Ok.. this is long overdue...

THANKS EVERYONE!

Thanks to all of you who made my 21st such a memorable one. The 2 weekends of revelry, fun...

SMU peeps

St Nicks gals...

Family...

To gassy peeps, thanks for the surprise! and the 'repeat' thingee was super funny.

To a dear friend... SIYI!!!
Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks... Thanks...

so packed.. so packed...

These 2 weeks have gone by in a flurry. Besides internship... where the work is starting to pick up.

Then on top of that there are tons of things to be done.

There's preparation for the presentation for the Singapore Youth Media Conference on Sat... Classes to attend on Tues nights - which reminds me to start writing my music.

Hmmm.. meeting for the various stuff I'm involved in..
Handbook, Social Science Orientation, Comm service stuff...

There's social gatherings... meeting a friend for dinner on Mon, Da Vinci Code with Fran on Wed. Wathcing Over the Hedge with my sister someday... and I want to watch XMen 3 too!

3 hours into my 21st year of existence...

Looking back, what have I done, where have I been?

Travelled from Novena to Clementi for 2 years to complete my Primary Education at NHPS. Clumsy me broke my arm in Primary 4, and fractured my foot the year after that.

Went to St Nicks mainly because of MEP... MEP was a bad decision (I wonder what possessed me), but never regretted going there because of all you wonderful people out there. I remember the Cruise in 2004...

Establishment of REHK... and the 2 revered Royalties. I remember silent conversations, passing messages and throwing them across the room during Father Balhatchet's class. Hurhurhur...

Tuition @ Angie's with Bubble Tea and Ms Tay.

1 Truth, 2 Truth, 3 Purity, 4 Purity. Cai-pok, Flaming red hair TG...

Sec school life seems like a blur now - it seems to revolve round choir... Performances, practices, rehearsals and 'tests'. 'Clip-clopping' across the VCH stage. The classic Monica Toh followed by Susanna Koh.

It was where I developed an interest in choir, then a passion for singing which brought me to the next phase of my life - VJC

Failed my first Exam - Physics. Got my first 'F' for Econs common test in Yr 2 Common Test 1! (I don't think I will ever forget that)

Mulling over tons of Maths problems and trying to grasp econs concepts.
Ponning lecture to go lib, sleeping in practically all my lectures in year 1.

A year one Physics tutor which was a big joke, the replacement was not much better wither.
Physics Tuition with Gary Chan. Wahahahs...

Fun and slack class, which unfortunately do not really keep in touch.

But more importantly, I remember choir - the feel of singing with a choir that strives together, produces good sound. It started with Carolling 2001. The toil and sweat. Practices at least twice a week, lying on the floor of the hall in Siglap South CC. Doing weird stuff and the intensive drilling of competition songs. (try 'Ni-hil-sub, So-lei No-Vum)

There was Prague, my first foray into Europe and first experience of winter.
Preparations for SYF... 'dung da-ah-ang-ing' for months trying to sound like gamaelan. Putting up of SOV performances - Horrotorio and the funny choreo the year after.

Performance at Esplanade. :) :) :) - It was just a nice feeling to know you had been there.

Pioneer batch of SMU Social Science students. Fun with Social Science Society exco! Nice and friendly Profs. Interesting modules. First time in a class of 16 people. Daunting presentations - I remember Comms 101 - individual presentation.
But more importantly, the experience I pick up while taking part in or organising activities.

Wonderful G1 friends, thanks for being part of my life since 2 years ago! The infamous 'Zhong Ji Mi Ma', G1 gathering, crapping sessions, apples discussion...

The Impossible Trinity, we rock! :)

To all those who are a part of my life, a sincere 'Thank You; from the bottom of my heart together with a great, big hug. May the friendships we forge withstand the test of time.

Oh oh oh.. not to forget.. Karaoke was DISCOVERED!!! Wahahahas.. the endless hours of fun we had singing, screaming and harmonising (or trying to anyway)!

Most importantly, I won't be who I am today if not for my family. To por-por, Mummy, Daddy, Gin and Jonah, I love you all very much! Thanks for being there to listen to me, to cheer me up when I'm down, to amuse me with your antics.

Phew.. I just felt as if I made an Oscar acceptance speech! :) May this post be something to mull over and serve to jolt my memory when I read my archives in future.

Hmmm... sang this at KTV last night...

枫 by Jay Chou...



and here is the continuation...

彩虹天堂 by 劉耕宏



These 2 mtvs tell a story... :)

Gillian is a happy girl!

First of all, a big thank you for all of you who came yesterday! Thanks for the presents!

TO Fran, Meiju, Wanling, Baoqin, Cynthia.. I really like the jacket! Hahaha.. I'll wear it to school often enough so you all will see it! Yes Fran.. you and Meiju have good taste! :)

To Gan Ann, Renjie, Duan, Chiching... I'm still not over the book! It's so nice!!!

To Claire... what can I say. The cake was marvelous... and I think you just converted me into a sour cream and onion dips person! Thanks for all your help!

TO Sharon... Thanks for your gift! I'll try and remain inspired.

Special mention to Baoqin who came over on Friday to help me with this!

It's so princess-y! Haha... and one night's work for hanging 26 balloons and 2 streamers. Not bad huh? We should practice more and them go into events management.

Ya.. and thanks to my brother who helped me collect the sushi... and my parents, sis and auntie who helped to make it food with all the food and stuffies!

And all who came... I hope you all enjoyed yourselves and the food and the fondue!

SMU peeps... and..

St Nicks frens! :)

Oh.. oh.. oh.. I must post this!

The 2 SS guys at my mercy!!! Wahahahs! :)

Had a great time playing the infamous 'polar bear'... and Uno Attack!!!

After that was a ktv session @ partyworld!

Serenading, yodelling, butchering of songs, dueting, harmonising.. and who can forget! (Come on everyone! 1... 2... 3...) "霍霍霍霍霍霍霍霍", "我我我我我我我我"

SO high!!!

Good food! GREAT COMPANY! Fun people, Karaoke! What else can I ask for?

I got my laptop back!!! Woohoo!!!

Hahaha... slowly trying to build it up to what it was initially. Putting in peripheral programmes I used... I got a new hard disk cause the old one apparently spoilt. Well.. maybe it will last longer now...

Was quite unused to typing on a desktop for a week... Ahh.. the lovely keys of my laptop goes a-tapping!

Lost all my emoticons... so next time you all see me on msn... just use ur emoticons! hahaha... and the good thing is I still have the more important stuff like photos, works, so I'll live. The importance of backing up. :)

A bit incoherent now.. still trying to remember what else I need to put in. Starting on a blank slate, now I shall slowly build it up again... Ooh... I got LOTR screensaver. A bit passe... but Legolas and Aragon is still cute!

Oooh... super long since I updated.

Busy interning at PA... 4 days of work... and I wonder how I can hang in there for another 2 months and 3 weeks... It's not that bad. Just need to get into the working mode. Then now gotta organise my life around work. Which.. i guess means a lot of dinners out. :)

My laptop is officially dead. Have to get my hard disk replaced... A lot of upcoming commitments and events. Hahaha...

Ok.. Came across this meme thingee from AKK's blog and decided to try it...

Basically, the instructions are as such:

Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question. NO CHEATING.

here are my answers:

How does the world see me?
今夜你会不会来 - Wei Lan (This HK Singer.. but it is like a remix version of the Leon Lai's one)

Hmmm... so does the world think that I usually don't go where I am supposed to? Doubting whether I will appear? Maybe not on time lar... but I seldom pang seh people one lor...


Will I have a happy life?
Every Tomorrow - Eason Chan

This is an english translation of a Cantonese song. Dunno the real title... So I will only have a happy life every tomorrow?

What do my friends really think of me?
True - Ryan Cabrera

Awww... that's so sweeet!


Do people secretly lust after me?
Breathe Again - Toni Braxton

Errr... how am I supposed to decipher this? Like no, no one lusts after me, thus I must breathe again? Or breathe to suck in my fats?

How can I make myself happy?
留多一分钟 - Hacken Lee

Well, a translation of this title would be either 'Stay Longer for a Minute More' or 'Give One More Minute'. So I should give myself more time?

What should I do with my life?
Too Serious Too Soon - Gareth Gates

Ok... I'm too serious about my life too soon? So when should I start planning for my life and a career? I'm already 21!

Will I ever have children?
Forever - Backstreet Boys

I will forever have children? Why couldn't the question be 'Will I ever Have money'? I like that answer...

What is some good advice for me?
Mr Beasley - Corrinne May

Ok.. I dunno how to decipher this. The lyrics go like: 'Just be yourself, Mr Beasley, It's your soul that makes me fall in love with you'. Hmmm... *deep in thought*

How will I be remembered?
Danny Boy - Various Celtic singers

I'm a girl.. not a boy! Besides, my name is not Danny.

What is my signature dancing song?
Someday, Someway - S Club 7

Ok... I dun really dance. Maybe not dancing song.. more of signature phrase?


What do I think my current theme song is?
My Perogative - Britney Spears

What can I say?


What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Your Song - Moulin Rouge

No comments...

What song will play at my funeral?
With All Your Heart - Plus 1

Ok lar...

What type of men/women do I like?
Something about You

Obviously, when I like someone, there has to be something about them I like before I like them right? But Something About You is not really a type... nvm...

What is my day going to be like?
园游会 - Jay Chou

Errrm... the translation is... I dunno. Tried Babelfish and they gave me 'Garden You Hui'. They might as well have said ' Garden Swim Will'. Wahahahas.. but I think it is sth like a fair? Is it not? So does that mean I'm gonna have fun?

I think... I can finally, sort of let my grades go. I've not been as reactive to bad grades and failure as I would have been 1 sem ago. Maybe I'm starting not to get so uptight over grades or academic stuff. Looking @ the big picture, hope I can do things I like, balance my life out.

Got my Econs back.. not good... I believe in the Law of Diminishing Returns... Somehow, you'll get less over a prolonged period of time. My mum thinks it is a natural phenomenon for people to do well in their first year in uni and deprove. For me, I think it is a regression and I'm finally finding my true standard. got a little lucky in my first year... Now.. to maintain...

I got my PA internship! It's till 31st July... So gals.. we'll have to plan a weekend trip... Dun think they will take too kindly to an intern taking a week off to go jetting off to HK! And with that... I can plan for my exchange! Wahahahas... getting an internship this summer is part of a bigger plan for me to go on exchange in Year 3. I just hope nothing weird crops up that will spoil my plans again.

I seem to have signed up for quite a number of summer activities - various school projects, comm service... Let's hope I have the energy and drive to carry through with them.

I feel so lucky and blessed to have nice family and friends! :)

Thanks for cheering me up, listening to me whine, drawing pics to perk me up, sharing nice brownie and cheesecake. Thanks for being there!

I went for my driving test today. It was well... quite bad.

it actually started out ok. Like I went for my warm up drive which was very smooth. I didn't even feel nervous when I was going down to the car with my testor. Then it had to happen... It started drizzling the moment I got into the car (or there about). Then when I was turning out, I checked and there was not car... then this car popped up and the testor braked a bit for me.

** warning bells went off in my head... was trying to kepe myself from muttering 'shit!'**

It started pouring.. like cats and dogs and I couldn't see a thing in front of me. Is that luck or what? And I struck a curb when turning out from doing directional change. 10 points down the drain...

and it continued pouring... and during the test route, committed some stupid mistakes. The roads were clear for me to do lane changing (one of my weaker subjects) but the drive sucked! And I hate driving in torrential rain and I didn't have much practice driving in the rain somemore cause whenever I go for lesson, it was bright and sunny.

Wahlaoz.. fate or what?

the best part comes now: The freaking rain stopped after I parked the car. It was all bright and sunny when I walked out of the driving school, 154 bucks poorer. Seems like a crule trick was played on me.

Well, I'm kinda over it.. but I just feel so sian.. cause it's just disappointment. I wasn't 100% sure I would pass, but I was hoping I could avoid stupid, costly mistakes like striking curb. Unfortunately, it din work out that way... The next test is in July! That's a long long wait! Now let's hope I get a job/internship or whatever... :)

a day spent curling up in bed with books... mapling...

Another day spent out with friends and more friends. :)

Tomorrow gonna be spent driving and shopping...

I feel so blissful... nothing much to worry about...

Met an interesting cab driver.. who was talking about gays openly touching him in the cab and of a drunk women who forgot where her boyfriend stayed and made a fuss in his car. Talked freely about how he enjoys sex and errrm... how some people like to do it 'from behind'. I felt kinda unnerved, undomfortable and I was rather glad when I reached my destination...

a BBq that took forever to start the fire.. then my first time at Penny Black... well, it's this pub thingee at Raffles Place, Boat Quay area... had fun talking.. and crapping. Wish I could have stayed longer for the bbq though...

I went swimming this afternoon and I tanned myself and ended up with a rubber band line on my wrist where I hung the locker key. so smart right? And I think alcohol dun go very well with a swim. My muscles feel weird... and I dun think it is the effect of a swim only.

I have a craving for Magnum ice cream... dun ask me why.. Cravings are unexplainable...

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a multi dimensional wonderland, with many layers.You're the type that always has multiple streams of though going.And you can keep these thoughts going at any time.You're very likely to be engaged in deep thought - and deep conversation.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

After hours of cramming,
5 x(times) last minute panicking,
days spent studying in freezers...
loads of food therapy,
tons of papers being used,
blisters from writing too hard and
pen with only hald the ink left,

I have finished my exams.. and so with the term that goes along with it. A gruelling term which made me think twice about how I plan my timetable in future, but a fun term nonetheless.

Abpsych was well.. weird... cause it made me believe I was suffering from some of those symptoms .

IO was interesting... both the subject mattter and the presence of an intelligent prof who was friendlier and nicer. Small class of 16 which made it nice (to some extent).

T&A was a mess... with its cheem readings of the works Marxism, Durkheim and Weber... try reading some abstract ideas written in flowery language and you'll get what I mean. I think it helps in like interest reading, but not to mug for exams. But another nice prof...

MPW was fun! Watching movie during class, loads of class activities. Really learning from experience... Didn't end on that high a note iwth a rather killer exam imo cause i couldn't really do some of it. Hahaha...

International Econs... a love hate relationship with it... I quite enjoy the subject matter and doing project with wonderful people! Yet... killer exams and I just dunno how to study the subject, It was nice to read about it though...

Finishing Touch... learning how to eat properly and dressing well for 830 class was quite a challenge. Learnt some stuff, disagreed with others.. had a forgettable interview... and well.. it was too short to really leave an impact on me.

Ok.. so this kinda summed up my term... 2 years over in a blink of an eye... Plans for summer, curl up in bed with good books, hopefully get my internship, earn some cash... Go on a trip... make myself useful somewhere, somehow?

Good luck to all those who have yet to take their exams...

As much as I dun mind my econs class... studying for the econs exam is a big pain in the ass!

Ya.. it's my last paper.. I think I kinda lost steam... I think I'm so not gonna sleep tonight...

Why Man U draw with Sunderland? :(

Can't even overcome a team that is relegated! No more hope of a title... unless Chelsea screws up big time which I doubt. Having their lead cut was already like a wake-up call to them.

Soccer aside. MPW paper in like... 5 hours time. I feel unprepared. Sigh...

Great... I got myself started on some war/strategy game called Caesar 3. I still have 2 papers.. How smart can I get?

The answer is quite.. cause the game is so hard, I got a bit sick of it (cause I can't pass the blardy stage) and then will now start studying.

Hmm.. just thought I would blog this down...

Has your brain literally felt 'full'? I felt like I was cramming stuff down my brain when I was studying for the last 3 papers the last couple of days. and it just felt saturated. Then after IO psych, i felt as if I emptied my brains and crammed in a whole load of Durkheim suicide and research design thingee... I just find the 'literal' feeling very fascinating. I wonder if the brain is like a one-litre water bottle. Like u fill it to the brim or sth...

Hmmm... the 'thrill' or having 3 papers in 2 days...

Looking back, I think it is not that bad. Yeah.. post decision dissonance. Not really decision. Maybe post-event dissonance if there is any theory like that. You feel good after you do something.

People have asked me if I am crazy, doing so many modules in one sem and squeeezing my exams. I dunno... cause it's like... if you ask me to choose which modules ot give up, I can't really pin point anyone. I don't regret taking any of them because of the friends in there, project group, nice profs and a lot of other reasons. So... yeah.. just give up FT hor. Unfortunately, it was preassigned. So not much of a choice.

So why not take a slack term of 4 modules? I dunno.. cause it is really quite slack? Wahahhaa... ok.. I'm really not thinking very well liao...

How will I do? I dunno... Can't deny that it is at the back of my mind. But when you get so tired of everything, think so much also no use lor. Just take things as they come ba. I'm in a rather stoned mode now. Effect of relying on stimulants like coffee and ginseng to get me through these few days. Yeah... if I had started earlier, maybe things will not be so bad. Unfortunately, a bit too late lar...

2 more papers... and it is the end of my 2nd year. That's damn fast lor...

I'm going cranky and mad. I really cannot fathom how on earth I could have left so many freaking things to the last minute. BleahZ... Despite knowing the fact that I have 5 papers, and knowing that I have 2 reports due on the first day of exams.

Am suffering the consequences of my procrastination. Been typing out abpsych notes, finishing my End of Course evaluation for FT and putting together bits and pieces of my T&A report. Sheesh! I have yet to comprehend Durkheim and his Suicide Theory. Bah!

a few mor ehours to the end of the day. Please give me the stregth to carry on and hope I won't screw up to badly in the next 2 days. Even if I do, I pray that my last 2 papers will be able to save my grades.