got a million things to blog.. Ok.. maybe 3... The Genting trip and Yuanshan's bday and Sentosa! Woohoo!

And I think I'm too lazy to queue at Verts to sell my book.. so... wadever.. they can rot for one more sem in my cupboard.

Pens out, games aside.. it's time to start a muggery term!

Gillian still cannot drive! :( Well, on public roads that it. and before I start a lengthy post ranting on pompous testers who are pain in the you-know-where, well, I'm kinda over it. I will make it on my next try. and in true honesty, I'm in a little bit of a rush cause I'm suppose to meet some friends soon, but I'm still lounging at home. But I just thought I needed to get this off my chest.

I suddenly feel overwhelmed. It is the effect of taking on too many things on not delivering. I try to ignore the emails sent, but I can't do anything about the nagging guilt growing somewhere inside of me.

I took them on because I enjoyed them, but juggling so many things with internship was no joke I realised. That and my penchant for fun. after today, things will be back on track I promise. My composition (if you all will still want it) and the proposal will all be done these 2 days.

and yes, I realised I have 3 sets of photos sitting prettily on my desk. It will be uploaded soon too.

I'm back!

So many things happened in these 2 weeks. And I think I've been eating thru these 2 weeks. Let's see...

It was Angie's birthday on the 2nd... and we had a cake with 21 candles, a bottle of beer and 5 other drinks between us.

5th.. Meet up with Char, Da and Yeesh @ Marina Sq Cartel in the afternoon. I didn't know Cartel changed to table service (ie: they will take ur orders and serve you water and bread. Actually, I would much prefer cutting my own bread.. wadever...) Errr... we just sat there for hours and talked. Updates, complains, whinings, funny stuff.. wadever...

after that, it was rush to Yishun for Angie's bday party? gathering? Loads of food, yummy mango cake. Last minute writing of card with an interesting message. Hope you like the presents!

Eh... then Genting trip on 8th night. Was in school for the Singapore Guitar Quartet concert. It was good. :) The concert showcased pieces by Robert Luse who is a very good guitarist himself. I'm very glad to have met him while doing a course. A very grandfatherly-liked old man. :)

And because of the Fireworks frestival, there was this terrible jam along my school. Sigh man... I left school at 9 and had to be at Golden Mile by 945! Luckily my dad came to pick me from school. Rushed home, checked that everything was packed and then it was off to pick Siyi up from Little India and to Golden Mile...

Looked for our bus, got on and we began the trip to Genting! Woo hoo! My first time there I think. The last time I went, I was only 1.5 yrs old or sth. Can't exactly remember anything. Stopped at Customs, chop passport... then it was all the way up! There was quite a lot of room on the bus as it was a 26-seater. But can't beat the comforts of your own bed lar. Changed position every few hours... Reached Genting at 5 plus.. and it was food, themepark, more food from then on. Shall talk more with photos later...

Then Fri was my last day at work. Got a cushion and my colleagues treated me to lunch at this cafe-liked place near Bugis. Not too bad lar...

Today.. Yuanshan's birthday. We finally got our quan2 jia1 fu2 after many many many months... Good food, nice company.. what more can I ask for?

The week ahead looks pretty packed too...

Tmr... Rotaract installation. Will be in school the whole day.

Driving from Mon to Wed...

Thursday! PA interns outing!! Wahahhas.. can't wait to have a day of Sand, Sun @ Sentosa!

Let's talk about doping in sports.

Ok.. I don't exactly play sports, but I am quite an avid follower of sporting events from Olympics to World Cup and of various sports like Tennis, F1, soccer or whatever... and ya.. I caught bits and pieces of the Tour de France - the cycling thingee.

Floyd Landis, who won this year's Tour de France after a remarkable come back (he outcycled th rest by 8 minutes on an ardous mountain climb) has been revealed to have an unusually high level of testosterone in his urine sample after that particular stage. And now, he is labelled a cheat and stuff... It's like from hero to zero? What's the point of having all those accolades and congratulatory message written about you when you won the Tour when it is all revealed ot be a farce after that?

Yeah... his lawyers and publicist claim someone is out to set him up. Conspiracy theories flying here and there. Even if they've managed to clear him on this, there is always a shadow of a doubt there. and if someone wants to really sabotage you, then you must have screwed him damn badly for him to do sth so vindictive towards you. Later they just get a scapegoat to take the blame or sth.

The (only) other explanation: the lab who did the testing screwed up. Really no idea man.. waiting for the 2nd urine sample to be tested.

Another doping news.. Justin Gaitlin, the Olympics 100m sprint champion and current joint world record holder tested positive for some other drugs... Like... there goes his career... (maybe he did make enough money to retire comfortably.. but with a tarnished reputation?)

Doping is not uncommon in sports. In a bid to get fitter, stronger, better, many of them turn to drugs so that But what makes the atheletes think they can get away with it? I mean i still think they are damn stupid esp if they know the labs are definitely going to test for certain banned substance.

Ah well.. enough of my ramblings... this just needed some sort of air time. :)

I can't believe its over!

So much wonderful memories, glorious feelings. Seeing the realisation of sth that you had a hand in planning, coping with last mins screw ups, walking to the library at 3 am in the middle of the night to print stuff for camp the next day - and thanks to the guards who allowed us in to print our stuff.

First time doing programmes for such a large scale, saw, learnt, experienced a lot. It was quite a foreign task to me. Details, logistics, and most importantly, creative juices for coming up of games and other stuff. Juggling internship and planning... (tt's why internship is such a hindrance)

During the freshmen challenge, I literally burst with pride. At the fight we put up, at the spirit we showed. I felt so damn proud of them at tha point. It was emotionally overwhleming. Maybe I was running on adrenaline, but the feeling was shiok! :)

Glad that everything fell into place. though there will always be improvements. When it ended, I was overwhelmed once again. Not wanting to believe that everything you planned for has been executed well, everyone had a good time and that you don't have to bother about staggering bathing times or clues or games or wet weather like forever. :)


Quote of the day: "I learnt that sex sells... *cue cheers and laughs* but gay sex sells better" ~ Chiching at her closing speech.

2 more days to orientation... Details to finalise, packing of logs tomorrow...

and most importantly, churning out my clues for my activity. First time planning programme for a camp... Not to mention being in charge of programmes for a 2 day 1 night camp. Learnt a lot from more creative friends who have prior experience.

Meanwhile, I have been extended at my internship for another 2 weeks. The only problem is I don't think i did ask for an extension, nor was I given a choice whether to extend or not. That's a long story for another day. And I think I've whined enough of it to my friends already.

I'm hooked onto this CD I picked up over the weekend. It's by this Broadway singer by the name of Lee Lessack. It's actually a compilation of duets of him and different singers. Very beautiful songs. and I'm rather obsessed with one of those online game thingee called Gold Digger/Miner? Whatever...

And I cut my hair... It's short... and coloured it golden brown (according to the guy).

back to preparing for my game...

I've never felt so irritated in a while... Was told by my supervisor that I may not be able to leave until 13th Aug for this stupid internship. Cause they want all the interns to leave at the same time. But it is not my fault that my dept requested for an intern till 31st July only what. So now it is up to OCS to trash it out... OCS says I'm right lar... but...

The bad news is I just looked at the letter of offer that i signed. Somehow, the period was till 13th Aug. I have no idea why I didn't see that initially. Bah! How??? I have evil plans to hand in slip-shod work, give her a black face whenever I see her, pon a feedback session that is compulsory and stuff... or maybe I should just tell her I booked a holiday. Wahahahs.. talk about lying thru my teeth. But then again, I think I'm too nice to show my displeasure. So... stuck at work for another 2 weeks? I'll probably end up taking 5 days of leave .I DON'T CARE! I booked my driving lessons already. They cannot stop me! If not.. I'll just take MC or sth. YESh! I'm freaking pissed now!!! Not as if I feel particularly useful lor. I want cheap labour or what?

Ok.. before the booboo was discovered yesterday, I had a nice week. Went to Wanling's place for BBQ on Mon to celebrate her 21st! I like the watch! :)

Tues.. Dinner at Rice Table. Thank you Ade for the treat!!! Really miss going out with you all. It's like... multiple conversations, crappy stuff, funny stuff. I haven't felt so happy in weeks. hahaha...

Wed... I went out to do survey.. at Eunos.. which was full of cats. It got a bit freaky.

Thurs... I know I didn't go home.. but I can't remember what I did... Oh.. Dinner with Sharon. and sad to say.. I missed the Acapella Championship thingee at Esplanade. But congrats to Char and Da for coming in 1st! Woo! I'll see you all at Acafast! :) and let's meet up some time in Aug ya?

Fri... went home early. or rather, after work. Bought a whiteboard. Which is sitting/standing mightily in front of me now.

Today.. still slacking. Things to plan and type up. Application for exchang eyet to be done... Orientation stuff to settle. Next week will be a super packed week. Carribbean one day... and then preparation for Fri-Sat's camp. And then.. I really hope I get to leave on 31st! Sob sob...

I've never felt so irritated in a while... Was told by my supervisor that I may not be able to leave until 13th Aug for this stupid internship. Cause they want all the interns to leave at the same time. But it is not my fault that my dept requested for an intern till 31st July only what. So now it is up to OCS to trash it out... OCS says I'm right lar... but...

The bad news is I just looked at the letter of offer that i signed. Somehow, the period was till 13th Aug. I have no idea why I didn't see that initially. Bah! How??? I have evil plans to hand in slip-shod work, give her a black face whenever I see her, pon a feedback session that is compulsory and stuff... or maybe I should just tell her I booked a holiday. Wahahahs.. talk about lying thru my teeth. But then again, I think I'm too nice to show my displeasure. So... stuck at work for another 2 weeks? I'll probably end up taking 5 days of leave .I DON'T CARE! I booked my driving lessons already. They cannot stop me! If not.. I'll just take MC or sth. YESh! I'm freaking pissed now!!! Not as if I feel particularly useful lor. I want cheap labour or what?

Ok.. before the booboo was discovered yesterday, I had a nice week. Went to Wanling's place for BBQ on Mon to celebrate her 21st! I like the watch! :)

Tues.. Dinner at Rice Table. Thank you Ade for the treat!!! Really miss going out with you all. It's like... multiple conversations, crappy stuff, funny stuff. I haven't felt so happy in weeks. hahaha...

Wed... I went out to do survey.. at Eunos.. which was full of cats. It got a bit freaky.

Thurs... I know I didn't go home.. but I can't remember what I did... Oh.. Dinner with Sharon. and sad to say.. I missed the Acapella Championship thingee at Esplanade. But congrats to Char and Da for coming in 1st! Woo! I'll see you all at Acafast! :) and let's meet up some time in Aug ya?

Fri... went home early. or rather, after work. Bought a whiteboard. Which is sitting/standing mightily in front of me now.

Today.. still slacking. Things to plan and type up. Application for exchang eyet to be done... Orientation stuff to settle. Next week will be a super packed week. Carribbean one day... and then preparation for Fri-Sat's camp. And then.. I really hope I get to leave on 31st! Sob sob...

Life is like Jigsaw Puzzle. Think of it as an immense puzzle, or a few different puzzles...

People and things/events come in different shape and sizes. We all try to fit into each other, fit events into our schedules like how the pieces fit into one another.

Why so philosophical? I dunno... but I guess my body is trying to tell me sth when I shut down for 12 hours stright. And I didn't even finish the world cup match. I need a breather. I feel quite choked up with my 'to-do' list.

1. Complete composition
2. Check up on Exchange! *impt impt* or else cannot go
3. Complete this stupid piece of work that my supervisor has been hounding me for eons (yeah.. i'm working on my day off!)
4. Do up logistics list for dry run on Sat
5. Dry run for Orientation on Sat and I havden't planned my game yet!
6. Recce for the above-mentioned game on Thursday!
7. Draft Agreement for PostSecret (oopsie.. will update soon!)

Damn you England...
Stupid Rooney who got himself sent off... and the whole load of you who can't score a goal and just keep blasting the ball and missing penalties!

Nerve wrecking quarter finals between England and Portugal... Portugal won.

and Portugal... I don't like you too!